InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Dirty Laundry ❯ Alone ( Chapter 2 )

Dirty Laundry

 

Summary: Characters Ideas on random things. Collection of one-shots. Some in song-fic form.

 

Dis: I don't own the songs or characters.

 

Ch2: Alone

 

The icy eyed prince of the brown wolves sighed as he leaned back against a rock. He was thinking. Something he'd been doing a lot lately. And all of it was because of one cursed red-head.

 

Something inside of him wanted to find her. To talk to her and to be with her. A larger part resented him for thinking that. “One kiss with her wouldn't be the worst.” He muttered. “No Kagome's your woman!” he replied to himself thankful no one else was around.

 

One more kiss could be the best thing
butone more lie could be the worst

`I've been thinking like this a lot lately.' He thought to himself. `And none of it makes sense. Both of them are too good for me.'

 

And all these thoughts are never resting
andyou're not something I deserve

He sighed again and closed his eyes. He could see a perfectly clear picture of the fiery tempered Ayame. All the thoughts of Kagome just sort of fell away. “Why does all this happen to me?!” he growled aloud.

In my head there's only you now
thisworld falls on me

Kagome's smiling face crossed his mind. Why couldn't he make up his mind?! He imagined making up his mind so many times. He thought out what would happen for each decision. But the only real thing was the decision that he couldn't decide.

 

In this world there's real and make believe
andthis seems real to me

`Ayame you can't love me. You don't even know me. We've had brief meeting but not long chats. You don't know me still in the end.' A nagging voice in his head replied `Ah but Kagome doesn't know you either.'

You love me but you don'tknow who I am

A sound in the distance met his ears. He slowly stood up to see the fiery girl near the river before him. She was crying. Half of him just wanted to run back to his tribe and forget that he ever even saw her, but half wanted to know what was wrong and make sure no one ever hurt her again.

 

I'm tornbetween this life I lead and where I stand

`She doesn't know you Koga.' He told himself sternly. The more logical part of him argued that she was still a fellow wolf and she looked like she needed help.

 

And you love me but you don'tknow who I am

“I hate him. I wish I never met that stupid wolf.” Ayame shouted as she smacked the water with her hand causing it to splash up at her.

 

He could smell the saltiness that was her tears. “Then forget me.” He whispered to himself making to turn away and leave.

 

So let me go
letme go

He walked down the path towards his tribe. “I'll defeat Naraku. That's all that's important is getting my revenge.” He said folding his arms over his chest. “I never needed her or any woman!”

I dream ahead to what I hope for
andI turn my back on loving you

His heart was tugging at him to turn around and run back to her. “No Koga. You'll defeat Naraku and get your revenge. None of this is even important till you get your revenge.” He told himself firmly as he continued to walk.

 

How can this love be a good thing
whenI know what I'm goin through?

He pictured the sobbing girl on the bank once again. This time he dropped down to sit. He placed his chin in his hands and stared in front of him. “Why can't I just get you out of my head?” he asked himself sighing once more.

In my head there's only you now
thisworld falls on me

“All the other things we're just made up ideas. Now when it's real I turn my back. When she needs actually help, I run away.” He said sounding thoroughly disgusted with himself.

 

In this world there's real and make believe
andthis seems real to me

Koga stood up and took a deep breath. He made to step forward but instantly changed his mind. He ran back towards the river as fast as he could. `Dammit Ayame this better ne worth it.' He thought bitterly.

And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things insideI know
I know...

He skidded to a halt at the bank. No red head. No wolf. No tears. Just an Iris lay on the edge of the river. The same one she always wore. He reached down unsteadily and picked up the flower. “Ayame.” He whispered.

 

When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows

Koga growled and slammed his fist against a tree. “Dammit girl you love me! Why the hell do you love me! You don't even know me! You can't!” he was frustrated beyond belief. He sank down to the ground furiously trying to calm himself down.

 

He took the Iris that was still in his hands and breathed in the aroma. It smelled more like Ayame than it did the flower. That was odd. It should smell like the flower not her.

 

A cough caused him to open his eyes. He instantly sprang to his feet. There was Ayame almost exactly as he remembered. Her hair once in two ponytails hung loosely down past her shoulders.

 

Her bright green eyes now sad and tearstained. “That's mine.” She said softly pointing towards the flower. Koga blinked for a moment before extending his hand. She shook her head. “It's fine.” She told him turning away.

Andyoulove me but you don't
you love me but you don't
you love me but you don'tknow who I am
and you love me but you don't
you love me but you don't

With in moments she was out of view. Koga brought the flower up to his eyes. “Maybe you could learn.” He whispered softly.

 

Youlove me but you don'tknow me

 

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One of my better songfics if I do say so myself! Review if you please!