InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Do What You Have to Do ❯ Chapter 8: You do what you have to do… ( Chapter 8 )

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Title: Do What You Have To Do
Author: DeityOfDeath
Archive: Yes please...
Pairings: Inu Yasha/Sesshomaru mentions of Inu Yasha/Kagome and Inu Yasha/ Kikyo
Category: Drama, romance, slash, Mpreg, yaoi
rating: NC-17/R
Spoilers: Most likely.
Warnings: Yaoi, Lemon, Non-con, Mpreg, Incest, SPOILERS!
Disclaimers: I never have nor will I ever own Inu Yasha or its chars. They are property of Rumiko Takashi and major companies.

Note from Author: Thank You for reading and supporting fan fiction! Enjoy and please review!

The chapter titles are lyrics from the song "Do What You Have to Do" by Sarah McLachlan

Chapter 8: You do what you have to do…

A few days had gone by and most of the occupants in the castle ignored my room and my presence for the most part, which somewhat amused me. I imagined with all the gossip and seeing their lord so at a loss was something new to them and to ignore the cause would be like ignoring an elephant in a pottery shop. But I let them; I kept quiet and observed everyone and everything. I watched Sesshomaru from a distance and how he interacted with our son and his two other young wards Rin and Kohaku, although Rin and Kohaku were now far from young.

Rin had become quite the beautiful young woman, all hips and breasts; at the age of 13, which she kept well and covered thanks to her adopted sire that seemed to disappear from time to time during the week, returning with gifts of fine clothes, trinkets, food and as of late toys for his son.

Rin dressed finely and seemed to always be busy “training” and from what I saw it was as an ambassador of sorts between youkai and humans. Her presence made Sesshomaru look like less of a monster and so the humans flocked to his territory and with them came commerce and prosperity for his lands. It was nice, and peaceful which made me wonder about Kaede's village, could such a network be set up between all humans and youkai?

Kohaku spent his time training in another manner; he always worked on kata's and hand to hand combat, occasionally training with various weapons. He was like a guard for Rin and the two often seemed a lot closer than they let on. It seemed to look almost one sided from both points of view and I wondered if the two saw the glances the other gave. I don't know how old he was when he was tore from his sister but he was now a man. His body had grown in height and width, boyish shoulders, narrow and bony were now wide and muscular and his scrawny body covered in muscles. It made me wonder what my own son would look like when he grew into his own body at that age.

I imagine he'd be similar to his sire, wiry and muscular in all the right places. Strength and grace joined perfectly.

It was thoughts like those that kept me in the shadows. I was afraid of who I was becoming of what I thought deep inside; if they were my thoughts. It was a constant game of second guessing what thought was mine or my urges brought on by mating marks.

A knock on the door of my quarters brought my out of my thoughts.

“Enter,” I called looking towards the entrance as the door creaked open.

“Lord Inu Yasha, Lord Sesshomaru bid me bring this to you, he asks that you wear it to dinner tonight.”

I watched her leave the package on my dresser and quickly excuse her self with a bow. I stared at the paper wrapped package a while before walking over and opening it.

I stared down at the brightly colored cloth beneath in curiosity and surprise, A set of new robes, soft as chicks down and as smooth as silk. I then realized it felt somewhat similar to my current fire rat robe. A fire rat Kimono? I stared at it and decided that it wouldn't hurt to try it on. I slid off my clothes leaving only my fundoshi on as I slid on layer after layer until I stood in layer upon layer of colorful cloth, striking shades of the darkest black with the pales of white cherry blossoms bleeding past the palest pinks and into the deepest of crimsons. The Obi was a contrasting gold with white cranes tied with a red and white obijime. I saw that he had even been kind enough to give me tabi socks and geta.

Once I was fully dressed I walked over to my wall and found a full length of reflective glass and found it not nearly as good the mirrors in Kagome's time but it did its purpose. I looked like a doll with dog ears; ears which now stood out incredibly without my long locks to surround them. At least my hair was somewhat styled now thanks to Rin who had been kind enough to layer the back somewhat and trim up the sides.

I turned here and there, looking as I did so and found myself confused by the almost effeminate creature staring back at me. I shrugged it off and was debating about stripping it all off when the door opened and a happy voice called out for me.

“ChiChiue!”

I turned and glanced down at my son who was dressed in a very nice deep blue hakama set.

“Chichiue, you look pretty! Does that mean you'll come have dinner with us?”

I tried not to sigh out loud as I debated inwardly. I shrugged and gave him a small smile; “Sure, let's go eat.”

“Yay! Rin! Rin! Chichiue said he's coming to eat with us!”

Ryusei grabbed my hand from underneath the long kimono sleeves and led me into the hallway where Rin stood, slightly surprised; I couldn't tell whether it was because I had said yes or because I was dressed like a doll or perhaps it was both.

She nodded and gave a small smile; “It'll be nice to have you join us, Inu Yasha.”

“I suppose moping will only get me so far so let's see how I fit in amongst these castle walls.”

She glanced up at me and smiled, reaching out to take both of my hands in hers.

“You need not worry so much, your place is wherever and whatever you would like it to be,” and as she said it she hesitated at the end like she were thinking of adding more but thought better of it.

“Come, we'll eat and talk and we'll worry about the rest later. There is nothing but time and you need only let it pass if you so wish.”

I walked through the halls; Ryusei's hand in mine as we did so, errant servants stopping and starring, whispering at our backs as we passed. We came to stone stairs that we walked down, winding around until we reached a large hallway. Rin lead the way as we came to a large open doorway and went through it and came into a large room with quite a few large tables, one covered with a white cloth, multiple lit candle sticks and lanterns hanging on the walls and silver platters covering the tables some uncovered revealing an array of food.

I was lead towards the opposite end of where we stood, and there I saw Sesshomaru sitting at the head of the table watching as I approached. His eyes seemed to hold calm calculation and something akin to nervousness, if such a word applied to him.

He stood and walked around pulling out a chair beside him, motioning as he did so. I thought better of it and instead lead Ryusei into that seat and pulled out the one beside him, seating myself and scooting myself in, if he had been irritated by that he didn't show it. As servants set plates in front of us Sesshomaru cleared his throat.

“I am glad that you wore my gift.”

How should I answer? So I said what popped into my head; “It makes me look…effeminate, but it is comfortable.”

To that I saw him give startled look and then a very small quirk at the corners of his mouth that most wouldn't call a smile but I knew better.

I picked up a small plate and placed a piece of well cooked fish on it and began to eat, I was finished and reaching for some rice when he asked, “Is it good? I asked the cooks to prepare a diet appropriate for one carrying.”

I nodded and swallowed a bite of rice, “It's good, for now I have no discrepancies when it comes to food. Give it another week or so and we'll discover what I can and can't keep down.”

He gave me a confused look and I took another bite and swallowed before answering, “Not everything is appealing when pregnancy is concerned. I couldn't stand anything with a strong aroma when I was pregnant with Ryusei; garlic, onions, certain pickles and even seaweed sent me running to the nearest bush. Kaede had said that each pregnancy was different….”

After hearing her name I felt my eyes grow hot and I raised my kimono clad arm and wiped away a stray tear.

“Stupid hormones,” I muttered knowing it was in vain that they all knew that Kaede had passed on.

“Were you able to sense the gender in the womb?”

I looked up at Rin who sat across the table beside Kohaku.

I thought about it and shook my head no, “I just referred to him as pup when I carried him.”

“Can you sense anything from this one,” asked Sesshomaru as he looked down at my midsection.

“No, only that it's there and healthy.”

He nodded and returned to his meal. The rest of dinner followed with small questions and conversation and as bed time rolled around I excused Ryusei and myself and we went upstairs to change into our sleeping clothes.

I fell asleep with Ryusei snuggled against me and my mind jumbled but not filled with its usual chaos. Dinner had been pleasant and Sesshomaru had shown that he could be calm and relaxed which relaxed me. There was no saying whether this could continue or whether something else would go wrong.

I placed the hand that wasn't under Ryusei on my midsection and felt the thrum of energy of the new life growing inside of me and closed my eyes, letting the calmness of it all pull me into sleep.

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The month of September ended and October had begun and I had yet to get morning sickness. Sesshomaru watched me wearily and always seemed to be ready to rush at my side and I wondered how much of it was concern for the unborn pup and how much of it was due to our marks which seemed to grow stronger, almost forcing us together with every day that passed.

It was in the middle of the month when he approached me by himself…

“Inu Yasha I would like for you to pick a healer among some that I have gathered. It isn't good for you or the pup to not have check ups.”

I stared at him and shrugged; “I suppose I can agree to that.”

Three days later I was escorted by Kohaku into one of Sesshomaru's receiving rooms and there I found four strangers. One was an older man who looked lecherous, his head almost bald with tufts of grayish white hair circling that overly large head and his overly large yellow eyes and knowing smirk sent chills down my spine and I immediately voiced my opinion.

“The old man with the creepy vibe goes, now please.”

“Dr. Kuntai, you may leave. I thank you for your time and patience and please give Lord Shima my thanks and gratitude as well as thanking him for the alliance of the frog tribe.”

The frog tribe; that explained the eyes…

I watched him leave and felt a small amount of relief.

The next was a young man, or so he looked; but his presence screamed of old power. He had crimson hair with black tips and eyes of the deepest orange. He also seemed to keep a serious look about him but his eyes held dislike and hatred. He was a purist and his scent reeked of tiger.

“You can send the kitty cat home as well; I don't like the look in his eyes.”

The look of surprise in the orange kitty eyes made me smile and I knew it wasn't friendly, “Why send you and why come if we all know you hate hanyou's? Did you think I'd actually let you touch me or my children with eyes like those?”

Sesshomaru gave me an unfriendly look that said I had not been very tactful and I felt irritation at his look.

“But thank you for coming, have a pleasant trip home and thank your kind ruler for sending you all the way out here,” I said with as little sarcasm and irritation in my voice as I could muster.

I turned to look at the other two and was about to ask them to leave when a knock sounded on the door before it opened revealing an older woman with long flowing white hair, her sides braided and pulled back to be tied together with the rest of her unbraided locks. She wore a pale blue kimono with black hakama. Her eyes were a deep shade of ebony which awoke memories deep in my mind.

She smiled wide as she entered looking me over happily before she turned to Sesshomaru; “Thank you for notifying me Lord Sesshomaru.”

I blinked and watched as she approached and realized she was older looking. Her face held small wrinkles here and there but her body still held its young mold.

“My name is Aoiyuki and I was your mother's mid-wife. Oh, you definitely have her hair; so thick even with its current length, and her eyes soft and human reflecting thoughts and emotions like ripples on a waters surface and that same glow when carrying.”

Her voice was soft and even though she seemed rambunctious her voice was just as calm and happy and soothing as a woman past her prime.

Her hands came to rest on my cheeks and she looked into my own, “Oh, my dear Yasha; the pain these eyes have seen to have such distrust and dislike in them.”

She then removed her hands and pulled me into a hug, her hands gently caressing my head, “It will be okay my dear Yasha, I will be here for you, as I was for your mother.”

I felt safe in those arms and something about them screamed home, safety and familiarity. I had been in these arms before. I felt her head atop mine and closed my eyes.

I lost myself in her comforting arms but still overheard the quiet dismissal of the other two healers and then the quiet closing of the door and then all was silent except for the beating of our hearts. She eventually let go and I looked around finding the office empty.

“Come let us check you over and then I will see to my quarters and then later after dinner the two of us will talk.”

And check she did; my pulse, my weight, my measurements, my chest, my back and anywhere I'd let her. Other than Kaede I had never willingly let anyone touch me in intimate places but somehow this woman had chiseled her way into my stone heart and circle of trust.

I discovered that other than being stressed I was pretty healthy and that so far everything was developing well. She guessed my birthing date to be some time in early to mid May.

That night we ate dinner and Aoiyuki entertained my son quite easily and it seemed she felt right at home with everyone but kept her talk with my brother very polite and not really giving him one of her genuine smiles. It made me wonder how much she knew of us and our mating.

To Be Continued….

Tired….and sick….and sleep deprived…. I'm going to try to keep updating and I'm even bringing my laptop to Otakon so I can update there which shows how much I LOVE you guys because I can't even get up enough energy to eat when I work cons.

Well I'm off~!

Oyasumi,

Kat