InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Don't Worry About Me ❯ Let's Talk ( Chapter 7 )

Title: Don't Worry About Me…

 

I do not own any of the Inuyasha characters, they belong to Takahashi Rumiko.

 

 

Summary:

 

“Kagome…” Inuyasha silently whispered,” why would you even do….” Kagome placed her delicate finger towards Inuyasha's lips.

 

“Don't worry about it”, she replied with a fake smile, “I promised didn't I?”

 

Kagome walked away, heart aching, he would always be there right?…it just won't be the same.

 

“Kagome!!!”, Inuyasha yelled, clenching his fist. :::I'm so sorry:::

 

 

 

Chapter 7: Let's Talk

 

The silver haired hanyou drove slowly towards the direction of their retreat. Yes…that park, otherwise known as Sakura Park, was one of the most important places they held in their hearts. It was their own place to be at peace , their own place to talk about life's problems…their own place were they could be together and away from the world's worries. Kagome held on his sweater tighter, as if it were the link between her and Inuyasha's friendship. Kagome wasn't a fool after all, she knew exactly why Inuyasha had dragged her all the way to his car. She was just hoping to not hear all of it tonight…not tonight…she wasn't sure if her heart could take it…

 

`…Inuyasha…I can tell myself that I'm fine…I can force myself to be happy…as long as you're happy…'

 

Tetsusaiga finally reached the entrance of the Sakura Park after ten minutes of unspoken driving. Inuyasha parked his car next to the curb, near it held were the swings and slides were built. He looked at them, before walking out of the car, thinking of the happy times they both shared there when he and Kagome were younger. He shut his engine off and guiltily got out of his vehicle…not even looking at Kagome.

 

`…I can't…I can't look at her…because…I know…she doesn't deserve to…feel this much pain…'

 

He and Kagome walked towards the swings and immediately sat down. Inuyasha was still thinking of the perfect explanation, that he didn't even notice Kagome taking a hold of his hand.

 

`Kaggs…'

 

Just for this moment she wanted to be with Inuyasha, thinking that everything was just the way they used to be. She wanted to pretend that they were still the best of friends…she wanted to…so hard…just for this very moment…So she plastered a false heartedly smile on her soft features, and looked at Inuyasha trying not to cry.

 

“Do you remember?” Kagome asked him with a whispered tone.

 

Of course as a half demon, Inuyasha could hear the sound of her voice as if she was talking normally. He heard her voice dripped with sorrow, and immediately held her hand tighter.

 

“What are you talking about Kaggs?” Inuyasha said softly.

 

Kagome just stared into the starry depths of the midnight sky. She was hoping her hardest to spot a shooting star, and wish for things to go back to the way they were with her and Inuyasha. Her thoughts only focused on the happier days that they shared. It was going to be different now, she was sure about that one fact…

 

`…this was the very spot…were Inuyasha and I…'

 

“…when we first met here…” Kagome said with sadness, “…do you…?”

 

Inuyasha just stayed silent, he didn't want to tamper with those unwanted memories…since Kagome became a part of his life, everything started to turn around. He was able to escape from his family, more specifically his older brother Sesshomaru and father InuTaisho. They were always so close, like a father and son should be. Inuyasha…he had wanted to be part of that bond so badly, he was young after all and just longed for a father figure in his life. His mom was great, but she was gone most of time for her business trips. His father and brother were all he had most during his childhood…until Kagome came…

 

“Yeah Kaggs…perfectly…” Inuyasha answered.

 

She tried her best to smile convincingly.

 

“I'm glad…” Kagome said finally looking at Inuyasha.

 

But his flawless face just made her heart ache even more…his eyes where dull…as if they were stuck back in his childhood.

 

`…his eyes…they're just like when I first met him…full of regret…'

 

Kagome caressed his knuckles delicately with her thumb, bringing Inuyasha back to the present situation. He didn't want her to hurt too much, but he knew he had to say the things he needed to say in order for their lives to move on. Inuyasha just hoped she'd understand…he already knew she would be hurt…but that simple fact just made him feel the sting in his heart even more…

 

“Kaggs…” Inuyasha said trailing off with a murmured tone.

 

He looked at her with intense eyes, as if the next thing he was about to say would shatter their bond. He didn't want to, but he knew that he had to…

 

“About what had happened today…I…” Inuyasha said trying to find the perfect set of words, “Me and Kikyo are…we were just…”

 

He sighed with nervousness.

 

“Don't worry Inuyasha, I get it…” Kagome said trying to hide her suffering, “You and her want to get to know each other better and maybe form a relationship…right?”

 

`…her smile…Kaggsthis isn't you at all…Kaggs…'

 

“I mean what kind of a best friend would I be if I got in the way of the both of you?” Kagome said looking at him, “Inu you deserve to be happy…and if Kikyo makes you happy…well that's fine by me…”

 

He got up out of the swing seat, walked towards Kagome, and faced her very closely…almost a few inches separated their faces from each other. He held her chin with his forefinger and looked at her with the same emotion that she bestowed upon him.

 

“…Kaggs…” Inuyasha whispered, “If you're not okay with all of this, then I could always…”

 

Kagome cupped Iunyasha's gorgeous face and wiped the few silver bangs slightly covering his amber orbs. She gave a look that he'd grown accustomed through out the many years they've been best friends. The look that meant `Don't Worry About Me'. He was always hesitant when she gave him that look, but this time…he knew he had to worry…

 

`Kaggs…I know that you're not alright…just please tell me the truth…'

 

“Inu…” Kagome said saying his nickname, “I'm fine.”

 

She leaned closer towards Inuyasha's face and connected their foreheads together. She then took his delicate yet manly hands and laced their fingers together. In that very moment Kagome wanted to cry so badly. She wanted to tell her true feelings, she wanted to scream and release all of her untamed emotions. She wanted to have no regrets once tomorrow began, she wanted to…but…Inuyasha…she didn't want him to have to choose...

 

`…not after all he'dexperiencedthrough out his life…I can't…'

 

They stayed in that position for a couple of minutes until Inuyasha realized that Kagome was getting starting to feel colder. Her exposed skin was now showing signs of goose bumps and she was starting to shiver under the cool fall weather. Inuyasha decided to pick her up bridal style and lead her to the passenger seat of his car.

 

`…Inu…'

 

He placed her gently down the car seat, as if she was injured or something, and looked at her eyes; amber versus sapphire. Kagome was somewhat confused at the actions Inuyasha was taking, he was being extra nice to her…did he just want for things to go back to the way they were. Even though Kikyo was in the picture now?

 

“Listen Kagome, I know that you're not fully accepting what's going on with Kikyo and me right now…” Inuyasha said truthfully.

 

Her heart sank quickly as soon as she heard him say her name. She wasn't jealous…not in a million years…but…she felt…

 

“But I can promise on our friendship that nobody can ever replace you in my life Kagome…” Inuyasha said, while caressing her cheek with his thumb.

 

`My heart…it's not believing Inu's promise…but I do…I guess…”

 

“So if that's what you're worried about Kaggs, then please don't feel anymore pain about this situation.” Inuyasha said caringly.

 

Kagome's mind trailed off with her own thoughts, somehow she saw this in a different perspective. While Inuyasha wanted to keep their friendship, she knew that it wouldn't last too long. She saw the same things happen with other people. First they'd keep the promise Inuyasha just mentioned, give it a couple of weeks, and then everything will be ruined. The guy will ultimately be controlled by the girl and will have to be forced to choose between her or his best friend. Kagome wasn't going to decline his promise in her heart, but she was little by little going to build a wall of defense…so she wouldn't be hurt as much she was today.

 

`I have to make sure I act happy towards the both of them starting tomorrow…for Inuyasha's sake…and for my own…'

 

Kagome knew that she was going to have to act differently towards him, and the first item to her list was…

 

“Kaggs, are you okay?” Inuyasha said with concern, he noticed a little while ago that she wasn't responding towards him.

 

“I'm fine Inuyasha.” Kagome said with guilt.

 

`…I have to stop calling him by the nickname I gave to him when we were still young kids…'

 

Inuyasha looked at her with uncertainty for a minute…did she just call him by his full name? Ever since they'd been best friends, Kagome had always given him and called him by his nickname. He didn't know whether to be angry or to be confused at her. But he just finally figured that she must have had a long day, and still needed to get used to the situation.

 

`…Kaggs just needs time…that must be it…'

 

He decided to change the solemn mood into a happier one, by inviting Kagome to have dinner in a noodle house with him. But she just smiled at him, and decline his friendly offer. She explained that her mother wanted her to be home earlier tonight, because school was tomorrow and that she had a lot of last minute homework to do. At her decline, Inuyasha decided to just go at a fast food's drive thru and get something to munch on really quick.

 

“I'd like that.” Kagome answered with a smile.

 

With that answer, Inuyasha hurried to walk towards the driver's seat and start his engine. He drove quickly towards the direction of Kagome's house, trying to spot any fast food restaurants. Inuyasha finally saw one, the ever popular McDonalds. He lined up his car with the others who was too busy or lazy to cook dinner that night. He looked at her reaction…

 

`…She doesn't look like she wants to be here right now…usually she'd be begging me to get her more than she could eat…Kaggs…please snap out of it…I hate seeing you like this…'

 

“You don't mind if I turn on the radio, do you?” Kagome asked Inuyasha.

 

“Huh?...oh, no of course not Kaggs…” Inuyasha answered still thinking about Kagome's feelings.

 

She turned the tuner on one of her preferred channels, a station that plays her favorite types of songs; R & B and other many slow sad songs. She and Inuyasha stayed silent as they heard the lyrics emanate throughout his whole car. Kagome's heart was beating hard, as she mouthed a couple of the words of the song.

 

…So much for my happy ending…

…Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over

It's not like we're dead

Was it something I did?

Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hanging

In a city so dead

Held up so high

On such a breakable thread

 

You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

 

They finally made it through the spot were they could order, so Inuyasha asked Kagome what she wanted to eat. The atmosphere felt much more different now, he felt unusual talking towards his one and only best friend. He knew that he couldn't forgive himself after what he did today, but he was going to make an effort. He was going to make Kagome comfortable, he was always going to be by her side…like always…

 

You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it

And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

…Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

 

After paying for the snacks that they ordered, Inuyasha proceeded to drive in the direction of her house. They sometimes started small conversations, but it never emulated into bigger discussions that they could joke around about. Instead it often followed into an awkward silence, where neither one of them could break.

 

You've got your dumb friends

I know what they say

They tell you I'm difficult

But so are they

But they don't know me

Do they even know you?

All the things you hide from me

 

…All the stuff that you do…

 

…All the stuff that you do…

 

You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

 

A couple of minutes later, Tetsusaiga finally reached the entrance of Kagome's house. Inuyasha had wanted so badly to hug her troubles away, but right all his body did was look at her with guilt. Kagome's mind had wanted to do the same action…a hug…somehow for the both of them…it always cured any problems…but now…

 

`Inu…things are going to get bad, before they get any better between us…I hope you'll be understanding…'

 

You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it

And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

…Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

 

Kagome slowly opened the car door after saying a few goodbyes to Inuyasha. She tried her hardest to sound convincing…but she realized that he probably really didn't believe her false actions and statements…but that didn't matter, because tomorrow everything will start to change…everything… She waved goodbye before starting her long walk towards the stairs of her house. Inuyasha made sure she had made it all the way to the top before driving off.

 

It's nice to know that you were there

Thanks for acting like you cared

And making me feel like I was the only one

It's nice to know we had it all

Thanks for watching as I fall

And letting me know we were done

 

Luckily everyone had fallen asleep already. Kagome walked slowly and quietly towards her room, trying not to awaken anyone. Once she reached the inside of her solitary solitude, she immediately changed her clothing. With all of the talking that they did, she didn't even realize that she still had Inuyasha's hoodie on. It kept her warm and protected…just like Inuyasha…she kept it on a little longer after taking off her bathing suit. She only changed into a plaid gray sweatpants and a plain white t-shirt with the hoodie over it.

 

You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it

And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

…Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

 

Kagome plopped her tired body in her soft and plush pale blue bed. For the second time that night she hugged Inuyasha's hoodie closer towards her body. His scent was surrounding her nostrils, she felt at peace when she smelt him. But at the same time she wanted to cry…cry her eyes out…

 

You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it

And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

…Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

 

`…Inu… I'm sorry that I'm a coward…that I can't even explain to you my true feelings…Inu…I want you to live your life happily… so I'm not going to get in the way…anymore…I'm going to let you choose your path…but no matter what I'll never let go of my childhood promise…because you're the only man in my heart…'

 

Kagome was bewildered at the last statement she thought about…she wasn't…she couldn't be…right?

 

…Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

So much for my happy ending

Kagome's unshed tears finally fell down her beautiful face. She had wanted to cry along time ago, ever since she laid her eyes upon Inuyasha during Miroku's party. But just thinking that she was letting go of her Inuyasha, just made her want to cry harder…she couldn't bear the pain she was going through right at this very moment. Her heart was aching for him and only him, and it didn't want to stop. Her soft muffled cries echoed throughout her mid sized bedroom.

 

`…Inu…Inu…I do…no…I know that…love you…I truly do…but I can't…not now…'

 

Her stifled cries continued on until the late night…

 

…Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

 

 

End of Chapter!

 

Sorry but I had to end it here. Please don't hate me, but I like to end in cliffhangers. Yay! Kagome admits her feelings! But not a very good time to though. Inuyasha is an idiot as always. Hope my fellow readers liked the update, I made the chapter longer because I haven't updated in a long time. GOMEN! But as always REVIEW. Anyways, Thanks for reading!

 

-dayDREAMers44

 

P.S.- Oh and the song is called My Happy Ending by Avril Lavigne. Everyone probably already knew that. Its one of my favorite songs, but sadly don't own.