InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Emotions ❯ Troublesome Nightmares ( Chapter 21 )

AN: Moo. Apparently, I have pissed people off cuz of the whole Sesshoumaru being gay thing...well, first off, he's only bi...and second...IT SAYS IN MY SUMMARY, AND IF YOU DON'T FUCKING LIKE BOY ON BOY ACTION, then obviously you shouldn't read this. Seriously...I won't write a heterosexual sex scene, so obviously not much is gonna happen between two guys! Geez. Okay, now I have vented somewhat. If it's just the fact that Sesshoumaru is gay...bi...whatever...that pisses people off...oh well, sorry, but I'm not changing it.

Disclaimer: I've got a lovely bunch of coconuts, there they are a standing in a row...big ones, small ones, some as big as your head! Give 'em a twist, a flick of your wrist...that's what the showman said (or 'now the mailman's dead', either way works, I suppose...)

Chapter 22: Troubled Nightmares

Sesshoumaru just stared at the man before him...but something struck him as odd. He sniffed the air again, but not to the point of being obvious. He then realized what was wrong. "Why have you disguised yourself as Naraku? You are no better than he is...hiding behind a mask constantly," the taiyoukai growled at the other man.

"Ah, you found me out...I was expecting to have more fun with you...but I suppose you are right. But, Sesshoumaru-sama... do you even have any idea of what you want anymore?" the other said, whilst letting his disguise drop.

"Obviously not," Sesshoumaru muttered. "Do you know what you want, Shippou?" Sesshoumaru asked calmly, yet not looking the kitsune in the eyes.

"Of course I do...it is, after all, in my nature to want pretty things...and you happen to be very pretty, Sesshoumaru-sama. As was Kikyou-san," Shippou said, an odd glint in his eyes. Sesshoumaru eyed the kit wearily, before looking at his surroundings. 'What is it that I really want?' he pondered. Then, something struck him, and he whipped his head back around to glare at Shippou.

"How do you know of my past?" Sesshoumaru ground out, causing the other man to laugh.

"I can show you..." Shippou muttered, grinning at the perplexed expression that crossed the mighty taiyoukai's face. Shippou uttered an incantation, and Sesshoumaru felt himself falling, but he wasn't sure what he was falling towards. "Let the darkness engulf you...if you are ready," Shippou's voice whispered in Sesshoumaru's ear. Sesshoumaru followed Shippou's instructions, and let the darkness engulf him...

~*~ Dream Sequence ~*~

"Sesshoumaru-sama!" the small rabbit youkai servant called out. The young lord looked over at her, and grinned slightly.

"Hai, Amaya-san?" the young Sesshoumaru asked.

"Your mother wishes to see you," Amaya stated, blushing slightly. "You know it's improper to call me 'Amaya-san'," she whispered. Sesshoumaru smiled brightly at the young servant, then nodded. "Go now, and see your mother," Amaya said, a smile touching her lips. Sesshoumaru nodded, and scurried off towards his mother's chambers. Amaya grinned to herself, then left to take care of the cooks, that were no doubt slacking off.

"Mother?" Sesshoumaru asked, knocking lightly on her door. He heard a muffled 'come in', but was surprised when it wasn't his mother's voice. It sounded like that one human woman that his father kept around for 'entertainment', as his mother said...whatever that meant. He entered the room, and looked around before letting his eyes fall on the human woman. "Hana-san, where is my mother? Amaya-san said that she wished to speak with me," the young lord stated, curiosity shining in his eyes.

"It was I that wanted to talk to you, since I am going to be your mother from now on," the human said. Sesshoumaru's eyes widened, and he looked around frantically.

"You can't! The only way that you could become my mother was if my real mother died, and Father took you as his new mate!" Sesshoumaru stated, bewildered. He just saw his mother at breakfast...which was only a couple of hours ago...there was no way any harm could have befallen on her, at least not without his knowing about it.

"There is somebody I wish you to meet..." Hana said, ignoring the young boy's protests. "Inuyasha," she called out gently. A very young hanyou pup stepped out from behind the human woman, and Sesshoumaru instinctively took a step back.

"But...but he smells of you and Father! That can't be! Father would never betray Mother!

"Mama?" the very young pup asked, still looking at Sesshoumaru.

"This, Inuyasha, is your half-brother," Hana replied. Her eyes held something in them that Sesshoumaru didn't understand.

"Where is Mother?" he demanded, growing worried. Before Hana could answer, a resounding scream of pain and sorrow filled the castle walls. Sesshoumaru jumped, then sped through the door. He would know that cry anywhere. "Mother!" Sesshoumaru screamed. When he came close to his father's study, he smelt the distinctive scent of blood...his mother's blood. Tears started trickling down the young prince's cheeks, but he didn't care. He had to protect his mother!

Sesshoumaru was going to break down the door when Amaya and another youkai servant appeared. "Sesshoumaru-sama!" Amaya cried out. Smelling the awful stench of blood and death, Amaya knew that it was Lady Komiko who had cried out. Sesshoumaru stopped, and flung himself into Amaya's arms, sobbing in her shoulder. "Shippou-kun, please go see what's wrong with Lady Komiko," Amaya asked the young kitsune that had accompanied her. The kitsune nodded, and entered the room. Amaya cringed when she heard the Lord's voice boom out, and yell at the servant for entering his study, uninvited. Sesshoumaru jerked out of her embrace, and barged into the room. He cried out at what he saw, and Amaya knew what was happening.

Sesshoumaru's vision was going red at the scene before him. His mother was laying in front of his father, dying. His father was covered in blood, but most of the blood was on his claws. Sesshoumaru growled low in his throat, and felt his transformation. The Lord glared at his insolent pup, but Sesshoumaru never wavered. Once he had fully transformed, he lunged at the Taiyoukai, slashing at his throat. The one good slash ended up killing the older youkai. Sesshoumaru looked down in horror, slowly transforming back to his humanoid form. He started backing up slowly, tears stinging at the corners of his eyes, until he bumped into something soft and warm. He turned around and flung himself into Amaya's arms, sobbing into her shoulder.

All too soon, Amaya, Sesshoumaru's haven, was ripped away from him suddenly, by the human woman that had destroyed his life. Hana slapped Sesshoumaru hard, and started screaming at the young prince, but Sesshoumaru didn't hear any of it. He started shaking in rage and agony, glaring hard at the floor. Amaya protested the human woman's insults, and struggled to get to Sesshoumaru, and calm him down. Hana whipped around suddenly, drawing out the dagger that was safely hidden within her sleeve, and lashed out at Amaya. The young rabbit youkai cried out in fear and pain, and watched as Sesshoumaru shook even more, getting ready to lash out, before darkness engulfed her.

Sesshoumaru was ready to lunge at the human wench, but was stopped by a gentle tug at his pants. "Onii-san?" the young hanyou, Inuyasha, asked, his voice quivering slightly. "Onii-san, I'm scared," he whispered. Sesshoumaru bent down, and picked up the young pup, embracing him tightly.

"I'm sorry...I'm sorry," Sesshoumaru kept repeating, over and over. Inuyasha hugged the older boy as tight as he could, sensing that was what his brother needed. Sesshoumaru cried into the hanyou's hair, until the boy was forcefully ripped out of his grasp. He growled slightly, glaring up at the human wench, who, in just a matter of minutes, had ruined his entire life. "You! You wench! This is all your fault! You killed him! You killed both of them!" he screamed. "Get out," he whispered.

"I will do no such thing, I am the Lady of this castle, after all, you little brat," she yelled back.

"Get out of my castle," Sesshoumaru replied, a little more forcefully.

"You will not tell me what to do! You will be the one to leave this castle!" she screamed.

"GET OUT!" Sesshoumaru yelled, baring his fangs and claws, as his eyes started glowing red. Hana backed up slowly, then turned and fled, out of the castled, and out of Sesshoumaru's life forever, but also taking the last person Sesshoumaru cared about with her. Sesshoumaru fell to his knees, and let out a pained cry, before letting the wonderful, comforting darkness surround him.

The kitsune youkai slowly approached the sleeping Taiyoukai, and smiled sadly down at the prince. He picked the boy up, and took him to his bedchamber, hoping that the boy would not destroy himself over this. Shippou returned to the Lord's study, and started cleaning. When he reached Amaya, he bent down, and cradled her limp form tight in his arms. He knew that Sesshoumaru cared deeply for the little rabbit youkai, and hoped that perhaps she would pull through. It was bad enough that his parents were now both dead, and his only other family was swept away. Shippou hugged Amaya close, and whispered into her ear, begging her to stay, at least for Sesshoumaru's sake.

Shippou's shoulders slumped in defeat when he heard Amaya's heart stop beating, and her ragged breathing ceased. "Will this be the undoing of Western Lands?" Shippou wondered aloud. He stood, and carried Amaya out, and buried her next to Sesshoumaru's mother, hoping the Lord would not be offended by that. As soon as he was done, he left the castle, never planning on seeing Sesshoumaru again...

~*~ End Dream ~*~

Shippou sat and watched Sesshoumaru sleep, knowing exactly what Sesshoumaru was seeing in his dreams. Soon, Shippou noticed Sesshoumaru waking, and he smiled that same sad smile he had so many years ago at the taiyoukai. "Now, do you understand?" Shippou asked.

"You...you were the other servant...and...you took care of them..." Sesshoumaru started, then realized that he sounded like a fool. He set his emotionless mask in place, and stopped talking.

"Sesshoumaru-sama, there is no point in you trying to hide yourself from me...I was there, after all." Sesshoumaru glared at the kitsune, causing the other man to laugh.

"So now I know my past, but that will not help with the future," Sesshoumaru stated in a cold, deadpan voice.

"I suppose you're right," Shippou stated, grinning wickedly.

~*~

Kagura stared, shocked into total silence. She hadn't expected to see into the great Taiyoukai's past. "Oh, Sesshoumaru..." she whispered. She watched the scenes play before her eyes, and she felt tears trickle down her cheeks. No wonder he was so cold to everybody...everybody he ever cared about usually ended up dying, in his eyes. Kagura frowned when Shippou started grinning, and took a step back, ready to head back to the others at camp. When she took a step backwards, she stepped on a twig, causing it to snap. Shippou and Sesshoumaru whipped around to search for the cause of noise. One pair of eyes widened in surprise, and the other pair narrowed. "Oh...fuck..." she whispered, then pulled a feather out of her hair, hoping she could get away in time.

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AN: Holy crap! I swear that's like my longest chapter in a loooooooooooooong time! Well, there's Sesshoumaru's past for ya! At least in a nutshell. Ah! I didn't feel like explaining what Amaya looked like, since she wasn't that important of a character...so I'm just gonna say she looks like Nyozeka from Alice 19th, the bunny chic...but in her humanoid form. For those of you who don't what the hell I'm talking about...ummm...pretty much it's girl with rabbit ears...not too hard to picture, right? And um...let's see...well...I hope this clears some stuff up at least...maybe? Eh, and I know that that ending is like waaaaaay over done and all...but oh well, I kinda stopped being creative by that point.