InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Failure ❯ This Reality of Ours ( Chapter 10 )

A/n: Hey guys. ^_^. Agh, life's been monotonous and difficult lately! It's been a real drag. But enough bitching, anyway, before I continue I would like to request... well, review more guys! I've gotten a lot more, and I really, really appreciate it (as if I don't make it painfully obvious-at least I try to :D) but I've gotten over two thousand hits and am on chapter ten with, well... er, fifteen reviews ;-;. That makes me sad. (And for those who have reviewed, you have my eternal love!) But when people don't review, I get insecure. It's just me, I need feedback. Positive or negative, just so I know what I'm doing. So keep on readin', keep on reviewin', and I'll keep on lovin'. ^.-! Now, on to the story.

 

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Chapter X: This Reality of Ours

 

The weeks that passed for Kagome fell upon her like a sleepless dream. She could barely recall having ever stepped foot inside the hut, let alone what happened after that. All she could make out were strange noises against the ringing in her ears, which went through her like a foghorn against her ear. She could feel a distinct and faraway pain in her chest, besides the constant buzzing.

 

And every so often she caught a glimpse of silver stirring besides her. But other than that, her world was black. When she slept, she dreamt only of Inuyasha, and his decision to leave her. She dreamt of him going to hell so often that she started to believe it to be the actual truth. She couldn't tell the difference between true reality and her own world. She was spinning, falling, and she only knew one word...

 

“Inuyasha...”

 

And it passed through her chapped lips like a nightmare she couldn't wake up from. Was he really gone? Was he really alive?

 

Who knew?

 

She couldn't tell anymore.

 

Everything was a haze, and nothing stopped. There was no release from the passage of time, and nothing made sense anymore. She began to seriously question if she had lost her mind for a bit.

 

After a long while, (what seemed like something similar to an eternity...) things began to make sense in tidbits of information. But it was nothing enough to paint a clear picture with.

 

She started to feel sensations again, against her sweaty flesh and registered by her numbed mind. A cold feeling against her skin, something warm against her tongue. But nothing she could easily recognize without her head feeling like it was being ripped in two, and rather forcefully at that. She would whimper, and the sound would cause her to hack as if she were trying to regurgitate her very lungs. She could make out herself throwing up, and she would puke up nothing but a fluid.

 

She began to wonder if she were in hell herself.

 

Maybe she had committed suicide when she found out Inuyasha was dead? Was this purgatory?

 

Or was this pain even fathomable in real life?

 

After another long period of time, it seemed, she could open her eyes and make out objects and shadows against the offending brightness. But they were nothing but undistinguished outlines.

 

But to be able to open her eyes and not want to cry out in sheer agony was bliss enough to her weary body.

 

Her fever was finally breaking.

 

One morning she recalled turning over, and looking into warm amber pools. She felt a roughness against her cheek, and heat next her abnormally chilled body. She remembered moving closer to it, and being encircled by the warmness. After that, she fell into another deep slumber and remembered nothing more.

 

And after many days of the same occurrence, that is how Kagome finally opened her eyes and looked up at Inuyasha. Lying on top of him, staring into his eyes with a flush on her cheeks. She didn't even say anything.

 

She just buried her face into his chest, and cried. She cried silently, and continued to do so when Inuyasha lifted her chin gently. She was biting her bottom lip slightly, her cheeks airbrushed pink, and her eyes more stormy than he had ever recalled. They held a deeper sorrow than he ever before remembered seeing, and his eyes reflected back to her an anguish that could last the both of them a lifetime.

 

Inuyasha flipped Kagome on to her back, holding her hands above her head, and intertwining his fingers with her own. He stared at her quietly, and she continued crying silently to him, telling him everything she had to say without words. And he dipped his head slowly, tilting his face against hers and laying a soft kiss on her lips that spoke a thousand times greater than any words he could have shared back with her.

 

Words weren't needed. They had reached a point in their lives when they no longer needed words to speak. To a point where emotional conversation no longer held any value, because the words themselves were too empty.

 

Words like `love' and `care' and `forever' just weren't strong enough any longer.

 

So as Inuyasha kissed Kagome as gently as you kiss a child on the forehead to tell them you love them, Kagome responded in just the right way.

 

She had let him know he had hurt her probably deeper than he could ever repair.

 

And he had let her know he did not expect forgiveness.

 

But she had given it to him anyway in a silent understanding.

 

And it was then Inuyasha told Kagome the three words he had so desperately wanted to tell her the last three years of their lives together.

 

His hair hung in his face, a silver curtain hiding their intimacy from the world. And it was just the privacy he needed.

 

“I love you.”

 

And Kagome threw her arms around his neck, pulling him down closer to her so she could hold him for all his worth. And he grabbed her around the waist, pulling her to his body in a protective possessiveness no other couple in the world could attempt to mimic and mean it with as much passion as he put forth.

 

And Kagome knew at that moment she never was second best to anyone in his life.

 

And it was an understanding then that they both knew things would never be the same again.

 

 

A/n: I know. I know you're probably like `wtf hap'nd, d00d?!?!111', but never fear chickadees. All the inbetween stuff will be covered within the next chapter. Love bunches ^_^

 

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