InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Fear of Doubt ❯ InuYasha's Thoughts ( Chapter 1 )

Fear of Doubt

Dragon and Sword Master: This is in InuYasha's point of view as he thinks to himself. Who knows, this might become a story itself. It's been a while since I've last seen InuYasha, so if I get anything wrong, I'm sorry.

I was wondering how I could just say those words, those three simple words, yet hard to say in the first place at all. How can I tell her that I love her, if I'm not sure whom I love in the first place at all? Kikyo and her, the same person, yet not the same at all. She does not care what I become, a human or a demon, but Kikyo does. I'm just so confused, if I say it to one, I'm afraid that the other will hate me for life and I'll never forgive myself if I chose wrong.

But how can I start to reason whom to say the words to, if I'm in doubt with myself to begin with? When I am near her, her fragrance is enough for me to lose my control, the control over myself. Is that the reason why I hurt her, the reason that I call her a 'wench' and a 'bitch'? Is that the reason why she 'sits' me all the time? Or is it because I am torn between the two, the one from the past, and the one from the future?

If one were heaven, and the other hell, wouldn't it be wise to go to heaven instead of hell? Yet she thinks I hate her because I run and hide when my feelings try to get the best of me. When I see her, it's as if time has rewound itself and let me have Kikyo once more, but she hates how I pine for the miko priest. Kikyo is dead; I know it, but yet I refuse to accept it. What I can not see is the beauty that's in front of me.

Sure, I say that she is only useful as a shard detector, but to me she is much more than that. How can I just walk away from the beauty that I love and cherish; yet run and hide from just the same? If only my life was different, if I wasn't a hanyou, would I have these same defenses? These defenses that let me have a non-emotional mask and instead of cherish, I turn it around into hate, something that has to stop. But how can I stop these things if it was what kept me alive from the beginning? How can I shed off this mask that I wear almost all the time forever and say the three simple words "I love you"?

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Dragon and Sword Master: If you haven't figured it out yet, Kagome is her and she. This week's "Fic of the Week" is none other than Kagomechan1234567890's story known as Ikasha the Quarter Demon. Summary: Kagome finds the last shard and gives it to Inu. She is worried he will choose to be full demon, but he comes up with a better plan. After the wish is made, the two marry and have 2 kids; Ikasha, the oldest, and Koga, the youngest

This is a great InuYasha/Kagome story that she has here, having the jewel completed yet InuYasha doesn't make the wish at all, but Kagome does. After that, they have two kids, a girl and a boy. A lot of hardships happen to the girl, Ikasha. To find out what those hardships are, look at her story.