InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Forever Pain ❯ Chapter 1~No Escaping Our Dreams! ( Chapter 2 )

Forever Pain By Mija

Disclaimer~Dont Inuyasha and any other of the Charactors in this fic, not even Kyoto she is an original charactor by my friend Kyoto, if you would like to use her please ask her, just email me and I will give you her email addy.

A/N~Ok guys first of all this chapter is totally rewritten. I am truelly touched by the great reviews I had about this first chap the first time I posted it, but when i ummm, ok ok when I sobbered my happy little butt up and reread it, almost had to keep from pulling my hair out. lol..That was not the way I wanted the lay out to be and there was alot missing that should of been there, like for instance, Kagome did fight back. Hence the bruises and stuff. Anyhow soo I am rewriting this, there will be more stuff and the lay out so it wont confuss, since I saw that it was confussing, sorry Rekka gf. Anyhow reread cause it will be diffrent from the origanl. Ty ty ty huggles Mija..:-)

Chapter 1~No Escaping our Dreams!

~~~19 year old Kagome Hiragashi (unsure of spelling so spelling it this way sowwy) woke up in a cold sweat, tears streaking down her face in rivulets as the scream she was about to let out was caught in her throat. She put her face in her sweaty palms and continued to cry as her entire body shook with the silent sobbing. Gods she hated these dreams. It had been awhile since she had had one. She used to have them all the time when she was a kid. But they had basicly stopped when her mother had met her step father. Kagome chuckled as she sobbed which was odd, but something she did alot. She always tried to think of something good when ever these dreams would come back to haunt her. She looked up in the darkness of the room, well it wasnt totally dark, she slept with the bathroom light on and the door shut to allow just a sliver of light to shine threw. She hated the dark. Bad things always happened in the dark. And if they were going to happen, she wanted to see it coming.

Kagome thought back to her dreams. As Usual it had started with her and her sister Rin. They were huddled in the cornor of thier room as they heard thier mother scream and beg thier father to stop hitting her. He never did. He would shout and yell and curse more as the sounds of his fist or feet met with moms smile body. She used to cry out to her mother..."Mommy??? Mommy!!!!!!" when she was younger. But she soon found that calling her out to her mother would bring thier fathers attention to her and her sister. And that was a bad thing. Not only for her and Rin but thier mother as well. He would come to their room and start slapping them around picking them up by thier hair and throwing them into the closet or up onto the bed, yelling at them to shut the hell up and go to sleep. The minute he would come to thier room thier mother was always right behind him, grabbing on to his arm and begging him to stop hurting her babies. This would infuriate their father more and he would begin to beat on thier mother again with more vigor. And he would do it in their room so that his girls could see what happened to those who disobeyed him or thought to interfere. The sight of thier mother being socked, kicked and thrown around like a rag doll had been ten times worse then hearing it, or having them hit. Rin would always sob into Kagome's small form to cover her eyes at the sight. And as much as Kagome had wanted to stop from seeing it too, she would always keep her eyes on her mother and silently pray that there father would just stop.

~~~Then the dream scape would change, as it always did, to the night their father came home in a rampage. Kagome couldnt remember what it was about, but he had tore intot he kitchen knocking thing over and making a huge mess. He would throw the refrigerator down on its side spilling all its contents, then start on breaking dishes and throwing stuff from the cabinets. After that rampage was over he would go to thier room and pull Kagome and Rin from thier bed by the hair and drag them to the kitchen. He would throw them to the ground and curse them as he ordered them to clean everything up till it shined. If he came back and found one speck of salt on the floor they would pay. She and Rin would cry silent tears as they cleaned on hands and knees, while the sound of thier mothers screams filled the house. Kagome hated her father. She couldnt remember ever hating anyone as much as she did her dad. She was only 8 years old for goodness sake and to wish someone dead at such and early age was wrong, but she couldnt help how she felt.

~~~The dream once again changed. She and Rin were huddled outside, right in front of the garage. It was like 3 am int he morning, they were cold and scared. Thier father had just gotten in a fight with thier mom again and then dragged the two helpless little girls outside and ordered them to stay put or he would make them pay. So they hugged each other, dressed in nothing but thier sleeping gowns, no shoes and waited for what was to come. Their father got onto the car and reved up the engine, then sped up the driveway towards them. Kagome had been to frightened to even move. He meant to kill them, run them over like a dog. Kagome remembered closing her eyes just before the car was about to make impact. But the next thing she knew was on the ground at her mothers feet, still clinging to Rin. She turned to see that thier father had crashed into the garage and hit half of the wall next to it, leaving a big hole there. Thier mom had pulled them out of the way at the very last minute and saved them from what thier father had meant to do to them. That night mom was beaten till she was unconscience.

~~~Yet again the dream had changed. This time it went to the best day of Kagome's life. She was 10 years old them, in fifth grade. She had been summoned to the teacher who had informed her of the so called bad news. Her mother wanted her home right away. They were moving and thier dad was not going with them. She recalled the pitying looks she got from her teacher and her classmates at this news. Back then it was not proper for a woman to leave her husband, a divorced woman was pretty much shuned. But at that time Kagome didnt care about all that. No. She was greeted with sad looks and odd ones since she smiled as she got her things and left the school for the last time. No one would ever truelly understand her happiness that day. Her mother had finally gotten the courage Kgome had always prayed for and was finally leaving her father. It was the happiest day of her life. They were free. FREE. Thier dad wouldnt hurt thier mom or them ever again. When she got home her mother was waiting for her, as they put thier meager belongings into thier aunt and uncles car, who were also there for thier moms support and saftey. Thier dad would never hit thier mom in front of her mothers sister and her husband, thin he was a bit affraid of her uncle. That day they had driven away from a very furious looking father. And all Kagome could do was smile with utter joy and happiness. In her mind all she could think of was one word. Free. Free at last. She should of known her father was not one to just push aside with out getting even.

~~~The last part of her nightmare was probably the worst one Kagome ever had. They were living with her aunto and ucle. Who oddly enough had took them in, but seemed to be emotionless people. Kagome always hated being around them when mother was gone. They were mean, but not in a physical way, but with words. On more than one occasion her aunt had looked at her and given her this sour look and told her she was ugly, that she looked like her father. Kagome would always cry and sillently curse her aunt. Of all the things she could say to hurt her the most was compare her in anyway to her father whom she despised. This one night Kagome waited eagerly for their mom to come home from her job at the diner where she worked as shift manager. Basicly thier mom was the last to leave and lock up everything for the night. As the clock ticked by and it got later and later, Kagome grew more worried and asked her aunt and uncle where her mom could be. They just shrugged their shoulders as if they didnt care and ignored her. Sometimes Kagome wondered how they could be soo emotionless, as they didnt care for anything or anyone, not even themselves.

~~~Just then they all saw lights and Kagome ran to the door, only to see her mother enter with two uniformed officers behind her. The sight of her mother made Kagome cry out in pain. Her mother looked awfull. Her face was like a raw piece of meat. Her eyes were black and blue, swollen till only slits remained. Her lips were bloody and cracked and puffy. Gashes ran over almost every inch of her face. Her face looked like it had been threw a giant cheese grater. The officers had explained what had happened. Kagome's father had shown up at her moms work just before closing with another friend. He had taken my moms hand gently and was being all loving and nice to her for a bit, calming my mother down, then when my mom had calmed down a bit, he put a vice like grip on her wrist and told his friend to floor the gas peddle and he did. While my mom had stood outside of the opened car door, my dad held on tight as his friend sped down the gravel road, dragging my mom for two miles before finally releasing her. My mom was unconscience for a bit before she had woken up and walked back to her work and dialed the police. They had bought her home, but they told her they couldnt do anything to Kagome's dad. After all he was her husband and this was a domestic dispute. They could not interfere. This when there was no domestic abuse laws. So thier father had gotten aways with what he had done. Kagome had ran to her mom and looked up at her with tears in her eyes. She remembered clearly how her mother had looked down at her and smiled. That moment Kagome had known. Her father had meant to break her moms spirit, her pride. But all he had done was strengthen it. My moms spirit and her honor and pride were still there and stronger than ever. Kagome remembered thinking that this woman, her mother was incrediable. She was her idle, her hero, her heart and she wanted to be just like her when she grew up. End of the dream.

~~~Kagome wiped any lingering tears from her face and got up slowly. she needed a shower. She truelly hated when she had those dreams. It wasnt a surprise she had had it that night. Although they were pretty much non existant in her life now a days, they did happen when she was under alot of stress or worry over something. And tonight had been both. Her ex boyfriend Hojo had come over. He had sweat talked his way into letting her let him into the apartment. He could always do that to her. It was one of the things that had drew her to him when they had first met. He had been soo nice, so sweet and soo perfect. Everything her father had never been. She had always told herself that she would never ever end up with a man like her father and did her best to make sure of it. She had had no idea that someone as nice and perfect as Hojo would be even worse than her father.

~~~Kagome turned on the shower and as it got warm she looked at herself in the mirror. Her face was swollen. Her lip was cracked and bruised. Her right eye was also turning a puplish black color as it got even more swollen. Oh great she thought. She had to look for a job soon and she had planned on waking up early that morning to go looking for one. Now how was she supposed to do that with her face looking like that. She guessed she shouldnt have fought back. But it wasnt her nature to just sit there and let him hit her. Gods how she hated Hojo. Once upon a time she would have forgiven him anything. She had loved him so much that the times he had beaten her when they lived together, had been nothing compared to the pain of loosing him. But now? Now she couldnt stand him. They had been broken up for 8 months already and he still didnt seem to get the hint that she didnt want to have anything to do with him. She had lost her last job because of him. He had gone into the small boutique she was working in at the time and started a scene. Cops were called. He was reprimanded but nothing else. Hell no one wanted to upset his father, one of the richest men in Tokyo. But she had been fired, the manager didnt want any problems with Hojo's family and didnt want any troulbe at his shop. So he had fired her. Hojo had known they would. That had been the third job shed lost cause of him. Now it looked like he would make sure she wouldnt get a new one before he rent was due and they kicked her out.

~~~Before Kagome stepped into the shower she heard noises from the apartment next door. The last time Kagome had heard the place was empty. Apperantly not anymore. She vaguely wondered who her knew neighbors were. Not that she would get much of a chance to get to know them if she were kicked out soon. She got into the shower and gingerly washed her body, sighing at the many love bites on her body as well as scratches and bruises. She should of known better than to trust Hojo. Why she let him in she had no idea. He had come with flowers and dinner apologizing up the butt for causing her to loose her job. He kept going on and on about how sorry he was and that he would talk to the boutique owner and help her get her job back. He had looked so sincere. Ya right, she was stupid, she should of known better, but she was the sort of person to give a person the benift of doubt and second chances. She had loved Hojo once and had hoped that even though they werent together they might one day be freinds. Stupid. Very Stupid.

~~~Hojo had started hugging on her and kissing her, but Kagome hadnt wanted to go there with him. She wanted to be friends with him someday but at the moment she was still very leary of him and hated him for all he had done to her. When she pushed him away, thats when he showed his true nature. He back handed her and when she fell to the ground he had pounced on her. Kagome fought him, she really did, she sratched and kicked and struck at him. But he was to strong, had always been to strong. In the end he had ended up getting exactly what he wanted. He had forced himself on her and by that time she had just let him. She was so battered and bruised that all she wanted was him to cum and get off her and leave. Technically what Hojo was doing to her was rape. She knew this, but it was hard to actually believe it. After all they had had sex over and over again before when they were together, they had even lived together. So it was hard to consider it rape, even if she didnt want it and he had forced himself on her. After he was done, he added a few kicks as she stayed ont he ground, and laughed at her. "Ill be back." he had told her.

"Fuck off..and dont bother cause I will never let you in again..do you hear me Hojo?? I hate you!" she had cried out. He just smirked and straightened himself up before he left the apartment laughing. Kagome had gotten up made sure the dead bolt was locked and crawled into bed crying herself to sleep. Thats when the dreams had come.

~~~After getting out of the shower she went to the living room to make sure all the lockes were in place. She heard voices outside and looked out the window, but just barely. She saw a man being pushed out of the apartment next door. It was dark and hard to see what he looked like, but she could tell by his body shape that he was a man. She heard a womans voice and saw her exit the apartment door. Her hands pushing at the man in front of her.

"I told you to leave!!..I dont need you here..now go home!" she hissed angerly. Kagome could tell she was female, speccially by the curvy and rather large breasts she had. Kagome was sure it was even bigger than hers, which surprised her. Kagome had always had a problem with her big bust and she never met too many women with her bust size. She vaguely wondered if the womans was cosmetic or natural.

"Damn it woman quite pushing me!!" came a very pissed and annoyed voice of the man. Kagome inwardly cringed. She knew yelling angry men were dangeroud men.

"Well if you would leave like the good little boy you are I wouldnt have to push out now would I Inu?" came the females irritated voice.

"You know Kyoto, when Sess finds out about all this he aint going to be very happy about it." the annoyed man replied with a growl.

"Like I care, did you take it well?? were you happy about it?? NOOOOOO but since I have mom and daddy's approval theres nothing you can do about it now can you?? and niether can Sess..now GO!" the woman named Kyoto replied, pushing at the man again.

"I told your ass to quite fucking pushing me!" he yelled.

"SHHHHHHH are you stupid or something?? its like 3 in the morning here you wanna wake everyone up?" came the girl as she slapped her hand over his mouth to keep him quiet.

"Like I give a fuck." he replied after taking her hand from his mouth, but his voice was lower.

"Inu your starting to piss me off..now go home or I swear to the Gods your going to get it." the girl growled back.

"Ya what ever..I'll be back in the morning with the rest of your stuff...nite Kyoto.." he said as he bent down and planted an affectionate kiss ontop of her head.

"Nite Inu." she replied giving him a hug.

"Feh..what ever." he retorted softly as he walked down the stairs and out into the parking area. Kagome watched as the woman went inside and locked her doors.

~~~Yawning Kagome chided herself for being noisey and closed the curtain before crawling back into bed before falling into a deep sleep, praying with all her might that she wouldnt have those dreams again.

A/N~okies here is the rewrite, I hope its better than the original one, and I hope I didnt leave anything out...and lol yes to my one reviewee from MM who asked if this stuff happened to me, ya it did but Im over it, was a long time ago, but thank you much for the chocolate and candy..(grins) still a sucker for sweets. Ya I know i left out the Sat morining cartoons and cereal but I will add it later, it wasnt a big thing for the story anyway, although it does have a little baring..lol..anyhow hope this is much better and you all liked it alot. So sorry I posted the other one up while under the influence of beer..lol..bad Mija..bad Mija..tell me what you think guys k?? huggles and smiles Mija..:-)