InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Forgiving Loss ❯ Chapter 5 Tough Start ( Chapter 5 )
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By: blueangel326 
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Mystery / Drama | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 02.28.2005 | Updated On: 02.28.2005 | Pages: 4 | Words: 5.1K | Visits: 266 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Mystery / Drama | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 02.28.2005 | Updated On: 02.28.2005 | Pages: 4 | Words: 5.1K | Visits: 266 | Status: Completed
I don’t own Inuyasha, no matter how much I hate to admit this. This anime/manga along with all of its characters belongs to Rumiko Takahashi. This disclaimer is valid to all chapters of Forgiving Loss. Though they do not belong to me, BlueAngel326 loves to toy with them, a lot.
Chapter 5 Tough Start
The ride to the house was quiet as Kagome only stared out the window while Inuyasha just felt like tearing something apart to vent his anger. As soon as they arrived at the house, Inuyasha parked the car and pulled Kagome’s stuff over his shoulder. He walked up to the house and unlocked the door before throwing her bag by the stairs.
Kagome started walking around, exploring the house since she stayed at Sesshoumaru’s the entire time, even when Rin went to grab her some clothes and extra things. Inuyasha went upstairs and into his room. He opened the door to the balcony and walked to the side and sat on the railing against the wall.
‘Why the hell would someone want to hurt Kagome like this? And why would they want to use her as a way to get to me? It doesn’t make sense. Why did Kagome think that I would do something like that, most of all to her? I knew I should have never left her alone for two weeks, especially since I knew that there were others that would want to hurt her because of me. Because of my stupid mistake, I left her vulnerable and unprotected. Now she’s lost our pup and her memory. I could’ve lost her if it wasn’t for Rin. If only I hadn’t accepted the job, or if I had just took her along anyway, then none of this would have happened. I’m such an idiot. Kagome…’
Inuyasha looked up at the twilight sky as the sun was nearly below the horizon. So many times he had sat out here to clear his head whenever he and Kagome got into a fight and she ended up hurt. This was the one place in which he could think through things, figure out a way to fix what he had done. However, this time, things seemed irreversible. Inuyasha had been lucky that Kagome had only lost her memory and baby. What would he have done if he had lost her too?
Kagome’s lost baby and her memories… They were things that could be recovered. All he and Kagome had to do was just start over, from the very beginning. But could he really do it all over again?
Inuyasha had been lucky to have found Kagome in college. His life never had any real happiness in it, not since his mother died when he was five. Even then, he couldn’t remember much about her except how much she loved him. After her death, his life became a torture to him, that is, until he went to college and met Kagome.
Having Kagome as his very first, true friend was a rare thing, a blessing. He had made friends with a girl named Kikyou as he grew up, but even she had to leave him for circumstances out of their control. However, Kagome… she never left him, not since she first met him. A gentle and kind creature, Kagome had healed the wounds he endured from his dreadful childhood. She always stayed by his side. Even if it only seemed like a too real fantasy, he allowed Kagome to slowly mend his heart, his soul, his everything. And in return, he promised to look after her.
But now, that promise seemed all too distant as he remembered Kagome’s condition. He couldn’t protect her last time, but maybe this time he could keep her safe by keeping her away. He was the main reason for her mishap and he couldn’t bring himself to let her get hurt again because of him. He had to let her go or she’d get hurt again because of him. To let go of her though, could he really do that? After all, wasn’t she the one that healed him when he really thought there was nothing left?
He couldn’t just leave her like that. Not when she really needed him the most. Starting over wouldn’t be so hard, right? Not if he’d already managed to do it the first time.
“Inuyasha?”
Inuyasha snapped out of his thoughts when he heard Kagome’s voice. He had been so deep in his thinking that he hadn’t even noticed when Kagome came outside. “What is it?”
“Why are you out here? It’s dark out here and it’ll get pretty cold soon. Don’t you want to come inside?”
He turned away to look at the waxing moon. “Keh! I ain’t as weak as you pathetic humans. I’m fine.”
“Oh, okay.” Kagome nodded and walked over to the concrete rail. She looked at the city lights from midtown Tokyo as they began to light up the darkness. “What are you doing out here?”
“Nothing. Just… thinking…”
“Oh. You’re thinking about how things ended up like this, huh?”
“Little.”
“I’m sorry I can’t be much help to you guys. The others have been stopping by all week while I was at Rin‘s. They’ve helped me recover a little bit, but I still know nothing about myself or my life. They keep telling me about what I was like, but I don’t know how to be the person they described.” Kagome laughed dryly to herself a little. “Sounds kinda silly. I don’t know how to be myself.”
Kagome looked back at Inuyasha and smiled a little. Her eyes were bright, glistening with a small glimmer hope. Inuyasha saw the sparkle of herself willing him to help her. Inuyasha parted his lips to say something but shook his head slightly as he leaned back against the wall, watching the night sky.
She walked to opened the door. “I think I’ll go back inside. Good night.”
She didn’t wait for his acknowledgement as she closed the door behind herself.
‘Maybe, Kagome… maybe we can…’
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“Hi, Kagome! We wanted to come over to see how you were doing.”
“Hi, guys. I’m fine, but you don’t have to come and check up on me every day. I’m not alone, you know.”
“Sorry!” Rin said as she placed a hand on the back of her head. “We can’t help it, you know.”
“Don’t worry, it’s okay. Just a little… weird. Come in.”
Rin, Sango, Shippou, and Kirara came in. “I haven’t seen you since Monday. How have you been feeling lately? Has everything been okay with Inuyasha and all?” Kirara asked.
“I’m okay, but my memory hasn’t recovered anymore since I last talked to y’all yesterday. Inuyasha hasn’t said too much since we came here Monday, but he’s been nice, I guess.”
“Do you girls not trust Kagome with me, or do you do all this just to spite me? Last time I checked, I didn’t bite and I don’t have rabies.”
Everyone looked back at Inuyasha, who was standing near the staircase casually.
“No, Inuyasha. We’re just concerned is all. We trust you and we’re not trying to spite you. We only want to make sure Kagome is okay.”
“Well then you can just call instead of always stopping by. Know what, scratch that. You keep calling even if you just came by. The phone rings every five fucking minutes and it’s always one of you. And then you tell me that you wanna talk to Kagome to make sure everything is fine even when I tell you basically the same thing.” Suddenly, the phone started ringing and Inuyasha looked like he was ready to blow a casket. “That proves my point. I bet it’s that dumbass wolf, or maybe it’s that damn lecher of yours Sango.”
Inuyasha stalked over to the phone and picked up the receiver. “Who the hell is this?”
“Inuyasha, it’s Ayame. Are the others over there yet?”
“Yeah, why? You calling to say that Kagome’s living with a worthless dog too? I told y’all she’s fine now stop calling!” Inuyasha slammed the phone down before Ayame could respond.
“Inuyasha! That wasn’t very nice! Who was it?”
“Another damn pest that’s adding on to my nerves.”
“I see Inuyasha is the same as always. Guess nothing ever changes that attitude of his. You would think he’d be a little nicer since he’s gotta take care of Kagome so she can recover.” Shippou sighed as he shook his head.
“Yep, some thing’s never change no matter how you look at it. Inuyasha will always be a baka, won’t he?”
“You got that right,” Sango agreed.
“You got something to say, then say in front of me, not when I’m not looking.”
The phone started ringing again, and Inuyasha grabbed for it. Kagome jumped in the way first.
“Hello? Zenya residence.”
“Kagome! Are you all right?”
“Yes, I’m fine. May I ask who is speaking?”
“Oh, dear. It’s your mother, Kagome. Can I speak with Inuyasha for a moment?”
“Sure.” Kagome handed Inuyasha the phone.
“Who is it?”
“She says she’s my mother.”
Inuyasha’s face paled slightly as he took the phone. “Ms. Higurashi?”
“Hello, Inuyasha. I heard about what happened and came straight back home. How’s Kagome? Please tell me what happened.”
“It’s a long story. Would you rather for us to come there and talk about it?”
“No, that will be alright. I’ll come over there this evening. Is it serious?”
“The doctors say that she has a severe case of amnesia and she also lost the pup.”
“Oh my. Did you have any plans for this evening?”
“No, not really.”
“Okay, well I’ll be there within the next hour. I’m bringing father as well. Have you talked to Souta?”
“Yes, we called as soon as I got back from Britain. He said he’d come as soon as everything settles down in Kyoto.”
“Well, okay. I’ll be there in a little bit.”
Inuyasha placed the receiver down and saw everyone looking at him.
“What happened, Inuyasha?” Sango asked.
“That was Kagome’s mom. She called to ask what happened and said she was coming over in a little while. She wants to discuss what happened with Kagome.”
“Well, since Kagome’s mother is coming over, then maybe we should leave. We’ll talked to you later.” Sango got up along with Kirara and Shippou.
“Do you mind if I stay, since I was there when everything happened?” Rin asked.
“We don’t mind. Are you sure you wouldn’t mind since you know more than the two of us?”
“No, not at all.”
“Okay, well, see you guys later,” Kirara said and left with the other two.
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The hour passed by quickly as Kagome and Rin chatted in the living room while Inuyasha stood by the kitchen, arms folded as he began pondering again. Finally, a knock came to the door and Inuyasha answered it.
A woman who looked to be in her mid to late 40s walked in and greeted everyone. “Hello, Inuyasha. It’s nice to see you again, Rin. My dear child, Kagome. You gave me such a scare when I heard about the accident.” She walked over to Kagome and gave her a big hug.
“H-Hi. I’m sorry that I worried you.” Kagome gave her mother a small hug back.
“Oh, dear, you don’t remember me at all, do you?”
“No, sorry. I feel kinda awkward. I’ve known my mother for my whole life, and yet it’s as if I’m just meeting you for the first time.”
“It’s okay, honey. There’s nothing that you could do about this except try and hope to pull through this. Shall we sit and talk about what happened then?”
Everyone nodded. The ladies sat in the living room while Inuyasha leaned against a wall across from where Mrs. Higurashi and Kagome sat. Inuyasha started explaining what happened and Rin filled in the blanks as he went along. Mrs. Higurashi understood most of the situation.
“So, someone decided to deceive Kagome into thinking that Inuyasha wanted to divorce her? But why would anyone want to do that?” she asked as she watched her daughter sleeping, her head resting in her mother‘s lap. Kagome had drifted to sleep during the beginning of the explanation. Probably because she woke up pretty early to clean the house before going to the doctors for another checkup.
“We’re guessing it’s because someone was trying to either tear apart Kagome and Inuyasha or to cause harm to Inuyasha through Kagome. This was just a starting point.”
“So this is somewhat of a warning? Why would someone want to harm Inuyasha and Kagome?”
“I don’t really know. I’ve gained a lot of enemies for the past two years, ever since I joined Seikyo no Tenshi. I wouldn’t be surprised if it’s someone that despises the agency.”
“Still, why would it be especially you and Kagome? I see no real reason why someone would threaten your lives when you only do your jobs. I wish you didn’t have to go through all of this.”
“There’s nothing you can do about it. This is the price to pay when everyone hates the half-breeds. All I can say is that I will find that bastard and make him pay for what he’s done to Kagome. She doesn’t deserve this, and I won’t allow her to suffer because of me.”
Mrs. Higurashi nodded. “Maybe it’d be a good idea for you and Kagome to stay at the shrine for a while. At least until you can get a lead of some sort to help figure out what exactly is going on. You two are still off work, right?”
“Yeah, I have about another month and Kagome has a few months until she is normal enough to be able to work again. She was already on vacation since our boss said he didn‘t want anything to happen to our pup. Fat lot of help that did us.”
“Okay, well, then you can stay at the shrine for as long as needed. When you go back to work, we’ll be with her so she won’t be alone. You’ll be in safe hands.”
“Keh. I didn’t plan on leaving Kagome alone. She said that she’d try to go back to the office when I do so she’ll be around more people that know her.”
“Well, still, I would like for Kagome to stay at least a while. I don’t like the thought of you two being here alone. It’s best if you stay with us.”
“Whatever.”
“Don’t worry, Mrs. Higurashi. Kagome’s in safe hands as long as Inuyasha’s here and the others and I will make sure of that.”
“Did I fall asleep?” Kagome said as she sat up rubbing her eye.
“You’re awake, dear. Kagome, we were planning on having you and Inuyasha stay with us at the shrine. Will that be fine?”
Kagome nodded. “That’d be alright. Is it okay, Inuyasha?”
“I don’t care.”
“Well, I guess it’s decided. It’s pretty late, so I’ll let you rest for the night.”
“Yeah, I think it’s time for me to hit the bed. I got work early in the morning,” Rin said as she gave Kagome a hug. “Call us if you need anything, alright?”
“Mm-hm. We will. Bye, Mama. Bye, Rin.” Inuyasha walked them to the door and closed it after they left.
“Inuyasha?”
“Go to bed, wench. You’re tired.”
“Okay…can I ask you something?”
“What?”
“How long have you known me?”
“Since college. Why?”
“I was wondering… since we’re married and all, and since you’ve known me for that long, how come you never tell me anything?”
“Tell you what?”
“About us, or something about what’s happened in the past few years.”
“Don’t the others tell you enough in one day as it is? Rushing, trying to cram everything in in one day ain’t gonna bring you’re memory back that fast.”
“But you never talked much in the last week.”
“There was nothing much to say. Shouldn’t you worry about yourself and not so much about me? You’re the one who needs to be reminded of everything. Not me.”
“I am, but I’m also curious about you. I don’t know much about you, and that makes me feel kinda out of place since I don’t know much about someone that I cared for. Would you?”
Inuyasha hesitated for a moment. “It don’t matter. Go to bed. You’ve got another appointment before we go to your mom’s.”
“ ‘Kay. Good night.” Kagome got up and walked upstairs.
She was barely in her room when he heard her sigh.
‘Baka! Why are you being so cold to her. She hasn’t done anything to you and you should be helping her. So stop acting so mad at her.’
‘I can’t help it. She’s been hurt enough as it is. If someone really wants to hurt her because of me, then I’ve gotta protect her. And if it means that I gotta remain detached from her, then so be it.’
‘But still…’
‘There’s nothing more to it. I’m protecting her, so leave it alone.’
Sorry, kinda not the way I wanted it but I’m probably gonna be killed for being up so late typing, so… I meant to update this yesterday, but it wasn’t finished yet, and that afternoon, I was baking cookies. Now my house smells like Oatmeal Raisin cookies. Besides that, I have to finish revising Say Goodbye and this original fiction/fantasy on fictionpress. That and give 2 more chapters for this and Engaging Enemies and 3 for Say Goodbye and Adept Storm (the original fiction thing). I hope to do all of that before the 13th.
I am sorry, but I probably won’t be able to update as much after the 13th because I finished Engineering class on that day and switch to new classes that Friday. I probably won’t be able to update in the media center at school because they don’t allow us to do that at school, but I do that anyway, and my Engineering teacher sees it anyway but doesn’t say or do anything. I’ll probably go MIA unless I miraculously get internet at home, which is doubtful looking at the current circumstances. The only way I would be able to update is if I get a chance to go to the library and update from there, but it won’t allow me to go to mediaminer because it’s categorized as either sex or mature. They think everybody’s gonna look at porn at the library. Disgusting! And the fact that I can’t drive yet sucks! Either that or someone generously offers to install internet for us. Gomen ne!
I haven’t done reviews for this story yet, so better get started.
Ceaseless Cloudy Days: I’ve never read any stories about anybody leaving anybody, but I guess it’ll be as original as this. Besides, I’ve never read a mystery genre type Inuyasha fanfic before. I’ve only written this because, one, it will get stuck in my head if I don’t type it, and two, the 2 month deprivation of cable has been nagging at my nerves. Since I only get CBS, NBS, ABC, FOX, AND MTV2, I’ve been only watching investigation shows on CBS. ‘Mazing how I just flip the channel and suddenly see a music video with the logo MTV2. Within these past 2 months, I’ve missed my major anime shows such as: new episodes of Inuyasha, FullMetal Alchemist, Ghost in the Shell Stand Alone Complex, Rave Master, Yu Yu Hakusho, Dragonball GT, Rurouni Kenshin, Teen Titans, Gundam Seed, Wolf’s Rain reruns, Witch Hunter Robin reruns, reruns of Inuyasha, etc… You get my point right? I want me cable back. Damn that damn Freddie, he was supposed to install our cable over a month ago and still hasn’t contacted us! If I didn’t put this story as mystery as well, then I shall change it to romance/mystery because I can.
Starrilight-Hotaru: Yes, I know that I have been crazy, esp. today since I had a sugar cookie, an oatmeal cookie, and chocolate icing from a chocolate cake. We all know what that spells! And for some reason I felt kinda slow with that name scramble. It took me 2 weeks to finally realize you were talking about that perv that decided to start groping my ass as well in 8th grade in Photography. Yes, I know that I am writing this on the world wide net and that everyone can see this statement of my personal life. But you know what, I friggin’ don’t care! Haha! (hits herself with the phone) Why did I just use a phone to hit myself when I’m not even using it? (laughs like the psycho she is)
moon shines on wolf @ aol (dot) com: Three different reviews. Hmm… 1. Yes, I am F-in’ crazy and don’t give a F about it. 2. I gave Kagome amnesia again? When did I do that? (does the Totosai scratch) I don’t remember. Maybe that was before I was murdered by you and brought back to life again… Why do you like murdering me and bringing me back to life when I do something other than type? 3. Here’s your update. I don’t update this story as much as I would like to, but because I have Engaging Enemies to be the bigger hit than this and because I have people carried over from Lost Memories to the sequel Say Goodbye, I can’t do too much with this as much as I could because I’m still forming everything with this. Certain parts are already planned out, but this is a “type as you go” kinda fic.
angelica incarnate: Hey, I remember you from Lost Memories and Engaging Enemies. You’re the one that said in Engaging Enemies “I always tell people that if you hate Kikyou, then you should torture her in the worst possible way” or something like that. If not, then sorry. The whole full moon/ new moon baby thing. Hmm… Hanyou on the full moon, human on the new moon, 1/4 demon/ human (depending on the mother) at the female’s highest peak of her ovum cycle. Basically, the 1/4 thing is when they mate on the mother’s peak of her cycle in which the fully developed egg has to be fertilized within the next 48 hours or it dies. This is the best time for a mother to get pregnant since the egg is actually developed all the way. Basically, it’s the short period right before menstruation where the dead egg is discard along with the blood. Sorry if I’m grossing anybody out but that’s how a female’s gotta be. Oh, and thanks for keeping up with all my stories. It makes me feel so much better when I know that more people are keeping up with all my stories. I feel so special.
Your questions: How is InuYasha going to regain Kagome's trust? Well, really, to gain someone’s trust, they must first get to know you, but since Kagome has lost her memory and can’t remember anything, she basically must get to know Inuyasha, her own husband. However, Inuyasha wants to distance himself away from her until she gets her memory back or he kills the bastard(ess) that wanted to hurt Kagome. Since he is trying to do that, then it’s hard for Kagome to trust him, let alone for her to love him like she did before. Who is trying to tear them apart this time? Why? That, my friend, shall remain a mystery, even to me. I am not even sure who’s trying to pull them apart. Like I said, this is a “type as you go along” type of story. What are they after? Like any mortal (or immortal) enemies, Seikyo no Tenshi has their own. Since Inuyasha is one of the most top ranked body guard/protector/demon slayer (not like Sango but you get the point) he has his own enemies that would love to get back at him. That or it could be something that he’s done in the past to earn himself a nice bulls’ eye right on his heart directly, both physical and emotional. Sorry, but I can’t reveal anything else. And thank you for telling me that you enjoy getting author alerts with my name on them. Flattery will get you everywhere with my stories.
Kathryne Karyvah: I’m pretty sure everyone wanted to kick Inuyasha’s hot ass in chapter 1, but you gotta read the rest to not want to. Tell me, what was sad in chapter one. In 2, I was close to tears myself when I was writing the angsty-ness for Kagome. Sorry, I still haven’t finished reading the rest of your stories because procrastination is my 3rd middle name, along with Hyper and Psycho.
savage...heeh heeeh: That is a weird name to put up for a review. Have you still found that little note about you yet? Or have you been still been banned from the computer? You have to show me that thing for the whole Vegeta making a pepperoni pizza and singing and laughing maniacally while he does it. It must be hilarious! And you’ve been slacking off in French ever since Raymond started sitting next to you. And you were making progress too, but I guess you can’t hope for everything, like my StarOcean game! (laughs again like a maniacal psycho lady) JK!
Addanc-TSC: Why thank you! I think you’re gOOD too, but I don’t even know you. Itadakimasu!
shoesr4losers: I don’t think my story is GOD because that’d be against my religion to think that. But thank you for the comment.
Inuyasha lover (Martinez7219@aol.com): Oh please don’t burst! I couldn’t live with myself if one of my reviewers just spontaneously combusted because of my decision to revise my stories. Here, new chapter. New update. Totally 100 percent anti-spontaneous-combustion food. You eat, I mean read, and you’ll be just fine, right? Right?!
Well, I must stop wasting time and start revising the rest of my stories to hopefully update everything before I am forcefully taken out of Engineering class with the free internet. Ja ne!
BA326’s Final Thoughts:
I wonder how crazy someone can get when they’ve been deprived of cable for over 2 months? Wait, that’s me! No! I can’t let it end this way! I want my shows! Inuyasha! FullMetal Alchemist, Ghost in the Shell, TELETUBBIES! Okay, well maybe not the Teletubbies because that thing is the scariest shit in the world along with the Wiggles. But I want my anime back! Please, PUHLEAZE!!! I’m tired of not getting not enough sleep. I want to stay up at night, I want to laugh my guts out until my uncle tells me to be quiet or go to bed. I want to talk about what happened last night on blah blah blah. I want to say that Inuyasha is an ass and Miroku needs to get slapped to the ground and Inuyasha needs to stop being such a baka and let his feelings out for Kagome. Why me? Why must I not have cable for this long?!!!Converting /tmp/phpH6dvQC to /dev/stdout
Chapter 5 Tough Start
The ride to the house was quiet as Kagome only stared out the window while Inuyasha just felt like tearing something apart to vent his anger. As soon as they arrived at the house, Inuyasha parked the car and pulled Kagome’s stuff over his shoulder. He walked up to the house and unlocked the door before throwing her bag by the stairs.
Kagome started walking around, exploring the house since she stayed at Sesshoumaru’s the entire time, even when Rin went to grab her some clothes and extra things. Inuyasha went upstairs and into his room. He opened the door to the balcony and walked to the side and sat on the railing against the wall.
‘Why the hell would someone want to hurt Kagome like this? And why would they want to use her as a way to get to me? It doesn’t make sense. Why did Kagome think that I would do something like that, most of all to her? I knew I should have never left her alone for two weeks, especially since I knew that there were others that would want to hurt her because of me. Because of my stupid mistake, I left her vulnerable and unprotected. Now she’s lost our pup and her memory. I could’ve lost her if it wasn’t for Rin. If only I hadn’t accepted the job, or if I had just took her along anyway, then none of this would have happened. I’m such an idiot. Kagome…’
Inuyasha looked up at the twilight sky as the sun was nearly below the horizon. So many times he had sat out here to clear his head whenever he and Kagome got into a fight and she ended up hurt. This was the one place in which he could think through things, figure out a way to fix what he had done. However, this time, things seemed irreversible. Inuyasha had been lucky that Kagome had only lost her memory and baby. What would he have done if he had lost her too?
Kagome’s lost baby and her memories… They were things that could be recovered. All he and Kagome had to do was just start over, from the very beginning. But could he really do it all over again?
Inuyasha had been lucky to have found Kagome in college. His life never had any real happiness in it, not since his mother died when he was five. Even then, he couldn’t remember much about her except how much she loved him. After her death, his life became a torture to him, that is, until he went to college and met Kagome.
Having Kagome as his very first, true friend was a rare thing, a blessing. He had made friends with a girl named Kikyou as he grew up, but even she had to leave him for circumstances out of their control. However, Kagome… she never left him, not since she first met him. A gentle and kind creature, Kagome had healed the wounds he endured from his dreadful childhood. She always stayed by his side. Even if it only seemed like a too real fantasy, he allowed Kagome to slowly mend his heart, his soul, his everything. And in return, he promised to look after her.
But now, that promise seemed all too distant as he remembered Kagome’s condition. He couldn’t protect her last time, but maybe this time he could keep her safe by keeping her away. He was the main reason for her mishap and he couldn’t bring himself to let her get hurt again because of him. He had to let her go or she’d get hurt again because of him. To let go of her though, could he really do that? After all, wasn’t she the one that healed him when he really thought there was nothing left?
He couldn’t just leave her like that. Not when she really needed him the most. Starting over wouldn’t be so hard, right? Not if he’d already managed to do it the first time.
“Inuyasha?”
Inuyasha snapped out of his thoughts when he heard Kagome’s voice. He had been so deep in his thinking that he hadn’t even noticed when Kagome came outside. “What is it?”
“Why are you out here? It’s dark out here and it’ll get pretty cold soon. Don’t you want to come inside?”
He turned away to look at the waxing moon. “Keh! I ain’t as weak as you pathetic humans. I’m fine.”
“Oh, okay.” Kagome nodded and walked over to the concrete rail. She looked at the city lights from midtown Tokyo as they began to light up the darkness. “What are you doing out here?”
“Nothing. Just… thinking…”
“Oh. You’re thinking about how things ended up like this, huh?”
“Little.”
“I’m sorry I can’t be much help to you guys. The others have been stopping by all week while I was at Rin‘s. They’ve helped me recover a little bit, but I still know nothing about myself or my life. They keep telling me about what I was like, but I don’t know how to be the person they described.” Kagome laughed dryly to herself a little. “Sounds kinda silly. I don’t know how to be myself.”
Kagome looked back at Inuyasha and smiled a little. Her eyes were bright, glistening with a small glimmer hope. Inuyasha saw the sparkle of herself willing him to help her. Inuyasha parted his lips to say something but shook his head slightly as he leaned back against the wall, watching the night sky.
She walked to opened the door. “I think I’ll go back inside. Good night.”
She didn’t wait for his acknowledgement as she closed the door behind herself.
‘Maybe, Kagome… maybe we can…’
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“Hi, Kagome! We wanted to come over to see how you were doing.”
“Hi, guys. I’m fine, but you don’t have to come and check up on me every day. I’m not alone, you know.”
“Sorry!” Rin said as she placed a hand on the back of her head. “We can’t help it, you know.”
“Don’t worry, it’s okay. Just a little… weird. Come in.”
Rin, Sango, Shippou, and Kirara came in. “I haven’t seen you since Monday. How have you been feeling lately? Has everything been okay with Inuyasha and all?” Kirara asked.
“I’m okay, but my memory hasn’t recovered anymore since I last talked to y’all yesterday. Inuyasha hasn’t said too much since we came here Monday, but he’s been nice, I guess.”
“Do you girls not trust Kagome with me, or do you do all this just to spite me? Last time I checked, I didn’t bite and I don’t have rabies.”
Everyone looked back at Inuyasha, who was standing near the staircase casually.
“No, Inuyasha. We’re just concerned is all. We trust you and we’re not trying to spite you. We only want to make sure Kagome is okay.”
“Well then you can just call instead of always stopping by. Know what, scratch that. You keep calling even if you just came by. The phone rings every five fucking minutes and it’s always one of you. And then you tell me that you wanna talk to Kagome to make sure everything is fine even when I tell you basically the same thing.” Suddenly, the phone started ringing and Inuyasha looked like he was ready to blow a casket. “That proves my point. I bet it’s that dumbass wolf, or maybe it’s that damn lecher of yours Sango.”
Inuyasha stalked over to the phone and picked up the receiver. “Who the hell is this?”
“Inuyasha, it’s Ayame. Are the others over there yet?”
“Yeah, why? You calling to say that Kagome’s living with a worthless dog too? I told y’all she’s fine now stop calling!” Inuyasha slammed the phone down before Ayame could respond.
“Inuyasha! That wasn’t very nice! Who was it?”
“Another damn pest that’s adding on to my nerves.”
“I see Inuyasha is the same as always. Guess nothing ever changes that attitude of his. You would think he’d be a little nicer since he’s gotta take care of Kagome so she can recover.” Shippou sighed as he shook his head.
“Yep, some thing’s never change no matter how you look at it. Inuyasha will always be a baka, won’t he?”
“You got that right,” Sango agreed.
“You got something to say, then say in front of me, not when I’m not looking.”
The phone started ringing again, and Inuyasha grabbed for it. Kagome jumped in the way first.
“Hello? Zenya residence.”
“Kagome! Are you all right?”
“Yes, I’m fine. May I ask who is speaking?”
“Oh, dear. It’s your mother, Kagome. Can I speak with Inuyasha for a moment?”
“Sure.” Kagome handed Inuyasha the phone.
“Who is it?”
“She says she’s my mother.”
Inuyasha’s face paled slightly as he took the phone. “Ms. Higurashi?”
“Hello, Inuyasha. I heard about what happened and came straight back home. How’s Kagome? Please tell me what happened.”
“It’s a long story. Would you rather for us to come there and talk about it?”
“No, that will be alright. I’ll come over there this evening. Is it serious?”
“The doctors say that she has a severe case of amnesia and she also lost the pup.”
“Oh my. Did you have any plans for this evening?”
“No, not really.”
“Okay, well I’ll be there within the next hour. I’m bringing father as well. Have you talked to Souta?”
“Yes, we called as soon as I got back from Britain. He said he’d come as soon as everything settles down in Kyoto.”
“Well, okay. I’ll be there in a little bit.”
Inuyasha placed the receiver down and saw everyone looking at him.
“What happened, Inuyasha?” Sango asked.
“That was Kagome’s mom. She called to ask what happened and said she was coming over in a little while. She wants to discuss what happened with Kagome.”
“Well, since Kagome’s mother is coming over, then maybe we should leave. We’ll talked to you later.” Sango got up along with Kirara and Shippou.
“Do you mind if I stay, since I was there when everything happened?” Rin asked.
“We don’t mind. Are you sure you wouldn’t mind since you know more than the two of us?”
“No, not at all.”
“Okay, well, see you guys later,” Kirara said and left with the other two.
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The hour passed by quickly as Kagome and Rin chatted in the living room while Inuyasha stood by the kitchen, arms folded as he began pondering again. Finally, a knock came to the door and Inuyasha answered it.
A woman who looked to be in her mid to late 40s walked in and greeted everyone. “Hello, Inuyasha. It’s nice to see you again, Rin. My dear child, Kagome. You gave me such a scare when I heard about the accident.” She walked over to Kagome and gave her a big hug.
“H-Hi. I’m sorry that I worried you.” Kagome gave her mother a small hug back.
“Oh, dear, you don’t remember me at all, do you?”
“No, sorry. I feel kinda awkward. I’ve known my mother for my whole life, and yet it’s as if I’m just meeting you for the first time.”
“It’s okay, honey. There’s nothing that you could do about this except try and hope to pull through this. Shall we sit and talk about what happened then?”
Everyone nodded. The ladies sat in the living room while Inuyasha leaned against a wall across from where Mrs. Higurashi and Kagome sat. Inuyasha started explaining what happened and Rin filled in the blanks as he went along. Mrs. Higurashi understood most of the situation.
“So, someone decided to deceive Kagome into thinking that Inuyasha wanted to divorce her? But why would anyone want to do that?” she asked as she watched her daughter sleeping, her head resting in her mother‘s lap. Kagome had drifted to sleep during the beginning of the explanation. Probably because she woke up pretty early to clean the house before going to the doctors for another checkup.
“We’re guessing it’s because someone was trying to either tear apart Kagome and Inuyasha or to cause harm to Inuyasha through Kagome. This was just a starting point.”
“So this is somewhat of a warning? Why would someone want to harm Inuyasha and Kagome?”
“I don’t really know. I’ve gained a lot of enemies for the past two years, ever since I joined Seikyo no Tenshi. I wouldn’t be surprised if it’s someone that despises the agency.”
“Still, why would it be especially you and Kagome? I see no real reason why someone would threaten your lives when you only do your jobs. I wish you didn’t have to go through all of this.”
“There’s nothing you can do about it. This is the price to pay when everyone hates the half-breeds. All I can say is that I will find that bastard and make him pay for what he’s done to Kagome. She doesn’t deserve this, and I won’t allow her to suffer because of me.”
Mrs. Higurashi nodded. “Maybe it’d be a good idea for you and Kagome to stay at the shrine for a while. At least until you can get a lead of some sort to help figure out what exactly is going on. You two are still off work, right?”
“Yeah, I have about another month and Kagome has a few months until she is normal enough to be able to work again. She was already on vacation since our boss said he didn‘t want anything to happen to our pup. Fat lot of help that did us.”
“Okay, well, then you can stay at the shrine for as long as needed. When you go back to work, we’ll be with her so she won’t be alone. You’ll be in safe hands.”
“Keh. I didn’t plan on leaving Kagome alone. She said that she’d try to go back to the office when I do so she’ll be around more people that know her.”
“Well, still, I would like for Kagome to stay at least a while. I don’t like the thought of you two being here alone. It’s best if you stay with us.”
“Whatever.”
“Don’t worry, Mrs. Higurashi. Kagome’s in safe hands as long as Inuyasha’s here and the others and I will make sure of that.”
“Did I fall asleep?” Kagome said as she sat up rubbing her eye.
“You’re awake, dear. Kagome, we were planning on having you and Inuyasha stay with us at the shrine. Will that be fine?”
Kagome nodded. “That’d be alright. Is it okay, Inuyasha?”
“I don’t care.”
“Well, I guess it’s decided. It’s pretty late, so I’ll let you rest for the night.”
“Yeah, I think it’s time for me to hit the bed. I got work early in the morning,” Rin said as she gave Kagome a hug. “Call us if you need anything, alright?”
“Mm-hm. We will. Bye, Mama. Bye, Rin.” Inuyasha walked them to the door and closed it after they left.
“Inuyasha?”
“Go to bed, wench. You’re tired.”
“Okay…can I ask you something?”
“What?”
“How long have you known me?”
“Since college. Why?”
“I was wondering… since we’re married and all, and since you’ve known me for that long, how come you never tell me anything?”
“Tell you what?”
“About us, or something about what’s happened in the past few years.”
“Don’t the others tell you enough in one day as it is? Rushing, trying to cram everything in in one day ain’t gonna bring you’re memory back that fast.”
“But you never talked much in the last week.”
“There was nothing much to say. Shouldn’t you worry about yourself and not so much about me? You’re the one who needs to be reminded of everything. Not me.”
“I am, but I’m also curious about you. I don’t know much about you, and that makes me feel kinda out of place since I don’t know much about someone that I cared for. Would you?”
Inuyasha hesitated for a moment. “It don’t matter. Go to bed. You’ve got another appointment before we go to your mom’s.”
“ ‘Kay. Good night.” Kagome got up and walked upstairs.
She was barely in her room when he heard her sigh.
‘Baka! Why are you being so cold to her. She hasn’t done anything to you and you should be helping her. So stop acting so mad at her.’
‘I can’t help it. She’s been hurt enough as it is. If someone really wants to hurt her because of me, then I’ve gotta protect her. And if it means that I gotta remain detached from her, then so be it.’
‘But still…’
‘There’s nothing more to it. I’m protecting her, so leave it alone.’
Sorry, kinda not the way I wanted it but I’m probably gonna be killed for being up so late typing, so… I meant to update this yesterday, but it wasn’t finished yet, and that afternoon, I was baking cookies. Now my house smells like Oatmeal Raisin cookies. Besides that, I have to finish revising Say Goodbye and this original fiction/fantasy on fictionpress. That and give 2 more chapters for this and Engaging Enemies and 3 for Say Goodbye and Adept Storm (the original fiction thing). I hope to do all of that before the 13th.
I am sorry, but I probably won’t be able to update as much after the 13th because I finished Engineering class on that day and switch to new classes that Friday. I probably won’t be able to update in the media center at school because they don’t allow us to do that at school, but I do that anyway, and my Engineering teacher sees it anyway but doesn’t say or do anything. I’ll probably go MIA unless I miraculously get internet at home, which is doubtful looking at the current circumstances. The only way I would be able to update is if I get a chance to go to the library and update from there, but it won’t allow me to go to mediaminer because it’s categorized as either sex or mature. They think everybody’s gonna look at porn at the library. Disgusting! And the fact that I can’t drive yet sucks! Either that or someone generously offers to install internet for us. Gomen ne!
I haven’t done reviews for this story yet, so better get started.
Ceaseless Cloudy Days: I’ve never read any stories about anybody leaving anybody, but I guess it’ll be as original as this. Besides, I’ve never read a mystery genre type Inuyasha fanfic before. I’ve only written this because, one, it will get stuck in my head if I don’t type it, and two, the 2 month deprivation of cable has been nagging at my nerves. Since I only get CBS, NBS, ABC, FOX, AND MTV2, I’ve been only watching investigation shows on CBS. ‘Mazing how I just flip the channel and suddenly see a music video with the logo MTV2. Within these past 2 months, I’ve missed my major anime shows such as: new episodes of Inuyasha, FullMetal Alchemist, Ghost in the Shell Stand Alone Complex, Rave Master, Yu Yu Hakusho, Dragonball GT, Rurouni Kenshin, Teen Titans, Gundam Seed, Wolf’s Rain reruns, Witch Hunter Robin reruns, reruns of Inuyasha, etc… You get my point right? I want me cable back. Damn that damn Freddie, he was supposed to install our cable over a month ago and still hasn’t contacted us! If I didn’t put this story as mystery as well, then I shall change it to romance/mystery because I can.
Starrilight-Hotaru: Yes, I know that I have been crazy, esp. today since I had a sugar cookie, an oatmeal cookie, and chocolate icing from a chocolate cake. We all know what that spells! And for some reason I felt kinda slow with that name scramble. It took me 2 weeks to finally realize you were talking about that perv that decided to start groping my ass as well in 8th grade in Photography. Yes, I know that I am writing this on the world wide net and that everyone can see this statement of my personal life. But you know what, I friggin’ don’t care! Haha! (hits herself with the phone) Why did I just use a phone to hit myself when I’m not even using it? (laughs like the psycho she is)
moon shines on wolf @ aol (dot) com: Three different reviews. Hmm… 1. Yes, I am F-in’ crazy and don’t give a F about it. 2. I gave Kagome amnesia again? When did I do that? (does the Totosai scratch) I don’t remember. Maybe that was before I was murdered by you and brought back to life again… Why do you like murdering me and bringing me back to life when I do something other than type? 3. Here’s your update. I don’t update this story as much as I would like to, but because I have Engaging Enemies to be the bigger hit than this and because I have people carried over from Lost Memories to the sequel Say Goodbye, I can’t do too much with this as much as I could because I’m still forming everything with this. Certain parts are already planned out, but this is a “type as you go” kinda fic.
angelica incarnate: Hey, I remember you from Lost Memories and Engaging Enemies. You’re the one that said in Engaging Enemies “I always tell people that if you hate Kikyou, then you should torture her in the worst possible way” or something like that. If not, then sorry. The whole full moon/ new moon baby thing. Hmm… Hanyou on the full moon, human on the new moon, 1/4 demon/ human (depending on the mother) at the female’s highest peak of her ovum cycle. Basically, the 1/4 thing is when they mate on the mother’s peak of her cycle in which the fully developed egg has to be fertilized within the next 48 hours or it dies. This is the best time for a mother to get pregnant since the egg is actually developed all the way. Basically, it’s the short period right before menstruation where the dead egg is discard along with the blood. Sorry if I’m grossing anybody out but that’s how a female’s gotta be. Oh, and thanks for keeping up with all my stories. It makes me feel so much better when I know that more people are keeping up with all my stories. I feel so special.
Your questions: How is InuYasha going to regain Kagome's trust? Well, really, to gain someone’s trust, they must first get to know you, but since Kagome has lost her memory and can’t remember anything, she basically must get to know Inuyasha, her own husband. However, Inuyasha wants to distance himself away from her until she gets her memory back or he kills the bastard(ess) that wanted to hurt Kagome. Since he is trying to do that, then it’s hard for Kagome to trust him, let alone for her to love him like she did before. Who is trying to tear them apart this time? Why? That, my friend, shall remain a mystery, even to me. I am not even sure who’s trying to pull them apart. Like I said, this is a “type as you go along” type of story. What are they after? Like any mortal (or immortal) enemies, Seikyo no Tenshi has their own. Since Inuyasha is one of the most top ranked body guard/protector/demon slayer (not like Sango but you get the point) he has his own enemies that would love to get back at him. That or it could be something that he’s done in the past to earn himself a nice bulls’ eye right on his heart directly, both physical and emotional. Sorry, but I can’t reveal anything else. And thank you for telling me that you enjoy getting author alerts with my name on them. Flattery will get you everywhere with my stories.
Kathryne Karyvah: I’m pretty sure everyone wanted to kick Inuyasha’s hot ass in chapter 1, but you gotta read the rest to not want to. Tell me, what was sad in chapter one. In 2, I was close to tears myself when I was writing the angsty-ness for Kagome. Sorry, I still haven’t finished reading the rest of your stories because procrastination is my 3rd middle name, along with Hyper and Psycho.
savage...heeh heeeh: That is a weird name to put up for a review. Have you still found that little note about you yet? Or have you been still been banned from the computer? You have to show me that thing for the whole Vegeta making a pepperoni pizza and singing and laughing maniacally while he does it. It must be hilarious! And you’ve been slacking off in French ever since Raymond started sitting next to you. And you were making progress too, but I guess you can’t hope for everything, like my StarOcean game! (laughs again like a maniacal psycho lady) JK!
Addanc-TSC: Why thank you! I think you’re gOOD too, but I don’t even know you. Itadakimasu!
shoesr4losers: I don’t think my story is GOD because that’d be against my religion to think that. But thank you for the comment.
Inuyasha lover (Martinez7219@aol.com): Oh please don’t burst! I couldn’t live with myself if one of my reviewers just spontaneously combusted because of my decision to revise my stories. Here, new chapter. New update. Totally 100 percent anti-spontaneous-combustion food. You eat, I mean read, and you’ll be just fine, right? Right?!
Well, I must stop wasting time and start revising the rest of my stories to hopefully update everything before I am forcefully taken out of Engineering class with the free internet. Ja ne!
BA326’s Final Thoughts:
I wonder how crazy someone can get when they’ve been deprived of cable for over 2 months? Wait, that’s me! No! I can’t let it end this way! I want my shows! Inuyasha! FullMetal Alchemist, Ghost in the Shell, TELETUBBIES! Okay, well maybe not the Teletubbies because that thing is the scariest shit in the world along with the Wiggles. But I want my anime back! Please, PUHLEAZE!!! I’m tired of not getting not enough sleep. I want to stay up at night, I want to laugh my guts out until my uncle tells me to be quiet or go to bed. I want to talk about what happened last night on blah blah blah. I want to say that Inuyasha is an ass and Miroku needs to get slapped to the ground and Inuyasha needs to stop being such a baka and let his feelings out for Kagome. Why me? Why must I not have cable for this long?!!!Converting /tmp/phpH6dvQC to /dev/stdout