InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ From Ice to SunShine ❯ Lies and Secrets ( Chapter 10 )

Title: From Ice to Sunshine

WARNING: If you have a thing about underage drinking then do not read this chapter. You have been warned.

Disclaimer: Don't own Inuyasha or any of the other characters you guys should know this by now. I don't own the song Nobody's Home by Avril Lauigne

(A/N: Don't think I have any except thanks to all the wonderful people who have reviewed, and here I didn't think this story was going to make it boy was I wrong.)

Chapter 10: Lies and Secrets

By Tainted InuShemeeko

Kari gasped as she looked up at Sesshomaru.

"Sesshomaru."

His eyes remained cold as he continued to stare at the young woman with tear streaked cheeks in front of him. He couldn't control the anger that was building inside him. His voice came out harsher then he had planned.

"That monster stolen something scared to you as well and you told no one of this deed? You even carry his child within you. Why, why would you want to have that bastard's child?"

Kari stood up and stood her ground in front of Sesshomaru, hot tears splashing to the floor below.

"I didn't plan this, but I couldn't do it. I couldn't end its life; it's just an innocent being, it didn't ask to be born this way. I tried I really did but every time I went to the clinic, I would always end up leaving. I couldn't go through with it. I just couldn't take its life."

Without knowing that she was doing it Kari threw herself into Sesshomaru's arms as she sobbed. Sesshomaru slowly wrapped his arms around her hoping that it would be enough, besides Rin he had never comforted a woman before. He then his throat and blushed as he asked Kari what her name was.

"I believe your last name is Kendoma, however your first name has left me I do apologize."

Kari couldn't help the small giggle that escaped from within her. He was so cute when he was embarrassed no wonder Rin fell in love with him. Her voice soon became soft as she spoke to him.

"My first name is Kari, well I should go. Give my best to Rin."

She then pulled out of Sesshomaru's embrace as she turned to leave. His right hand shot out and grabbed the forearm of her left arm.

"Kari you can not keep this secret from Rin for long you must tell her soon. It is better to give her all the news soon. Bradley shall regret harming you or Rin, I shall see to it that he is put into jail for life."

Kari gave him a small smile as she walked down the hallway. She then stopped to look back at him.

"Sesshomaru I want to thank you for understanding. You really are more caring than you think, and don't worry I will tell her soon, but some how I think she all ready knows."

Sesshomaru watched as Kari Kendoma walked out of the hospital doors. Her last statement was a mystery to him. What had she meant when she said that Rin already knew?

`How could Rin know about the predicament that Kari is in?'

That's when it hit him; Bradley had been in the room with Rin minutes before she collapsed.

"Of course how could he not resist in gloating about what he saw as an accomplishment. I can only guess how my sweet Rin took the news, surly she feels betrayed."

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Sesshomaru remained by Rin's side all night. He was awakened by the bright rays of the sun that filtered in through the curtains in her room. Blinking his eyes Sesshomaru took in his surroundings, he then remembered that he had fallen asleep in the chair beside Rin's bed. His honey-brown eyes quickly looked in the direction of Rin's bed. A small smile was drawn on her face as she looked at him.

"Morning sleepyhead, I was starting to think that you were going to sleep the day away."

Her smile had confused him how could she be so happy this morning? They had just lost their child shouldn't she still be sad? Yet he couldn't find a trace of sadness in her face or in her eyes, the only thing there was this sparkling happiness.

`How can she have that smile on her lips? I just don't understand it; her heart has to be broken.'

He soon came back to his sense, so he could then speak.

"From the looks of it you are ready to go home are you not?"

"Hai, Sesshomaru I'm ready to go home now."

He nodded as he continued to watch Rin.

"Kari came to see you yesterday. She had come to tell you something yet she never did, she said she had a feeling that you already knew. Is this true?"

Rin's cinnamon eyes widened when she understood what Sesshomaru was talking about. It must have been true Kari had come to confide in her about what Bradley had done to her months ago.

"Hai, I know that Bradley raped her, just as I know that she is pregnant as well."

Sesshomaru nodded and remained silent.

"Let us go home then Rin."

She smiled lightly as he took her hand and they left the room and headed down the hall.

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The sun was just starting to peek out from behind the horizon. Sesshomaru leaned over and placed a kiss on her forehead, then her cheek, then her neck. He missed the feeling of Rin's soft skin against his; damn he just missed having her. It had been a month and a half since Rin had had her miscarriage that doctor had told her that she could have sex now and that everything looked good.

He needed her now, there were so many feelings locked up inside him. Yet it wasn't his unshed grief that he was worried about, it was Rin's. She had, had so much grief this year her mother and now their child. What worried him the most was that she had missed his graduation; she wouldn't even go to the party afterwards. No she had tried to go to his ceremony, yet when her eyes fell on Toki Sesshomaru and Inuyasha's baby sister she had burst into tears and left.

Sesshomaru kissed her shoulder, god how he needed her right now yet not once had she kissed him back in fact she shied away from him.

"Rin?"

Rin pulled the sheet up over her shoulder.

"Not now Sesshomaru."

Her response made his blood boil she was his wife he wanted to help her heal he wanted to talk to her, but every time he tried she pulled him away. Sesshomaru pulled the sheet off him-self and climbed out of bed.

"As you wish, I'm going to work."

Fifteen minutes after a cold shower Sesshomaru was dressed in a dark blue- red pin striped suit. A white dress shirt and red tie, and black dress shoes finished up his look. He drank a glass of orange juice and grabbed a breakfast bar as he hurried out the door.

He stopped at the door and turned to see Rin standing in the kitchen. She was still dressed in her peach nightgown.

"Enjoy your day Rin."

With that said he left, the soles of his shoes clicked on the sidewalk as he made his way to his silver Pontiac Grand AM. Sesshomaru tossed is briefcase across the seat as he climbed in slamming the door behind him.

[I couldn't tell you

Why she felt that way

She felt it every day

And I couldn't help her

I just watched her make

The same mistakes again]

He just didn't understand why he couldn't reach her. Why wouldn't she let him in, why wouldn't she let any of them in? Him, Inuyasha, Kagome, his step-mother, his father, even her best friends Kari and Koharu, Rin had turned them away and locked herself up inside.

"Why Rin why do you intend you keep your pain inside. It's not like you to do such a thing. You've never been so reserved with me before."

Thirty minutes later Sesshomaru pulled into his parking spot. He looked up at the huge silver and black building. Huge gold letters sparkled in the morning sun they read "Antique Finds". Sesshomaru knew that his father's company name was misleading yet that was how InuTaisho Tenseiga had planned it all along.

Sesshomaru knew that today was going to be a long day. He just hoped he could make it through the day. It was something he wasn't sure he could do. He had wanted Rin this morning he didn't have her this morning. Hell he would have been happy with a conversation this morning, he couldn't even get that.

"Rin I truly wish I knew what was going on in that head of yours."

[What's wrong what's wrong now

Too many too many problems

Don't know where she belongs

Where she belongs]

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Rin took a shaky step towards the nursery, she felt like this was the first time she was going into it, which in reality it wasn't. Her left hand shook as she turned the key in the lock and then the knob. Why was she doing this to herself, because ever time she did, she was greeted with that happy memory of the night Sesshomaru showed her this room.

Sesshomaru had had on a smile that night. She missed that smile and she was the reason why she hadn't seen it. All she really wanted to do was go back, go back through time to that minute and stay there.

[She wants to go home

But nobody's home

That's where she lies

Broken inside]

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Sesshomaru looked up from the stack of papers. From the way things were he couldn't wait for is first semester to start in college. He had already gotten his acceptant letter from Bokuseno University, as well as Yale and a whole bunch of other colleges however Bokuseno University had been his first choice.

"I believe my father sent all of this work to me on purpose."

In truth his father had done it on purpose. It was well known in his family that there was a strained tension between Rin and him. This morning had been proof of that strain; she had turned away from him for the twelfth time, rejected when he needed her just like he was sure she needed him.

[Open your eyes

And look outside

Find the reasons why

You've been rejected

Now you can't find

What you've left behind]

Sesshomaru glared over at the radio, he hadn't really been paying attention to the song on the radio till that verse started playing. It seemed to him that the song was mocking him for it was the second time he had heard it today. It had been playing when he had started his car this morning.

[Be strong be strong now

Too many too many problems

Don't know where she belongs

Where she belongs]

He jumped up from his desk as quickly switched it off, as he did so, there was a firm knock on the door of his small office. Sesshomaru cleared his mind of thoughts of this morning as he spoke.

"You may come in."

Sesshomaru's father walked into the office and took in his son's disheveled state. The top two buttons to his white shirt were unbuttoned and his red tie was untied. The tie that had been holding his hair back was falling out and the stack of papers that had been there this morning was still there. This would have been the normal state he expected to see Inuyasha in when he turned eighteen. However he never expected to see Sesshomaru in the state he had always been the perfect set of calm.

"Sesshomaru, Izayoi and Toki will be coming with me on a business trip for a week. Inuyasha will be staying at Miroku's house. It would mean a lot to Izayoi and I if you and Rin would come and stay at the house."

There was no response from Sesshomaru he remain silent. So his father cleared his throat as he looked around his son's office once more.

"Why don't you take the rest of the afternoon off and get some rest. These papers can wait another day to be looked over."

In response to his father's words, Sesshomaru walked over and grabbed the jacket to his suit. He then turned his cold eyes to his father.

"As you wish father, I will stay at the house if that is what you desire. When do you leave?"

InuTaisho found his voice as he answered his son.

"They are already at the airport they are just waiting on me to arrive."

Sesshomaru nodded and spoke once more as he headed for the door.

"That is good. I hope your flight is a good one. Good day father."

He had been halfway though the doorway when his father's voice stopped him.

"Isn't Rin staying with you?"

The air in the room seemed to grow colder as Sesshomaru stopped and turned to look at his father.

"What Rin does is her business. I am sure that my company is the last thing that she wants. I have tried to mourn the death of our child with her and she refuses to let me in, let alone be with her."

He then stormed down the hallway, took a left and headed down the stairs.

"Oh Sesshomaru don't give up on her. She needs you now more then you know."

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Once inside his parent's house Sesshomaru slid off his shoes, he then laid his jacket on the back of one of the dinning room chairs. He then did the one thing that he thought he would never do, seeing how he had two more years before he was of drinking age. Sesshomaru walked into the kitchen and walked over to his father's mini bar.

Pulling out a shot glass, he then pulled out the liquor that he would need as well as a few other ingredients as he prepared his poison. This entire he did from memory from watching his father make it. He smiled as he recalled what his father had called it.

"San Diego Silver Bullet, perhaps father you did teach me something."

He downed his first shot and then another.

"It's clear that you taught me nothing about women. For it would seem I know nothing about them."

Sesshomaru then abandoned the shot glass on the counter and shuffled into the living room. He gracefully let his body drop into the blue recliner, as his cold honey brown eyes stared into the dark fireplace. A lone tear slid from one of his eyes and then another one.

Lies all lies that's all she had told him. She wasn't fine and things weren't ok and he knew it now he should have seen it sooner, but he didn't because he was trying to deal with his own grief. So in truth they both had pushed each other away.

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[Her feelings she hides

Her dreams she can't find

She's losing her mind

She's falling behind

She's can't find her place

She's losing her faith

She's falling from grace

She's all over the place yeah]

Tears slid down her cheeks for the third time that day, as she hung up the phone with Sesshomaru's father. He had called to see if his son had come home because no one was answering the phone at their house. She couldn't do this any more, she just couldn't keep pushing him away she needed him he was her lifeline.

[She wants to go home

But nobody's home

That's where she lies

Broken inside

With no place to go

No place to go

To dry her eyes….]

Rin flipped the button on her radio as she hurriedly ran out the door locking it behind her. No the song was wrong she did have a place to dry her eyes. She had Sesshomaru that was if she hadn't already lost him. Rin shook her head as she hurried to her car. How could she have been so stupid to think that she was the only one hurting and in pain, he was hurting too only she had been too blind by her own pain to see it.

"Oh Sesshomaru please be okay…and please forgive me."

She buckled her seat belt as she pressed down on the gas and backed her car out of their driveway. Rin was going with her gut on where Sesshomaru was at she just hoped she was right.

(A/N: That's all for Ch. 10. Stay tuned for Chapter 11: Forgiveness and A Plan.

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Ja ne!

Tainted InuShemeeko)

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