InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ From Ice to SunShine ❯ Hanging on, Mask of Guilt and Rage ( Chapter 13 )

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Chapter 13: Hanging on, Mask of Guilt and Rage

By Tainted InuShemeeko

Sesshomaru was awakened by the searing pain that was shooting down his back. All around him he could hear people screaming and crying. He slowly lifted his head from the asphalt as he did, the memories from minutes before can rushing back to him. Making him forget all about the pain that was shooting down his spine, right now only one thing mattered finding Rin. Sesshomaru's honey brown eyes were now glazed over with pain as he tried to pull himself across the hot ground.

Rin had seen Bradley Holmes inside of the office building so the two of them had decided to go home early. When they both walk to the parking lot, Rin had suggested that they take each other's cars instead of their own. He had been half way to Rin's car when a feeling came over him, something just didn't feel right. Sesshomaru then realized that there was no way for Bradley to know that Rin would be there. So Bradley's one purpose for being there would be for one thing to get rid of him.

Just as he had reached Rin and pulled her in front of him, Sesshomaru remembered hearing a strange noise coming from his car. Which only made him run faster with Rin and then there was nothing his memory was blank.

Sesshomaru ignored the pain that was ripping through his body as he continued to pull himself along. It was then that he realized that something was lying on top of him. He looked to his right and realized for the first time that Rin wasn't beside him. This knowledge caused Sesshomaru to try and look behind him, which caused the pain in his back to increase.

Through the veil of pain in front of his eyes he caught sight of Rin's dark hair.

`No not Rin, please kami not Rin.'

Sesshomaru looked over to try and get to Rin all he could see was red. It blinded the sight in his right eye, as well as the ground. He then suddenly noticed the blood that was caked to the left side of Rin's face. Rage coursed through his whole body as he reached a blood covered hand toward Rin. The action caused streams of uncontrollable pain to spread through out his body. He then screamed out in pain and anger,

"Your day will come Bradley I will make you pay for all you have done to us."

Unable to fight the pain anymore, Sesshomaru passed out and gave himself back to the darkness.

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Bradley ran his fingers through the wild dark mop on top of his head; uncontrollable panic was etched all over his face. None of this was suppose to happen, Rin wasn't suppose to get hurt just the demon that she was married too.

"Oh god, oh god, why Rin, why did you go to his car? You were supposed to go to your car not his. Just look at what you made me do to you this isn't going to do at all."

Afraid that someone might see him, Bradley dared not stay on the grounds for too long. Someone might realize that he didn't belong there and then he really would be in trouble. So he did the one thing that his uncontrollable fear would let him do, he ran. Not once did he look behind him, as he ran, he just had to get away and pray that Rin was not hurt that badly.

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Rin's head was spinning as she tried her best to open her eyes. On both sides of her, she could faintly hear a man and a woman speaking too her. At first she was surprised that they even knew her name, then again she was a family member of the most well known family in the town.

"Mrs. Tenseiga, can you hear me? Just take it easy you were caught in an accident, don't worry everything will be alright we'll take good care on you."

She knew they would, even though she wasn't fond of hospitals. Rin had started to relax a little when a starling thought came to mind. Where was Sesshomaru? Was he even alive still?

"My husband, where's my husband? Where's Sesshomaru?"

The female EMT did her best to calm Rin's fears as she spoke.

"He's been air lifted to the hospital, but don't worry he's in good hands."

Rin did her best to relax, but she couldn't it didn't matter. She was hang on the end of panic, didn't they air lift people when they were really bad off. Rin laid still as the EMTs continued to work on her. She wasn't about to believe that she was going to lose Sesshomaru. There was no way, he couldn't leave her. He was her everything and now he was fighting for his life.

`Please Sesshomaru you can't, please don't leave me.'

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Sesshomaru did his best not to cry out in pain; however the pain was like nothing he had ever felt before. He could feel something poking him in the back, it was sharp and thick. A voice to the right of him spoke,

"Take it easy young Mr. Tenseiga; there is still a piece of metal lodged in your back. It will have to be surgically removed when we get to the hospital."

Then a woman about twenty eight started to talk to him.

"Mr. Tenseiga, do you know why you're here?"

He thought about it for a moment and then answered,

"I know that I was injured in some way…"

It was then that everything came back to him, causing his breathing to become difficult.

"There was an explosion in the parking lot; my wife and I were caught in it."

For the first time in his life Sesshomaru felt himself panic, which he did not like at all but it couldn't be helped.

"Rin where is she, I must know how badly she was injured."

Sesshomaru did his best to ignore the pain in his lungs as he snarled out his question. The woman riding with him spoke to him as softly.

"She'll be fine, but right now I need you to try and calm down. Everything is going to be fine."

She then slipped an oxygen mask over Sesshomaru's nose and mouth, which would aid him in breathing better. Somehow she knew that some of the words she spoke were false, for she truly had no way of knowing how things would turn out in the end. Only the doctor that was standing and waiting for news from the OR could tell.

There was one question running through both of the EMT's as they watched Sesshomaru's vitals. Why and who would be mad enough to try and kill the eldest son of InuTaisho Toga Tenseiga? It just didn't make sense, however in a world like today it was hard to say. There were people out there that their minds had actually gone south.

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InuTaisho's hand shook as he hung the phone back down on the receiver. Right now he felt as if a piece of his heart had been ripped out of his chest. No, it couldn't be it was impossible; there was no way that the person on the other line could have been right. Then again Myoga had never been wrong before, he always took pride in all the information he bought to InuTaisho.

He stiffened when he heard Izayoi walk into the room.

"InuTaisho, who was that on the phone?"

InuTaisho did his best to keep his voice from shaking as he spoke to his wife.

"Is Toki asleep?"

Izayoi took a cautious step toward her now solemn husband.

"Yes she is InuTaisho what is it? What's wrong?"

Standing quickly on his feet, InuTaisho looked out the window at the evening sky. How was he supposed to tell her? Izayoi wasn't Sesshomaru's true mother, yet it had never really mattered to her. For she thought of him as if he was her own. Hearing this new he knew would wound her soul just as much as it had his.

"We will be leaving for Tokyo soon. There are matters there that need the both of us."

InuTaisho's words confused her and they didn't make any sense.

"InuTaisho, what's going on you're not making any sense."

He then turned to face Izayoi; his honey brown eyes were filled with a sadness she had never seen before.

"There was an explosion in the parking lot of our building. Someone planted a bomb on one of the cars."

"Oh, InuTaisho that's horrible."

The late summer breeze caught the ends of his long silver hair, as he walked toward his caring wife.

"There's more Izayoi, the bomb was attached to Sesshomaru's car."

InuTaisho watched as she gasped and placed a hand to her mouth as he continued.

"Both he and Rin where caught in the explosion."

He had almost never cried in his life, yet when he saw the liquid streams flowing from Izayoi's eyes he felt a crack in the wall. Somehow he managed to continue to tell her what he had just heard from Myoga.

"It turns out that Rin's injuries aren't that bad. Sesshomaru used his body like a shield and protected her."

Izayoi was half afraid to ask, but she had to know she just had too.

What about Sesshomaru? What did Myoga say about Sesshomaru's injuries?"

InuTaisho blew a breath out of his nose, as he took his wife's hands in his. He then fought to have the courage to tell her what he didn't want to tell her.

"Sesshomaru is still in surgery. There hasn't been any word on how he's doing yet."

That right then was enough to make InuTaisho lose his mind. The waiting, he didn't want to wait he wanted answers. Which made him leaving for home as soon as he could a big must, he needed to be here, he just had to see his son.

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With her head wound stitched up and her left arm in a sling, Rin made her way down the hallway. She just had to know she had to find out how bad Sesshomaru was hurt.

[I wanted to be like you

I wanted everything

So I tried to be like you

And I got swept away.]

Rin's cinnamon orbs widened as she watched them roll Sesshomaru into the operating room. There was only one thing that ran through her mind when she saw him.

`Please lord; don't let me lose him, not after everything we've been through.'

[I didn't know that it was so cold

And you needed someone

To show you the way

So I took your hand and we figured out

That when the tide comes

I'd take you away]

She had just gotten over one sadness in her life, and she knew that she could bear to lose Sesshomaru as well. Just like she had been the one to melt some of the ice around his heart, he was the stone in her life that kept her from falling. They had just started a life together surely it was his time to leave her not yet.

[If you want to

I can save you

I can take you away from here

So lonely inside

So busy out there

And all you wanted

was somebody who cares]

Time was slowly slowing down as Rin paced the hallway. Why hadn't they came out and told her anything about Sesshomaru yet. Just why hadn't someone came and told her yet what was going on? That's when a doctor with red hair and azure eyes started to walk toward her.

"Mrs. Tenseiga?"

Rin took a step toward the doctor as he walked from the OR.

"Ye-ssss, I'm Mrs. Tenseiga. How is my husband, how is Sesshomaru?"

She didn't like the grim look that the doctor was giving her. It only meant on thing, something bad must have happened to Sesshomaru. Rin braced herself for the doctor's words as he spoke.

"Mrs. Tenseiga, I wish to tell you that your husband made it through the surgery all right. We were about to remove the metal debris from his back. However there appears to be a small amount of nerve damage in his back that send messages to his legs."

There was no stopping the trail of crystalline tears that were running down her cheeks. At this very moment Rin felt like she was falling, none of this was possible; no it just couldn't be real.

[I'm sinking slowly

So hurry hold me

Your hand is all I have to keep me

hanging on

Please can you tell me

So I can finally see

Where you go when you're gone]

The doctor continued to explain thing to her, but his words fell on deaf ears.

"However, the damage doesn't seem to be permanent. In a few months I'm sure Sesshomaru will be able to walk again. Let's not forget that he is still very young."

The young doctor shifted on his feet as he looked at Rin. He didn't know what else he could tell her.

"Well I should get back inside. I will check back in with you, if there are any changes."

[If you want to

I can save you

I can take you away from here

So lonely inside

So busy out there

And all you wanted

was somebody who cares]

Rin watched as the doors to the OR swung closed. She felt as if the wall to the world she had known was crumbling apart on her. None of this seemed real, no it just couldn't be real all of this had to be a dream of some kind.

Inuyasha became stunned as Rin started to fall toward the floor. His sneakered feet slid on the tile floor in the hospital, as he hurriedly made his way to Rin.

"Rin what happened? Where's Sesshomaru?"

Her knees gave out on her the minute Inuyasha's hand touched her shoulder. Which caused the fifteen year old to brace her as her knees sank to the floor.

"Rin, talk to me please, do you know what's going on with Sesshomaru? I mean he's a pain in my ass but he's still my brother.

[All you wanted was somebody who cares

If you need me you know I'll be there

Oh, yeah]

Somehow finding the strength Rin managed to pull herself to her feet. She then watched as the doors to the operating room swung open and Sesshomaru was rolled out. Rin bit her lip as she watched the nurses push him down the hall. Her cheeks were stained with tears as the doctor walked toward her.

Rin was only half aware of what the doctor was say to her. All she really cared about was seeing Sesshomaru.

"When can I see him?"

"We're working on getting him into a recovery room. As soon as he is settled in we'll let you go into see him. Just try not to stress him out to much, we did him as calm as we can get him. It will help out his recovery a lot."

Unsure on how to word her question, Rin just came out and asked it.

"Does he already know about his condition?"

The doctor stuffed a pen back into his pocket of his lab coat as he continued to speak to Rin.

"No, however there is someone waiting with him now. As soon as he is awake more, his condition will be explained to him. You may go see him in a few minutes."

Rin's eyes glanced at the name tag that was on the doctor's coat as he turned and led Inuyasha off to talk to him. It read Dr. K. Jin, she then watched as a nurse walked up to Dr. Jin. He smiled as he walked up to her.

"The nurses tell me that he has been asking for you non stop. You may go see him now, he's in room 221."

Rin nodded and bowed as she made her way to the elevator, she was going to get to see Sesshomaru now and that's all that matter.

[If you want to

I can save you

I can take you away from here

So lonely inside

So busy out there

And all you wanted

was somebody who cares]

Time seemed to slow as Rin stood in front of the door that had two twenty-one on them. Here it was the one moment she had been wanting and now she was afraid. She was afraid if she opened the door that Sesshomaru would disappear on her. Pulling in a shaky breath Rin placed her right hand on the door as she pushed it open.

As she walked into the room, Rin took in Sesshomaru's resting form. Pure white bandages where wrapped around Sesshomaru's head. All types of tubes and wires were attached to his body telling Rin and anyone who were to walk into the room that he was indeed alive.

Taking slow gentle steps Rin made her way to Sesshomaru's bedside. She then leaned forward and placed a gentle kiss to his left cheek.

[Please can you tell me

So I can finally see

Where you go when you're gone]

A soft smile and more tears followed as she watched his honey golden brown eyes flutter open. It was one thing she had hoped to see his eyes, and her wish had been granted to her.

"Please Sesshomaru don't ever leave me like that again. I thought I was going to lose you."

Sesshomaru moved his left hand to touch her right cheek. He then brushed the tears from her cheeks.

"I have no intention of leaving you anytime soon. However I was concerned that you might have left me as well I am greatful that you have not. I am not sure if I could make it through this alone. For you are my reason for living."

Rin smiled as she gently placed a gentle hand on his bruised and scraped right cheek. She then leaned in to place a kiss on his lips.

"As you are mine; Sesshomaru, so much has happened to us this year. What did we ever do to deserve all of these horrible things?"

Sesshomaru's voice remained steady and calm as he answered Rin.

"You are speaking of my current condition. It is nothing we will make it through together and will make the best of it. The temporally lost of movement in my legs is merely an obstacle for us to over come."

Sesshomaru squeezed Rin's hand; to show that things would work out for them it would just take time and lots of patience. Their lips touched in a passionate kiss, each one shriving to please the other. For the both knew that they would always have each other.

(Quick A/N: Next time in Ch. 14. A Gift for the One I Love. Summer is over and November is coming to a close as well, the coldness of winter is coming and Sesshomaru is adapting to his life in a wheelchair. At the same time he promises Rin that he will be walking again by the New Year. Rin however has a Christmas present that no one expected.

Ok now on to reviewer responses: To AntarsStarChild: I shall fix this, how soon I can not saying when my plot just keeps growing.

To all of you who asked about Sesshomaru: You now see that he is alive.

Thank you: to all of you who have taken to read and review this story. It makes me over flow with joy.

Until Next Time,

Ja ne!

Tainted InuShemeeko)

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