InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Frozen ❯ Chapter 17: If I lose you ( Chapter 19 )

Title: Frozen
Author: DeityOfDeath
Archive: Yes please...
Pairings: Inu Yasha/ various, Inu Yasha/Sesshomaru, Inu Yasha/Kouga mentions of Inu Yasha/Kagome and Inu Yasha/ Kikyo
Category: Drama, romance, slash, Mpreg, yaoi
rating: NC-17/R
Spoilers: Most likely.
Warnings: Yaoi, Lemon, Non-con, Mpreg, Incest, SPOILERS!
Disclaimers: I never have nor will I ever own Inu Yasha or its chars. They are property of Rumiko Takashi and major companies.

Note from Author: Thank You for reading and supporting fan fiction! Enjoy and please review!

The chapter titles are lyrics from the song "Frozen” by Madonna


Chapter 17: If I lose you

Three months went by quickly for us in our new home and it seemed a blur as winter became spring.

Myorika can now fully hold her head up and give actual smiles. She does little pushups and can easily roll herself over on her own. She is quite a grabber and goes for hair no matter her target we all react with gentleness, encouraging her new found skill, even Sesshomaru. She babbles incessantly more so than her brother ever had. She seems intent on getting her point across.

I was amused by Sesshomaru's antics as much as Myorika's. He made time to be with us whether to have brunch or to take a break from work to come sit down with us on a blanket in the castle gardens where we partake of the warm sunshine quite often. He seems silently interested in my small daughter and watches almost intently as I do.

“Do you plan to visit the Wolf prince anytime soon,” he asked from his spot beside me, watching as Myorika flailed her tiny fists as she lay on her belly on the blanket.

“I was thinking about it. I was thinking a small journey would be nice,” I said pushing my hair away from face where the wind had blown it.

He looked up at that and at me, “Journey?”

I watched my daughter with her thickening patch of black hair so much like her older brothers except for that odd white patch, “Yeah…remember I told you about my first son? I was thinking I should stop and see his grave before I take Myorika for a visit with Kouga and after we can visit Kaede and then we can return home.”

“I would like to accompany you,” he said instead of asking. I knew my brother well enough to know that even if I hadn't planned on him coming with me that he would more than likely have followed me anyway.

“I had planned on it,” I deadpanned, “besides…you can get Rin a new kimono on the way and use escorting me as a reason to escape your duties that you have amassed now that you have settled at home once again.”

He nodded, “I should tell my mother so that she can once again care for the castle and all who dwell within it. She has been asking about you, shall we set up a private meeting or would you prefer something larger, like a dinner gathering,” he asked finally turning to look me in the eye.

My heart skipped a beat and my chest felt tight but I couldn't thoroughly explain why. His eyes were so much like my own and yet so different and they seemed to pull me into their honeyed depths.

I looked away first and back at Myorika as she wiggled on her blanket, “We don't have to rush. I would like to wait a few months until Rikka is a little older, maybe in three months time; just as summer begins.”

“That is acceptable. We will discuss this further on another day then.”

With that he stood and dusted himself off causing his scent to fill my nose. I inhaled deeply and blushed as I did so as a feeling of indecency came over me. As he walked by he placed a hand against my cheek, I looked up shocked and he gave me that emotionless stare.

“You shouldn't stay outside too much longer, you seem to be flushed.”

With that he removed his hand and walked back into the castle leaving his scent wafting behind him along with my troubled thoughts.

“You shouldn't fight it you know,” said that all too familiar voice with its purr.

I startled from my thoughts as Hayaime came to stand next to me with his hands tucked away in his robe.

“You do know that demons mate siblings all the time and that Sesshomaru-sama has already made it clear to many in the castle that you are off limits,” he said with as much tact as a cat could. I almost expected him to stop and start grooming himself while I watched.

“He is just looking after mine and Myorika's well being,” I said trying to pretend my cheeks weren't still flushed.

“Tell yourself what you must InuYasha, I do no fault you your pride or your human upbringing but know that you should not deny your demon half just like you do not deny your human half. They are both parts of you and yet you constantly hide behind your human teachings and behaviors. I am informing you so have no excuses in the future.”

Myorika began fussing and I stood up and lifted her from the blanket rocking her gently to calm her.

“It is wrong for you to deny yourself happiness and I will not allow you to deny Sesshomaru-sama the happiness you have so graciously given him a view of,” and with that he walked away leaving me once again to my thoughts with my fussy daughter.

Another month went by with what Hayaime had said floating in my mind. Every tender touch, sweet word and kind action was noticed. Sesshomaru had certainly become touchier than I had ever known him to be; with a pat on the shoulder, a hand on the back, a small caress on my cheek and a hand occasionally on mine. I tried not to be self-conscious of it and if Sesshomaru noticed he said nothing and acted no differently.

Myorika seemed to recognize his voice and even stopped crying if she sensed his presence in the room. She was developing quickly and already had a great sense of smell and presence. Her behavior often alerted me of who was coming into the room even if I didn't take a sniff or look.

I myself have settled in to routine of caring for Myorika and when she is outside on her blanket learning to crawl and move I practice a few feet away from her, strengthening muscles and training myself. Every so often Sesshomaru comes to watch and sometimes he offers to spar with me while Murasaki and Bara watch over Rikka. Kurokami has also sparred with me once or twice and he is powerful and strong but also gentler than Sesshomaru but he is a good instructor.

By the time Myorika's fifth month had come I was training more and had even asked Murasaki and Bara's help in watching my little daughter while I sparred in the garden on the nicer days. It was on such a day that I had worked up quite a sweat sparring first with Sesshomaru and then Kurokami. We had all taken a small break and after I had taken a brief rest to down some water I found myself engulfed in a large shadow. I turned around and glared up at the all too familiar and annoying grin of Hibine.

“Would you care to spar with me Little Lord,” he asked flashing those fangs and flexing so that his muscles showed.

I could feel the muscles in my jaw twitch and I tried my best not to let what I was thinking show on my face as I struggled to keep my temper in check.

“I don't know, can you handle it,” I asked back as I made a show of stretching my arms and then my clawed fingers.

His grin grew wider, “I think I can.”

“Bring it asshole!”

“Should a mother use such language,” he taunted once more.

“Oh, I can't wait to knock some teeth out so that smile amuses me for once,” I replied and I could tell my grin was not a pretty one.

At that he lunged at me and I jumped into the air and over his shoulder so that I landed behind him and ducked into a leg sweep as he turned around to make a grab at me. I watched as he fell and jumped back a few steps watching as he jumped back up and into a fighting stance. I grinned and lunged at him and as he swiped at me I reached out and swiped his side and ducked before his arm could catch me and twisted so that I could swipe at his other side before jumping backwards and ducking down as he charged at me. I dodged his attacks, ducking left and right until finally ducked and once again kicked his legs so that he fell backwards catching himself with his hands on the ground before springing back up.

His grin was lessened to a small smile and I felt myself grinning while lifting both hands showing my claws with his blood dripping off of them. They were shallow wounds for a demon and his body had probably already healed them but his blood on my claws was a small victory and a nice dent in his pride.

“Shall this mother show you how careless you've been,” and as I said it I squeezed my claws into my own palms causing them to bleed and then I lifted them and swung my hands as I shouted “Hijin Kesso” and watched as blades of blood tore through his clothes and hit the trees and plants behind him shredding them, cutting into bark and cutting off branches.

He stood there shocked and I wiped my hands and took a deep breath flexing my claws again.

“Is that enough for you or shall I show you my Sankon Tesso. It's been a while since I've used that one.”

“That is enough Inu Yasha, I think Hibine gets the “point”,” Sesshomaru stated almost tonelessly.

I turned to see Sesshomaru's face and saw that the corners of his mouth were just slightly upturned, meaning he had found our match somewhat amusing and was probably even more so amused at the outcome. That made me grin as I turned to face Hibine once again.

He put his smile back into place and turned to look at the scenery behind him before whistling and turning to look at me. I was kind of disappointed I hadn't actually knocked a tooth or two out.

“That's kind of impressive. I have to admit that I am curious to see what you could do when you are truly angered mama dog.”

“And I would like to fight you when you're not holding back. I could tell you were avoiding using full force. If it happens again I won't forgive you nor will I intentionally miss you next time I attack. I gain nothing by holding back. I want to train seriously so you need to take me seriously.”

His smile became more subdued as he looked me over, almost like he was considering my worth and power level before he grinned once more.

“I look forward to going another round with you, little mother.”

“Keep calling me cutesy names and I'll break out the big attacks,” I said giving him my biggest grin with just a hint of dislike peaking through.

“For your sake and ours lets hope it doesn't come to that,” Said Kurokami with a grin, “You've already destroyed the beautiful scenery, I can only imagine what damage you could do with full power and weapons involved.”

My match with Hibine seemed to put us on equal ground in both of our opinions, though his pet names for me hadn't ceased his grin had lost some of its condescending appearance and seemed to be more teasing.

We received an official notice of invite from Kouga asking that we visit and meet the newest heir of the wolf tribe; his first born son who he and Ayame had named Toborashi. With his name written with the kanji howl and storm I could only imagine that he had inherited his father's loud mouth but I oddly found myself wanting to see the newest edition.

To Be Continued….

Thank you for your patience. Sorry for such a short chapter. I have all these ideas I want to write down and type up but unfortunately life has been more than difficult this year. I lost my 18 year old Miss Kitty and my mother has gone back in for more surgeries, this time losing the toes on her other foot. So all in all yeah…. Life has been hectic.

Thank you for reading and hopefully I'll be able to update again in the coming month.

Kat