InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Good Girl Kagome ❯ Beyond Pain ( Chapter 4 )

Beyond Pain

( A/N: I just wanted to say thank you for all the great reviews I have been getting, they are seriously boosting my ego, Not I'm just playing but I would like to specifically thank Fox612 for giving me some advice and I want to tell you I already had that planned, and also Ioke- for being my first reviewer you roc!! Hehe ok, well this chapter does contain the rape scene, I'm sorry if that's a problem but I couldn't convey true emotions without showing the reasons why yet, I still need a car though, yash needs a car. Give me your opinions please! Ok enough delay..oh and I don't own nothing so don't ask nothing)

Inuyasha just stared at the wall. He couldn't believe what he had just been told, According to Sango, Kagome's father has been hitting her for about a year and a half. How could she not tell him something so important! `man, I knew it was something ,but I didn't know it was this big.. wait that day... that first day I met her that look. Now I know why she was so afraid! And how stupid am I, I noticed that she had a lot of bruises, why the hell didn't I say anything?!?!?!?!?! Oh gods Kagome, i wish you would have told me' Sango was studying the emotions that were playing across his face. He went from anger to sadness to understanding " I'm going to kill that bastard" and back to anger again she thought. "Inuyasha, listen she is humiliated enough as it is, if she found out you know, it would be even worse, She honestly thinks this is what she deserves, her father has abused her so much that she believes it now. I know you love her, but for her sake, let her come to you on this. Come on, we better go to class before you do something you regret." They left the janitors closet and went to class.

Meanwhile....at the nurse's office

Kagome was sitting on a cushioned chair with a melted ice pack on her head. She wasn't paying that much attention, once again, with out her consent, her thoughts wandered on to the previous night.

`why did he say and do those things?' she went through the whole ordeal in her head trying to figure out why?

(Ok, perverted rape flashback, for all those who wanted to know what was said and stuff if you don't want to read then just skip it- you have been warned)

****~~Flashback~~****

"Daddy...no...." he was coming closer " Daddy please don't do... mmpphh" He crushed her lips against his, she could taste the beer on him, she tried to push him or pull away, but he had a tight grip on her shoulders. When he was satisfied for the moment, he pulled her away " Listen bitch, if you can't except the punishment, then don't do the crime, now stop lying, I know you like this, your a trashy whore, and you know it. I'm the only one that will except you Kagome, remember that. And he charged her again she kicked him as hard in the stomach as she could, but he barely flinched. " stubborn bitch aren't you Kagome, just like your whore of a mother, she was a whore to , just like you." He was grabbing her flailing wrists and held them above her head. He took off his belt and used it to tie her arms around her headboard. She looked up at him `please, this isn't real' she thought `wake up...wake up' he straddled her and took of his shirt. Then proceeded to slowly unbutton hers. She tried to get loose from her bonds but he slapped her twice n the face and kneed her in the ribs, she yelled in pain but was instantly silenced as her father smashed his lips against hers his tongue was all but choking her, she bit him and he reeled back. He raised his hand to strike her but slowly brought it down, a devilish gleam in his eye "well my delectable daughter, since you don't want my tongue in your mouth....you must want something else" She widened her eyes in shock and started to violently shake her head no. He quickly disposed of her shirt and pants, leaving her in only her underwear and bra. He smiled and then stood up, he then took of his pants, which left him in boxers. He could see tears in her eyes `that's it bitch cry, I want to taste those tears' he was getting harder by the second ` she is going to remember never to disrespect me again'. He walked up to her and straddled her once more. He leaned down to her ear and whispered "ok trash, I'm going to make this very clear, if I feel teeth, your not going to like what will happen, understand?" she could only just hear him, she was so lost in the pain of it all.

He took of his boxers and waited for her reaction. She did nothing but look toward the ceiling "Come on you stupid bitch" he yanked her chin towards him and squeezed hard just behind her jaw bone ( A/N for those of you who have never had it done to you or done it to yourself, it freaking hurts like a motha) she opened her mouth to scream out in pain but it was forced back by a large object forcing itself into the back of her throat. On some level she couldn't comprehend what was happening all she knew was that it hurt. Her fathers groans of satisfaction brought her spiraling back into her world of pain. He tasted terrible, she was trying not to gag because she knew is she did it would only get worse. So she did what she always did, she laid there and took it.

"that's my girl, you really are a dirty whore aren't you." He couldn't finish what he was saying because he was hit by a wave of pleasure. He pulled out of her mouth only to have her spit and cough what he had just given her "well that was nice girl, I know you like it also!" " daddy... please.. no" he smacked her good and hard " I know you lied that, your just lying to me, well,, ill teach you not to lie to your father he ripped off her undergarments ` I can't believe this... my own father.. is going to rape me, please don't let this be true, he can't take my innocence' Her father saw her frightened look but that only motivated him further " Don't lie to me slut, I know your enjoying it" He then stuck 3 fingers inside of her and Kagome screamed out in pain. She tried to struggle away from his violating grasp between her thighs but she couldn't ` the pain... its just to much, I can't take it..' She looked at her father silently begging him to stop, that if he truly loved her he wouldn't be causing her this much pain. With is other hand he reached behind her and grabbed a fist full of hair and yanked her head up towards him " love is pain" he said as if he knew what was going through her mind. He slammed her head back onto the mattress, despite the material, it still felt like she had hit a stack of bricks. He slid a little down and removed his fingers. For a second, just a second, she though she saw a conflict in her fathers eyes, like he was deciding whether or not he was going to do this. The look was gone in a second and he continued. He grabbed her breasts so heard she was sure they would be a cup size smaller in the morning, he bent over and bit her right nipple savagely. She bit her lip to keep from screaming, she didn't know how many more silencing slaps she could take. She squeezed her eyes shut, tears freely falling, he father took his mouth of her breast and then licked her tears of her cheek, leaving a saliva trail on each one. Then, everything stopped, she opened her eyes and say him pulling out a plastic wrapper, he opened it and she saw him put the condom on. He looked up at her and smiled a smile only the devil himself would wear. " wouldn't want our little Kagome pregnant now would we?" he positioned himself on top of her. All at once she gave it everything she had, hew last bit of strength, courage and pride into one final attempt to escape, but he held her there, taunting her with the inevitable. He would win tonight, he knew it and she knew it to. It was only a matter of time. When the last of her energy died, Her innocence went with it. He drowned himself with in her, all the way. She let out the most vile shriek humanly possible. She tried to call for help, hoping with all her heart someone would hear. But she found herself unable to breath. Hands were keeping her from the oxygen she needed. " no listen bitch, you deserve your punishment and if you keep screeching like that we will just have to do this over again, and you wouldn't want that now would you. Your a slut Kagome, no one will want you now, everyone will never except you anymore, you think a guy would want you now, now that you have become a whore? Huh...ANSWER ME!" Through out his entire speech, he hadn't ceased his movements. She was drowning in unbearable pain " n.....no Daddy" " Good, now be a good girl and cooperate." She didn't respond, and it continued like that, until he decided she had been punished enough. He through her off of him and got up and gathered his clothes and started for the door, he turned and spit on her face, " your lucky to have me bitch. She nodded. "That's my girl Kagome, your lucky to have me as a father, now this stays between us. We don't want our business told to everyone now do we?" She looked down, " yes daddy, our business is our business." And he was gone. Left her there to cry out her pain that he had left her with.

****~~~ end flashback~~****

( damn that was hard to write, sorry if it was drowned out everyone. That was my first rape scene, I have done lemons but nothing like this. Tell me if I should fix anything?

"miss..miss, are you alright" the nurse questioned.

"yes ma'am I'm fine, just zoning out I guess, what did you say?" Kagome said. " I said, you can go back to class now, your head should be fine." She smiled and handed her a pass. Kagome left and walked toward her class room.

She looked at her feet as she entered the classroom and stalked towards her group of friends, ashamed that she had lied to them. ` I just couldn't tell them, they would be so ashamed of me, and think me a whore, just like daddy said they would'

" Kagome?" She looked up to see Sango next to her. " I paired us up for the project." Kagome nodded her head and then looked to the group next to them ( which happened to be the guys) to see what they were doing. She was shocked to see Inuyasha, openly staring at her, he was looking at her with that same piercing gaze she has seen the first day they had met. And at that moment she knew, she knew that she had been found out, and by the last person she wanted to know. `He will never accept me now' she thought bitterly. She turn away hastily. She suddenly became overwhelmed and couldn't stop the tears that fell from her eyes.

Sango notices and excuses her and Kagome to the restroom. Both the guys get up in concern but at quickly turn down and they watch the girls leave the classroom. Miroku sits down and starts to get back to the project but to his surprise Inuyasha isn't, which is weird because history is his greatest subject ( hehe sorry had to add the irony) he was going to question him. But Inuyasha took off after the girls with out so much as an excuse me ` hmph..weird' she shook his head and went back to work

Hallway

" He knows Sango, I know he knows." Kagome said. "I can't face him now, what will I say?" she continued

" Never mind Kag, you don't need to be stressing over that now, he is your friend and will love you no matter what." Kagome blushed at Sango's remark. " Listen is the ass going to be home today?" She continued. " No, he got his paycheck so he said he will be at the bar about 2 hours away, why?" " Because we are going to work on the project there." Kagome nodded and they sat there on the bench. They didn't notice until he last minute that Inuyasha had walked up to them. "Sango, can I please talk to Kagome alone?" " Of course Inuyasha, I'll just be going back to class now" She winked at Kagome, who blushed and seemed very interested in her shoes all of a sudden.

" Listen Kagome, I know now what is going on, and I wanted to tell you how sorry I am, for not noticing or saying anything, or helping you when you needed it." Kagome cut in " But yash you didn't know" " that doesn't matter Kag, as your friend I should have noticed something was off, and I'm truly sorry, can you forgive me?" Kagome was once again shocked. Was he actually apologizing to her.. and it want even his fault. " Is the almighty and powerful Inuyasha actually apologizing? I think hell froze over, wait don't say anything let me enjoy this for a second." She grinned as he smiled at her, she obviously was trying to break the tension by making him laugh " well don't get used to it bitch, I don't like it very much." They sat there together until the period was over

( OK, sorry again but the author is lazy and doesn't feel like writing the rest of school, lest just say it was an ok day ok)

Sango and Kagome walked home carrying a huge collection of books for their history project. They walked to her house and went upstairs to her room. Kagome wasn't sure if she could go in there right now `but if I don't Sango will wonder why. Its ok Kagome.. you can do this' she went into her room and tried to hide her fear. " ok Kag, you go through that crap load of books, and ill go through this crap load of books...ready go" they studied together in silence. Suddenly they both heard a car come into the driveway, the world froze and both the girls were instantly terrified.

" Oh, shit.. what now kag?" Sango was searching for a place to hide. Kagome grabbed her hand and shoved her into her closet, she hurled Sango's backpack in there also " stay in here and for the love of god keep you mouth shut and don't say anything you understand me" Kagome did not want her friends hurt like she had been hurt. "yeah I-I got it" and Kagome shut the door, just in time too cause her father cam barreling into her room, "where is my wallet you fucking whore?" he father barked. " its on the kitchen table daddy, where you left it." He smacked her hard across the face. " Don't back talk be bitch, now I wont be back for awhile, clean up the house while I'm gone, and wash the clothes also." " yes daddy" he left without another word, Kagome waited till she was sure that he wasn't coming back before letting Sango out. " why in the name of god do you put up with that jackass?" She just shrugged and went back to studying, she got up to change books when Sango grabbed her arm. " Kagome what is this?" Kagome turned at looked at what Sango had in her hand. It was her bedding. " Kagome I asked you a question.. what is this, why is there blood on your sheets.. and don't give me that monthly excuse, you get your when I get mine and that isn't for another 2 weeks.. so tell me what the fuck is this!!??" Sango was beyond angry, she damn well what it was, but wanted to have Kagome acknowledge it for herself. Kagome just stared blankly at the sheets `god how could I have been so stupid, it was my first time, of course I was going to bleed, him biting me didn't help either' she cringed in remembrance. Kagome looked at Sango pleadingly but Sango would budge, and then a sort of muffled noise came from her.

" Ok, he did what?!?" Sango asked " he.. uuummm... he raped me...oh god Sango please don't hate me!" Kagome wrapped Sango in a bear hug and Sango hugged her back gladly.

"oh Kagome, I could never hate you." Sango stared at Kagome for a good while before she got up and ran out of the room. She came back with Kagome's travel bag.

"Sango?" Kagome was puzzled "what are you doing?" Sango was empting Kagomes drawers and putting every thing into her bag " what the hell doe sit look like I'm doing, I'm getting you the hell out of here!" this time, Kagome didn't protest, all she did was get up and help her pack.

They had gotten everything they wanted in 20 minutes and were ready to be out the door. " Wait, where am I going to go, your house is the first place he will look!" Kagome was starting to really worry. " don't even worry about it" Sango said." I got the perfect place, wait here." Sango disappeared back into the house leaving Kagome waiting outside.

It was only 2 minutes before she was back and waiting with her friend. "Sango, where am I going?" Sango grinned and said she would have to wait. About 10 minutes later a car pulled up and the person rolled down the window. " hey, any of you bitches need a place to stay?" Kagome wheeled around "Inuyasha?!?!?!?!, what the hell are you doing here?, Kagome glared daggers at Sango, who pulled her aside " I only told him that your dad kicked you out and you needed a place to stay, that's it, and its your job to tell him the truth while your over there, or god so help me I will tell him myself, and the police also!" Kagome backed away from her friend , there was no point talking to her when she got that angry. " Ok kag, off we go, I got your things, ready?" Kagome gave Sango a hug and said a brief thanks and got in the car.

In Yash's car

" Inuyasha was the first to break the silence. " You don't have to lie Kag, its ok."

" thanks yash, I really appreciate this.' No problem babe, just remember this when I want help with my English paper ok?" she smiled, and it wasn't forced or fake, it was a genuine smile. Kagome turned the Radio on

Circling your, circling your, circling your head /

Contemplating everything you ever said /

Now I see the truth /

I got a doubt

A different motive in your eyes and now I'm out /

See you later /

I see your fantasy, you want to make it a reality paved in gold /

See inside,inside of our heads, yeah /

Well now that's over /

I see your motives inside, decisions to hide //

Back off we'll take you on /

Headstrong to take on anyone /

I know that you are wrong / Headstrong we're Headstrong /

Back off I'll take you on /

Headstrong to take on anyone /

I know that you are wrong /

And this is not where you belong //

I can't give everything away /

I won't give everything away //

Conclusions manifest /

Your first impressions got to be your very best /

I see you're full of s*** and that's alright /

That's how you play I guess you get through every night /

Well now that's over /

I see your fantasy, you want to make it a reality paved in gold /

See inside, inside of our heads, yeah /

Well now that's over/ I see your motives inside, decisions to hide //

Back off we'll take you on /

Headstrong to take on anyone /

I know that you are wrong /

Headstrong we're Headstrong /

Back off I'll take you on /

Headstrong to take on anyone /

I know that you are wrong /

And this is not where you belong //

Where you belong /

I can't give everything away /

This is not where you belong /

I won't give everything away //

I know, I know all about /

I know, I know all about /

I know, I know all about /

I know, I know all about your motives inside and your decision to hide //
Back off we'll take you on /

Headstrong to take on anyone /

I know that you are wrong /

Headstrong we're Headstrong /

Back off I'll take you on /

Headstrong to take on anyone /

I know that you are wrong /

And this is not where you belong //

Where you belong /

This is not where you belong /

I can't give everything away /

This is not where you belong /

I won't give everything away/

This is not where you belong //

When the song was done, they were at his house. They got out and carried the luggage and skillfully carried up the winding staircase to Yash's room. "ok kag, you will sleep here and I am going to bunk with fluffy next door ok?" "yeah, that's fine, thank you yash" she hugged him like there was no tomorrow. " yeah sure, you wanna give me some air there?" she let him go and wandered out to talk to fluffy, Kag got him a pair of pink fluffy slippers for Christmas as a joke and the name just stuck. his real name was Sesshomaru and he was yash's older brother. " Hey fluffy, how is it going?" " you know I detest that name, and yet you still use it, why?" " Because its my goal in life to drive you slowly and utterly mad." " well your well on your was babe, so how are you" Sesshomaru loved that girl like she was his younger sister, and he treated her as such to, he was just as protective as Inuyasha except in a more brotherly way. He was glad his younger brother had found someone, you would be a fool not to realize that they were crazy about each other. " I'm ok I guess, you" Inuyasha took that on que and replied " does it matter?" Kagome smacked him upside the head. " hey, fluffy, kag is gonna crash over here for awhile so ima bunk with you ok?" "yeah sure what ever" good then its settled. All three hung out for awhile before Kagome decided that she was tired and wanted to go to bed, so she excused herself and went to her room `well actually yash's room' she put on some red silk pants and a white tank top that said ` wouldn't you like to see these wet' and snuggled into bed. She was instantly surrounded my Inuyasha's scent and she slowly drifted off.

Fluffy's room-

"She is hiding something." Sesh said matter-of factly. " Yeah I know, ill figure it out." " you better, and soon, it looks bad." They turned out the lights and went tot sleep as well

On another part of town-

You could here screaming from three houses down

"I'LL FIND YOU KAGOME!!!!!!!!! I SWEAR IT, ILL FIND YOU!!!"

( I'm sure you know who said that)

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Ok, that is it for this chapter, wow 2 chapters in one day! Go me * does a little dance* anyone got any ideas about what should happen next? And please tell me how I did on the rape scene. I know we all want Kagome and yash to get together but it cant happen right away, and I was thinking about making a few chapters mainly focused on Miroku and Sango what do you think? Oh and should I put hojo in? I'm not sure yet.

~LostDreamerGirl~

Ok, a short preview

Kagome got up and got ready for school. Her and Inuyasha drove in silence, not because they were being all avoidy, they were just half awake. When they got to school, Inuyasha drove to his normal parking spot to find Kikyo there waiting for him, and Kouga waiting for Kagome "Oh hell" they both said at once. They got out of the car and walked up to the people waiting to see them. " Ah Inuyasha my love, I have been waiting for you. Do you want to go to the janitors closet like old times?" Inuyasha just sighed and replied " Kikyo, the day I go that far with you is the day Michael Jackson embraces me in a brotherly hug" he started to search frantically to give the right effect. Next it was Kagomes turn " Kouga, you even touch me and I will shove my foot so far into your dick you will be a girl when I'm through!" Kouga retracted the hand back and coward away, Kagome and Inuyasha high-five'd each other and walked to class.

Yeha i know its short, sorry but the whole day will sort of be around that effect. Unless i have a drastic mood change, which i highly doubt