InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Goodbye to You ❯ Don't Speak ( Chapter 5 )

Author’s notes: And here we go again! The next chapter in our cute, little mini-saga ‘Goodbye to You’. Be warned... this chapter goes back a bit... heh. Sorry I took so long, but I was really just waiting for some reviews... :::pouts::: Please R/R! Pretty please...?

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha (duh.) nor do I own ‘Don’t Speak’ by No Doubt. (Double duh.) So if you know all this... why must I say so!? *Tear* ~Goodbye to You~ :::Chapter Five: Don’t Speak:::     *One Year ago...*  

Silence.

It was all he heard.

It was all that consumed him.

Just... nothingness.

His molten amber eyes stared at the spot that had once held his everything.

That had once held his life!

But now...

She was gone.

And all he knew-

Was silence.

You and me...

We used to be together,

Everyday-

Together.

Always...  

Maybe it was the shock of it all that had held him into place. That stopped him from running after her lithe form and proving her words wrong.

Maybe...

But that didn’t matter anymore.

Was this... truly the end?

I can’t believe

This could be the end,

It looks as though you’re letting go...

This wasn’t right.

That was the only thought running rampant in his head as his fist gripped onto the jewel shards so tightly, his knuckles had turned a blinding white.

She didn’t really leave him... this was just another one of her temper tantrums once again taking control of her senses.

Just another one of her phases.

Or maybe she was probably just joking around with him or something. Teach him some stupid lesson on how he should value her more or some stupid shit like that.

That’s right.

She wasn’t really gone forever...

...

And if it’s real,

Well,

I don’t wanna know...

Her words repeated over and over in his head.

“I don’t belong here anymore...”

What did that mean!

OF COURSE she belonged here!

“It’s time to let go Inuyasha.”

NO! Stop it! SHUT UP!

She WASN’T GONE!

Don’t speak-

I know just what you’re saying,

So please stop explaining.

Don’t tell me

Cause it hurts.

“It’s time to let go Inuyasha.”

No... he could never let go.

Never.

No matter what she thought or said, that much was a fact.

Don’t speak,

I know what you’re thinking-

I don’t need your reasons,

Don’t tell me

Cause it hurts.

God, how could he make this better?

Who was he to keep hurting someone so pure, yet now so tainted?

Inuyasha looked up at the star filled night sky in hopelessness. Memories he had always treasured-

Now felt so weighted with strife.

And memories he hated...

Now only seemed that much more unbearable.

Our memories...

Well, they can be inviting,

But some are altogether

Mighty frightening.

And now that she was gone, how was he going to live?

Whether she believed it or not, she had been one of the main reasons he even got up to meet the Sun!

She had given him something he hadn’t deserved.

A new beginning for himself.

And now that she was gone...

All of that seemed so far away.

So...

What was the point of living?

As we die,

Both you and I

With my head in my hands

I sit and cry...

Inuyasha cradled his head in his hands as he trembled gently.

Why was he here... ?

He felt something then slip from his hand and fall to the ground softly.

He lowered his eyes and let them widen in pain.

The Shikon shards.

“I understand now. What I want... can never be mine.”

Wha-

What!?

“What I want...”

What she... wanted...?

“Can never be mine.”

She wanted...

She wanted...

Don’t speak,

I know just what you’re saying,

So please stop explaining.

Don’t tell me

Cause it hurts.

“Ka-”

She had wanted to be with...

But he hadn’t...

Oh God.

“Can never be mine.”

Don’t speak,

I know what you’re thinking.

I don’t need your reasons!

Don’t tell me

Cause it hurts.

Inuyasha stood up; a shocked countenance set heavily on his features.

“I’ll always love you...”

“Sit!”

“I’ll never leave you, Inuyasha.”

“I’m going home!”

“I’ll always love you...”

“I don’t belong here anymore Inuyasha... I know that for a fact. And... I won’t keep pretending that I do. It’s time to let go Inuyasha...”

It’s all ending-

We gotta stop pretending

Who we are...

“I’ll always love you...”

“Can never be mine...”

“I’ll always love you...”

“Kagome...”

You and me,

I can see us dying...

“I...”

Inuyasha looked up at the star speckled twilight in confusion.

Are we?

Inuyasha shook his head before frowning and looking towards the pathway to the well, which Kagome had gone through a few hours ago.

Before he could grab the jewel shards from the ground, ready to stomp over to Kagome’s time and demand her to listen to him, something stopped him cold in his tracks.

“STOP ACTING LIKE YOU’RE THE VICTIM...!”

Don’t speak,

I know just what you’re saying,

So please stop explaining-

Don’t tell me

Cause it hurts!

I’m... not...

No,

No,

No...

“Never be mine...”

“Stop pretending...”

“ACTING LIKE THE VICTIM...”

“I’ll always love you...”

Don’t speak,

I know what you’re thinking!

I don’t need your reasons.

Don’t tell me

Cause it hurts-

God...

Why does this hurt me so much?!

Don’t tell me

Cause it hurts!

Do I... love...?

?

No...

Could it be...

True?

I know what you’re saying-

So please stop explaining...

“I’ll always love you.”

Don’t speak-

“I’ll always love you.”

Don’t speak-

“I’ll always love you.”

Don’t speak-

Kagome... did you mean it?

Or am I just deluding myself?

She left...

That should be it!

But...

“I’ll always love you... no matter what you are.”

Oh...

I know what you’re thinking,

I don’t need your reasons-

She left...

She left...

She-

“NOT THE VICTIM!”

“Can’t be mine...”

She loves...

I know you’re good,

I know you’re good,

I know you’re real good-

Why didn’t I ever see it before!?

Oh!

Or maybe I just didn’t want to see it before this...

La, la, la, la, la

But I do now...

La, la, la, la, la

So now what?

I’ll always love you...”

Don’t-

Don’t,

Uh huh.

Where does this leave me now?

“I’ll always love you...”

Hush-

Hush,

Darlin’

Kagome...

Do I... go to her?

Because I think I may just-

Hush-

Hush,

Darlin’

If she would have just given him some time to think about all this shit, he could have told her!

“I’ll always love you...”

Hush-

Hush,

Darlin’

Yeah...

H e knew what to do now.

Hush-

Hush,

Darlin’

I would do anything for her.

For Kagome.

Because I-

Hush-

Hush,

Darlin’

Because I think I might just...

“I’ll always love you...”

I know Kagome.

Don’t tell me

Cause it hurts.

“I love you too.”