InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Gravity of Love ❯ Forbidden Dreams ( Chapter 6 )

Gravity of Love

 

Disclaimer - I do not own Inuyasha or any of its characters. I borrow them from Rumiko Takahashi. Story Plotline inspired by Garret Jax's Hanyou.EXE. Song - Gravity of Love by Enigma.

 

Forbidden Dreams

 

“ It seems sir, that the prototype was successfully destroyed, at least according to the scans. No traces of it what so ever.” The man with black hair that was braided down past his waist, shifted nervously, trying to judge if he had just given good or bad news. Of course he had learned long ago that it was practically impossible to tell, as Sesshoumaru never gave anything other than his general impassive expression. The only time he had seemed to ever change his tone of voice was when he was speaking to his mate.

 

“ Indeed Bankotsu. I take it our secondary problem has been solved as well?” Bankotsu flinched and shifted again, raising his left hand to scratch at the back of his neck sheepishly.

 

“ Not exactly sir. Jakotsu and I are working on it though; we're getting closer to the culprit.” Sesshoumaru glanced slightly over his shoulder at the man, who stood tall and proud behind him. He didn't smell of fear, just nervousness. Loyalty was hard to find now a days, but both he and Bankotsu already knew who it was, but Bankotsu seemed to be in serious denial.

 

“ You may leave now.” Bankotsu bowed and turned away from the demon, headed towards the door. “ Bankotsu it would be wise, despite your beliefs, to keep an eye on all of them. Oh… and get in contact with Kouga. The wolf is overdue.” Bankotsu's face twisted up at the mention of the ookami. ` Damn wolf…' Turning to face Sesshoumaru, Bankotsu bowed and strode quickly out of the office. Charging down the hall, he threw open a door at the far end, and didn't bother to close it behind him.

 

“ I take it our adorable boss wants you to talk to the ookami again huh?” Bankotsu wrinkled his nose slightly as he glanced at Jakotsu out of the corner of his eye. How'd Jakotsu always know what he was thinking? It was a little unnerving. Then again, he was practically brothers with him.

 

“ Yeah… why he put such a bone headed idiot in charge of…” Bankotsu trailed off as a third man entered the room, raising a brow at both of the men.

 

“ What are you two up to?” Jakotsu shifted in his seat slightly and shrugged, picking up a picture of Inuyasha that happened to find it's way on his desk and waved the picture around madly.

 

“ Drooling over Sesshoumaru's younger brother. Isn't he just adorable? Those ears…” He let out a dreamy sigh and Bankotsu gave off a small smile. ` Best distraction in the world I swear…' Renkotsu grunted and rolled his eyes, turning towards Bankotsu, handing him the file in his hand.

 

“ Got nothing on the culprit. Turns out our one lead was a dead end… Sesshoumaru isn't going to like that news.” Renkotsu grunted again and crossed his arms over his chest as Bankotsu scanned over the papers. Rubbing the bridge of his nose, he gave a slight nod towards Renkotsu.

 

“ Well, hopefully we'll get another lead and soon. He's getting impatient, next time you can be the one telling him that we're going nowhere.” Bankotsu tossed the files back at him and flopped down into a chair across from Jakotsu's desk. Scowling, Renkotsu turned and stomped out of the room. Once he was out of the room, Jakotsu leaned back in his chair, narrowing his eyes towards the door before glancing across the desk at Bankotsu.

 

“ Yeah I know Jakotsu… I know.”

 

“ Just making sure.”

 

~-*-~

 

“ It's just a shame you know?” Inuyasha grunted slightly, rolling on his side in the grass to stare at the girl lying next to him. She held her hand out towards the sky, tracing random patterns into the stars above her with a faint smile on her lips. “ It's just not fair, not being able to reach such beauties.”

 

“ What are you doing here?” Blinking, the girl turned her face from the sky to look at him as if she didn't understand the question. A pout formed on her lips, but the sparkle in her eyes was undeniable. She was happy.

 

“ What? I'm not allowed to be here and keep you company? You know… you can't hide the loneliness in your voice.” Inuyasha snorted sharply and sat up, turning his face from her with a scowl set on his face. He could feel that she was still smiling towards him, at the back of his head, her gaze delicate.

 

“ I'm not lonely you baka. Stop thinking I am.” He heard her shift behind him and before he knew it, she was sitting up next to him, leaning on his arm, eyes locked back to the sky.

 

“ You miss someone don't you? She wouldn't happen to be a girl would she?” His only reply was another snort. She giggled and shook her head, wrapping both of her tiny hands around his upper arm, leaning into his side even more. “ I'm right. Was she pretty?” Inuyasha was silent for moment, looking up from the grass to stare up the sky.

 

“ Yes. Kikyou was more beautiful than the stars. Always was… to me.” When he was met with silence, he looked down at the girl wrapped around his arm. She was staring at him with pensive eyes… as if she was trying to look into his soul. After a moment, she smiled softly at him, giving a light nod.

 

“ You're in love with her?” This time Inuyasha was the one who couldn't do anything but give a nod. How was it she was able to stare at him like that? As if he was capable of doing anything she could dream of. It unsettled him, but calmed him at the same time. She apparently couldn't hold his gaze anymore. Blushing ever so slightly in the dark, she raised her eyes back to the sky, laying her head against his shoulder again.

 

“ So if you love her… why are you lonely?” The question startled him. He gapped down at the soft creature that refused to look back into his eyes. ` Yes… why am I so lonely, is it because Kikyou is no longer here? Yes…' Opening his mouth to reply, she simply shook her head, but still didn't look up at him.

 

“Don't worry Inuyasha, you won't always feel so lonely. After all… I'm here with you now aren't I?” He couldn't answer her. He didn't know how to answer her. No one, not even Kikyou had ever said such a thing to him. Always the outcast, feeling left out, not even Kikyou could tell him that he was no longer alone.

 

“ Kagome…”

 

--

 

Inuyasha shot up out of bed, the sound of thunder echoing in the back of his mind. Rain pelted the window to his room, keeping the room especially dark for two in the morning, but his eyes easily adjusted. The room felt stuffy and far to quiet than it should have been. His computer hummed in the background, but the sound didn't comfort him.

 

“ Kagome…” She was gone… really gone. Falx had tried his hardest, blamed himself for not spotting the signs sooner. She was an AI, her sprite took on all the signs of a `virus', or at least what they assumed a computer could look like if it caught one. She was connected to the computer after all. The computer virus attacked viciously, as if it was made for the simple purpose of causing a computer to crash—it did just that.

 

And now Kagome was gone. Falx couldn't find any trace of her on the computer, and it seemed the virus was gone too. Why hadn't he seen it earlier? Kagome was looking so ill, so pale… he thought she was just hiding something from him. Instead of trying to find it and protect her, he let it eat her alive. He couldn't help but wonder vaguely if it hurt her… right before the computer shut down entirely.

 

I need to get out of here… His guilt was eating him alive, and now she was haunting his dreams. Somewhere in the back of his mind, his subconscious kept asking him the same question. ` What was she to you?' He still couldn't answer it. Sesshoumaru was right… she was a computer program, a thing. One's and zero's programmed to act and react in a certain way towards him. Nothing done freely, all of it calculated.

 

The why did he feel so guilty? Why did he feel like he failed? The sound of her voice coming across his speakers so weakly, practically begging him to stop whatever was attacking her—to save her. Growling in the dark, he clenched his hands into fists, letting his claws rip open his flesh. ` What was she to you?'

 

“ Shut up.” He snarled and pushed himself off the bed, stomping over to the window. Sango and Miroku seemed almost shell shocked to see him so… concerned for something that wasn't alive. His dresser was the first, and only, thing to feel his wrath as his mother had stormed upstairs after hearing the splintering of wood. He refused to say anything to anyone after that. Falx and Miroku were sent home, and Sango seemed out of sorts herself. He knew she felt guilty too… if only she hadn't been so nosy he wouldn't be in pain.

 

Was he in pain? He snorted and looked down at his hands, bloody and cut up from his claws. Blood dripped from both his claws and wounds that were already starting to pull together healing. Lightning flashed through the sky, and he could have sworn it hit the house next to them, the thunder shaking the entire house with a rattle.

 

Half-breed… dirty blood… tainted bloodline. Inuyasha frowned even more. Why was he thinking like that? His ears twitched slightly before drooping down slightly as his vision moved from his hands back to his computer, the room lighting up once again with a flash. The disc wouldn't load up anymore.

 

Data corrupted…

 

Password:

 

Incorrect password…

 

Error…

 

And his computer would simply restart. Then again, what would he do even if it did? ` Hi I spoke to the original version of you but you got erased so I was wondering if you could…' Could what? Help him with his homework? Tease him about being such a puppy and insult him with calling him stupid and baka, about how little he knew? ` Better off like this… I don't have to tell Kikyou. I'll be ordinary again.'

 

Don't worry Inuyasha, you won't always feel so lonely. After all… I'm here with you now aren't I? But she wasn't. His mind was creating fantasies about her. His head and dreams once filled with Kikyou were now filled with the girl who looked similar, but was completely polar opposite of his love. The way she smiled at him in his dreams… it was the way he wished Kikyou would smile at him. The way he wanted her eyes to fill with such happiness just by sitting next to him.

 

You miss someone don't you? It sounded like something she would ask. Question was he couldn't figure out just whom he missed more.

 

“ Kagome… Kikyou.”

 

~-*-~

 

“ Is it just me, or is he a lot more cranky than usual?” Miroku leaned over the edge of his desk so he could whisper directly into Sango's ear. It was too risky to just whisper it behind her with Inuyasha only three desks away, glaring banefully at his math book. Sighing softly, Sango only nodded, without looking back at Miroku.

 

“ Think it still has to do with that program on the computer?” Falx muttered lowly from his desk directly to her left, not moving from his spot to face either of them. Sango glanced over at him before turning in her chair to better face both Falx and Miroku.

 

“ I don't know honestly. I think he wants to call Kikyou, but every time he picks up the phone, he starts cursing and hangs it up with such force one of these days he's gonna put it through the wall. Yesterday he actually got it to dent in the wall, Mom had to pull him outside to cool off.” Sango muttered and leaned an elbow on Miroku's desk, letting her head fall against her hand.

 

“ So his temper really is getting worse?” Sango merely nodded again. Miroku almost pulled a pouting face at her as she turned to straighten herself up in her own desk. The bell rang and Miroku simply watched as his best friend leapt up from his seat and nearly knocking several students over as he charged through the door. Sango waved to Falx as he left the room, waiting for Miroku to pick his stuff up.

 

“ What is it?” She blinked as he stared at her with an almost solemn expression. Shaking his head slightly, he finally stood, rubbing the back of his neck at the same time.

 

“ I'm worried about him. Not even your mom can calm him down?” Grunting slightly, Sango pulled her hands behind her back, kicking out lightly at one of her desk's legs.

 

“ I don't think he's sleeping too well. Last two mornings I've come out of my room with him up already. As you can tell, his senses seem a little dulled too. He should have been able to hear you, but his ears didn't even twitch.” Miroku sighed and followed Sango out of the classroom. “ What are we going to do Houshi? At this rate he's gonna break something other than the phone and dresser.”

 

Miroku flinched and rubbed the back of his neck before reaching down to take Sango's hand in his. She blinked and stared at his hand in hers before looking up at him slowly. He wasn't looking at her, but there was a slight blush on his face. Flushing a little herself, she adjusted herself to walk closer next to him, almost brushing shoulders with him.

 

“ We'll do it together right Houshi?” He smiled and finally looked over at her, giving her a light nod. “ Just like we always have.”

 

~-*-~

 

“ Again Kagome?” Inuyasha smelled her before she even approached him from behind. He wasn't sure how he could recognize her scent; she never had one to begin with. His mind seemed to supply him with whatever he needed to complete these dreams… or maybe they were fantasies… he couldn't tell anymore. He wanted to talk to her, and he could only do that here now.

 

“ Always Inuyasha. Stop being so stubborn would you? Just admit you like my company!” She giggled while planted herself in a swing next to him, letting her legs push off the ground to move the swing ever so slightly. Inuyasha scowled in her direction; while she stared out ahead of her, across the hill that seemed stand over Tokyo. The city lights lit up the night, giving her face a slight illumination in the full moon.

 

“ You lied to me. I'm alone.” He couldn't help it… he winced at the almost childish tone his voice took. Kagome smiled and tilted her head to look at him, something in her eyes just looked so… real.

 

“ Inuyasha I never really left you. I'm here every night so far aren't I?” Inuyasha snorted and looked away from her. His ears drooped slightly, and he shook his head, running his hands through his hair with a sigh.

 

“ No you're just a figment of my imagination. You aren't any more real than you were inside my computer.” Almost instantly Inuyasha knew what he said was wrong. Not only did he not believe it, but her soft gasp told him it was the wrong thing to say. Daring to look at her, something tugged at the pit of his stomach. She had turned her face further away from him, her bangs hiding her eyes from him. He didn't like that… her eyes were always so happy. He didn't have to see them at this moment to know that they weren't. “ Kagome I…”

 

“ No you're right. Absolutely right…” He flinched at her flat tone. “ I was never real and I never will be real.” She slid off her swing, her arms crossed over her chest, shoulders slumping forward ever so slightly. It reminded him of the sprite that looked almost sickly. The breeze that had been playing lightly with her hair suddenly died away. “ After all, how can something that isn't alive keep the company of someone who's real—flesh and blood? You're still alone, you're just alone with—“

 

“ I miss you.” He frowned slightly as he cut her rant off. ` Did I really just say that?' Kagome turned towards him slightly before shaking her head. Approaching him slowly, she kneeled down in front of him, to look up at his eyes. Her eyes held a sadness in them he couldn't seem to understand, but they also held determination.

 

“ I'll bring Kikyou back to you. I promise.” She reached up and let her hand rest on his cheek so softly, as though he himself might disappear if she applied too much pressure. Inuyasha furrowed his brow as he stared at her. ` So very real…' She smiled slightly at him.

 

“ No longer will you have forbidden dreams of the one you love. It's the least I can do for you… as I cannot do anything of real value for you.” Why did that sound so wrong coming from her? His imaginary friend was going to bring back his long lost love? Reaching up he pulled her hand away from his cheek, letting his head drop to the point where she could no longer see his eyes through his bangs.

 

“ You're… coming back too right?” Kagome squeezed his hand gently, before placing a gentle kiss on his knuckles. She never did answer him. One moment she was there… and the next she was gone, leaving Inuyasha to sit on his swing, overlooking Tokyo. Leaving him to wonder just how fucking screwed up his mind was for promising him something he could never have again. No Kagome… no Kikyou—all alone.

 

--

 

“ Jaken.” Sesshoumaru interrupted the little green toad skittering around the lap in such a hurried frenzy; he was actually surprised that he didn't break anything. Jumping to attention, Jaken skidded to a halt in front of the inu youkai, rambling on about something he really wasn't paying attention to. Interruption was necessary, for his ears. “ Is it done?”

 

“ Yes, yes my lord. It will serve as a temporary replacement until the real thing can be found… if the real thing even exists.” Frowning slightly, Jaken seemed to suddenly doubt the truth about the rumors that had been flying around about Naraku's company, despite all the live info constantly pouring in.

 

“ Is it operational yet?” Jaken blinked and looked up at his lord, before looking at the equipment in the far corner of the room.

 

“ Yes sir. Just recently actually… the best work you've done ever. Looks so real, I doubt anyone without extreme knowledge of the situation would ever doubt the authenticity. `Tenseiga' is running at a full 100 percent too.” Sesshoumaru approached the experiment, an almost questioning gaze.

 

“ Do you feel anything?” Sesshoumaru received no answer from the machine lying on the table. Turning to glare at Jaken, who had been hiding behind his legs, let out a squeak. Before Jaken could let out an excuse however, the machine jumped from its place on the table, twitched and stretched. Sesshoumaru raised a single brow as the machine tried to move.

 

“ Pain.” Smirking ever so slightly, Sesshoumaru turned once again to Jaken.

 

“ Finish the last requirements as soon as possible. We have a… `belated' birthday present to give my brother now don't we?”