InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Gravity of Love ❯ False Memories ( Chapter 9 )

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Gravity of Love

Disclaimer - I do not own Inuyasha or any of its characters. I borrow them from Rumiko Takahashi. Story Plotline inspired by Garret Jax's Hanyou.EXE. Song - Gravity of Love by Enigma. Also thank you to Havoc-kun for beta reading for me.

False Memories

“ Mama I'm not so sure about this…” Kikyou sighed and glanced at her mother. Next to her Kagome rolled her eyes and leaned back in her chair, preparing to watch her mother and sister go at it again.

“ Kikyou you've never had any trouble at this school district. Every year you attend with demons and nothing bad comes of it, why are you trying so hard to get out of it?” Kagome bit her tongue, knowing she full well couldn't get in the middle of this one even though she knew the answer to this one. It was always the same…

“ Because they're all disgusting you know that! Besides there is this one hanyou that just keeps…”

“ You know I noticed you happen to be swearing a lot more than usual…” Kagome grumbled as she leaned over Inuyasha's desk, examining the math problem that currently had him stumped. ` Man this is not exactly what I pictured when I thought of wandering the outside world.' She sighed and rubbed her fingers to her temples, wishing she could have twitched like her sprite used to.

“ It's been a damn fucking hard week. Leave me alone!” Inuyasha snapped and Kagome just rolled her eyes. A hard week indeed… if he weren't snapping at her to leave him alone, he wouldn't leave her alone. He was rather surprised when his mother didn't ask too many questions about the new robot. She thought it was kind of his older brother to finally start to show that he cared. And all Inuyasha could do to reply to that was `keh!'

“ Fine, fine you do it yourself.” She grumbled again and stalked away from him. Inuyasha winced and reached out to grab her wrist but Kagome already knew this routine. She turned and glared at him sharply, pointing a finger at him. “ Don't even think about it. You do it yourself if you're going to snap at me got it?” And she turned and stormed right out of the room. Inuyasha sighed and felt his ears droop down slightly as he turned back to his math book.

He wasn't quite sure what was wrong with him actually. Having Kagome so physically close set him off, but not in a bad way, or maybe it was in a way. He had to keep reminding himself that her body wasn't real, despite the heat it let off. That wanting to hold her for some reason—whatever reason—was wrong to both her and Kikyou. Kagome seemed to notice after that day on his bed, he refrained from touching her, but she never said anything about it.

They were always fighting, doing homework, or not even being in the same room by the time this week's end had come about. His family didn't seem to mind Kagome hanging around them too much. He hadn't mentioned to Sango or Miroku that his new robot used to be the AI in his computer—though he was quite sure Sango had figured it out. Which meant Miroku probably knew about it too. Kagome and Sango seemed to spend a lot of time talking with each other. She rather liked his new personal companion, and after one particular nasty fight, he almost considered handing her over to his sister, but for some reason it felt like betrayal to him.

Sighing roughly, Inuyasha dropped his head down on top of his math book. ` She's upset with me, I just know it… man this means I'm going to have to apologize doesn't it?' Inuyasha groaned and forced his ears to his skull. He hated doing that… especially with Kagome. She always got this weird look in her eyes, like she wanted to cry, but never did. But the look alone pretty much did him in. That and the look she had adopted when she looked at him the last few days. She was hiding something from him… but he couldn't figure out what.

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“ I take it my brother's being a complete ass again huh?” Sango mumbled over her sandwich as Kagome stormed into the kitchen, looking like she was ready to tear something apart, or someone anyways. Sighing, Kagome flopped into the chair next to Sango and just shook her head.

“ Of course. I mean if he's not avoiding me completely, he's having me help him with his homework or snapping my head off. How do you put up with this day in and day out?” Kagome snarled and crossed her arms over her chest, closing her eyes to try and block out any mental image she might have of ripping off Inuyasha's ears. While that image faded, she still could still see him in the mind's eye. ` Everywhere… that baka dog-boy.'

“ I think it's gotta do with Kikyou. The entire week you were gone, he tried to call her but could never hold up even when she picked up the phone.” Kagome frowned a little at the mention of Kikyou. As far as she could tell from what little information she could gather about this girl, Kikyou was the one who created her. Sango had shown her images of Kikyou and Inuyasha together in high school before Kikyou had moved. They had looked so happy together… but that couldn't be right could it? Kikyou always said she hated…

` Kami I am not jealous.' That really didn't convince herself, so she tried again. ` I am not jealous of the utter beauty who holds the heart of the arrogant, crude, selfish, rude, handsome, god-like hanyou—shit!' Kagome groaned and let her head fall onto the table as Sango giggled lightly at her. The girl was smart; Kagome hadn't even been around for two whole days before Sango had figured out that she was the AI that had `possessed' Inuyasha's computer.

“ Yeah that's generally the reaction he gets out of everyone.” Kagome picked a look at Sango over her arms that were flailed out in front of her on the table, noticing that Sango was giving her a rather soft look in her eyes. Lifting her head a little, Kagome blinked at Sango. ` I know that look…'

“ You really are a rather special AI aren't you?” Kagome laughed slightly and rolled her shoulders a little with a shrug.

“ I guess.” Sango frowned a little at the cut short answer. Shifting in her seat a little, Sango popped the last of her sandwich into her mouth and put her hand on Kagome's shoulder.

“ You still having those… dreams?” Kagome flinched and let her head fall back to the table with a snort. Three days into being back home with Inuyasha, every time she went into her suspended animation mode, she `dreamed'. At least that was the best way to explain what she thought was happening. And now it happened whenever she dazed off too. Truthfully, she had no idea what it was. Damage from Hakudoushi, the amount of stress put on her emotion stimulator, or maybe it was just the new body. Hell it could be all of thee above for all she knew.

“ I… they don't just feel like dreams. More like… memories. I can remember how things tasted, or how specific things felt against my skin. Things I know I haven't felt before, much less even done in my short lifespan so far. I think… Hakudoushi infected me with something.” Sango frowned a little more, and moved her hand from Kagome's shoulder to rub her back.

“ If he did… do you think you're in danger?” Kagome closed her eyes and shrugged against the table. She had no idea how to answer that. She couldn't, she didn't even know what was wrong with her. Part of her was starting to wonder when Hakudoushi sliced her up, if he didn't try to implant her with something…memories or data that perhaps was supposed to drive her somewhere if she got away. But so far she didn't see much of anything—except Kikyou and Inuyasha, through `her' eyes. Of course, she didn't tell Sango what the dreams were about. For some reason she didn't want to know if they might be real.

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“ Man I don't see why we get stuck playing `tag'.” Bankotsu grumbled as he and Jakotsu trekked through the forest just on the outside of Tokyo. Rumors had been flying around the last few days from humans that they had spotted a rather large horse that appeared to be on fire stalking the mountains. Sesshoumaru insisted that they go out immeditatlly and find the youkai horse before he did any permanent damage to someone.

“ Because we are the most trusted and loyal men to Sesshoumaru…after that little toad imp guy that is.” Jakotsu giggled before scratching his nose. “ But he's not human so… yeah we're the most trusted and loyal men.” Bankotsu chuckled as he kneeled down to inspect a huge hoof print embedded in the ground. ` Yup he's been this way alright.'

“ Yes but that's my point. Men. We can't take on such a large youkai horse and expect to live to tell about it. They say he's faster than the eye can see, even maybe for Sesshoumaru. To make matters worse, he's really strong on top of it. We can't expect to catch him!” Bankotsu whined and shoved himself to his feet. Entei hadn't gone far by the looks of it. Instead of replying, Jakotsu took the lead, following the tracks on the ground through the dense—and slightly burned—underbrush.

They were right, not long after they found the prints in the ground; they came upon a very small clearing. Flowers covered the entire area; a small stream trickled through the entire middle of the meadow. It almost looked like a small piece of heaven, had it not been for the sleeping youkai horse at the far end of it.

Before they could even step any closer, Entei's ears jumped to attention and the horse lifted his head. Both men gulped as the youkai stood, regarding them with such fierce red eyes, it was no wonder the horse was on fire. Entei moved to walk towards them, before suddenly disappearing from sight all together. Bankotsu felt his jaw drop as Jakotsu let out a squeak and practically threw himself behind Bankotsu.

“ Where'd he go? Eek!” Jakotsu had spotted him before Bankotsu did. Moments later Entei stood face to face with Bankotsu, snorting so hard in his face that his braid whipped around his back. Gulping deeply, Bankotsu slowly leaned back to elbow Jakotsu to speak to the youkai who appeared very pissed about his nap being interrupted.

“ Entei… we bring word of—of your master.”

“ Sister you don't find him cute in the least? Really?” Kagome shifted her position next her sister, who simply looked down at her as though she were suddenly disgusted by something.

“ Don't be silly Kaggie, he's a half demon.” Kikyou chided gently as though she was telling her something she didn't already know.

“ I know that! But look at his ears, they're just so adorable!” Kikyou sighed and tugged her sister's hand to get her to stop in her tracks, kneeling before her she let her fingers run through Kagome's hair.

“ Kaggie you are to never speak to him. You understand me? He's dangerous.” Kagome frowned at her sister a little. She was only two years younger than Kikyou; it wasn't like she was stupid or something.

“ Just because he's a hanyou that makes him dangerous? Don't be silly yourself Kikyou…”

“ Wench are you even listening to me?” Kagome snapped out of her daze to look up that the hanyou hovering over her. Kagome gave him a weak smile before shaking her head a little. Inuyasha looked like he had to hold back a sudden burst of outrage over the simple fact she wasn't paying any attention to him. Putting the book down on the desk next to his bed that she had been pretending to read while he did his homework, Kagome shot him a straightforward look.

“ What is it Inuyasha?” He opened his mouth to say something, before instantly snapped it shut and flopped down on the bed beside her. He sighed and leaned his head back against the headboard with his eyes closed.

“ What's bugging you wench? You haven't even called me dog-boy today.” Kagome blinked at him and then frowned, leaning her own head back against the headboard. “ Don't even think about telling me it's nothing. I know you better than that, even if I've only known you for a short time.” Kagome couldn't help but snort and giggle at that.

“ Please we've spent more time together than most people spend in entire relationships. Not like we exactly get a choice about that but… still.” She shook her head and tilted her head so she could watch him. Kagome nearly fell over at the odd look on his face.

“ We get a choice, it's just easier to say we don't.” Inuyasha mumbled and pushed himself off the bed. Kagome frowned a little before crossing her arms over her chest and turned her head to stare out the window.

“ You get a choice Inuyasha. For me… it's always been you, programmed right down into my core.” Kagome flinched, realizing just how that sounded and glanced at him. As she predicted he was standing with his back to her, stiff as a board. She couldn't see his ears, as his head seemed to be hanging. After a moment, Kagome shook her head and stood up.

“ But, I must say, I don't think there are many who could put up with me, much less keep up with me.” Kagome smirked slightly as Inuyasha let out a growl and turned to face her. She smiled brightly at him and grabbed his hand, dragging him back down onto the bed next to her. “ I don't mind being with you Inuyasha.” She hoped she stressed the word right so he'd get the hidden meaning. He just grumbled and crossed his arms. ` Dense baka!'

“ Then why did you just—?” Kagome growled herself and flicked him in the nose. He stared at her in disbelief before she started to laugh, shaking her head a little.

“ Just because I said I didn't get a choice, doesn't mean that I would change it.” She shifted so her back was up against the backboard again, simply watching Inuyasha slouch forward slightly. ` Maybe this whole thing with Kikyou really is starting to drag him down…' “ Inuyasha don't worry about me. I'm still kinda repairing things from Hakudoushi.”

It wasn't a lie really; Hakudoushi had really screwed her up. Despite that though, she knew she wasn't fooling him, especially by the look on his face. But he'd let her off for now, for a day or so… she could think of a better excuse until then.

“ He'll never notice you… you know that right? Not with his eyes set on Kikyou.” Yuka whispered into her ear. Kagome sighed and rolled her eyes, shooting a glare at the girl before turning her attention back to the inu eared boy staring at her sister on the other side of the field.

“ Maybe not. But he did help me out that one day… in the storm. Just cause he doesn't remember…” Eri giggled behind her and reached out to pinch Kagome on the neck. “ Ow!”

“ Girl you were half delirious with fever from walking in the rain. You probably imagined him…since he obviously doesn't remember his `heroic' day.” Kagome grumbled and crossed her arms over her chest before rolling her eyes.

“ Whatever.”

Kagome groaned softly as she pushed herself up off the wall. ` No such thing as a good nights sleep.' Kagome sighed and pushed herself to stand up. The first thing she noticed was, it was rather late at night—maybe two am. Second thing was, Inuyasha wasn't in bed. ` Huh, how odd.' Kagome glanced around the room, she spotted that his bedroom door was cracked open slightly.

Kagome had only made it half way down the stairs, silently thankful for the night vision she apparently had, when she heard Inuyasha's hushed voice coming from the kitchen. Blinking, she slinked along the wall slowly, trying to ensure that his enhanced hearing didn't pick up on her.

“… No it's fine. I'm sorry…” Kagome nearly fell over right there. For Inuyasha to say `sorry' so easily and naturally, maybe he himself was half asleep. “ Sango did it actually, I let her borrow my computer…” Kagome suddenly felt like she was listening in on something she shouldn't be.

“ Kikyou seriously I'd never do that… well of course I've got her. Well you did send her to me for a reason.” He hissed out the last part as though it was some big secret. ` Why am I not surprised? So… Kikyou huh?' Nibbling on her bottom lip, Kagome tried to inch her way back up the stairs, but found her body wouldn't move.

“ Attached? Kikyou did you hit your head on something? That's just wrong on so many levels!” He snapped and Kagome found for the first time, it didn't really hurt. She had heard him say it so many times now in several different ways, and his distance from her lately made it seem… bearable? Or maybe it was the memories that had started to fill her head—the ones of her watching Inuyasha doing what he did best, drooling over Kikyou. Sighing softly, she forgot she was supposed to be quiet. “ Kikyou… hang on sec.” ` Oops… ugh I can do this. Besides I did promise him… didn't I?'

“ Inu what are you doing up this late?” Kagome quickly rounded the corner into the kitchen before he could spot her and accuse her of listening in. ` I caught him off guard good.' Inuyasha couldn't seem to get his voice to work as he gapped like a fish. Instead of trying to get him to open up to her like she might have done before, she just continued on past him and towards the back door in the kitchen.

“ Where are you going?” Inuyasha growled out, forgetting at the moment he actually had Kikyou on hold. Kagome glanced at him over her shoulder and he suddenly felt very cold. ` What's up with her?' She shrugged and kept up towards the back door.

“ Just out in the back. The stars are pretty tonight and since I don't feel the cold…” She simply let her sentence trail off as she scurried out the back door before he could ask any more questions. Inuyasha felt his ears droop once again for what felt like the millionth time that day… mostly because of her. Flinching slightly, Inuyasha reached for the phone.

“ Inuyasha… was that her?” Sighing roughly, he leaned up against the wall and let his eyes lock on the door before him.

“ Yeah. Listen I should go… I have school.” Kikyou was silent for a moment, and he briefly wondered if she had even heard him.

“ Right, I'm sorry. Take care of yourself okay? Be careful.” She didn't give him a chance to say anything else. The resounding click on the other end confirmed what he thought all along… even if he wasn't the one who loaded up the disc; Kikyou had put him in the doghouse.

“ I miss you.” He frowned slightly as he cut her rant off. Kagome turned towards him slightly before shaking her head. Approaching him slowly, she kneeled down in front of him, to look up at his eyes. Her eyes held sadness in them he couldn't seem to understand, but they also held determination.

“ I'll bring Kikyou back to you. I promise.” She reached up and let her hand rest on his cheek so softly, as though he himself might disappear if she applied too much pressure. Inuyasha furrowed his brow as he stared at her. She smiled slightly at him.

“ No longer will you have forbidden dreams of the one you love. It's the least I can do for you… as I cannot do anything of real value for you.”

Kagome sighed and shook her head, letting her head fall from the stars to stare at the grass before her. ` Why'd I have to go and make such a promise? How the hell am I going to get Kikyou back to him?'

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A/n: Sorry this chapter took so long. More gutting ya know? Please review for me!