InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Guardian Angel of the Loved ❯ The Memory Continues To Haunt ( Chapter 2 )

Guardian Angel of the Loved

Chapter 2: The Memory Continues to Haunt

I woke up screaming as if I could really feel the pain and see the blood. Looking around in a panic, breathing heavily, I remembered where I was. I was home in my own bed, in my own time. I shouldn't be thinking about the Fuedal Era or the brutal scene I had dreamt of seconds ago, when Naraku had slaughtered InuYasha. I tucked my knees up to my chin and covered my face, listening to the echoing footsteps down the hallway; my mother's footsteps,"Kagome, are you alright?" she asked,"We heard a scream." I sighed removing my hands from my face,"I'm fine Mom...it's nothing..." But everything wasn't fine, it had been 7 months to the day since I had seen with my own eyes InuYasha die, but I couldn't remove the memory from my mind.

I closed my eyes and took in a deep breath, visions flashing before my eyes, InuYasha had been holding me close, protecting me, when Naraku had stabbed him through the back and stomach with the poison blade of miasma. As I held InuYasha's head on my lap, he had started choking on his own blood. I had been covered in his blood, my hands were crimson with his murder, it had been my fault.

I shook my head, trying to forget the horrifying memory that burned into my brain. "It was all my fault...I let him die...", I whispered into the silence, looking at my reflection in the mirror. The girl in the mirror looked nothing like the Kagome everyone knew, the one I knew. This girl staring at me in the mirror had a strangled look and a deathly pale face, with bags under her bloodshot eyes and tangles in her usual neat hair. 'Look at yourself, Kagome, you look awful,' I thought. I had tried to stay strong, putting on a fake smile in front of my friends and family; but when I was alone, whether in the bathroom at school or sleeping in my bed, or at least trying to sleep, the secretive Kagome came out. The one who carried deadly secrets and heavy burdens and pains. The one who remembered everything,'You could see the life left in him...his innocent blood covered you...', I told myself,'...it was your fault and his blood is proof of the murder.' My eyes widened and I punched my mirror angrily, shattering it against my knuckles,"NO! No...please..." I sobbed, curling up in a ball as I listened to the running footsteps coming upstairs. My mother, grandpa, and little brother Souta stormed in the room. My mother, looking horrifyed at the shattered glass on the floor, yelled at my grandfather,"Take Souta and go downstairs!". They left with some slight hesitation as my mother sat on my bed, hugging my shaking, small form.

After awhile, she left to get me tea, leaving me alone in my thoughts. I sighed, tears still falling down my face, and walked to my window; opening it and letting the cool summer breeze in. I smiled lightly, the first real smile for awhile, and recalled InuYasha coming through this window many times before. I glanced over at my bedside table and brushed my fingers across it, where my alarm clock was to sit, he had broken it and told me later. I found myself chuckling now still, thinking of how guilty he felt. I looked back out the window, over at the well house,'I have to go back...' I thought and sat on my bed, my head in my hands. When my mother came back with tea I told her,"I'm going back, Mom...it's still my job to help find the jewel shards." She looked at me closely and nodded, to my surprise. "You're letting me go...just like that?" I asked, dumbfounded. She chuckled slightly and replied,"Its obvious I can't keep you from there and Kagome, I think it would be best for you; for all of us." I glanced hastily over at the broken mirror and looked at my feet in shame. "You should get rest. I'll help you pack everything tomorrow," my mother said as I covered up in bed. She kissed my forehead gently and whispered,"Sleep well Kagome, don't let it haunt you forever," as she shut the door. After I was sure my mother couldn't hear me, I stepped out of bed over to my closet and took out the familiar red kimono. I held it close and climbed in bed, breathing in the scent of InuYasha as I slept.

In my deep sleep, I was not the only figure in the room. A tall figure with glistening white hair stood in the dark corner, it was InuYasha, my guardian angel. He walked over to my sleeping form and hugged me, his black wings surrounding our bodies. As the rising sun shone through my window, his body slowly disappeared into the shadows; kissing me gently on the lips.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,

When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears,

I've held your hand through all of these years but you still have all of me...