InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Guardian Angel of the Loved ❯ Forgetting the Dearest ( Chapter 3 )

Guardian Angel of the Loved

Chapter 3: Forgetting the Dearest

~Dedicated to my dearest ones~

I stood at the edge of the well, shrugging my backpack onto my shoulders. Ready to jump down, back into the Fuedal Era. But was I really ready, after 7 months of mourning over InuYasha? No one could answer the question, I couldn't even answer that. I sighed and jumped down, darkness falling around me until I landed on the bottom of the well on the other side, so to speak. Looking up to the sky, I climbed out of the well bottom, part of me expecting InuYasha to welcome me. But instead, I felt a small child tackle me,"Shippou!" I yelled, hugging him."Kagome we were so worried! We thought you would never come back!" Shippou, the little fox demon boy said. Lifting him onto my shoulder I said,"I would never desert you, Shippou." I smiled at him, as if nothing happened; but my mind was elsewhere, how can I just forget about InuYasha? I walked, without paying attention, even talked without thinking about it. 'Funny...it's like I don't need myself, my body moves by itself, I even talk by myself...' I thought. I reacted to everything so normally, but in my mind I was screaming, wanting to let out my pain and fury.

We walked through the forest, I was unable to pass by the familiar tree, where InuYasha was laid to rest; so we took the long way around. We met up with Kaede, Kikyou's sister; who was talking in hushed voices with Miroku and Sango. They stopped talking when they caught sight of me and Sango ran over, embracing me like a sister,"Oh Kagome! I'm so glad your back, we've been so worried," she said kindly, smiling. Miroku was also smiling, but there was a mystery in his eyes. I smiled back, as if everything was normal. But when Kaede embraced me and whispered,"We've missed you, child and he would too..." I broke down and cried, letting more of my pain and weakness out. Letting it be known. My memory went back to a night when InuYasha had still been alive.

He was so tormented inside, because of his demon side coming out. My heart went out to him as I watched him sit there, a terrible and guilty look on his face. He had sat by the river side staring at his hands, the hands that killed the bandits with no regard, no guilt. He didn't quite remember, but he could smell the blood on his hands. Oh, how he hated it. How he felt so guilty. I kneeled down behind him, my head laying on his back, my hands resting on his shoulders. His hand found mine and then I knew; I think I really knew, that I loved him so much. We stayed so long that way, not saying a word. We both knew how we felt, but we never told each other. I never told him.

I fell asleep, in my thoughts, my dreams saddened by the face of InuYasha. Night had fallen hours ago. 'Is this how it will always be...I think I'm going crazy, I'm even losing time, it seems...' I said to myself silently. Shippou was curled up in between Sango and myself and Miroku was snoring softly as he slept, sitting against the wall. If InuYasha had been in the room, he would've been sleeping in the corner, where I would watch him secretly, until he fell asleep. Even now, as I thought of it, I shuddered. Telling myself I have to let it go, to forget. How hard is it to remember something like forgetting? Part of me treasured every memory of him, this was the part that refused to forget. The other part of me wanted to forget, to hide away the pain and fury and the guilt I felt inside. In the still of the night, I decided to see his grave. It would be the closest to his physical form I had ever been in the 7 months of agony.

I walked silently, InuYasha's red kimono laying across my shoulders. In the forest, I felt nearer to him. It was where I had first met him. There was the tree, with the mark, almost like a scar, across it. Where InuYasha had been pinned. Where I pulled the arrow. Of course, one thing had changed around the tree, a gravestone. I knelt down in front of the stone tablet, brushing my fingers across the Japanese symbols. "InuYasha, watashi no taisetsu, nokori de heion," I read aloud, tracing the carving. As I spoke these words, I felt warmer somehow. I closed my eyes and heard his whisper in my ear,"Kagome...I love you, dearest..." His arms wrapped around me, his black wings folded around our still forms. "InuYasha..."I whispered once to him. But he put his finger to his lips, smiling. How many times we kissed, I don't even know. I just remember being safe for once, at peace again. Safe in his arms forever and always. Forever I would love him. Always would he be my angel.

Hontou ni taisetsu na mono igai subete sutete

shimaetara ii no ni ne

genjitsu wa tada zankoku de

sonna toki itsu datte

me o tojireba

waratteru kimi ga iru

Ah! Itsuka eien no nemuri ni tsuku hi made

dou ka sono egao ga

taeme naku aru you ni

hito wa minna kanashii kata

wasurete yuu ikimono dakedo

aisubeki mono no tame

ai o kureru mono no tame dekiru koto

Ah! Deatta ano koro wa

subete ga bukiyou de

toomawari shita yo ne

kizutsuke atta yo ne

Ah! Itsuka eien no nemuri ni tsuku hi made

dou ka sono egao ga

taema naku aru you ni

Ah! Deatta ano koro wa

subete ga bukiyou de

toomawari shita yo ne

tadoritsuitan da ne

~~InuYasha Dearest~~