InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ His Past, Her Present, Their Future ❯ Pouring ( Chapter 9 )
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
Disclaimer: No own Inu or any characters related…nor do I own the song I have imposed into this chapter. Now, this will be the ONLY time I actually put a song into the chapter…normally I would just tell you a song that screamed meaning to me and put the lyrics at the end, but this is a special situation. it’s a song meant to be heard, and its not some pop song with repeating choruses, so I am putting it in. Gomen if you’re one of the people who hates that. Its called Wind Nocturne (Boat Song) and its from the video game Lunar…and I used to sing it to my daughter when she was teensy. Veryyy pretty song, I recommend downloading it. ^___^
Two chapters today! Hoobah!
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His Past, Her Present, Their Future
Chapter 9 - Pouring
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‘Too soon?’ Sesshoumaru wondered as he watched Kagome drift off to sleep. ‘Why did it make her cry? She was fine with it when it was happening, she even returned it!’
‘Probably thought you weren’t serious, baka.’ his conscience provided frankly.
‘She should know that this Sesshoumaru is always serious.’
‘Think so? Well, baka, I‘m right whether you wanna admit it or not.’
‘Why does my conscience sound like BakaYasha?”
‘Keh! Because you think I’m annoying when I point out the truth, so you superimpose InuYasha’s voice to my thoughts?’
‘Either that, or I’ve lost it. Now, BakaYasha, out of my head.’
‘Nope, I don’t think so. Can you blame the poor girl? You try to kill her several times…hold her prisoner…treat her all-around like dirt…then you KISS her?’
‘I have not treated Kagome ill in a year. Why would she think I had cruel intentions?’
‘Because you are still you. She obviously cares for you, more than she’s willing to admit to herself, but she still believes it would be impossible. She’s weird like that.’
‘Didn’t I just tell her, though, that she is different?’
‘She’s a woman, and women are…confusing.’
‘Hai, BakaYasha, on that I will agree.’
‘…Stop referring to me as your hanyou half-brother. I am a part of you so isn’t that an insult to yourself?’
‘Hn.’
That stopped the Taiyoukai’s musings, and he scowled slightly at the miko’s sleeping form. Standing up with a fluid, silent motion, he began a short patrol around camp, deciding to loosen his muscles in the only way he knew how - a fight. He stayed within earshot of the group, to prevent any repeats of the week before, and kept his aura searching for threats at all times. An hour and seven minor youkai later and Sesshoumaru was thoroughly relaxed and ready to meditate the rest of the night away.
As the campfire came into sight, he was alerted to a presence behind him. He turned around coolly, raising an eyebrow into the darkness. He was upwind from whatever was there, so scenting wasn’t an option. ‘Wind?’ He had to resist the temptation to roll his eyes into the darkness, “What do you want, witch?”
“So cold, Taiyoukai, so cold. How about I warm you up a little?” Kagura said as she approached, a seductive grin playing across her features.
Sesshoumaru raised one perfectly sculpted brow, turned on his heel and paced away at his normal strolling gait. This time he really did roll his eyes when he felt fingertips trailing down his arm. He turned to face the kaze youkai and narrowed his gaze, “Remove your hands from this Sesshoumaru’s person unless you would like assistance with the removal,” he drawled, the smile on her face quickly transforming to a pout.
“What’s your problem? I’m free now, and I have wanted you for years. You would be the perfect father to my children. Perfect body, perfect power, perfect mind…perfection. And I promise you wouldn’t be disappointed,” she purred sliding closer to him.
“Hn,” he said shortly, turning and walking back to the clearing. Just as he reached it he heard her call back to him, “Maybe Naraku was right about you liking men then…”
Sesshoumaru ignored her taunt and went back to his tree near Kagome, lowering himself and focusing on the fire as he began his meditation for the night.
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The tension as the group traveled was tangible. Kagome’s normal cheer was cut to a mere ghost of its usual self, her smiles fake. She avoided eye contact with the demon lord at all costs, even when speaking directly to him, which in itself wasn’t often. He was exasperated, and was tightly reining in the urge to grab her and pin her to a tree by her neck until she explained what was wrong. It couldn’t possibly be the kiss, could it?
In fact, that was only part of it. The silent miko was currently at war with herself, attempting to beat her ever-growing attraction and fondness for the youkai into submission. She had vowed long ago to not allow herself to want more than friendship for Sesshoumaru, but somehow this was not the case. Apparently a rebellious part of her mind had been harboring very non-platonic thoughts about him, and were currently throwing a full blown mutiny within her.
She would not and COULD NOT have feelings for Sesshoumaru. This was not allowed. She kept yelling these reasons to her seemingly deaf other parts, but was promptly ignored. No matter he was InuYasha’s brother, no matter he was a demon, no matter that she would be leaving in a few more months at most, no matter that he would never harbor feelings for a human…they ignored her and went on discussing his finer point with each other. Kagome mentally threw up her arms and growled, not noticing the sound was vocal in the world outside her head until she saw Sesshoumaru looking at her with a raised eyebrow.
She blushed and looked down quickly, “What?”
“My suggestion of getting out of the rain was so dissatisfactory?”
She heated crimson, “Sorry, I wasn’t listening, that wasn’t directed at you.”
“Ah.”
“Its going to rain?”
“Yes, and there is a cave nearby.”
“Where did Kagura go?”
“She said she had an acquaintance nearby with a jewel shard, so she decided to go call upon him,” he said with a smirk and a wave of his hand, as he lead the group to the cave and pulled the napping children to the floor, “This storm will last a few days, I think we should return to the House of the Moon in the morning to wait out its end. It would not be acceptable for you or Rin to become ill.”
She nodded in agreement and sat back against the wall of the cave, staring out at the darkening sky with a dark look of her own. Her eyes were clouded over, Sesshoumaru noted, as she occasionally grunted or shook her head in frustration. It was really too much.
“Kagome-momma?” Shippou inquired, climbing into her lap.
“Yes, Shippou?”
“You’re going to leave me soon, aren’t you?”
Kagome’s breathe hitched and she met her kit’s emerald gaze, “Why would you say that, sweetie?”
“I heard you and InuYasha talking about it after Naraku was defeated. And I can tell its going to be soon. Do you have to go?”
Kagome smiled softly and cupped his small cheek, “Hai baby, I have to. You know I would stay here with you forever if I could, but fate seems to think its better this way.”
“I don’t think I like fate very much.”
“Neither do I, koi, neither do I.”
“Why do you have to leave me?”
She closed her eyes and tilted back her head, after a long moment of silence she laughed ruefully, “Because, my little love, it seems that fate thinks its rightness is more important than my happiness.”
Shippou curled closer into her and wrapped his short little arms around her as best as he could. He whimpered quietly as he tried to comfort his adopted mother, because though she shed no tears, her sorrow permeated the cave.
Dinnertime came after several hours of a slightly uncomfortable silence, and the rain was dripping silently outside of their temporary abode. The main brunt of the storm wouldn’t hit until later that night, with a small reprieve sometime the next day before the second, and stronger wave hit. Sesshoumaru’s sense of smell, aggravating as it was at times, came in handy in situations such as this. He watched Kagome hand out dinner, accepting some for himself that night, and settle the children down. She had finished the story of Cinderella the night before and was stroking Shippou’s tail lovingly as she pondered what story to tell them now.
“Kagome-chan, sing us a song tonight. Rin heard you singing at the river this morning, and Rin thinks you have a very pretty voice!” she crooned, smiling hopefully at the older girl.
Kagome sighed uncertaintly, but a reverent look from Shippou convinced her, “Fine, I’ll sing you a song. But you have to go to sleep after, alright?”
“Hai!” the two children said in unison, snuggling under their blanket against Ah-Uh’s belly and looking adoringly up at the woman that even Rin was coming to see as a mother-figure.
Her voice was soft at first, gaining in intensity as she sang, her eyes closed, her fingers running through Shippou’s unbound hair subconsciously.
Wishing on a dream that seems far off
Hoping it will come today
Into the starlit night
Foolish dreamers turn their gaze
Waiting on a shooting star
But, what if that star is not to come?
Will their dreams fade to nothing?
When the horizon darkens most
We all need to believe there is hope!
Is an angel watching closely over me?
Can there be a guiding light I’ve yet to see?
I know my heart should guide me but
There’s a hole within my soul
What will fill this emptiness inside of me?
Am I to me satisfied without knowing?
I wish then for a chance to see
Now all I need, desperately
Is my star to come?
Kagome opened her eyes finally, looking down at the two now sleeping children. Her gaze softened as she leaned over to kiss each on the brow. She didn’t feel the tears slipping down her cheeks until one fell onto Rin’s forehead as she leaned to kiss the girl. She smiled ruefully and scrubbed her face free of the traitorous droplets, huffing and returning to her spot near the cave’s entrance.
Sesshoumaru had watched the performance in silence. Her voice, while nothing spectacular, had a clear and sweet quality that endeared him. The words though were what left an impression on his heart. He stood in a hiss of silk and walked over to her silent figure, lowering himself soundlessly beside her.
“Do you really see yourself as such?” he said quietly, breaking the aching silence.
Kagome turned and met his eyes intentionally for the first time that day, new tears forming in her eyes, “Hai.”
“You should not. Perhaps you are just unwilling to see the star that is already been there.”
“And perhaps I know better than to be a foolish dreamer. I spent years being one, I know the consequences now.”
“It is one thing to be realistic, it is another to be a pessimist.”
She snorted in an undignified fashion and looked back out into the night, “There’s nothing pessimistic about knowing that its impossible to have something, and choosing to ignore the possibility.”
“What if it weren’t impossible?”
Kagome turned and looked directly into his eyes with a disbelieving look, and for once he dropped every bit of the mask he held, letting her see the emotions on his face and in his eyes that she sought. She gasped and looked away, and the scent of her blood entered the small space as she bit hard on her lower lip. She didn’t look at him this time as she spoke, “Why? Why do this to me? Sesshoumaru, I am leaving in a few months, for good! You’re only making it harder!”
Her lip was still bleeding slightly and the Taiyoukai gripped her chin and leaned towards her, running his tongue across the cut gently, removing the blood and stopping new bleeding at the same time. She had gone rigid still in his grasp, and once her lip was sufficiently healed he pressed closer to her, his tongue now moving across her lips in order to seek entrance.
It was several long moments before she responded, opening her mouth slightly to allow his tongue through. She relaxed slightly, leaning into him as they shared the slow, sweet kiss. Her fingers hesitantly moved up, entwining themselves into his hair behind his ears. Sesshoumaru’s arm went around her waist, yanking her to him as he pressed his lips hard against hers, deepening the kiss.
It was then Kagome came to her senses. She broke the kiss and shoved at his no longer armored chest, the traitorous parts of her mind purring at the feel of the lean muscles underneath his haori. She succeeded in escaping his grasp and glared down at him, her eyes blazing through hot, stinging tears, “Damnit Sesshoumaru! Damn you! I just got finished telling you that its impossible! IMPOSSIBLE! I will not let this happen! I can’t! I cannot let myself think of you this way, because if I do, I will fall for you, and if I do that I will never go home. And I have to go home, damnit!” her voice build to a scream by the end, “Why would you do this to me? Am I so amusing to play with? Well, I am no one’s toy!” she spat, then she ran out into the pouring rain, leaving a shocked Taiyoukai staring after her.
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A/N: Ah hah! ^___^ More kissing, because making them kiss is entertaining. *swoon* Stupid Kags, being difficult. *sigh* I thought it would be a nice change for Sesshou to know exactly what he wants, but Kags being the stubborn one. XD
For the song, its really a sweet song, I love it. Go to “Blue Laguna” (google it) and in their media archives they have like, every song from every RPG. Its fabulous. ^___^ Remember, it’s the Boat song from Lunar: SSSC, and I don’t own it, I just sing it a lot. XD
To my reviewers, you’ve all made me sooo happy. ^___^ Squee!! I was completely happy while reading, thank you guys. Crescent Dreams, thank you dearie! I didn’t think anyone but me would be all AWW over that bit. XD And McSlave on MM.org….thank you darling, in the most heartfelt sense.
Anyway, off I go to try and find a saved fic I haven’t read in a while to compensate for my boredom. Hey, question, is anyone else who’s in love with Sesshou fallen for Toga (InuPapa)? I have. *swoons* Anyone know of any Kag/InuPapa fics that are actually advanced in storyline? I’ve found about 8 on FF.net, but their all very short and not into the relationship yet. *swoons again* He has become my second favorite character, after my Sesshou of course. But he’s just such a hottie! OMG! >_> Sorry, I’ll shut up. Its funny though, how just a few months ago I was a diehard Inu fan, then I evolved and now have placed both his brother and father higher on my pillars of *swoon and drool* than him. XD So strange. La la la, ja ne!