InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ I am the Moon ❯ Chuusin and Karuson ( Chapter 36 )

A/n: I do not own Inuyasha, Rumikio Takahashi does.

West: I have always had a major fascination for the great women that rule; Queen Elizabeth I, Catherine the Great of Russia, Cleopatra, and Queen Heshetput to name a few. Conventional morality never applied to these women and they became great in their ways. Queen Elizabeth has always been my favorite; her greatness was not just her intelligence and cunning but how much the English loved her. I enjoy the idea of seeing a strong and military woman in a male dominated society. There is an end in sight; I decided to write one long story instead of any sequels. It keeps the flow better. Thanks for the reviews!!!!

 

Chuusin and Karuson

 

I sat listening to Yuudai intently. Katashi had settled near the village of Fuxin and I knew him well enough that he would strike Shanghai. Vlad had been dead for nearly two months and a few minor; less powerful uppyr had come after me. They were dispatched with ease and I moved between the West and Shanghai for now. The more I saw Tekeshi and Naraku together the more I knew that the two males had been destined to be friends. Tekeshi was more outgoing and easygoing than the hanyou and Naraku was more calculating and controlling. It amused me to no end watching them discuss military strategy. They would sit and argue back and forth; finally to come to the same conclusions. The one thing they never argued about was me. They were kept sufficiently busy that they did not interfere with time alone with me. It boggled my mind but it worked. The pups were thriving being with each other and I noticed that Mizuki was getting stronger. She had teleported to the West in a fit of temper after the twins had made her angry. My mother had brought her back after I had lost my mind. Hana was still young enough not to drive me to distraction. Ang Chi was being groomed for Lordship and never seemed to know. He always called me mother and I could not imagine him not being apart of my family. He was especially drawn to Hana and spent a lot of his free time with his sister. I had found my thoughts drifting and Yuudai had quit speaking.

“My Lady at what point did I loose you?” he asked amused.

“I am sorry Yuudai. You were telling me that the He Gang Lord was gathering arms and my mind drifted.” I admitted.

“You have not slept in days my Lady.” He observed.

“Hai you are right. Mizuki has been porting between the Northern Castle, here, and the West.” I said shaking my head.

“I suggest binding the little lady's powers until she can understand to use them.” Yuudai said.

“I think you are right. Kamis Naraku does not want to do that.” I said standing.

“I think he would rather not have his daughter go missing.” Yuudai pointed out.

“You have always been a good friend Yuudai.” I commented.

“I will always serve you my Lady.” he said bowing.

“Do you remember when we told your father that I was going to give you the West and I could be his daughter?” I said in memory.

“Hai. I remember you being quite angry at Lord Sesshomaru for not allowing you to fight against the ningen daimyo.” He said smirking.

“Hai I also seem to remember sneaking out and you and I would lay in the fields and dream of being great warriors.” I said.

“I remember loving you all my life chuusin. I cannot remember a time you did not play at my house or get me into severe trouble.” He said laughing.

He had not called me chuusin in a very long time. Yuudai had been almost as close to me as Osamu had been. There had been times the three of us had caused major problems indeed. Yuudai had also been my first kiss and my best friend.

“I miss this Yuudai.” I said.

“We are not pups anymore my Lady and you are mated to very powerful males. I will always have the memories of you growing though.” He said mischievously.

I groaned at those memories. My father had trained me from a very young age and I did not act like a proper female. Yuudai had seen me naked more times than I cared to admit now. I shook me head and motioned for my childhood friend to sit. He sat down and I went and poured some tea. I handed him a cup and sat on the floor. I stared up into his gray eyes and smiled. We had professed love at one time but he never made moves to mate me. After Hideaki's demise I had come to need him as my general.

“Well it seems I have made quite a mess between father and son.” I said.

“I never liked Lord Katashi. I disliked him even more when I found out what a whoremonger he had been and had acted jealous toward you.” He stated bluntly.

“I know. The strange thing is his sire was never that way. Tekeshi has a deep sense of honor.” I stated.

“Well not to be impertinent but here it goes; I would rather wait a hundred years to bed you then rut with any common female.” He said bluntly.

“Yuudai!” I said nearly choking on my tea.

“Chuusin I am sorry but honestly. Any inu in his right mind would want the same.” He said,

“You act as though I am something special Yuudai. I happened to be born of powerful youki parentage nothing more. I have seen bitches ten times more beautiful.” I said.

“You forget I have seen your body. You favor your father to be sure but the shape of your face is that of your mother. You may be tall for a female but your body is very much bent to feminine angles. Your temper belies your nature in bed. No a male would have to be insane to turn you away.” He said as if discussing military strategy.

My cheeks burned and I shook my head. Yuudai looked at me with his gray eyes and they held merriment. He would only have been blunt with me in private.

“My temper belies my nature in bed?” I asked.

“Hai. I have kissed you. Granted a very long time ago but I had to take care of my own needs later.” He replied.

“Why did you never move forward?” I asked him.

“Because I respected your father too much. I am not on the same rank as you. My father had considered your sire foolish for making a female his heir but as he saw you and your yoki grow he changed his mind. You were destined for greater things than I.” he said honestly.

“You know I was furious with you for along time when you walked away from me the last time. I wanted you to take me badly and you acted as if I was a deadly plague.” I said looking down.

“I walked away because I loved you Asuna. I realized in that moment how much I did. Your alliance with a lesser noble family would never had benefited the West.” He said stiffly.

“What have I done since then that has truly benefited the West?” I asked him bluntly.

“My father sits on your sire's council and nothing more chuusin. I know it was obvious in Shenyang how I felt about you but again I am just a general and you and your family will rule.” He stated setting down his cup.

“More tea?” I asked him.

“I think I have remembered enough for one day my Lady.” He said standing.

“I think you need to sit.” I said raising a brow.

“Excuse me?” Yuudai asked in a temper.

“This is the first real and honest conversation you and I have had in years!” I said with a low growl.

“What do you want me to say chuusin? When I am in your company I see others do what I have wanted all my life. I have loved you since you were old enough to walk. I toddled after you then and I still do.” He said staring at me.

“You turned me down Yuudai.” I said bluntly.

“Because I am nothing! It did not matter as pups that you were the heir to the West. It did not matter that you shared my bed when you snuck away from the palace. It may not have mattered to you that you would slum so to speak.” He said raising his voice.

I stood up and slapped him. My life had been so in a tumult that feelings and emotions from before meeting Katashi finally surfaced. He had denied me mere months before I had met my former mate.

“Do you want to know what I was doing when I met Katashi?” I said in a low tone.

“What?” he asked flippantly.

“He saw me pleasure myself whilst I fantasized about you. I imagined your hands on my body and your member inside of me.” I said in a whisper.

He looked stunned and I took his cup and poured more tea. I handed it to him and he sat.

“You were supposed to take my maidenhead not Katashi.” I said bitterly.

“Asuna stop!” he demanded of me.

“I tell you the truth as I felt it. I have always suppressed my emotions and these last few years have taught me that is a dangerous thing in my case.” I said looking at him.

“What am I to say?” Yuudai asked me.

“Nothing I suppose.” I said staring at a point over his head.

“I am honored that you wanted me in such a fashion Lady Asuna.” He said stiffly.

“Honored?” I asked him barking a laugh.

“Hai honored.” He said flatly.

“Well that is a new one. Go on Yuudai.” I said in a bitter tone.

“I was never to have you chuusin. I am meant to serve and nothing more.” He said as he stood.

“You were a coward. I would have fought for you.” I stated.

“I had not just a duty to you but to my Lord Sesshomaru.” He growled at me.

I turned on him and had grabbed his haori. Old anger coursed through me that made no sense in the current time.

“Your duty is to me first and always. You swore yourself to me the night we took down that moth youki. You bled for me!” I hissed.

“I am still a son of the West.” He hissed right back.

“I am its head below my father.” I snapped as I released him.

“Hai below your father.” He snapped back.

We were fighting as we did when we were adolescents. I threw my tea cup at the wall and it shattered. He stood there glaring at me and Tekeshi walked in.

“Is everything alright?” my mate asked.

“General Yuudai was just leaving.” I snarled.

“Hai my Lady!” He said with a bow.

Yuudai walked out and I glared at his back. I turned to Tekeshi and he waited for me to speak. I sat down and so did he.

“Yuudai grew up with Osamu and I. I am but one year older than he. He was my partner in crime when I used to tear up the palace.” I explained.

“He was as Touga was to me.” He said smiling.

“You grew up with Touga?” I asked surprised.

“Hai his sire and my sire were friends from way back. Touga was five or six summers when I was born. I would be sent to the Western Castle so he and I could play. I spent more than half my life amongst the Western Inu.” He said with a laugh.

“He and I disagreed about Katashi. He did not like him when I mated him. Katashi and he almost came to blows.” I explained.

“Well then your puphood friend is wise. I love my son but do not like him right now.” He said standing.

“It matters not.” I said looking away.

“Asuna fix your friendship. He is your general and he knows you well. Go now. Do not allow old wounds to fester. You have time now.” He said smiling down at me.

“When did you become so wise?” I asked with a gentle smile.

“The day I met the onna I love. I thought that I had loved Touga's sister but I never knew love.” He said pulling me to standing.

“You and Naraku have become quite the team.” I commented.

“Hai I like him a great deal. He enjoys hunting but chooses to do so in his humanoid form. I have come to enjoy it as well.” He said smirking.

“I did not know that Naraku hunted.” I said surprised.

“You never asked.” He replied.

I bit my lip and knew that my hanyou and I were going to have our own sake contest.

“I know that look. You are going to fight with him.” Tekeshi said shaking his head.

“Why does it matter if I do?” I snapped.

“Because he broods and you bitch.” He replied.

I slapped his arm and he laughed. He walked out of the room and I fumed. Yuudai was a priority and then Naraku was going to spill his guts to me. I could face Katashi in a week or two.

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The weather was warm and I had changed into a short kimono. I had shed my armor and wore only a pair of geta. Shanghai was balmier than I was used to and the palace was right near the water. My kimono was a fawn color that depicted cranes. My hair was down and I had lately cut it so it fell just above my backside. Yuudai was sparring with one of his subordinates and he was stripped to his hakamas. I watched with interest and his form was excellent. I sat my package down and called one of the soldiers. I indicated his katana and he about threw it at me. My soldiers were fond of me I knew. I got into the thick of a battle and bled like they did. I had the katana and I moved over and bowed to my general. He had just turned one hundred seven summers as I had just had my own birthday. He was young but extremely talented in war. He looked at my angrily and I raised a brow.

“You dismissed me my Lady.” He said with anger in his voice.

His subordinate scrambled and I fell into battle stance. Yuudai had been trained by my father as well when he found it necessary to get me into the dojo. When I was a pup my devotion to Yuudai was unrivaled. Whenever I was sad as a pup I would sneak into Yuudai's bedroom and curl up next to him. I remembered satisfying my curiosity about a male's body when I was younger. He had been patient until I had touched his manhood and he had jumped out of his skin. My memories fueled my anger and I struck fast. I had not sparred with Yuudai in at least a couple of years.

“Why are you here?” he asked as he blocked.

“I was not actually done when I lost my temper.” I admitted as I struck his katana.

“I am but your humble servant.” He said sarcasticlly.

I threw the blade down and I grew my whip. I wrapped it around his ankle and felled him. He landed on his backside with a grunt and snarled at me.

“Leave us!” I commanded.

The few soldiers that were milling about left quickly.

“You are being impertinent in front of others!” I snarled back at him

“You are angry with me for not standing up and facing the distinction in our ranks but you reinforce them every chance you get!” he said standing and glared at me.

“You started it!” I yelled.

“”No I did not Asuna. Your birth started it.” He said walking away from me.

“How dare you walk away from me!” I growled.

“I am off duty right now. There is no battle and I am sick of this conversation.” He said

I came up behind him and tackled him to the ground. He had not disrespected me in years. He was strong but I was the taiyouki. He threw me off of him and I landed in a very unladylike fashion. He stared down at me and gave me his hand. I took it and pulled him down. He landed on me and snarled.

`We are no longer adolescents chuusin.” He snarled again.

“We are supposed to be friends.” I growled.

“No you are my Lady and commander.” He said standing.

I beat his bare chest and he grabbed my wrists.

“This does not befit you my Lady.” He said snappishly

He got off of me and walked away. I was furious and he actually had enough gumption to disobey me. I stood up and stomped after him. He looked over his shoulder and actually barked at me in inu. He continued to walk away until he was in the forest that surrounded the Shanghai palace. He had told me to back off and I was not listening. We occasionally would have terrible fights and he would find a tree and sit until he calmed down. It seemed that his old habits had not died. I grabbed his shoulder and dug my claws into it. He shouted in pain and whirled on me. He slammed me against a tree and took my hand off of his shoulder.

“Bitch!” he hissed.

“Hai?” I asked him.

“Why are you so angry with me? It has been years since any of this happened. I am your general now and I serve you. Why bring up old events?” he demanded.

“I have never forgiven you for not wanting me.” I admitted.

“Idiot!” he admonished me.

“I wanted you to take me the first time. I trusted you and you walked away from me.” I accused him.

“I walked away for the right reasons chuusin. I walked away because I did love you. I could not have rutted with you and not wanted to mark you.” He admitted.

“I wanted you to mark me.” I said in a severe whisper.

“I could not do that! Duty and honor are drilled into all of us that serve your house. How could I defile the daughter of my Lord?” he snarled.

“Because you loved me.” I said.

“I am not you. You bend every rule for your whims and face the consequences later.” He said.

“How dare you! I least have the courage of my convictions to follow my heart. You cower away and espouse your shit of honor and duty to my father. Your honor and duty was to me and me alone.” I said in a low and dangerous tone.

“I have always been at your call chuusin but I have honor and I have my duty that I still follow to this day!” he snarled in a terrible tone.

He was angry and furious and his eyes were red. He grabbed my arms roughly and his claws dug in. He wanted to hit me I could tell but would not because he was my general. We stared at each other and my own eyes were burning.

“I brought you something.” I said.

“What?” he snapped.

“I left it back at your encampment. Why are you not in the palace itself?” I asked.

“Better morale amongst the men to stay with them.” He said backing up.

I led the way back to the campsite and picked up the large silk bag. I handed it to him and he looked puzzled.

“It came from the Taisho's own stash. I spirited it out of the palace for you. I have had it and it is quite good.” I said looking away.

“You do not drink sake.” He said surprised.

“I drink that sake.” I said flippantly.

“Your sire would be furious if he knew you took this.” He said narrowing his eyes.

“What my father does not know will not hurt him will it?” I responded.

“You say you have had it; prove it.” He demanded.

I moved into his tent and noticed no small sake cups but larger ones for tea. I shrugged and picked one up. I grabbed the bottle from him and filled the cup up.

“You are insane! You will not drink all that.” He said mocking me.

“Bastard.” I remarked then downed the whole tea cup full.

It burned going down but the taste was as good as I remembered. I might have to go back to Touga just to get more. Yuudai looked at me as if I had lost my mind.

“Your turn.” I said taunting him.

He grabbed the cup and poured himself the same amount and downed it. He looked at me smugly and handed it back. My eyes were still on the verge of changing and I grabbed the bottle from him and poured another cup. I downed it and handed it to him.

“Asuna I cannot get inebriated.” He said flatly.

“Fuck your honor for one day. You can and will because I say you can.” I said harshly.

He grabbed it and poured himself another cup. He downed it and grimaced a little. I took the bottle from him and tipped it back and swallowed some. I handed it to him and he did the same. I had not eaten and had not slept in several days and I knew I was very much drunk. He stood firmer than I did and I sat upon his futon and giggled.

“You are an idiot.” He mumbled.

“Hai I am.” I laughed.

I took the bottle and swallowed more. I handed it back to him and he seemed intent on matching me.

“I am sending to the palace for more. You and I are going to sit and talk freely about everything that has ever bothered us.” I said slurring a little.

“You are drunk.” He observed.

“Hai I am! You need to be also.” I commanded.

“Fine. I will send a servant.” He said staring down at me.

“Good.” I answered.

“Just do not expect me to be fit for duty.” He stated bluntly.

“No I would not expect you would be.” I said standing.

We finished off the bottle of the excellent vintage and started on the bottle that was good but not as smooth. Yuudai and I were laughing loudly at our puphood antics when Tekeshi came and checked on us. I looked up at him and started giggling again.

“It seems aijou you have had more than enough.” He stated with his arms crossed over his chest.

“No I have not and you were supposed to have gone to Peking to meet with your old general. Ichigawa right? He does not like me. I threatened his life. Please tell him I am sorry.” I said giggling.

“Lord Tekeshi I swear on my honor that I will make sure that my Lady makes it back to the palace.” Yuudai said bowing.

“You are going to have a frightful headache tomorrow aijou.” Tekeshi warned.

“So?” I said smirking.

“Naraku is in Japan aijou.” He said looking down at me.

“I want to stay and talk about old times. Males do it all the time and I never do this.” I said looking at him.

“Alright. I will be in Peking. General make sure of her safety.” Tekeshi said flatly.

“On my honor my Lord.” He bowed.

“I will say I told you so later my love.” My inu mate said shaking his head.

“Yuudai did you know that Tekeshi was best friends with the Taisho?” I asked my general.

“No.” he said.

“Hai he was in love with Touga's sister who was named Sorami.” I said.

Tekeshi rolled his eyes and bowed to us.

“Try and not fall down and break a leg aijou.” He said as he left.

I laughed again and looked over at Yuudai who was smirking.
”I am Sorami…My grandsire was my brother.” I admitted.

“Quit jesting.” He snapped.

“I am not jesting! Touga was my brother. I have met him you know. He was handsome and an ass. Naraku was Hisashi.” I said falling back against his futon.

“You reincarnated?” Yuudai asked surprised.

“Hai. Akemi fell in love with Ryukotsusei. She had two sons by him you know.” I said laying back.

“You tell me this because you do not care at the moment.” He said hurt.

“I tell you because you will not hate me.” I said giggling.

“Why would I hate you?” he asked sitting by me.

“Because I make males hate me.” I said in another fit of laughter.

“You have the devotion of the oldest inu known alive.” He pointed out.

“That is tomorrow's problem.” I said sighing.

“It is late chuusin. I will take you back now.” He said standing.

“No I want you to take me to the Chang Jiang and I am going to bathe in the moonlight.” I said sitting up.

“Asuna. Be reasonable.” He said.

“I have relieved you of duty tomorrow. I will go regardless of you or not.” I said standing.

“Idiot!” he said as he kept to my side.

“You used to like to call me that when we were young.” I said smirking.

“You always got me into trouble!” he cried.

“You liked it though.” I said laughing.

“My father used to whip me when he found the store rooms torn apart.” He growled.

“What do you think my father did to me when he found his study torn apart after our tussles in our true forms?” I asked raising a brow.

He laughed loudly. I reached up and undid his hair. He kept his pulled back at all times and I loved his hair.

“Are you drunk?” I asked him.

“Hai I am very drunk.” He confirmed.

“Did you ever touch yourself thinking about me?” I asked him.

“Stupid question.” He growled.

“You imagined me as you brought yourself to climax?” I asked him.

“Stop!” he demanded.

I smirked at his discomfiture and we made it to the river. It flowed slowly and I stripped out of my kimono and geta. I noticed he turned his head and I laughed.

“You have seen me naked plenty of times.” I admonished him.

I slipped into the water and he sat on the bank. He had on a sleeveless kosode of white with black hakamas. He also wore geta and I took off his sandals.

“What are you doing chuusin?” he asked me.

“I want you to at least stick your feet in the water.” I said sticking out my tongue.

His gray eyes watched me and his silver hair fell around his face. I pulled myself out of the water and pressed him back against the ground.

“What are you doing?” he asked me annoyed.

“You are going to join me. You are Yuudai my friend and not Yuudai my general. I am chuusin and you are my karuson.” I stated in a deep voice.

“Alright.” He said.

I undid his kosode and my hands undid the stays to his hakamas. He grabbed my hands and nodded no. I smirked devilishly at him and backed up. I slipped back into the water and waited for him to join me. I turned and watched him slip into the water. His body was that of a soldier. I threw water into his face and he growled at me. I did it again and his hair was drenched and he moved to me and dunked my head. I came up sputtering and heard him snicker. I was not angry but I lifted my hand and he caught it. We stared at each other and I jerked away. My head was swimming and I pulled myself out of the water. I crawled forward and lay down on the cool earth. I saw Yuudai do the same but he was putting his clothing back on. I moved over to him and he looked at me with something I recognized well; hunger. I kissed him and it was not the innocent ones of puphood. My lips moved against his feverishly and I slipped my tongue into his mouth. He growled and his own smooth organ battled mine. I nipped at him and he groaned loudly. I pulled away and touched my lips. I staggered back and stood up; I retrieved my kimono and slipped it on. I was very drunk indeed and I went in the direction of the palace.

“Chuusin!” he called after me.

“Karuson I am in need of my futon and some sleep.” I said.

“Asuna! My Lady! Damn it chuusin stop!” he cried.

I turned around and looked at him. He was pulling on his kosode and came up to me.

“It was stupid. I am sorry for that.” He said.

“I kissed you remember?” I replied.

“We have drunk more than enough sake and we know we have. Forgive me for having hurt you in the past. I have been and always will be your friend.” He said bowing.

“I do not want your friendship.” I said.

“Excuse me?” he said staring at me coldly.

“I want you to take me as you should have done years ago. I want to stop regretting you.” I said just as coldly.

“I see my Lady. Excuse my impertinence. Good evening to you.” He said brushing past me.

“Yuudai!” I said haughtily.

“What?” he growled.

“You did not bow to me.” I said.

“Why should I? I am not on duty.” He said flippantly.

I came up to him and his eyes were angry again. I was making a huge mistake but I claimed his mouth again. He kissed me back but it was angry. He was dominating the intimacy and I mewled under him. He pressed me against a tree roughly and he pushed my kimono off my shoulder. My hands went to his loosely tied hakamas and undid them. He ripped his lips from mine and pressed his mouth to my throat. He was ravishing my neck and I was moaning under him. Yuudai lowered his lips to one breast and roughly suckled it and bit it lightly. I gasped and looked down as he took the other nipple into his mouth. It was an erotic sight and he watched me stare. He slowly ran his tongue around the areola and my breathing became hitched. He lifted his head and sliced through my obi and completely opened my kimono. My core was aching and I was slick already. Yuudai slipped down my body and saw the scars from my impalement and my recent ones from my battle with Vlad. He ran his tongue along the faint scars and I shuddered. His tongue dipped into my belly button and his hands gripped my backside. His tongue tasted my skin and his lips left a scorching path. He glanced up and saw me eyeing him as he brought my hips forward. He scented my core and he growled. His tongue darted out and he tasted my wetness. I could not stop watching him. He took my hand and pulled me down. He pushed me onto my back and spread my thighs. He said nothing as he lowered his lips to my center and plunged his tongue into me. I moaned loudly as he replaced his tongue with a finger. He laved his tongue against my nub and I bit my own lip. I arched my hips and he growled. I stared at him and still he locked eyes with me. I was close to climax but he stopped and slid back up my body and I snarled at him.

“Command me chuusin.” He stated.

“Excuse me?” I said in a haze.

“Demand I take you.” He said in anger and passion.

“Yuudai.” I stated shaking my head.

“I want to hear you command me as you always do.” He snapped.

“Please karuson I ache for you.” I said weakly.

His eyes widened at my pleading and he nodded numbly. Yuudai slipped into me and I arched my body. He grabbed my hands and cried out. He stayed buried in me and I thrust my hips against his.

“Chuusin do not move.” He said in a desperate voice.

“Karuson I need you. Kamis please do not make me beg you.” I said in a raw voice.

“Chuusin I have wanted this for so long.” He said.

I whimpered underneath him and he still did not move. I was losing my mind and I thrust against him again and then again. His face showed the strain and I snarled at him.

“Yuudai. I know not what is going through your mind but I am losing control.” I whispered harshly.

“Chuusin I am losing control myself. I am trying to maintain my form.” He admitted through clenched teeth.

I held his face and kissed him. I took his hand and kissed then licked his wrist. I sank my fangs in gently and he hissed in pleasure. My Yuudai was all inu and had never experienced my uppyr ways.

“Move within me.” I said.

He thrust against me and I let out a guttural moan. He grasped my hands again; his movements were slow but sure.

“Chuusin.” He cried in my ear.

“Karuson.” I gasped.

I growled in my chest and I threw me head back and my neck was exposed; he pressed his lips to it and I felt his fangs. He did not bite down but I felt his strong need. He knew me so well and I had wanted him for so long. I thrust my hips against his and he snarled. He released my throat and moaned above me. My hands were entwined with his and I struggled to be released.

“My Yuudai let me touch you.” I whispered hoarsely.

He released my hands and ran them down his back and taut backside. I was getting mindless and thrust my hips harder against his and he pressed into me deeply. My friend was a very strong and virile male.

“Karuson let me up.” I cried.

He looked down at me confused but slowly withdrew from me. I sat up and caught his lips with mine and pressed him back. His gray eyes brazenly leered over my body. I impaled myself and he hissed. I rocked my hips back and forth and he moaned for me. He held my hips and surged up as I rocked my hips. I reached back and held his sac and his eyes widened and he cried out as I rolled and fondled him. My skin was hot and I shut my eyes and let the feeling take me. I felt a hand snake up my body and brush against my nipples. I was a breathless and I felt the coiling in my groin start; I growled out again. His thrusts up were harder and I rocked my hips faster. He brushed a finger tip across my bundle of nerves and increased the pressure and I gasped as I fell into climax. Yuudai snarled as my body shook and he grabbed my hips as he stiffened and spilled deep. I stayed connected and laid my chest against his. My silver hair spilled across us. I knew my oldest and dearest friend; he would regret this later. I was an idiot and I intended to never speak of it. He was right when he said I bent rules to my whims and I would not allow my desires to ruin my life. I slowly dismounted him and laid my head upon his chest.

“I am going back to the West tomorrow for a few weeks.” He said.

“Do not leave because of this.” I said quietly.

“There a few warriors that I would like to be here to move against the Manchu chuusin.” He said sighing.

“You are running away from me like you did before.” I accused.

“Hai I suppose I am. I have never rutted with an onna I care so much for. I need to level my head.” He said looking away.

“I need you here in case of attack!” I snapped.

“I need time to center myself and look at you as my commander and Lady.” He snapped.

I sat up and grabbed my kimono. I took his obi and he glared at me. I was angry and hurt all over again.

“General Yuudai you stay here and protect our interests. I will leave.” I said wrapping the obi around my waist.

“How was this supposed to end? What are we supposed to feel? I am a realist Asuna and I know damn well what my job is and what your role is.” He said sitting up.

“Go to hell Yuudai. Cower away.” I said stomping off.

He grabbed me and I glared at him. He wrapped his arms around me and I shoved him away.

“I love you chuusin; I cannot remember not loving you. You need to pull yourself back and understand that there are those that are not royalty and we move in different circles. You have never understood that but I have. Your father is the most powerful taiyouki in Japan and I serve that power. You rule as well and I will always serve you.” He stated.

“You know me Yuudai and I settle for nothing. My pups will rule the Asian youki world. You serve me and me only.” I said stalking off.

“Would you rather another General?” he asked me in anger.

“I would rather my most experienced soldier head my army. I would have you at my side but you make the choice.” I said looking at him sadly.

“What do you want from me?” he demanded.

“I want you.” I said sighing.

“You are taken.” He snarled.

“I make my destiny.” I snarled back.

“You take whatever you desire is that it?” he said surprised.

I said nothing and raised my chin.

“You want me as your lover. Kamis Asuna you are selfish!” he yelled.

I growled low in my throat and I itched to slap him. He was right but it did not stop my desire for him.

“Your problem is that you were raised as a male and not female. You take and demand and we lowly males fall at your feet.” He snarled.

“Good evening General Yuudai. I expect you back at your duties the day after tomorrow.” I said coldly.

“You want me as your lover and you dismiss me?” he asked me in a fury.

“I said good evening.” I stated flatly.

“I was right you know. You are simply the most amazing and sensual partner. It is amazing that you self depreciate and think so highly of your self at the same time.” He said in flippant tone.

“I will never speak with you unless it involves state business from now on. I am sorry that I disgust you so.” I said walking away.

“You say you want me and I tell you that I love you. This is lust for you chuusin and nothing more. I know you hold the hanyou and Lord Tekeshi in high esteem and never hesitate to say you love them. You cannot love me in return and that is fine but I will not be used as way to satisfy some need you may have. I serve you always.” He said bowing and then he moved to leave.

“You are wrong. I told you I loved you mere months before I met Katashi. You laughed at me and made a joke of it.” I said walking towards the palace.

I felt his eyes on me and I did not turn around. Tekeshi was right and I was going to have a huge headache. I went into the palace and found Mayu.

“Prepare the pups we leave for the West in an hour.” I commanded.

“Hai my Lady!” she answered.

“Thank you Mayu.” I said looking away.

“You scent of young Yuudai.” She remarked quietly.

“I got very drunk and made a terrible mistake. Yuudai is very angry with me.” I said putting my head in my hands.

“You never got over loving the young general.” She observed.

“No and I beg you keep my indiscretion quiet.” I said in a tired voice.

“My Lady I love you! You know this and I will die before anything is said.” She said hugging me.

“I am a selfish creature. I actually asked Yuudai to become my lover.” I said shaking my head.

“He has always been a good boy my Lady.” She remarked.

“And I have always been a bad girl.” I finished looking down.

“Asuna-sama!” she said quietly.

“It is alright Mayu. I know my weaknesses. Come let me help you pack the pups things.” I said standing.

“Yuudai loves you very much.” She commented.

“It does not matter. I lost my childhood friend tonight.” I said putting tiny kimonos and hakamas in the trunk.

“He is just angry.” She said putting her hand on my shoulder.

“No he is hurt and angry. He accuses me of just lusting after him. Maybe he is right.” I sighed.

“You grew up with him. I remember having to whip you both when you tore up the palace and played pranks on Osamu.” She said chuckling.

“Hai I remember.” I laughed.

“He will come around either way. You are just Asuna with him. You are just you and not someone else.” She stated.

“Hai I know. I love Tekeshi and Naraku; I have no doubt as to the love I feel for them.” I said.

“That loves stems from the past also Lady Asuna. Yuudai is from this lifetime and your childhood.” She pointed out.

“You are wise my friend. I need to leave instructions for the army.” I said.

She bowed to me and I went to the study of my new palace. Yuudai was right and I was selfish. I regretted my actions and needed to fix the situation. He was a very talented general and I needed him in his capacity.

I quickly wrote out several pages of commands and decided to deliver the message myself. I went back into my chambers and shed my short kimono and slipped on a black haori and hakamas. I slipped my armor on and wrapped the obi that Yuudai had worn around my waist. I slipped in the Kumosaiga and put on my boots. I looked at Mayu and smiled gently.

“When I return we will leave.” I said softly.

“Hai my Lady.” She said with a bow.

I left the palace itself and walked into the fields surrounding it. The tents were up and I noticed Yuudai's was lit up. I lifted my chin and I entered the entrance. He was getting ready to sleep and looked up at my attire.

“Is something amiss?” he asked concerned.

“No. I have left my instructions. I am going home on the hour. I owe you an apology General Yuudai. We are no longer pups and you have your duty as I have mine. I hope you can forgive my actions as they will never be repeated. I will see when I see you.” I said stiffly and laid my instructions on a low table near the futon.

“Chuusin!” he said softly.

“You are my general. I thank you for reminding me of that. You have your instructions and I will not be your way.” I said moving out of the tent.

My chest hurt the way it did when he had left with Hideaki almost six years before. I refused to be stupid and walked back towards the palace. I could not tempt myself if I was not around. He was more than a capable warrior. I was not the same young onna and he was not the same either. I walked up the hill and to my pups. I called for Naraku in my mind and I saw as he appeared. I smiled warmly at him and he raised a brow.

“I want to go home.” I said.

“Is everything alright?” he asked.

“I have been here two months and I miss my mother.” I said flatly.

“Alright. I was adding on to the Northern Castle.” He muttered.

“You are enjoying yourself immensely.” I said amused.

“Hai I am.” He said with a genuine smile.

“Mizuki has not been listening and has been teleporting all over creation.” I said.

“You want to bind her yoki.” He stated.

“Some of it.” I said.

“Seek out Tamiko.” He said shaking his head.

“Hai.” I answered.

Mayu came out and the pups were bleary eyed. Yuudai stood at the end of the hall and he locked eyes with me.

“Excuse me just a moment my love.” I said softly.

I moved closer to Yuudai and bowed formally. He followed suit and I straightened.

“I beg to come to the West in a few days my Lady. I have strategies and I shall like to retrieve the warriors that we discussed.” He said very formally.

“Do your will General Yuudai.” I said then bowed.

“Hai my Lady.” He said.

I walked away from him and went to Naraku. My hanyou grabbed my hand and smiled at me. I looked at him and smiled in return. I refused to look at Yuudai and we disappeared into Naraku's miasma.

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I sat in my sitting room with Prince Kouga and Princess Ayame. They were both astonished at my proposal.

“It is high time that the ookami dens join and forge their own state. Tekeshi wishes for the North to be reunited under his rule and I think that the east is the place for the ookami.” I said.

“What does your sire have to say about this?” Kouga asked.

“I have the leave to speak for the West in this.” I stated flatly.

“This means war ice princess.” Kouga stated.

“I know that Prince Kouga. My question for you is; are you a visionary?” I asked arching a brow.

“Hai I am.” He said crossing his arms across his chest.

“Princess Ayame?” I asked.

“I am game.” She replied.

“Good. Tekeshi will be here within two weeks.” I said.

“Well then I look forward to meeting him.” Kouga said.

“Ayame do you remember your grandmere?” I asked.

“Hai she was a wonderful onna.” Ayame said softly.

“I named my youngest daughter for her. Her name is Hana.” I stated.

“Thank you Lady Asuna.” Ayame said a little choked up.

I stood up and nodded to the two ookami. They stood and bowed. They took their leave and I went to my balcony. I quit my chambers and went to the dojo. My brother Osamu and my father were actually sparring. Airi was sitting against a wall watching them. Her stomach swelled just a little and I went and sat by her. She looked at me and smiled warmly.

“You look amazing Lady Airi.” I said.

“I cannot wait till this damn sickness gets over with.” She stated with a frown.

“I stayed sick with the twins.” I said shrugging.

“Do not tell me that!” she groaned.

“Hey sister!” Osamu beamed.

“Hello brother!” I called to him.

My father growled and Osamu went back to his sparring.

“I have never seen my brother this happy!” I exclaimed.

“He ought to be. He is going to kill me.” She muttered.

“He is in love with you Airi and inu like to show affection.” I said softly.

“All day and every day?” she asked with a laugh.

“Hai.” I laughed back.

“I hear you and your yummy Lord Tekeshi are planning a two front war.” She said.

“You heard correctly.” I stated.

“General Yuudai arrived today. I imagine you will keep that young inu busy.” She said smiling.

“Hai we will but he is more than able at his job.” I said smiling.

“Well. I am taking a nap before Osamu realizes he wants to rut again.” She said standing.

“He will slow down at some point.” I said with a whisper.

She laughed and I digested the information of Yuudai's arrival. I knew I could find him at his father's castle on the outside of the palace complex. I very rarely had anything to do with the Western Council but Yuudai's family was highly respected and one of three silver inu families left. I fought the urge to seek him out and Osamu was watching me. He and my father had done with their exercise and Osamu came and sat next to me.

“You are deep in thought and your mind is humming.” He said flatly.

“Can you keep a secret?” I asked.

“Hai you know I can and will.” He said making me look at him.

My father had left and I sighed heavily. Osamu had been almost as close to Yuudai as I was.

“I rutted with Yuudai.” I said.

“You rutted with our puphood best friend?” he asked in shock.

“I was very drunk!” I said in defense.

“You were drunk? When do you drink?” he asked in more shock.

“Tekeshi and the past.” I said flatly.

“Damn Suna you have loosened up.” He said laughing.

“Back to the original topic. I rutted with Yuudai and we had a terrible fight.” I said ashamed.

“Look I am surprised it did not happen years ago. Yuudai is one of those that has to suffer. He has loved you for along time and he thinks he has to suffer for feeling for you.” Osamu said shrugging.

“He accused me of being selfish.” I said pouting.

“Yeah well he will get over it.” Osamu chuckled.

“I asked him to be my lover and it offended him.” I blurted out.

“Yeah well I imagine you gave Yuudai a bunch of wet dreams.” Osamu said standing.

“Osamu you do not see a problem?” I asked him.

“Make up with him the way you did when you were pups.” He suggested.

“I would sneak into his room at his father's castle and bring him small prey I had caught.” I said laughing.

“Why not sneak in and talk?” Osamu suggested.

“I think I will.” I said.

“Let me know.” He said jovially.

“Hai I will.” I replied.

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My general was at his family home and had not come to see me. I was miffed but I moved with stealth towards the small castle. His room was on the second floor and faced south. I had caught a small rabbit and the symbolism would not be lost on him. I jumped with ease over the railing and masked my aura. I slipped open the shoji door and slipped in. The weather was warm and he seemed to be sleeping with only a silk coverlet. His silver hair spilt across the futon and his breathing was peaceful. His nose twitched and I knew he scented the rabbit. He rolled to his side and I stood there.

“Asuna?” he asked.

“Hai.” I muttered.

“What are you doing here?” he asked confused.

“I could ask you why you came back and did not call upon the palace.” I said.

“I did. I reported to Sesshomaru-sama.” He stated raising a brow.

I threw the rabbit at him and growled loudly. He raised his chin and stared at me in defiance. I turned to the balcony shoji door and yanked it open. I ripped it from its track and he looked at me furiously. I stepped out and jumped down. I had made a huge ruckus and I saw Yuudai's father; Yuuta run out and watch me. I bowed to the nobleman and looked intrigued.

“The hour is late and I am sorry Sir Yuuta. I had a need to converse with my general.” I stated blandly.

“No apologies are necessary Lady Asuna. Did you my son give you bad news?” he asked looking up.

“It will be repaired at my expense. I again am sorry for the lateness.” I said bowing.

I noticed the younger brother of Yuudai had come out as well. I bowed to the noble family and stalked away. I heard Yuudai coming and I turned. He was pulling on a kosode and stalking after me.

“How dare you!” he yelled at me.

“How dare I? How dare you!” I screamed back.

Sir Yuuta and Yuuto stood by in shock as Yuudai and I were seething. I slapped Yuudai so hard he staggered back a step. He stepped forward and growled menacingly at me.

“You avoided me when you know damn well you should have presented yourself to me. You forget yourself Yuudai!” I snarled at him.

“Oh hai I forget myself. I am not the one invading your privacy.” He snarled back.

“Go to hell!” I screamed in rage.

“I am already there!” he yelled back.

“Fine. You are relieved of your command. Take your privacy and shove it up your posterior.” I said in a deadly voice.

He slapped me and I saw red. I heard Yuuta shout to his eldest son and I pounced on Yuudai. We were wrestling in the dirt as we normally did when we fought as young pups. He shoved me away and went to stand and I gouged his bare ankle. He snarled at me and I smirked at his pain.

“Arrogant bitch!” he hissed.

“Self righteous bastard.” I commented.

He flattened me and held me down. I heard Yuuta suck in his breath and I glared up at Yuudai.

“Father could you leave me and the Lady Asuna alone?” he asked in irritation.

“Sure my son. Go ahead and lose your mind!” Yuuta shouted.

“Please leave us.” I called to his father.

I heard a mumbled hai and the father and brother left back into the castle. I threw Yuudai off and stood up. I stomped away from him and was heading to the gate. He came up behind me and flattened me against the retaining wall of the castle.

“Let go of me!” I snarled.

“Tell me why you came here.” He demanded.

“Let me go Yuudai.” I growled loudly.

“Say what you wanted and leave.” He growled into my ear.

“I had wanted to apologize again to you and tell you I thought you right.” I ground out.

“No you did not. You just said I should have presented myself to you.” He said flatly.

I elbowed him in the gut and he grunted but did not release me. Forbidden images of him taking me flashed before my eyes and I threw myself backwards. We landed roughly and I jumped up to get away from him. He grabbed me and shoved me to the ground. He shoved my kimono up and I did not see him free himself at all but he was in me. I cried out as he shoved himself into me hard. His thrusts were sharp and I let out strangled moans. I started coming almost immediately and his breathing was rough. I let a sharp cry as I convulsed around him but he still pummeled me. I arched my neck as I continued to spasm around him. I heard him hold in a tremendous snarl as he held my hips and buried himself deeply in me; his orgasm was violent and he buried his face in my neck. I was in shock as the joining had been sudden and brutal. I was shaking and he looked away from me.

“I am sorry.” He said in a raw voice.

“Yuudai.” I stated hoarsely.

He tried to withdraw but I wrapped my legs around his waist.

“Chuusin I have dishonored myself enough.” He whispered dejectedly.

I moved my hips against his and he groaned deeply. His eyes snapped open and we started moving in unison again but this time it was slow and erotic. Our eyes were locked and I fought my beast. I could not tear my eyes away from his. His gray orbs were full of violent passion as he moved within me. My body was like one raw nerve and I was thrown over into bliss again. I managed to keep my eyes open as my release overcame. Intense pleasure contorted my features as he too fell again. He held my hips and his claws gouged my flesh as he spilled his seed and his body shook with such intensity.

“Chuusin forgive me.” He cried softly.

My breathing was ragged as he pulled out of me. I was overwhelmed and I crawled a little away from him. I pulled myself up to standing and my legs were trembling.

“I need you to have the troops mobilized within two weeks.” I said numbly.

“Is that all you can say?” he asked me.

“Hai.” I mumbled.

“Chuusin.” He muttered softly.

I walked away and in the direction of the palace. He did not follow and I went straight to the hot spring. I had never come that quickly and the intenseness of the whole thing had me reeling. I made it to the hot spring and stripped out of my clothes. I sank into the spring and shut my eyes.

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I was sleeping on my futon when a loud knocking brought me to alertness. I sat up and rubbed my eyes as I called out. My father came in and he looked angry. I stood up and looked at him in askance.

“Yuudai has requested that he resign his post.” He snapped.

“I am sorry to hear that.” I replied coolly.

“Yuuta informs me that you and Yuudai had a row as you did when you were pups.” He stated flatly.

“I need to have repairs preformed at his castle. I am sorry for my conduct. The matter is between my general and me.” I said with head bowed.

“Hideaki trained Yuudai and the West cannot afford to lose such a brilliant soldier.” He snapped in anger.

“Hai my Lord. I will fix the problem now.” I said respectfully.

“What is going on Asuna? You and Yuudai have always been close. His family has always served this house with honor.” He stated narrowing his eyes.

“We disagreed rather violently.” I said looking at him.

“Fix it.” He snapped then left.

I hauled myself over to my armoire and put on a simple tunic of crimson silk. I tied a narrow obi around my waist and I fingered the obi I had taken from him. I sighed heavily and slipped on some geta. I slipped out of my chambers and went to the southern portion of the palace. He was there gathering his things.

“I cannot allow you to leave.” I said softly.

“I do not remember asking.” He said absently.

“Yuudai stop.” I said firmly.

He looked at me and I saw pain in his eyes.

“I forced myself on you.” He said regretfully.

“You think you raped me?” I asked in shock.

“Did I not?” he asked me in surprise.

“No you did not. I wanted you and I wanted you in me.” I said bluntly.

He sat down and looked away from me. He was shaken to his core the same as I. I needed to return things to normal.

“Forget it happened. I cannot afford to lose you. I beg your forgiveness.” I stated evenly.

“I cannot forget that.” He whispered.

“I have made too many mistakes of you my friend. I am going to stay away from you and allow you space and pray to every Kami you can forgive me.” I said looking up.

“Stop this now!” he snarled.

I looked at him sadly and touched his arm. He looked at me and his emotions were too raw and too close to the surface. I bit my lip and dropped my hand.

“I will stay.” He bit out.

“Thank you.” I said and I moved away.

I kept my emotions neutral and walked away from him. My father would be pleased that he was remaining in his post. I sighed heavily and forced myself to move forward. I was falling into a deep depression that I could ill afford. I made it to the study and knocked on the frame.

“Come in.” My father called.

I entered and I gave my father a deep bow.

“He is staying in his position.” I informed him.

“You will tell me what you disagreed with him about.” He demanded.

“No sir I will not. I was wrong and rectified my actions.” I said looking down.

“Asuna you try my patience.” He snapped.

“I am an adult and I have interactions that are my own my Lord. You asked me to fix it and I did.” I said quietly.

“Speak to your mother. I cannot stand that look on your face.” He snapped.

“Hai my Lord.” I said bowing.

I walked next door to my mother's study. I flooded her as soon as I came in. Her eyes widened and her mouth puckered into an `oh'.

“Yuudai?” she asked softly.

“I have always harbored strong feelings for him.” I said miserably.

“Honey why did you not tell him before?” she cried.

“I did!” I cried.

“Oh goodness.” She said sitting back.

“I have hurt him. I am determined to restore normalcy but I do not know how.” I said helplessly.

“Darling Yuudai is very much like your father and I mean a lot like your father. He has strength of character and is stubborn. It seems to be a trait of the silver inu. I did not know you felt so strongly for him.” She said surprised.

“I used to sneak out and I would sleep with him just to feel his heart beat.” I said sitting.

“Baby girl why did you keep this in all these years?” she asked confused.

“He did not want me. He refused me and based it upon my higher birth.” I said bitterly.

“So you never spoke it? Asuna your father would have thrown you into Yuudai's arms and given you a huge blessing!” my mother cried.

“He did not want me then and he does not want me now.” I said tears stinging my eyes.

“Show me again.” She said coming over to me.

I nodded numbly and she closed her eyes. I showed her every event I could remember that involved the General and I. She gasped when I showed her the previous night. She pulled away and looked stricken.

“Asuna.” She said softly.

“I have to go. I thank you for your time.” I said standing and retreating.

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“Did you ascertain the problem?” Sesshomaru asked as he and his mate were slipping into their futon.

“Hai I did.” She answered.

“Well?” he asked in irritation.

“She has the same problem I do.” She said with a smirk.

“Which is?” he asked.

“Did you know that our dear daughter used to sneak out and spend a goodly portion of her time with Yuudai? There were times I assumed she was in Edo when in fact she was off making mischief with your councilman's son.” She said sighing.

“She loves him.” He said in understanding.

“Seems she has most of her life. Some heavy discussion led to some very unresolved feelings. It seems she and Yuudai are like gun powder.” She said.

“What happened Augusta.” He said growling.

“Sesshomaru they argued intensely.” Augusta said.

“She looks as when she used to get disciplined for tearing up things.” He said irritated.

“Asuna has come through some major obstacles these last few years and things are calming down and it seems she is dealing with her life issues that happened before Katashi. She has time now. They need to strike a balance is all.” Augusta said settling against his chest.

“You said she had the same problem you do.” He said arching a brow.

“Loving a gorgeous, hard headed, arrogant, god of an inu.” She purred into his ear.

“Kamis mate. You make an insult sound like a wanton moan.” He said grabbing her.

“Make me pay for my impertinence?” she taunted.

“Always!” he growled.

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I lay in the arena field and stared up at the skies. I closed my eyes and remembered doing the same thing with my general as very young pups. I remember chasing after him and we fell. He had broken his leg and I had cried with him. I was only eight summers and he had been seven. I had told him then that I loved him. I laughed bitterly at my stupidity. I contemplated taking another bottle of the excellent sake. My father would be pissed off but who cared. I stood up and went to the palace cellars. I would allow myself one last pity party in concern with Yuudai and return to my cold uncaring persona. Tekeshi should never have introduced me to the good sake. I shrugged and went to the back of the dank cellar and selected an older bottle. I counted to see how many were left. He would not miss it for awhile. I smirked in triumph and slipped back up the stairs. I decided to go to the old castle site and commune with the spirits. I sat upon a tree stump and poured myself a little and downed it. I could see why the males found this attractive now.

“Well brother I am partaking of your excellent vintage that your son hordes like an over protective jailer. Touga, I love my general. What do I do? Of course I should quit being a moron. We are warriors and not ningen. I allow my heart to distract me from my purpose and make more problems than anything. Besides I have the love and devotion of Tekeshi and Naraku. I find myself missing you at times. I need to harden my heart. I cannot allow myself to wallow in old feelings. I really wish I could find out who made this sake. You sly devil! You never even told your best friend!” I said into the night.

I could be cold and I could be heartless. Katashi had accused me of it left and right when we were mated. Hell even Yuudai had said it. I wondered if Tamiko had a potion to rid me of my heart. Hell I could ask Naraku. He had rid himself of his. Of course he was a totally unique youki. I felt like starting a fight with my mate and ending it with passionate rutting. That was an excellent plan I decided. I sat on the stump and projected myself to him.

“You are still busy and I am feeling neglected.” My astral self purred into my ear.

“I am sorry. Come let me show all I have done.” He said absently.

“How is our daughter? Good to see you?” I snapped.

“My little inu I am weeks away from having this place they way I want it. I have never been able to just build something!” he said excitedly.

“Why did I not know you hunted?” I asked him.

“You did not ask and I never thought on it.” He said turning.

“I am listless.” I said.

“Come here! There is much going on.” He stated in a giddy tone.

“I want you to come to me.” I said morosely.

“Asuna we will have all of our lives. Be patient and plan the incursion against the Manchu mutt.” He advised me.

“I am sitting at the old castle sight and I am drinking very old and very potent sake. I want your arms around me.” I demanded.

“It sounds as if you need to go back to the palace and get something to eat and pass out.” He admonished me.

I hissed in anger and it took him by surprise.

“I should not have to beg my mate to want to be with me.” I said furiously.

“I should not have to explain to mine that I need to stay here and oversee things.” He said crossing his arms.

“Fine!” I said and disappeared.

I came to and grew even angrier. This alliance would work out quite well. Both males would keep themselves so busy that I would get the scraps. I threw the bottle and it shattered. I stood up and went back to the palace. I was still wearing the tunic and went into Yuudai's study. He looked up at me in surprise. He was reading troop movements I ascertained. I took the parchment from his hands and moved the papers to the other side of the desk. I sat down upon the desk and looked at him.

“You must not be in your right mind.” I whispered.

He caught my meaning immediately and shook his head. He looked away and I tried to harden myself to his indifference.

“I am selfish karuson. I want you to myself and I have wanted your love. Tell me how to fix this and I will do it.” I said quietly.

“Stay away from me.” He muttered.

“Hai.” I said getting off the desk.

“Chuusin I have told you; I have always loved you. You cannot allow me to love you in my way. I denied us for many reasons but mostly for self preservation. I am a coward; you were right on that. You have such a large persona and that has never been me. I have rutted with other onna but they are not you.” He said looking down.

“I truly understand karuson. I never meant to hurt you. You have always been safe for me. I have kept you so busy these past few years that I lost touch with you. At your castle; I felt rapturous as soon as you were joined with me. I felt that way with Sheng because he knew everything about me including you. No one knows me quite as well as you. I will do as you request because no other is as talented and loyal as you.” I said bowing.

“My Lady?” he asked.

I looked up and he had stood; he bowed to me and I backed up and left the study. He was going to let us go. I bit my lip until I tasted blood. I went back to my chambers and changed into haori and hakamas. I put on my new armor. I was going to wander for a little while. I slipped the Kumosaiga into the obi and wrote Mayu a letter. I went to the courtyard and found Jaken. The little kappa was all over the palace.

“Jaken why have you not mated?” I asked him.

“Milady?” he asked in shock.

“Hai why have you not mated and produced more obnoxious kappa?” I asked him.

“I had not thought on it.” He said.

“Find you a female and get busy.” I said with mirth.

He looked frightened of me when I smiled. I shrugged and left out of the palace gates. I fingered the hilt of my fang and wondered if a little reconnaissance was in order. We intended to take the East and reshape it. The current ruler if he could be called that was decadent and lazy. His lands needed tending and I knew the ookami would do well. Prince Kouga originally hailed from the East. I felt Yuudai's aura and I turned around. I actually assumed he had news that needed my attention. He came up to me and pulled me forward by the back of the neck and devoured my mouth. I was in shock at his boldness. His tongue slipped into my mouth and he did not let up. I was a moaning and mewling mess beneath him. Spikes of pleasure shot from my groin and I shifted uncomfortably. He hands moved against my armor and divested me of it quickly. We were still well within the palace compound and not by any means in private. The previous night we had rutted in the middle of his father's courtyard. He continued plying his lips against mine and his hands undid my obi, haori, and hakamas. He skimmed his lips along my throat and lowered them to my fleshy mounds.

“Yuudai?” I asked in strangled whisper.

He lifted his eyes and they were burning crimson. I actually gasped at the intensity I saw.

“I scented your blood. You were biting your lips as you did when we were young. It is because of me that you are in such turmoil.” He ground it.

“I will honor your wishes. I swear I do not wish to lose your friendship.” I said hoarsely.

“We are not friends. We never have been. You are my lover as you were years ago. I cannot breathe chuusin. I cannot think; I only feel when I am near you.” He said whispering against my skin.

He tipped my chin up and explored my mouth slowly and with an unhurried sensuality. I was getting dizzy quickly; his tongue teased mine and I moaned. I tilted my head more to let him explore my moist cavern. I was nearing a mini explosion and I growled. I reached up and lightly scratched his scalp with my claws. Our bodies were pressed against the other and my belly was tightening. I sucked on his tongue and I bit into it. I tasted his crimson flow and he had to hold me up. I trembled against him and he disengaged from my lips. He held me as my body convulsed lightly.

“Chuusin?” he asked me in a deep voice.

My shaking hands went to his haori and started undoing it. I was impatient and my claws sliced through his obi. He stopped my trembling hands and divested himself of his silks. I reached out and stroked him softly. He growled so low in his throat I thought I had imagined it. I let loose my passion and leaned forward and tongued his flat nipple into the warmth of my mouth. He released a pent up groan. I nipped and then bit it gently; I could not control myself and I bit into his hard and sculpted chest. He gasped in air and I knew he was getting a rush of painful euphoria. His own hands trembled and he held the back of my head as I sucked on the over abused flesh. We were in the shadow of the palace and I lifted my head. My lips were stained just a little and I darted my tongue and licked my lips clean.

“Take me to the tunnel. I am going to scream and I do not want to share this.” I begged him.

“Hai.” He said picking me up.

The night air was heavy with heat and our bodies were slick already.

“When you take blood like that; that is part of your uppyr heritage?” he whispered hoarsely into my ear.

“Hai.” I confirmed.

We found the tunnel entrance and we entered. The cool stone felt exquisite against the oppressing hot air and the burning flesh of my body.

“I have to feel your walls gripping my staff.” He growled out.

He made moves to enter me but I shook my head no. I got on my hands and knees and I heard him whine a little. His battled roughened hands gripped my hips and he slid into me. I was dripping wet from my previous release and he snarled. The tunnel would dampen our cries of passion because I knew I would not control myself at all. He moved within me and I cried out. He could barely touch me and I was on sensor overload.

“Chuusin?” he asked me roughly.

“Hai?” I asked him in return.

“I cannot control myself.” He said through clenched teeth.

“You need to change?” I asked him in a deep voice.

“I have to stop. I cannot stop it.” He said with his beast's voice.

“Slip outside.” I said softly.

“Chuusin I have to.” He said as he slipped out of me.

He moved outside and his breathing was ragged. I went to him and started sucking his earlobe into my mouth. I ran my tongue along his ear. I was not helping him maintain form at all. I would share this with him. He looked down at me confused. My eyes were long since red.

“Change karuson.” I whispered.

He looked even more confused and I pulled away for a moment. I changed form first and he looked up at me. He understood and he allowed his own transformation. I lowered my head and bared my neck to the great silver inu next to me. He was almost as large as my father but without the markings. His fur was long and silky. I could sense his great need and he did wrap his jaws around my throat. His growling was getting louder and I whimpered to him. His scarlet eyes held mine and he knew what I wanted him to do. He tentatively pressed his inu self against me and I whined. He watched me closely as he mounted me and slid in. I whined and lowered my head. I shut my eyes and wanted to whine out loudly as my body was electrified. This was basic and primal. My claws gouged the earth and I heard him snarling. I was panting and I had to growl out my pleasure. I started climaxing again and he roared. He managed to keep himself from his own release and I looked back at him confused. He withdrew from me and changed form back into his humanoid self. I followed suit and he laid me back gently. We were on the side of a hill with long grass blowing very softly in the breeze. He brought my legs up and put them over his shoulders. He entered me again and pounded into me quickly.

“I have to see your face.” He cried softly explaining himself.

He brought his thumb and traced my lower lip and I nipped at it. I took it into my mouth and sucked on it in a similar rhythm to his thrusts. He kept my gaze but he was growling fiercely. I watched him and continued to suck on his thumb. His thrusts became erratic and I again succumbed to the raw and powerful drag of impending release. I whimpered and pushed my hips up into his thrusts. He withdrew his thumb from my mouth and grabbed my hips and steadied himself and he roared loudly as I felt him coat my womb with his hot seed. I cried out and pushed myself up and latched onto his throat. I fought the urge to mark him and he did the same. We cleaved together as our bodies shook against the other. I was exhausted and he held me to him. I passed out into a light slumber.

I woke up after some time and looked back at Yuudai. His hand rested on my bare hip and he slept. I sighed in some form of contentment and he stirred. His placed a kiss on the back of my neck and pressed my back to him. We said nothing and he raised himself up. It was the middle of the night and we were both very naked.

“I will retrieve our clothes.” He said softly.

I nodded and he moved quietly through the grass. I picked up on an aura and I saw my father at a great distance. I slammed up a barrier and my skin burned hotly. He was far enough away not to see my state of undress but I knew he had sensed me. I crawled through the tall grass back to Yuudai.

“You felt it too.” He murmured.

“Hai.” I relied.

“Here are your clothes.” He said.

I quickly dressed and I moved back towards the palace. I knew damn well he was investigating all the yoki. I pushed Yuudai back towards the palace. He looked annoyed but did as I wanted.

When Yuudai was out of sight I stood. My father saw me and casually came to stand in front of me.

“There was a great yelling from an inu.” He said.

“Hai.” I replied dumbly.

“I see no one in their true form; were you perhaps hunting?” he asked raising a brow.

“Hai.” I answered.

“Half the palace heard the whining.” He said.

“It was large prey.” I remarked.

“I see.” He said staring at me.

“Happy hunting.” He replied and moved on.

I stood and suppressed a giggle. The noises could be explained as hunting and very obviously rutting. I pressed my back against a tree and sighed. I had to focus and rutting with Yuudai was not focusing. I hoped he and I could get back to more traditional relationship but I doubted it. Rutting with him was a whole body and sensual experience. Lucky bitches that had him before me. I moved back to the palace and my chambers. Yuudai waited outside and I looked at him in surprise.

“You used to share my bed; I want to share yours this night.” He said.

“Hai.” I stated mesmerized.

We moved into my chambers and fell upon the futon. I would not sleep this night at all.

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I woke up and Yuudai was already gone but a wildflower was on the futon next to me. I gazed at it and picked it up. I sat up and stretched. I grabbed a yukata and went to the hot spring. I slipped into it and sighed. I was so incredibly sore but felt so incredibly right. There was knocking and I called come. My brother stepped in backwards and sat with his back facing me.

“Airi and I were awakened to inu howling.” He said.

“I went hunting.” I said stepping up and pulling the screen up.

“Must have been damn fine meat!” he snickered.

“Shut up Osamu!” I snarled.

“Did you resolve your conflict with our oldest friend?” he asked seriously.

“Hai. Can I ask you a question?” I asked.

“Hai.” He responded.

“This is highly personal but I cannot control my responses with him. He made me climax with his kiss.” I said sheepishly.

“Goose he knows you! Hell you two ran around butt naked as pups. For that matter so did I. How did you think it was going to be?” he said seriously.

“I did not know.” I admitted.

“You two have been hedging each other for the last four decades. You repress way too much and I repress way too little. I have seen Yuudai go into a murderous rage before. When Katashi stayed here at the palace. He swore me to secrecy but he wanted to kill him.” My twin said.

“He may get his chance.” I said absently.

“Did you two get your feelings out? I mean the anger and hurt coming off of you has been whoa.” Osamu said.

“I think so. We rutted so many times I lost count. I am raw.” I said.

“Well I am glad for him and you. Put some closure on that part of your life and move on.” He said standing up.

“I think I can face him.” I murmured.

“Of course you can and will. Yuudai is very good at his job.” Osamu said.

“Thanks Osamu.” I said.

He left and I dragged myself out of the hot spring. I went back to my chambers and dressed. I decided to move myself and my general back to Shanghai and get a move on that front. I went into the nursery and deposited kisses on the little pups and Ang Chi was bleary eyed.

“You will be coming with me to Shanghai. We move against Manchuria.” I said flatly.

“Really?” he asked excitedly.

“Hai.” I said.

“Mother! Thank you!” he cried.

He came over to me and I hugged him tightly. I motioned for him to follow me and I had armor for him. He wore a black haori and hakamas ensemble with a yellow obi. I slipped the armor on to see to its fit. I was tying it in place when I heard a knock on the door.

“Come.” I called,

Yuudai stood in full armor and his katana at his hip. His hair was tied back and he looked every inch the military commander he was.

“I hope you do not mind my Lady but I have anticipated our need to return to Shanghai. I am going to Sesshomaru-sama and getting his last minute approvals; do you have any orders?” he asked.

“Hai I need a katana from the battery for Ang Chi otherwise carry on.” I said staring at him.

“Hai my Lady.” He said bowing.

He left me there and I nodded. Ang Chi seemed puzzled but shrugged. I finished tying his armor and went and donned my own.

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We were in the field and tents were everywhere. I was sparring with Ang Chi and he had improved dramatically. I would not let him into battle but I intended for him to witness it. Tekeshi sat back watching and calling out to Ang Chi to lift his elbow or block higher. I stopped and bowed to my adopted son. He followed suit and landed unceremoniously on his backside.

“I need some water!” he cried.

“That is where you get up and go get some.” I said sweetly.

“What is the point if servants!” he cried.

“Ang Chi quit acting as if you are a petulant pup and get your own water.” I demanded.

He growled but did as I bade. I sat down at Tekeshi's feet and rubbed my lower back.

“What is wrong?” he asked softly.

“My back has been aching.” I said absently.

“Do you need the healer?” he asked.

“For a back ache?” I asked laughing.

“Aijou you have many old wounds.” He remarked.

“This bitch has faced many katana and I am fine. Perhaps you can massage the muscles for me.” I commented.

“Hai I can do that now.” He said standing and pulling me up.

We went into the tent we shared and I stripped out of my haori and laid flat on my belly. Tekeshi began kneading the muscles and I groaned.

“Kamis aijou I am getting aroused!” he laughed.

“Mmmm well no such luck.” I murmured.

He continued to massage the sore muscles and Ichigawa entered. I muttered an obscenity but Tekeshi nodded to his general.

“Katashi has moved from Fuxin and is already passed Peking.” He said.

“Hai thank you General.” Tekeshi said.

“He hates me!” I said under my breath.

“No he does not hate you. You frightened the hell out of him at Tianjin. He said in all of his six hundred summers he was never as afraid in that moment.” Tekeshi chuckled.

“Hai I was rather awful. I will beg his forgiveness soon. Right there in my lower back.” I groaned.

“I am going to have to find a river.” He mumbled.

“I am sorry! You are making it feel so much better.” I said in reply.

He kneaded a particularly sore muscle in my mid back and I fought the urge to throw up. I scrambled away from him and started retching terribly. Tekeshi held my hair back and looked surprised.

“Aijou are you sure you do not need a healer?” he asked concerned.

“It was painful; I am sorry. I will clean this up.” I said standing.

I ran out of the front of the tent and started throwing up again. I had taken down a boar earlier in the day and it must have eaten something poisonous. I straightened and called for a servant. Tekeshi came out and scented my neck.

“Just making sure.” He said.

I rolled my eyes and moved away from the tent. He followed me and I looked at him annoyed.

“Tekeshi I am a big pup now. May I go rinse my mouth?” I asked sweetly.

“Hai. I am sorry if I love you aijou.” He said bowing.

“I love you too.” I said.

“We are not going to kill Katashi correct.” I stated.

“Well I would not really like that.” He laughed,

“I just wanted to make sure the rest of the armies understood that. Ichigawa completely betrayed him.” I remarked.

“Ichigawa has always been my man. When he thought I had passed he naturally served Katashi.” He said shrugging.

“I see. The same as when Hideaki was alive. Yuudai is the same.” I remarked.

“You two worked out your issues?” he asked.

My cheeks burned and he looked at me funny.

“I did not like how he had been addressing me and he was going over my head to my father.” I said modifying the truth.

“So you acted like pups again?” he asked amused.

“Hai. He is as my brother. The three of us were major headaches for our parents.” I remarked.

“I can only imagine.” He laughed.

I moved to the river and cupped my hands and scooped water and rinsed my mouth. I had the urge to be sick again but I kept it under control. I stood up and was dizzy.

“I think I may need the healer.” I said as I sat down.

“What is wrong?” he asked me.

“I am dizzy and nauseated. I took down a large boar earlier.” I said.

“You think it may have been tainted?” he asked.

“I am immune to most poisons.” I commented.

“Not Belladonna.” He remarked.

“What youki is?” I asked flippantly.

He held me up but I pushed him away to walk. I held my abdomen and cried out. The pain in my back surged and I was overwhelmed.

“Asuna you are bleeding.” Tekeshi said grabbing me.

“Oh my Kamis!” I said looking down.

My hakamas were starting to soak between my thighs with blood. I staggered away from Tekeshi and could not believe what was happening. I felt the sticky substance and scented it. I groaned in pain and remorse. I masked myself so that it could not be scented; it was very faint anyway. I stood up and staggered back into the encampment. Tekeshi tried to hold onto me but I pushed him away. I felt the tears well up but I tried to savagely repress them. Tekeshi held me firmly and led me back into the tent. He spoke softly with the servant and came and sat down by me.

“Shhhh it is alright.” He said softly.

“I want to go home.” I said as the tears leaked out of my eyes.

“Alright in just a bit okay?” he replied comforting me.

“I need to see Yuudai and relate our strategies.” I said struggling to sit up.

“Aijou that can wait.” He said softly.

“NO!” I screamed.

“Alright. I will get Yuudai. I need to get Ang Chi too.” He said non plussed.

I curled into a ball and started crying. Tekeshi looked devastated and I knew he felt my pain. I kept enough sense to keep the scent covered and the pains were awful. I wiped my tears when I felt Yuudai enter. I rolled over and struggled to sit up. He had not been told why I was abed and the healer had not come yet.

“In the desk are my outlines. Katashi must not be killed.” I said with a fake voice.

“Chuusin what is wrong?” he asked softly.

“I need to return to the West. I will be back in but a few days.” I said faltering.

Pain gripped my lower abdomen and I turned my head to vomit more. I wiped my mouth with a rag and Yuudai looked visibly shaken.

“Please General Yuudai. The outlines are in the desk. I need you to follow those parts of the plan alright?” I asked.

He went and retrieved my writings and I stood with the coverlet wrapped around me. Blood was on the futon and he stared at me horrified.

“I will be fine. Go now.” I commanded in wretched voice.

“Chuusin you are bleeding awfully heavily.” He said.

I could see he was trying to scent it but he scented nothing. He looked at me and I nodded for him to go. I would not do this to him. I needed him focused.

“I took down a bad boar. I will be fine but my mother can remove the tainted blood.” I explained.

“Hai my Lady.” He said bowing as Tekeshi came in.

Tekeshi's eyes widened when he saw the pool of blood on the futon. The healer looked concerned. I was getting dizzy but I stayed awake.

“Asuna I am taking you now.” He said grabbing me.

“Hai. General Yuudai I thank you. Tell the men I will return shortly.” I said sitting.

“She is losing too much blood my Lord.” The healer said quietly.

Tekeshi grabbed me and ported me to the Western Palace.

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“My poor Lady.” The healer said softly.

“What ails her exactly?” Yuudai asked thinly.

`”She is miscarrying General.” The healer said.

“Thank you.” Yuudai said.

He left the tent and his gut twisted. He could not leave the fronts but she suffered losing his pup. He hit a tree with tremendous force. He was stared at by the men and he nodded.

“Our Lady had eaten a tainted boar and nothing more.” Yuudai lied.

The men looked relieved and he knew why she lied to him. She did not want him feeling this. He straightened his back and felt despair. It was obvious that she regretted the loss. She had wanted it. His gut twisted further and he wanted to howl. He needed to get back to his home and her. If he had to lead the fight this very night that is what he intended to do.

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I was dizzy as hell and Tekeshi brought me to my mother. She scented blood and her eyes were wide. My father scented the blood as well. Tekeshi looked stricken and laid me before my mother. I grabbed my abdomen and cried out.

“Bring her to my chambers Lord Tekeshi.” My mother commanded.

“Sesshomaru please bring Mayu.” She commanded.

“Hai.” He responded.

Tekeshi brought me and laid me on my mother's futon.

“She is bleeding horribly.” He said.

“She is having an incomplete miscarriage. I need you to go to Edo and drag Kagome back here.” She said.

“What can happen?” he asked nervously.

“She can bleed to death or infection take hold.” She answered.

He again looked stricken and nodded. He teleported out and I started sobbing. She held me and made soothing noises. My father came in with Mayu and he looked at my mother and sighed.

“Asuna. I cannot give you anything for the pain until we know you have passed everything.” She said softly.

I said nothing and stared at the wall. Mayu came and held me and my mother stood. My mother and father left the room. Mayu slipped me an herb.

“Swallow that my sweet girl. It will cover the scent completely. You do not need to worry about masking right now my sweet baby girl.” Mayu said holding me tightly.

I sobbed as I chewed the herb and swallowed.

“You wanted his pup did you not?” Mayu said quietly.

I nodded as stupid as it was, I started crying silently.

“Does the General know?” she asked in her quiet voice.

“I am sure he does. He is far from stupid. I told him I ate a tainted boar.” I said choking.

“There can be more pups. Shhhhh my lady.” She said.

I finally gave up and fell into sleep.

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“Twins? She lost twins?” Tekeshi said sitting down.

“Hai.” Augusta said sadly.

“How far along?” he asked.

“Naraku has not been around much lately Tekeshi. You do the math.” Augusta said annoyed.

He looked angry and helpless. He looked out the window and sighed fiercely. General Yuudai walked in and bowed to Tekeshi.

“We have surrounded Shenyang my Lord. We have settled in Benxi and we wait for you and Lady Asuna.” He said formally.

“Kamis did you storm them?” he asked in shock.

“Hai my Lord. Your son was not harmed and allowed to escape as ordered.” Yuudai had to say through gritted teeth.

“Thank you General Yuudai.” Tekeshi said in amazement.

“I need to see my Lord Sesshomaru.” Yuudai said with a bow.

Yuudai felt pain and went to the Lord's study. He respected and adored the Western Lord. He had trained him in the use of the katana himself; probably because Asuna was always with him. He knocked on the door and Sesshomaru called out. He entered and went to his knee.

“What news?” his lord asked.

“We surround Shenyang.” He said.

“That was a very aggressive move Yuudai.” The western Lord observed.

“Hai my Lord. Ichigawa was not happy with me but our men follow my word.” Yuudai said bowing his head.

“She miscarried twins.” Sesshomaru said bluntly.

“I am sorry to hear it my Lord.” Yuudai said expressionless.

“Your lover loses your pups and that is all you say?” Sesshomaru said raising a brow.

“Excuse me Sesshomaru-sama?” Yuudai asked in shock.

“I will be blunt Yuudai. I hate the hanyou and I respect you. You can drive a wedge between Asuna and Naraku. I wish you to pursue your relationship with my heir.” Sesshomaru said flatly.

“My Lord I am speechless.” Yuudai said stunned.

“She has been around you her entire life Yuudai. I understand that she is the reincarnation of the Lady Sorami but Naraku has done unforgivable things to this house. He is the cause of my mate's rape and my half brother's misery. He taints Asuna and I will do everything in my power to separate her from him. He cannot have this Sesshomaru's beloved daughter!” he snarled softly.

“My Lord the hanyou loves Lady Asuna. I could not be the cause of her having a broken heart.” Yuudai said confused.

“Where is the hanyou? You moved heaven and earth to be here. You did your duty and you made a battle happen and you won. Where is Naraku?” he seethed.

“I see your point my Lord.” Yuudai said bowing.

“I know of your encounter outside the palace and your father suspects an encounter at his castle. I know those pups were yours.” Sesshomaru stated again bluntly.

“Hai my Lord they were.” He said regretfully.

“Augusta tells me that there was no way you could have scented her cycle. She does not seem to follow a pattern as most bitches.” Sesshomaru said flatly.

“I would not have pupped her otherwise.” He said ashamed.

“I wish for you to pup her.” The Western Lord stated bluntly.

“I will do as much as my Lady will allow Sesshomaru-sama.” He said with a bow.

“We understand one another? You are to speak to no one of this.” Sesshomaru commanded.

“Hai my Lord.” He bowed again.

“Go to her. I will be sending Tekeshi back to the fronts.” He said.

“Hai my Lord.” Yuudai said.

Sesshomaru stood and followed Yuudai out. His mind was working and he intended to see Naraku gone for good. He went to his mate's study and found Tekeshi.

“A word Lord Tekeshi.” The Western Lord commanded.

“Hai?” Tekeshi asked as he left Augusta's study.

“General Yuudai has given me particulars and I believe in order to secure the Palace of Shenyang then your presence will be needed.” Sesshomaru said.

“Sesshomaru-sama I would rather wait till Asuna has recovered fully.” He said in irritation.

“Secure your lands for her son!” Sesshomaru said in sudden anger.

“Lord Sesshomaru she is my mate!” Tekeshi said flatly.

“She is my daughter!” he said narrowing his citrine eyes.

“I will be back as soon as the palace is secure but do not threaten me again boy.” Tekeshi snarled.

“I am not my sire Lord Tekeshi and you stand on my lands. Asuna is my heir above anything else. She loves you but understand this I am Lord here and you will do my will!” Sesshomaru snarled very softly.

“Kamis you sound just like Natsumi!” Tekeshi snarled back.

“Your impertinence will be forgiven given the state of your beloved mate. Never speak to me again in such a fashion.” Sesshomaru said coldly and left.

Tekeshi watched Sesshomaru walk away and he was stunned. Touga's son was nothing like him. He gathered himself and went to say goodbye to his aijou. He went into her chambers and she stared at the wall.

“Yuudai has secured the villages and lands around Shenyang. Your father thinks it prudent for me to take the palace now.” He said touching her shoulder.

“Then you should go. My father is just as talented on the battlefield as you.” I said blandly.

“Asuna this is breaking my heart.” He said pulling me to him.

“I will be fine. This is not the first pup I lost.” I said tonelessly.

“Aijou I love you.” He said kissing my forehead.

“I love you.” I said tears stinging my eyes.

He stood and bowed. He kissed my hand and I nodded. I watched as he left and I sobbed again. Mayu came over to me and held me.

“Twill be alright.” She said growling softly in her chest.

“Is Yuudai here?” I asked Mayu.

“Just lately arrived.” She said kissing my forehead.

“Bring him to me?” I asked.

“Hai.” She said getting up.

Mayu was gone not even five minutes when Yuudai came in and pulled me to him. He held me tightly and I cried openly. My hands were shaking badly and he held onto me.

“I got here as soon as I could chuusin.” He said quietly.

“I have been told that you surrounded the Summer Palace?” I asked in surprise.

“Hai. I scented correctly? You were pupped by me?” he asked softly.

“Hai. I did not know. I am sorry!” I cried into his haori.

“Why? Why are you sorry chuusin?” he asked.

“Karuson I know not what went wrong. I did not kill my pups.” I said shaking.

“Nothing of course you did nothing wrong. Come stay at my family's estate near Kyoto.” He said brushing her hair softly.

“We need to get back to Manchuria.” I said.

“Just for a few days. I will go back before you. My father and brother are here at court. You can relax and go to the medicinal springs there. I will conqueror what needs conqeroring.” He said pressing his forehead to mine.

“I will go.” I said sighing.

“Good. Let me tie up some things here and we will go like we did when were pups.” He said lifting my chin.

“Hai.” I said.

“Chuusin whatever happens I am here for you always. You can tell me anything or do anything.” Yuudai said holding my face.

He kissed me softly and stood slowly.

“I have to finish what was started.” I said shaking.

“After a few days of rest. Your body needs time to replace the blood you lost.” Yuudai said looking down.

“Would you have wanted them?” I asked in a haunted voice.

“I do want them. Chuusin rest now please. I will make this right for you. It is my fault you got pupped.” He said sadly.

“To Kyoto then?” I asked.

“To Kyoto.” He confirmed.