InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ I am the Moon ❯ Old Dreams and Older Pain ( Chapter 37 )

A/n: I do not own Inuyasha, Rumikio Takahashi does.

 

Old Dreams and Older Pain

 

I stood in the inner garden of a very large dwelling. It was not as big as a castle but much bigger than my uncle's home. Yuudai actually had sent me on ahead and I sat beneath an oak tree. Memories assaulted me of my very young years here. Sir Yuuta was fairly influential in the West and owned a fleet of ships. Yuudai's family had prospered by siding with the Taisho. I put a hand to my belly and prayed that I did not end up with the same issues as my mother. I had not really thought on it but I was not done having my family. I did not want the choice taken from me as it had been from my mother. I laid down between the tree roots and fell into a light slumber.

“I am sorry karuson! I did not mean for you to get caught!” I said pulling on his haori.

“That is the thing Suna! I always get caught doing your crap!” Yuudai said in a fit.

“Well I just wanted to see if I could wield Tokijin. You were not supposed to be seen.” I giggled.

“I should never have listened to your dumb butt!” he cried.

“It is just my parents' chambers. Kamis Yuudai.” I snorted.

“You wanted it you should have tried to get it! Besides the yoki on that thing burned my skin.” He pouted.

“Give me your hand you big baby.” I said grabbing his hand.

I pressed my lips to the burnt skin and looked up at him. He rolled his eyes and I knocked him over. I tackled him to the ground and started tickling his ribs. He laughed and threw me off.

“What are you going to do when you get grown?” I asked Yuudai.

“Dunno. Why should I care right now?” he grunted.

“I guess it must be kind of nice having a choice. I have to represent the West always. You can run away.” I said sighing.

“Chuusin you are an idiot! You may get to rule the most powerful cardinal state in Japan. You are the first onna to even be made heir. You whine and bitch but you can change lives for the better.” He said.

“What if I do not want it? I want to go and fight! I want to be like my Uncle Inuyasha. He gets to fight rogue youki and he does not answer to the Great Lord Sesshomaru-sama! Rin still runs around and bows and falls all over herself. Father looks at me and shakes his head. I do not want to be Asuna-sama; I want to be you.” I said.

“Again you are an idiot but I love you anyway chuusin.” He said laughing.

“Well I am prettier than you.” I said in mock arrogance.

“I would hope so! I would hate to be thought of as pretty.” He growled lightly.

“Come on. They imported wine from a place called France. I want to see what the fuss is about.” I said grabbing his hand.

“Suna! I just had to do five hours of your father's idea of meditation. My knuckles are killing me!” he snarled.

“Wimp!” I cried into his ear.

“I will show you wimp!” he said jumping up and gave me chase.

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The castle came into sight. I wiped the tears away with the back of my hand. I had been scolded terribly because of showing my emotions at a state dinner. The council still fought my father in his choice of me as heir. Poor old bastard; I had burned him with my Dakkasou. Father had dragged me out and I felt as though I was made into a block of ice. I snuck into Sir Yuuta's castle. I easily jumped to the balcony. I slipped open the shoji door. Yuudai was asleep and I stripped; I pushed him over and he easily scooted for me to join him. Yuudai mumbled in his sleep and rolled over and kissed my forehead. I cried silently and Yuudai woke. He held me while I cried; kissed my forehead again. He kissed my cheeks and reached up and wiped away my tears. He looked at me and his gray eyes held sympathy. I locked eyes with him and a shudder went down my spine. I did not understand the feelings coursing through me but I reached up and pulled his lips to mine. He whined softly and his lips seemed to burn mine. Our lips moved against each other and my loins seemed on fire. I felt a hardness pressed against my thigh and my eyes flew open. Yuudai pulled away from me as if I had burned him with my poison.

“Suna?” he asked confused.

“Hai?” I asked him.

“What are we doing?” he asked softly.

“I do not know.” I said sitting up.

“Come on let us sleep.” He said as he laid back.

“Kiss me again.” I demanded.

“Suna!” he seemed scandalized.

I wrapped my hand around the back of his neck and pulled him forward. Our lips met again and I opened my mouth. Yuudai's tongue swept into my mouth and I groaned under him. I was shaking under him and there was an aching in my lower body. I squirmed beneath him and he pulled away.

“I feel as though there is a pain.” I said softly.

“You are being dumb. Go to sleep.” He said in a strange voice.

“Did I do that to you?” I said pointing at his groin.

“Hai I suppose. Please just go to sleep!” he growled.

I reached out and touched him and he hissed. I looked at him and his eyes were tinged pink. I of course knew the mechanics of rutting but the reactions and sensations were the unknown. I reached out and ran my fingers along his groin through the silk of his hakamas.

“Chuusin please stop.” He said in a strangled whisper.

“I want to touch you.” I pouted.

I was on him and undid the knot to his hakamas. He did not fight too hard and I knew he was as curious as I. I reached in to touch the softest skin I had ever felt. He again hissed and I wrapped my hand around him. His eyes had bled to red and I stroked him lightly.

“Chuusin Kamis.” He cried softly.

I watched him and I felt a thrill run through me. He was strong and so very male; I felt power at being able to make him writher under me. I leaned down and kissed him while I continued to stroke the velvet like hardness. He thrust in my hand and I looked surprised. He made soft noises that were making me burn. He continued thrusting in my hand and I held him firmer. He bit his lips and he stiffened in my hand. I watched him fascinated as he released his seed. I watched as his face contorted and then calmed. I continued to be fascinated as I brought my hand to my lips and tasted his release. He watched me and sucked in his breath. I slowly licked my hand clean and leaned down and laved my tongue along his length and thighs. He was shaking under me and I sat up.

“I am sorry! I got carried away.” He whispered.

“You taste good karuson.” I said softly to him.

“Stop! I cannot do this with you.” He said backing away from me.

“Then who with? We used to bathe together dummy. I swear you make small matters into mountains!” I said annoyed.

“You are the heir to the West!” he hissed softly.

“No I am your chuusin and I need to hear your heart beat.” I said lying down.

“Alright. I am sorry I should not have allowed that to happen. I will not do that again I promise.” He said lying down next to me.

“Now you are the idiot. Kamis Yuudai! You looked beautiful and you are so soft.” I said closing my eyes.

“Soft? I am not soft!” he said irritated.

“Hai you are. Do not forget beautiful.” I murmured.

“Chuusin I am not beautiful! I am a male and not an onna!” he growled.

I chuckled at his irritation. I had known him the past half century of my life and I trusted him only as I trusted Osamu. I fell asleep listening to the steady beating of my karuson's heart.

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“You are leaving?” I asked surprised.

“I will be back! Hideaki wants me with him in training. There are good grounds north of here.” Yuudai said smiling.

“How long?” I asked as my heart constricted painfully.

“Six months.” He said looking down.

“Six months? Kamis damn it! How can he train you any better than my father?” I asked standing.

“Chuusin I am a soldier and soldiers normally go train in drills and such. I cannot stay around the palace chasing after you all my life.” He said amused.

I was anguished and he did not get it. I stood and stalked my chambers. Osamu and I had finally gotten our own apartments twenty years before. I still snuck away and slept with Yuudai at least a few times a week.

“I love you!” I cried.

“I love you too chuusin. I will be back; It is not as if I am going to war.” He said smiling.

I moved to him and pulled him into a desperate kiss. I surprised him; we had not shared passionate embraces for a long time. My tongue ran along the seam of his lips and he allowed my tongue to enter. I moaned under his lips and he pulled away.

“Chuusin stop.” He said backing away.

I shook my head no and I untied my kimono. He watched me transfixed and it slipped off my body.

“My Lady.” He breathed heavily.

I moved to him and put his hands to my breasts. His breath seemed suspended. I stood up on my tiptoes and kissed him again. His hands went to my hair and fisted in my silver tresses. His lips seared mine and I cried out. I ripped my mouth from his and started running them along his neck. I spread open his haori and kosode. I nipped at the skin of his chest. He was mumbling and I did not pay attention. I could not let him leave; I saw everyday and I would be lost. I loved him so much it hurt. He picked me up and went and laid me on my futon. My hands were busy undoing his hakamas. Yuudai looked at me and there was a war there. I looked at him confused and he pulled away from me. I stared at him in disbelief.

“Chuusin I cannot do this. I am a soldier in your army. Besides you love me as a brother as I love you as a sister.” He said straightening his clothes.

“No I love you as I would love a mate.” I said in agony.

“Look I do not think that any of this is wise. I will see you in six months and we will laugh this off as we always do.” He said with a sad smile.

“Go Yuudai.” I said in a tortured voice.

“Chuusin.” He whispered.

“I said go!” I yelled.

He bowed and retreated from my room. I crawled off of my futon and grabbed my kimono. I broke into sobs and cursed my birthright. I stood up and went to the looking glass. I would be damned if I let him hurt me ever again. I would not have my love turned into a joke.

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“Augusta where is she?” Naraku demanded.

“I told you I do not know!” The Western Lady said annoyed.

She had gone to see the hanyou because she found it odd that he had not felt Asuna's pain. She looked at him and could see that he had been busy.

“What are you not telling me? How can you not know where she is?” Naraku said in annoyance.

“I think she needs to tell you.” Augusta said standing.

“Tell me what?” he asked loosing his temper.

“She lost a set of pups Naraku.” Augusta said in a disgusted voice.

“What? Why did she not…” he said then stopped.

“She was distraught and I can tell you how traumatic it is.” She said.

“She wanted to see me and I told her no.” he stated in anguish.

“You cannot feel her?” she asked surprised.

“No. I normally come when she calls; I thought everything was alright.” He said flexing his claws.

“This is odd because I do not know where she is.” Augusta said narrowing her eyes.

“Where would she go?” he asked.

“Several places.” She said.

“Kamis I have let her down.” He said looking away.

“Find her now.” Augusta said.

“Where would she go though?” he asked.

“There are several estates in the south west and there is Edo. She could be with Akemi at the Southern Castle.” She suggested.

“I thank you Augusta.” He stated as he stood.

“I am curious as to why I am being shut out.” She said in annoyance.

“Why not ask your mutt.” Naraku snorted.

“You may be on to something.” She said and left.

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Augusta stalked into her mate's study and noticed several of the nobles including Sir Yuuta. Augusta glared coldly at Sesshomaru and he raised a silver brow.

“I need to speak with you.” She said softly.'

“This Sesshomaru is engaged at this moment.” He said meeting her eyes.

“You son of a bitch!” she said narrowing her eyes.

“Leave us!” The Western Lord snapped to the nobles.

The inu nobles stood up and bowed. They filed out and Sesshomaru rounded on his mate.

“How dare you disrespect me in front of my nobles!” he snarled.

“How dare you manipulate a situation when your daughter is in a vulnerable state!” she screamed.

“I know not of what you speak.” He glared at her.

“I know you Sesshomaru. You are taking advantage of the fact that Naraku has been wrapped up in his own mind as of late. You know where Asuna is recovering.” She accused.

“Actually I do not know. You are right I will not encourage Asuna's affections of the hanyou but I have done nothing to interfere as you say.” He admitted.

She looked at her mate and realized he may actually be speaking the truth.

“I am sorry my heart.” She said.

“Please I realize that my mother is pretty awful but I am not her.” He stated with a slight smile to his eyes.

“What is Natsumi doing these days?” she asked.

“Spending money as always.” He replied rolling his eyes.

“Please let me kill her?” she asked with mock pleading.

“Please allow me to kill Naraku?” he retorted.

“Touché my love.” She said shaking her head.

“Hn.” He muttered.

He grabbed her and Augusta squealed in surprise. He sat her on his desk and sliced through her obi. He opened her kimono and his eyes roamed her form lustfully.

“You keep shredding my clothes and I have to buy more.” She moaned as he brushing his long fingers along her breasts and stomach.

“This Sesshomaru is willing to endure the expense.” He purred.

“Oh Kami Sesshomaru.” She cried out as his tongue slipped into her center.

She squeezed her eyes shut as he made her moan.

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I was roused awake by Yuudai. I looked up at him and he pulled me to my feet. He wore a sleeveless kosode of white and dark brown hakamas. They were made of cotton and were cool in the hot weather. He smiled at me and I did the same.

“You were in a deep sleep. I watched you for awhile.” He stated.

“Hai.” I mumbled.

“Lord Tekeshi has taken the Summer Palace at Shenyang.” He said to me.

“That is good news!” I said smiling.

“Hai. He bids me give you this letter. I need to check on some things at the shipyard for my father so that will afford you some privacy.” He stated bowing.

“You went back to the fronts?” I asked surprised.

“I wanted you to know that your son is getting his birthright back.” He said looking away.

“Thank you.” I said taking his arm.

“I am as always chuusin your humble servant.” He said bowing.

“Karuson have we not moved beyond this?” I asked softly.

“I am first your general chuusin. I will return shortly.” He said bowing again.

I watched him leave and I opened the letter and Tekeshi was telling me about the storming of the palace. He kept it short but wrote of his profound grief at our loss. I touched the kanji and sighed. He was at times such a contradiction in personality. I wanted the one to face Katashi to be me but I would not tell Tekeshi that. I felt a tremendous aura and I looked across an open field and there stood Shezmu. I moved towards him and bowed when I came within a few feet of him.

“You are hurting little one.” He said searching my face.

“It is no matter. I am fine. How is your family?” I asked changing the subject.

“Avoiding the pain will not make it go away.” He remarked.

“This coming from the inu who wanted me to kill him.” I snapped at him.

“That is a fair statement.” He said shrugging.

“You never get upset. Nothing bothers you.” I said looking away.

“That is untrue. The fact that you hurt is bothering me.” He said turning my chin and making me look at him.

“Look I have many things that need my attention. I am glad you came but I cannot handle the emotions you invoke in me right now.” I said honestly.

“Tell me what has happened and then I will depart.” He demanded softly.

“I miscarried.” I said looking down.

“I am so very sorry.” He said pulling me into a hug.

I fought his hold but it was firm. I fought back the emotions and allowed myself to calm down.

“I am fine now and I will be fine. Seeing as you had no interest in ruling your own lands; I have an interest in ruling mine. I am for the battle field in a few days time.” I said stiffly.

“Little one killing your foe will not make this right.” He replied.

“Restoring my adopted son's birthright will! I am part of the reason he suffered and I can restore what my behavior stole from him. So go be with Nafre and her pups; you missed a lot!” I said jerking away from him.

“I love you.” He said.

“Do not make this about love. I am damaged goods so to speak and I am no Akana.” I said flatly.

“This is the part that I am supposed to be wary of your ill temper?” he said crossing his arms.

“This is the part where you thank your gods that I am not in your life. I am stretched too thin and I hate my heart.” I said looking at him defiantly.

“I see. You see your behavior as offensive and I find it quite normal. There have been a few female pharaohs and do you think that they were mated to one male? Your system here is odd to me.” He actually said flippantly.

“Shezmu; I am not worthy of you or your love. You have your daughter and her family. You do not need me to kill you any longer.” I said with a wan smile.

“I can determine who is worthy of my love. I loved Akana little one but your soul calls to mine. I will give you your time but I am around.” He said bowing.

I stared at him dumbfounded and he disappeared. I looked down and decided that I was going to the wharf. I did not spend much time by the sea and it was a pleasant past time. I went inside the house and went to the room I always stayed in. I stripped down to my kosode and I found a pair of short hakamas. The kosode was sleeveless and quite a bit of skin showed but I did not care. I stepped outside and transformed into my energy sphere. It took me about half an hour to reach the shore. I walked along the beach and the ningen gave me sway. I smirked at the mortals. They truly had no idea how much the youki controlled. Kyoto was originally an all youki city but as the ningen spread so did the need for land. Inu stayed amongst their own kind mostly but the line between what was youki and ningen territory was blurred. The West had several villages that were totally mortal. My hair blew behind me as I walked and the waves crashed. I felt another aura I knew and this one made me angry.

“Well I hope the castle is well on its way to being done!” I said coldly.

“Asuna I am sorry.” Naraku said behind me.

I turned and looked at him. When he had not come I had quit thinking about him. I had not called him because his work seemed more important.

“Why did you not call?” he asked me.

“Why? Why would I call when I asked to be with you and you dismiss me? Why should I share my pain with you?” I hissed.

“You were drunk.” He said defensively.

“I will not beg you to want to share your life or time with me. What do you care anyway? It was not your pup; one has to rut to get pupped.” I said in anger.

He looked angry but said nothing.

“Go back to your castle and finish it. Hopefully when it gets done I will get my mate back. I do not want to see you until it is done.” I said.

“You order me?” he said haughtily.

“Hai I order you. I am in the West and I order you.” I snarled.

“I assume your grief makes you weak in the head. You are not my Lord and master.” He said in a low voice.

“No just the mother to your daughter.” I said walking away from Naraku...

“Asuna stop!” he demanded.

“No!” I yelled at him.

He rushed me and grabbed my arm. I jerked away as if burnt. I stared at his mahogany eyes and I slapped him.

“Where were you? I called to you when I first realized and you did not come to me. I needed you!” I said furiously.

“I have been absorbed. You know I get single minded.” He said looking at me.

“Single minded. Just like the Shikon no Tama and a certain miko whore!” I sneered.

“Asuna you go overboard.” He said in a dangerous tone.

“No I do not. Do you know that I have heard you call out her name in your sleep? You still harbor feelings for her. I stood by you when I should have been at Fuji and Sheng died and you still call out her name! I have given you a daughter and you still call out her name! I went back because I love you and that filthy ningen part still loves Kikoyo.” I screamed at him.

“Stop it!” he snarled.

“No. I am a not a pure and heartless ningen miko; maybe if I was then I would be worthy of your obsessions!” I said as tears streamed down my face.

Naraku slapped me in turn and his eyes were burning. I had been fighting with Naraku when Yuudai came up. His own eyes were red and he had a hand on his katana.

“Back off mutt this is between my mate and me.” Naraku said in a nasty tone.

“My duty is to the Lady Asuna and not her mate.” He said in a firm tone.

“Karuson please do not interfere.” I said in a calmer tone.

“I will if he dares lay another filthy hand on you.” Yuudai said flatly.

“I believe you were dismissed mongrel.” Naraku growled.

“I am a pure blood inu youki hanyou. I suggest that maybe you learn the terms you so flippantly use.” Yuudai snarled.

Naraku moved to go at Yuudai and I stood between them. Naraku was getting dangerously angry and Yuudai was already there.

“I can easily dispatch you mutt.” Naraku threatened.

“It is a wonder that you profess such love and adoration for my Lady considering she is inu.” He retorted.

“Karuson that is enough!” I snapped.

“Chuusin I will return to the estate. Pardon my interference my Lady.” He said bowing.

I watched as Yuudai left and Naraku grabbed my arm painfully. I glared at him and he was furious; I had not seen him this angry since before Mizuki was born.

“Why does he call you heart?” he demanded.

“I grew up with Yuudai you fool.” I snapped.

“He calls you heart because you grew up with him? You call him boy?” he snarled.

“When I was a toddler I could not say his name. I called him karuson and it stuck. Chuusin is a normal childhood nickname Naraku.” I said narrowing my eyes.

“You are not pups anymore.” He accused.

“How did this become about my general? You are the one hung up on a dead onna.” I said in a peevish tone.

He threw me from him and I knew he could not deny my accusations. I turned away from him and walked on.

“I wonder if I had black hair and brown eyes that you could see me.” I said over my shoulder.

He knocked me in my jaw and I fell backwards. I landed on my rear and I looked up at him in anguish.

“You know nothing of my feelings and I suggest you drop it.” He said flatly.

“You are right I do not understand. I do not need you. I am well and healed now. I do not need you as I set up our daughter's own state. I do not need to be compared to miko trash who never loved you as I do. I swear I would have loved to have dispatched her myself but you did that quite well. Maybe I am next?” I asked him.

“Shut up!” he snarled.

“Hai. Go fix your castle there is nothing that should concern you here.” I said.

His face was full of fury and I stalked away from him. Old wounds from he and I's relationship welled up in me and I starting sobbing again. I knew my emotions were unstable because of the voided pregnancy and I knew not how to control them. I felt his hands on my shoulders and I stiffened visibly.

“I want you to leave me alone for awhile. I cannot deal with my own guilt and your refusal to forget her. I have no need to hide my feelings from you yet you do it to me all the time. I cannot handle the idea that you love her when she would see you dead.” I said through my tears.

“You want me away from you?” he asked in shock.

“Hai. I told you I will do the things that need doing without you.” I said straightening.

“Do not do this.” He demanded.

“I do it.” I said backing away from him.

Anger and pain filled his features and he nodded slowly. He disappeared into his miasma and I sank into the sand. I threw up and I cried more.

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I sat in doorway and the breeze came through the house. I stared out at the estate and saw workers getting in the rice harvest. Yuudai came and stood by the doorway.

“Do you still want me?” he asked softly.

“Hai always.” I said looking up at him curiously.

“I was determined that night was all I could give you chuusin; I have and will always love you.” He stated.

“Why say this now? Why tell me that you can only give me one night? Why do you say that after I lose our pups?” I said in a pained voice.

“I say it not to hurt you; I say it because I am not complete without you. You have been by my side for so long and when you were not there I knew real pain. I lied to myself and to you and I will not deny it any longer.” He said.

“We are friends Yuudai.” I said sighing.

He pulled me up slowly and cupped my chin. His other hand fisted in my hair.

“We are not friends. You are my lover and my conscience. You are never my friend; friends sway and we have never swayed.” He said ghosting his lips against mine.

“Speak plainly.” I said.

“I shall seek your warmth to make me complete. You are my soul and conscience; you are my chuusin.” He said devouring my lips.

I grew dizzy and I responded with abandon. He held me close and his mouth was drugging me into a mindless state of euphoria. He pulled back and shook his head.

“I have to stop. It is not wise to rut so soon after an event like this.” He said flushed.

“Hai.” I nodded.

“I am not shy about my feelings for you. I shall try and use discretion but it is as it was at home. I am not shy at all.” He stated.

“Yuudai.” I said stunned.

“No fear chuusin, I am not Osamu!” he said teasing me.

I started laughing and he pulled me close. He just held me and we stood there. Yuudai looked confused and looked at me.

“My father is here.” He said.

“Why is Yuuta here I wonder?” I asked.

We separated and Sir Yuuta came in and nodded to us. I bowed to him and he looked at his son.

“Chuusin excuse me please. I will be back.” Yuudai said bowing.

I nodded to him and son followed sire.

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“Father why are you not at court?” Yuudai asked.

“Are you rutting with the princess?” Yuuta asked bluntly.

“Father that is not something I will discuss.” Yuudai said stiffly.

“Boy you are insane if you are. That family has more power than most Kamis. They also have more enemies.” Yuuta snapped.

“Lord Sesshomaru wants it Father.” Yuudai said as bluntly.

“The Lord said that?” Yuuta said stunned.

“Hai. He knows Asuna and I have been close all these years.” He said.

“Yuudai you tread dangerous ground my son. The princess is poised for some very big things. Between her and Lord Tekeshi they will control more land than any youki family.” He said sitting back.

“I could care less about her power Father; I never have. I love the onna and not the princess.” Yuudai said very bluntly.

“Son you are a fool. You should care about her power and what it could do to this house.” Yuuta snapped.

“She miscarried my pups Father.” Yuudai said tightly.

“You pupped her? What has the army taught you? Insanity?” Yuuta shouted.

“Father I am an adult and the General of West. I do not have to explain my personal life with my father.” Yuudai said thinly.

“Yuudai you are still a son of this house and my heir. It may not be as illustrious as the princess's inheritance but there it is. I tried to keep you two apart but never managed. You are not royalty and they can eat you alive.” He said flatly.

“Father you know the court intrigue which I choose to stay away from. I know Lady Asuna better than most and I thank you for your excellent advice but I can make up my own mind.” Yuudai said bowing.

“Fool!” he snarled.

“Goodbye sir.” Yuudai said walking out of the sitting room.

I watched as Yuudai slipped from the formal sitting room and I slipped in. Yuuta looked at me surprised and stood and bowed.

“Sir Yuuta I would like it if you would not discuss my private life as such. You seem to have the impression of a conniving and manipulative palace bitch; I am none of those things. Neither Yuudai nor this house will suffer for its association with me.” I said calmly.

“You heard my words?” he asked looking away.

“Hai.” I responded.

“I am sorry my Lady.” He said sheepishly.

“My relationship with Yuudai is just that mine. I do not intend to hear that I am rutting your son.” I said flatly.

“I understand my Lady. He deserves to have a mate and pups of his own you know.” Yuuta said bluntly.

“I leave whatever decision up to Yuudai. I will never stop him from taking a proper mate.” I said stiffly.

“He will not as long as you string him along.” Yuuta said.

My face blanched and I growled a warning. He put up his hands and bowed.

“You think so little of me. You never got to know me Sir Yuuta and I understand you want what is best for your son but do not think I would willingly hurt him. I thank you for hospitality but I leave you now.” I said storming out of the sitting room.

I walked to the room and grabbed my things. I saw where Yuudai had gotten his prejudices. I hit a wall and my stomach clenched. I was dirty to Naraku because I was a full blooded youki and I was dirty to my own nobles because I was royalty. I slung my silk bag over my shoulder and went to the inner court yard of the large house. I was tired of crying. Yuudai came up behind me and turned me around.

“What are you doing chuusin?” he asked confused.

“You need to be free to acquire a mate Yuudai. I am a jealous bitch and that is unfair to you. I thank you for giving me beautiful memories.” I said pulling away.

“You spoke with my father?” he demanded.

“Hai. I am going to the fronts now. I will see you soon.” I said shaking.

“I love you chuusin.” He said in an angry tone.

“I love you karuson but I will not ruin your standing amongst the nobles. You should be happy and I cannot seem to give you that.” I said through clenched teeth.

“Fuck the nobles! I am a soldier.” He said angry.

“I am tired of being dirty; I am tired of living up to others.” I said breathing hard.

“I am yours chuusin. I do not belong to the nobles. I have always been yours.” He said flatly.

“No you have not. That is why you did not mate me Yuudai. Your father and probably the rest see me as a stain upon any normal inu family. You said you were not worthy of me but it seems as if the reverse is true; I am not worthy of you.” I said tears staining my face.

“Is that what you think?” he said.

“It is what it seems like. I should not have touched you; I should have let things stand. I cannot do this Yuudai. My personal life is not to be on public view.” I said shaking.

“Now who is the coward?” he asked hurt.

“I have to compete with a dead miko and I have to compete with the nobles with you. I am tired; my life made more sense when I was being hunted by Vlad!” I snarled.

“Do you love me?” he snapped.

“Hai I love you.” I said.

“Then to hell with anyone's opinion.” He snarled.

“Your father seems to think I am stringing you along.” I said choking up.

“I know your status chuusin; I do not care anymore. They all can kiss my backside as far as I care.” He said flatly.

“You have no idea of what you say.” I said in shock.

“Do I not?” he asked me.

“I do not know.” I stated confused.

“Go to Lord Tekeshi. I follow behind you.” He said furiously.

“Karuson.” I said closing my eyes.

“I am not giving you up now Asuna. I have been a fool for too long.” He said through clenched teeth.

“What are you saying Yuudai?” I asked him.

“If my father disagrees with my decision then I am not his son. Yuuto can have my title.” He said vehemently.

“Come with me.” I said.

“I have to go to the palace.” He said touching my cheek.

“I will await your arrival in Shenyang. I will see you soon.” I said calmly.

“Hai.” He said softly.

I transformed into my energy sphere and left.

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Yuudai entered the palace and went in search of Lord Sesshomaru. He was furious with his father and had threatened to never see him again. He shook his head and forced down a growl. He found the Western Lord in the dojo sparring with Youshiro. Sesshomaru looked up and saw General Yuudai.

“Enough for now Youshiro.” He said.

“Hai Father!” Youshiro said bowing to his father.

He watched with interest as General Yuudai bowed to his father.

“You can go now my son.” Sesshomaru said.

“Sorry my Lord.” Youshiro said bowing.

Youshiro slipped out and shut the door. Sesshomaru turned to Yuudai and waited patiently for his general to speak.

“The hanyou made an appearance in Kyoto. Your daughter has separated from him for now.” Yuudai said softly.

“Excellent!” Sesshomaru said as softly.

“My father also aired his opinion on any alliance I had with Lady Asuna.” Yuudai said an angry tone.

“Your Father will know this Sesshomaru's opinion.” He said narrowing his eyes.

“My Lord he is afraid that Lady Asuna sees me as a mere distraction. He fears that my standing will be affected.” Yuudai admitted.

“Asuna is not a stain on any noble house!” he said furiously.

“I am sorry my Lord. I did not know you would have favored an alliance with me. I thought myself too below Lady Asuna in birth and rank.” He said looking down.

“Foolish notion to be sure. This Sesshomaru has made his wishes known. You have my full support and backing on any decision that you and Asuna make.” He stated flatly.

“I have made my own wishes known to her my Lord. I love her I assure you.” Yuudai said.

“Hai…that is all that can be wished.” Sesshomaru said bowing.

“Thank you my Lord.” Yuudai said bowing.

“Continue to keep this Sesshomaru appraised General Yuudai.” He commanded.

“Hai my Lord.” He said as he left.

Sesshomaru quit the dojo and went to his chambers. He put on his armor and attached his blades. He strolled unhurriedly through his palace. His anger was simmering but he was pleased that Naraku had managed to show his true colors to his daughter. Asuna had always been strong willed but she carried a strong sense of honor. When he held her the first time he knew she was destined for great things. The twins had been born premature but they had strength that was unheard of in such tiny pups. He had always wondered if it had been Asuna's yoki that had sustained her and her brother. She had always dominated the pair. She had been a difficult pup but admired her tenacity. He would have handed her a mating with the young Yuudai if he had known the extent of their interactions. He went in search of his mate and found her in their nursery with Yoshiko.

“I have need of your yoki.” He said.

“What is it?” she asked him curiously.

“I wish to be taken to Sir Yuuta's estate in Kyoto.” He answered.

“Alright. That is where Asuna is?” Augusta pried.

“Yuudai informed me that she returned to Shenyang.” He replied.

“Okay. Let us go.” She said standing.

She put his youngest pup on her hip and took his arm. She teleported them to Kyoto almost instantly. He looked down at Yoshiko and she waved her hands at him. He allowed himself a smile and touched his youngest daughter's cheek. She was becoming stunning already. It seemed strange to see his markings on a black haired onna.

“Chichi!” she called to him.

He sighed and took her from Augusta's arms. She was talking and babbling at the same time. She grabbed his hair and rubbed it against her cheek.

“Shiko down?” she asked.

“No little princess.” He said.

“Shiko haha!” she cried.

Augusta laughed and took her youngest pup from her mate's arms.

“We will be here when you return. Mind sharing why you are broadcasting fury?” she asked.

“I will inform you shortly.” He replied.

“Hai.” She mumbled.

The Western Lord walked to the house of Sir Yuuta. The servant about fell down as Lord Sesshomaru stood impatiently for Yuuta to appear. He did not have to wait long. Yuuta came to the foyer of the great house and bowed before his Lord.

“We will speak now and in private Sir Yuuta.” He said growling.

“Hai!” Yuuta said nervously.

Sesshomaru followed Yuuta to a formal sitting room and he sat down. Yuuta sat nervously and he saw the lord scent the air lightly. It was obvious that he knew his daughter had been here. He cursed his son in his mind and would tear him a new ass.

“I will be blunt and informal. How dare you insinuate that an alliance with the House of Moon would be a shameful thing!” Sesshomaru thundered.

“My Lord may I speak frankly?” Yuuta asked.

“You had better.” He replied with narrowed citrine eyes.

“Yuudai will be nothing more than a passing fancy for the Lady Asuna.” He said.

“Yuudai and Asuna have been enraptured for nearly a half century you fool. If I had known the extent of the involvement I would have insisted they mate. My heir is a complex but loving onna. You have seen the fall out of her reckless behavior but she is honorable. She was to bear Yuudai's offspring and they would have been given and afforded every right and title of a pup of my house should. My heir is not a shame upon any house.” He said flatly.

“Your daughter is mated to the dark hanyou.” Yuuta said in disgust.

“I have taken steps to remedy the situation; I encourage an alliance with this house. I encourage your son and my general to pursue my heir at all costs.” He said bluntly.

“You use Yuudai to rid your daughter of the hanyou's mark?” he asked in disbelief.

“I take advantage of timing and that is all. I have given the hanyou enough rope and he has already begun to hang himself.” Sesshomaru shrugged.

“You are sly my Lord.” Yuuta said with a small grin.

“I love my pup as you do yours. Love your pup now and quit putting doubts in his mind.” Sesshomaru commanded.

“Hai my Lord. What of Lord Tekeshi?” Yuuta asked curiously.

“Tekeshi is honorable enough. I will not interfere in that relationship but I promise you that Yuudai will be treated as her mate in our eyes be it official or not.” Sesshomaru stated.

“Understood Lord Sesshomaru-sama.” Yuuta said.

Sesshomaru stood and bowed as Yuuta did the same. He took his leave of his noble and one of his famous cold smirks played upon his lips. He made it outside and saw Augusta and Yoshiko playing in the long grass. His heart constricted at the sight; the only thing the vermin had done well besides sire Mizuki was to be the cause of Augusta staying in Japan. She looked up at him quizzically and allowed a smile to pass his features. She was beautiful beyond compare in his opinion and he loved just watching her. She was cunning and intelligent; it delighted him to out maneuver her in things time to time. He had been right in his choice of mating her; even over a century he burned for her. He allowed her to see his growing lust and her cheeks burned hotly. Several youki had died by his hand for laying a single claw on her. She moved closer and she could actually scent profound lust and need coming from Sesshomaru.

“You are advertising your wants at the moment.” She murmured.

“I do not care.” He said flatly.

“Well.” She muttered.

“Please take us to the palace.” He requested.

“Hai.” She responded.

She took his arm and held onto their daughter. She ported them back and knew the feral look in his eyes. He was going to ravish her until she lost her voice. She thrilled at his need and hurried her feet down the hall.

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I was in the Summer Palace and memories assaulted me. I looked around and the people were overjoyed at Tekeshi's return. He may have mated into this land but they adored him as a natural son. I moved slowly and went to the massive study and there sat Tekeshi with Ichigawa and my surprise, Yuudai. My general had his ways of moving and quickly. I inclined my head and Tekeshi looked up at me and relief washed over his features. Yuudai kept his place and bowed at the waist.

“I would speak with you General Ichigawa.” I said.

“My Lady?” he asked surprised.

My mate knew my intentions and his general stood and followed me out of the study. I turned to him slowly as not to frighten the poor general as I had done a few years ago.

“I am most sorry for my treatment of you and it was inexcusable. I will offer no explanation as none suffices. I am thrilled and honored that you have returned to Tekeshi's side. I hope you can forgive me and understand our reasons for it. I hope you have met Ang Chi and find him worthy of your devotion.” I said softly.

“You owed me no apology my Lady and hai I have met the young Lord. He is a wonderful young man and Lord Katashi is a fool for having denied him. You are honorable in restoring his birthright and I am honored that my Lord Tekeshi has returned to us. I will fight with you all to restore my Lord's rightful lands as well.” Ichigawa said bowing.

“General Yuudai is a bold soldier as I am sure you noticed.” I said again as softly.

“He is bold as I am conservative; it is a good blending. I have noticed that most of the inu from Japan's West are bold.” He observed.

“Hai we are.” I said.

“I am honored to serve.” He said again bowing.

“Thank you for your forgiveness.” I said.

“I am sorry to hear of your loss.” He stated quietly.

“It is not something I wished known.” I said stiffly.

“Only I and General Yuudai know. My Lord Tekeshi told me my Lady. He was most upset.” He stated.

“Hai.” I said bowing again.

I straightened and went back into the study. I sat between Yuudai and Tekeshi. They were discussing how far north to press.

“Changchun.” I said.

“That far north?” Tekeshi asked surprised.

“Hai. It still leaves a major portion of Manchuria to your son and gives Ang Chi what belongs to him.” I said.

“Changchun.” Tekeshi said considering.

“I think it an excellent idea my Lord.” Yuudai concurred.

“Well General Yuudai you are a bold one.” Tekeshi remarked.

“Whatever my Lady wishes.” He replied.

“Changchun then.” Tekeshi replied.

“Hai. General Ichigawa and I will confer and bring you the plans tomorrow.” Yuudai said.

“Hai.” I responded.

“I am glad you are well Lady Asuna.” Yuudai said bowing.

I nodded to him and my heart skipped a few beats. My general was cunning and it seemed he indeed was going to press his claim to me. Yuudai and Ichigawa stood and left. Tekeshi reached over and pulled me into his lap. He buried his nose into my neck and held onto me.

“I love you. Aijou I was frightened.” He said.

“You did not need to be. You took excellent care of me.” I said running my hands through his jet black hair.

He was touching and scenting me to assure himself of my health. I knew he felt my sadness but that was understandable. I moved to the ties of his hakamas and he looked surprised. I was wearing a kimono and I pulled it up.

“Aijou stop!” he hissed softly.

“No. I am in turmoil and I need you.” I said as I joined with him.

His green eyes shut tightly and I knew he was warring with himself. I had no business rutting so soon after such an event but I was reeling from Naraku. I intended to keep it slow. I moved against him and he moaned. He grabbed my hips to still my movements. He restricted my moving and held me so that I rocked just a little.

“Aijou Kamis. Do you know how good you feel?” he asked me.

“Make me feel something else.” I begged.

I had wrapped my arms around his neck and he held my hips. His eyes searched my face; I could see the questions there but I jerked against him hard. He bit back a snarl and tried to hold onto me. I jerked my hips harder against him and increased my rocking.

“Aijou.” He mumbled.

I wanted to see if his empathy ability could meld with my yoki and I released it. He gasped loudly and shut his eyes.

“Aijou what is this?” he managed.

“Please go with it. Do you feel me?” I asked hoarsely.

“Hai. Kamis Asuna.” He rasped.

I moved against him and he was growling low in his throat. I seemed to be channeling his empathy and I was overwhelmed. I grabbed his shoulders and laid my forehead against his and silently climaxed. He shuddered under me and held me tightly.

“Why are you hurting so badly?” he asked me.

“You felt that?” I asked stunned.

“Tell me.” He demanded softly.

“I have asked Naraku to stay away from me. I have my reasons but he cannot understand my feelings for whatever reason right now.” I said sighing.

“This goes deeper than his obsession with the building.” He remarked.

“Let us not speak of it right now. I should probably get a bath and not repeat this for a little while.” I remarked.

“Who is Kikoyo?” he asked me.

“You felt that?” I asked again stunned.

“Hai.” He replied.

“She is the miko that nearly destroyed him and my uncle. My aunt is her reincarnation. Before he was Naraku he was Onigumo. The ningen loved the miko and merged with many youki and became Naraku. He coveted the Shikon no Tama to become full youki and posses her. He killed her you know in a jealous rage because she had loved Uncle Inuyasha. When she was brought back by a youki witch his obsession took hold of him again. He calls out her name Tekeshi. I have heard him call out in an anguished cry for his Kikoyo. I could have lived with the knowledge but his ningen side loves her still so passionately. His ningen half despises me but enjoys the way I make Naraku feel. There is a part of him that thinks me a dirty youki the way I see the miko as tainted. I could have lived with this but he did not come when I needed him. You stayed by my side and he was off being obsessed again. What happens when he obsesses for her again? What happens when Mizuki and I are not what he wants anymore?” I said as my eyes flashed red.

“I think that unlikely aijou. He loves you. I know he loves you. I could not have this arrangement if I did not know he did.” He said standing.

“You have no idea what his behavior did to the Western House; I know he houses Hisashi's soul but he is his own youki. It is his Tsuchigumo soul that feels for me.” I said looking out the window.

“Aijou you need to fix this. I am sorry that he was not there when you needed him but that is why we have allied. I am here when he is not.” Tekeshi replied.

“You are suggesting that I face him?” I asked in anger.

“Hai. You cannot avoid him aijou. His soul and yours are tied forever. I shall not be surprised that Sheng will come back to you. I have actually mentally prepared myself for that. Sorami and Hisashi tied their beings; you are a telepathic creature you know all this.” He said shrugging.

“When did you think on all this?” I asked narrowing my eyes.

“From the time you left Touga and I until I came to you again. I may be empathic but I have but one life to share with you aijou. In all honesty that is why I wanted this alliance. However long I shall live it will only be this time and this soul I can have you in my life. Eternity is a very long time and Naraku will be there in one shape or another.” Tekeshi replied.

I looked away stubbornly and he tipped my chin up. He kissed me lightly and I grunted.

“Why not bathe and I will take you to his castle.” He suggested.

“Hai. You do not like conflict within your household.” I said morosely.

“No I do not.” He agreed.

I left and went to bathe. Naraku was going to have one very angry inu on his hands.

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I wore a halter kosode and hakamas in a rich plum color and my hair was loosely tied up. Tekeshi had left me at the hanyou's castle. I was impressed with the building he had done. It was less of a castle and more a palace now. I masked my aura and scent because I knew he was going to be in a severe temper. I moved along and found him in the hot spring. He was resting but the look on his face belied his feelings. I moved back and made sure he heard the noise. I was going to make him come to me. He looked up and did not see or scent me but he knew that could be false. I watched him get out of the spring and I watched his taut and sinuous body move. He put on a haori and hakamas and I saw the scar on his back. I moved lightly into the shadows and he investigated the noise. He looked annoyed and I moved to our room we shared when I was here. I saw a vase and in ill temper knocked it over. I was toying with him and he was going to be very angry indeed. I moved into the deep shadows and he entered the room. He looked around and grabbed a blade by the doorway. He was decent with a blade but I could beat him in a heartbeat. I unsheathed the Kumosaiga and decided he did not need the haori. He heard the blade scrape the sheath and I waited. He moved forward and saw the silver hair first. He stepped back and threw the blade away.

“What are you doing here?” he demanded.

I said nothing and moved forward. I put my fang tip to the ties of his haori and sliced them. He looked outraged; I dropped my fang and moved to stand behind him. I ripped the haori from his torso and he fought me. I held on tightly and traced his scar. He snarled in rage and I bit his ear in chastisement.

“I am not a dog!” he yelled.

I continued to trace the outline of his Tsuchigumo shaped scar and my claws scraped his skin.

“You are mine. You belong to me. You have always belonged to me.” I said with my beast's voice.

“I belong to no one remember?” he snarled.

“You want her still. You became obsessed with this castle because you have me now. She is the one thing you never possessed. You have attained your revenge; is it not sweet? Do you not love the bitterness you invoke Onigumo?” My voice purred.

“Shut up!” he snarled again.

“It is true. You think me pretty do you not ningen but I have not the sweet pure blood of a priestess. No my blood rages with the shared vintage of Inuyasha. You wanted to bury yourself in her purity did you not?” I asked him.

“Rein your beast back Asuna or I will do it for you!” he threatened.

“Why should I? You do not rein in your ningen self. Your ningen self will speak to my beast.” I purred into his ear.

“I said to stop now!” he roared.

“No. You are a unique creature that you share two souls. What do you feel when Naraku buries himself in my impure youki? Do you wish it was that miko whore? Do you wish that her voice called out for you Onigumo?” I asked in a terrible whisper.

“You want to punish me. You want me to suffer for taking you away from your true desire but his youki side is too strong most of the time but you made him ignore me. You made him stay away from his true desire.” I continued digging my claws into his chest.

His own yoki flared but I held onto him tightly. He was a powerful hanyou to be sure but I had allowed my beast out for this very reason.

“I want the ningen side to feel my pain. He gleefully causes it. What do you feel when you are one with this inu onna?” I snarled.

“I am Naraku.” He snapped.

“You are both. You think he sleeps but he does not. He rages below the surface and plots to make those he despises suffer.” I stated as I sliced through his hakamas.

“Bitch!” he snarled.

I grasped his member and he bit back a snarl. I was in a frenzy and this had not been my intention. I bit into his mating mark viciously and his blood exploded on my tongue. Powerful images passed before my mind's eye and I knew I had ascertained the truth. The disgusting soul of the ningen intended to keep me from my mate. I stroked him firmly and his mind had a hard time focusing. Ever since my battles against Vlad my uppyr powers had become strengthened. Naraku was not purposely trying to destroy our relationship but the unconscious part of the mortal. I released his mark and continued to stroke him with firm strokes.

“Naraku you want me?” I asked softly.

He grunted and my other hand scraped my claws against his flat male nipple. He again hissed and I sucked his abused ear lobe into my mouth. I ran my free hand down his stomach and held his sack in my hand. I knew his body and I knew his likes. He moaned and I let my thumb move over the head of his stiff erection.

“You want to punish me? Would you rather feel the heat of my mouth or my core? Tell me what you want Naraku.” I demanded softly.

Again he just grunted and I knew that his ningen side was fighting the onslaught. I pressed my yoki against his and he groaned under it. I pressed hard with it and he was moaning under the raw power. I heard him gasp just a little as my hand worked his male flesh.

“Will you come for your little inu?” I asked him in a heavy voice.

“Hai.” Came his strangled response.

I pressed my yoki again and I felt him inside and out. I shut my eyes and felt his impending orgasm. I stroked him quickly and he stiffened and roared his release; I felt his seed on my hand and I released him. His breathing was quickened and he turned on me. His eyes were burning crimson and he pushed me down and fell with me. He ripped the halter from me and lowered his hungry mouth to my breasts. He was very angry at my audacity and his nips at my flesh were rough.

“Does my impure flesh taint you?” I asked him with narrowed eyes.

“Shut up!” he snarled.

“You inhabit what is mine; I will not share the other half of my soul with you Onigumo. He is mine!” I snarled.

He took my mouth roughly and savagely kissed me. I knew Naraku was very much present but that half was aware as well. He ripped his lips from mine and he bit at my neck. I cried out as pain assaulted my senses.

“Does my pain fuel you? Do you think Kikoyo would ever cry out and beg for your touch?” I asked him.

“Shut up onna.” He said with a strange voice.

“You surface. How dare you filthy ningen!” I screamed at him.

“We are the same you stupid wench.” He said with a malicious smirk.

“No you are not. Naraku takes from you but you are not he!” I snarled.

“You think that I will not have what I wish?” he snapped.

“I think you fade back and forth so that he has no idea that you are even there! He tried to rid himself of you!” I snarled again.

“How can we lose half of us hmmm? You were the reason he wished to lose me. Your scent fills our mind and he is consumed by you!” he growled.

“Get off of me!” I pushed him off.

“You bring us such exquisite pleasure you know. He wanted this place for you; it has been so easy suppressing him as he has done to me for nearly a century!” the soul of the robber said.

“You cannot have him! I will not let you!” I screamed.

“You are a stupid bitch! You broke his heart.” He said smugly.

“How much of the Shikon debacle was actually you?” I asked narrowing my eyes.

“A goodly portion. Before he met you I had no need to push him. His wishes were the same as mine.” He snapped.

“I walked straight into your corrupted plans!” I snapped getting up.

“More or less. He has suppressed me for so long; it became easy when he was not focused entirely on you and your brat!” he said smirking.

I stared in horror and I snatched the haori that I had taken off of him.

“You are not Kikoyo but I must say that the sex has been addictive.” He said standing.

His words made me realize how easily this soul ebbed and flowed within my mate. I staggered back and grabbed the Kumosaiga.

“I have no wish for your wretched sword.” He sniped.

“I will strip you from him. I will send you to hell!” I screamed.

“How?” he laughed.

“Does he even know I am here?” I asked horrified.

“He is aware and that is what makes this so much more gratifying.” He said grabbing me harshly.

“His soul shall feel as I take you as he took Kikoyo from me!” he snarled.

He pushed me down and I fought back. I slashed the body that was my beloved Naraku but I realized his own mind was being corrupted by the ningen. I crawled away from him and transformed into my sphere. Tamiko was not far from here. She could help me. He snarled at my escape and I moved more quickly than I ever had. I had seen this in the past but it never truly registered to me before. I made it to Tamiko in record time. She stood at her doorway and her face held worry. I transformed and landed at her feet.

“I did not foresee this! I can not believe I did not see this!” she cried.

“Help me. Help me save him.” I said in desperation.

“I have to send you back yet again. Naraku separated his heart before and I suggest you destroy it.” She said pulling me into her hut.

“I do not understand.” I cried.

“Find me in the century past. I will see your arrival and we will figure a way of separating that bandit from him forever.” She said.

“Can he survive it?” I asked in utter horror.

“I hope. Hisashi's soul was in fact not evil. It became corrupted under the influence of the bandit's.” she said mixing a potion.

She dipped a quartz stone into the brew and I watched as she threw it against the floor.

“Go. If you do not then the Naraku of old will strike again.” She warned.

I went through the portal and I appeared in the north. Tamiko was not here and I would have to find her. My haori was tattered but Naraku's castle was close by. I went to his castle and there was a very powerful barrier in place.

“Old habits.” I muttered.

I worked on the barrier but got annoyed and drew the Kumosaiga. I let loose its wave and the barrier lowered momentarily. Naraku would be on me in a matter of moments. I moved in and I felt one of his incarnations. It was Kagura.

“What the hell?” she yelled.

“Where is Naraku?” I asked.

“Who the fuck are you?” she asked in shock.

“Wind witch my patience is little and my anger great. Where is Naraku?” I demanded.

“In the castle. You are the inu bitch he knows!” she declared.

“Brilliant deduction.” I said as I moved past her.

I went into the castle I knew so well and I could ascertain the exact date. I prayed that it was after we rutted the first time but then he would be rather displeased with my appearance. I found him emerging from his room. His face was furious and he saw the state of my clothes.

“Where did you put the Shikon you devious whore!” he swore at me.

I ignored him and went to his trunks. He was in shock as I went through his clothing and pulled out a short kosode. I stripped in front of him and put it on.

“What in Kamis name are you doing?” he asked.

This was my mate. He was aware and I moved to him quickly. I pressed my lips to his with repressed savagery. He opened his mouth to yell at me and I slipped my tongue and he groaned against my mouth. Even now his soul recognized mine. I decided to test my theory and my hand went to his hakamas ties. He pulled away from mouth and his face was confused and angry at the same time. I undid his bottoms and I felt his throbbing flesh.

“Naraku?” I asked him softly.

“What are you doing inu?” he asked roughly.

“Kamis.” I groaned.

I buried my nose into his neck and he stiffened. He was all youki and I pushed him against his futon.

“You are accosting me?” he asked amused.

“I do not have the Shikon and I have no idea where it is.” I lied.

“You think I believe you?” he asked.

“No.” I said as I slinked up his body.

I took off the kosode I had just put on and pressed myself to him. The utter confusion was evident on his face. I took his mouth again with mine but it was desperate and needy. He again moaned as I stroked my tongue against his and his sweet orifice. He grabbed me underneath my arms and laid me beneath him. He undid my hakamas and slipped them from my body. He noticed new scars and looked down at me. I undid his haori and kosode hurriedly. His features were drugged with desire as I opened myself to him. He moved to taste my center but I stopped him. I pulled his lips back to mine and devoured his mouth. I shifted my hips up a little and he gasped as I positioned him to my center. I pulled him into me roughly by holding onto his backside. I squeezed my eyes shut and felt him move within me.

“Naraku.” I cried softly.

His eyes locked with mine. I met his thrusts with mine and I grabbed a hold of his shoulders. I pulled my leg up along his body and moaned loudly.

“Kamis I have needed you.” I cried as a single tear escaped my eye.

“What?” he asked in shock.

I could not stop my body's or beast's reactions. This was our beloved mate. I did not care as I latched onto his throat and bit in. He cried out and I knew my own yoki would pull his out. He thrust into me harder and our yoki did mix. I shut my eyes and I moaned and cried out. I thought I said the words I love you and I mumbled incoherently. I pulled him into a climax with me; we convulsed together and we remained joined. I kissed him deeply and could not stop. He responded and my limbs were tangled in his. He collapsed against me and I knew I had sapped his strength.

“You steal the jewel and you come back for what?” he asked closing his eyes.

“You are full youki?” I asked him.

“Hai but what does that matter?” he asked.

“Kami I love you.” I said searching his eyes.

“You did say it.” He said surprised.

“Well I hope I did because I marked you.” I said rolling away from him.

“You did what?” he asked in sudden anger.

“You are mine. You will always be mine.” I said dressing.

“Apparently you know me much better than I know you.” He remarked.

“Hai I know you. I love you more than I thought possible.” I said tying my stays.

His letter from Hakurei-zan made more sense to my now. Onigumo was very right and I would be the death of him.

“Where are you going?” he demanded.

“I have a mission you were just desert.” I said pulling on my boots.

“The Shikon?” he asked arching a brow.

“Like I give one fig about that damn thing.” I snorted.

“You continue to perplex me inu.” He stated.

“I intend to save you.” I muttered.

“Is the miko whore still around?” I asked all of a sudden.

“Unfortunately hai. I thought I had killed her but there is always tomorrow.” He replied.

“Do you still covet her?” I asked disdainfully.

“Kamis NO!” he snarled.

“Good.” I said sheathing my fang.

I noticed the Kumosaiga pulsing softly and Naraku looked at it intrigued. I unsheathed it for him and I handed it to him. He grasped it and seemed enchanted. It pulsed in his hand and he stared at me.

“A fang is an extension of the youki's own yoki.” I said.

“This is your fang.” He replied.

“Hn.” I muttered.

“It cannot be.” He said surprised.

“I say nothing.” I said taking it back.

“I live.” He said surprised.

“I am warning you if you touch another female be it ningen or youki I will kill them. You are mine.” I growled.

“When did I become yours little inu.” He said with a predatory smile.

“That day here at this castle.” I said flatly.

“Well well this is interesting indeed. You tell me you do not know where my favorite trinket is?” he asked.

“I do not nor do I care.” I said moving within inches of his lips.

“The Kumosaiga obeys the will of its masters.” I said nipping his lips.

“Kumosaiga?” he asked intrigued.

“I need to leave.” I said then kissed him again. He moaned against my mouth again.

I backed up then left. I swore to myself if I ran into Kikoyo I would pound the bitch into the ground.

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I only searched one day for Tamiko because she came in search of me. She immediately put some kind of potion paste on my forehead and my crescent was concealed. I was amazed as I gazed in the looking glass. I never imagined myself without it. She chuckled and I looked back at her.

“You can mask your scent and aura but not your moon.” She said.

“Very good thinking.” I said.

“Well you are striking enough. Come we must shadow the two taichou.” She said standing.

“Do you think we will run into the miko bitch?” I asked.

“I am sure it cannot be helped.” She said.

“Good!” I snarled.

“Focus Lady Asuna.” She said.

“I know…I hate her.” I said furiously.

“It will be alright.” She said.

“Do we have any idea how we destroy the soul of Onigumo?” I asked.

“Actually hai. We are going to find the heart and send the spirit to hell.” She said.

“I have seen Naraku.” I said.

“I know and right now he is Naraku. He may think you are after it to kill him but I do not intend to destroy the heart just the soul it houses.” She said.

“Alright if I was my mate where would I hide my heart?” I asked.

“Let us go find out.” She said.

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We had been tracking them for days. I could not stand the bickering that my aunt and uncle did constantly. We were not even in the same camp and I heard the constant “sits”. I lay on the ground and watched the stars. I had to find his mortal heart. The whole thing was strange and I realized that by destroying the one thing that tied him to being ningen gave him the best chance at happiness. I looked up and saw soul gathering youki and my lip twisted in hatred. I jumped quietly and Tamiko continued to sleep. I moved swifter than my uncle could and I caught the bitch unawares. I threw a barrier up and she turned and stared coldly at me. I had to admit she was lovely. My aunt had blue eyes versus brown and her countenance was colder than Kagome's. I smirked with malice.

“Do you really think to hold me youki?” she asked in tinny voice.

“No I do not plan to keep you here; I just came to see my rival.” I sneered softly.

“Excuse me?” she asked in disbelief.

I moved forward and drove my flat palm against her nose and it gushed blood. I slapped her so hard she hit the ground.

“You filthy impure youki!” she yelled at me.

“I am impure? You are the walking dead. I do not play Inuyasha or Naraku!” I said with a savage snarl.

She blinked at me in astonishment and I kneeled next to her; I pressed my claws to her throat. She sneered and my claws glowed green.

“I hate you!” I hissed.

“I do no know you.” She said defiantly.

“You see I know you. I know you through legend. Inuyasha is too good for you; Naraku is too good for you!” I snarled.

I looked up and felt my uncle's aura. I slapped her again and moved away. I was seething and I watched my uncle sooth clay whore. Hatred radiated from me and I had to bite my lip to keep from snarling. I moved through the forest and came upon Kikoyo. I went back to Tamiko and she looked up at me.

“We have to go now.” She said.

“Hai.” I responded.

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Tamiko and I stood over and watched as a battle took place. My uncle and his tachi were fighting against Naraku himself. My heart clenched and the witch met my eyes. I knew it was time. I jumped down and landed gracefully amongst the melee. Naraku's eyes widened and Inuyasha shouted. My beloved had his barrier up and I drew the Kumosaiga. I saw my sire and mother in the distance. I saw Kagura and her bundle and I shoved my fang into the barrier. It came down and Naraku hissed in amazement.

“How dare you!” he hissed at me.

“Oi wench who the hell are you?” my uncle shouted.

“Back off Inuyasha!” I yelled loudly.

My uncle yelled some obscenity and I moved on Kagura so fast she had no chance. I saw Tamiko and then my uncle was coming up fast. I erected my own barrier and snatched the infant away. I raised my hand and jerked it to the right; my uncle and aunt went flying. I heard the monk scream `Wind Tunnel' and I threw him too. The rest of the tachi scattered.

“Move!” I screamed.

Tamiko came into the barrier and I handed her the infant. I grabbed Naraku quickly and put his hands with mine on the Kumosaiga. I channeled his yoki and his eyes flew open wide. I let loose the Spider Wave and my uncle's tachi scrambled. My father had grabbed my mother and flew with her on his yoki cloud. The devastation was quick and complete. I heard Tamiko chanting and I held onto my mate.

“You betray me?” he snarled.

“No I am saving you.” I snapped.

He shoved a claw into my side and released his miasma. I screamed but threw Tamiko the Kumosaiga. She shoved it into the infant. I fell to my knees and pain burned through my side. I fell to my side and Tamiko shoved the baby into Naraku hands. He looked down and he was not dead. He looked up at Tamiko and I confused.

“It is done?” I asked in a pained whisper.

“Hai I must take you and rid you of this poison.” She said urgently.

My mate's miasma could be deadly and he had thought I had betrayed him. I shuddered as pain consumed me.

“What did you do?” Naraku demanded.

I rolled to my side and looked at him not in anger but love. He seemed stunned and came to his knees by me. I took his hand and kissed it.

“We freed you from the bandit Onigumo. I love Naraku.” I said and passed out.

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Tamiko pressed cool cloths to the female inu's head. Naraku stood by still in confusion and anger.

“She did not betray you. She came back to save you Naraku. Your former ningen side was evil and depraved. You are full youki now.” The witch said working.

“Step back.” Naraku demanded and sank his claws again into her side.

“What are you doing?” Tamiko demanded.

“Saving her. I control my miasma totally.” He explained.

I sucked in air and sat up. I looked over at Naraku who promptly slapped me away from him. I growled terribly and jumped up.

“What was that for?” I demanded.

“Getting in my way. I did not need your help.” He snarled.

“Hai you did.” I snapped.

I saw Kagura watching the situation and I snarled at her. She backed up and Naraku grabbed me.

“Let me go.” I demanded.

“I do not understand.” He snapped at me.

“You do not need to. Find the cursed jewel.” I said.

Tamiko handed me something and I drank it. I then pulled my mate into a savage kiss where I invaded his mouth. He growled against my mouth and he stepped back. Tamiko turned to leave and I waited till he lost consciousness. I held him as he sagged and I looked at Kagura.

“Take him back to the northern castle or I will kill myself.” I said to her.

She nodded dumbly and I stepped back. I watched as she took Naraku onto her feather and I watched her leave. I turned on my heel and walked to Tamiko.

“I have said a widespread spell and I hope I reached your father and mother. I see the potion worked as intended.” She commented.

“Hai it knocked him out.” I said.

“He will sleep for nearly a weak and not remember a thing.” She said with a smirk.

“Can we go?” I asked.

“Hai. I foresee a very nasty fight between you and the real Naraku.” She said.

“Great.” I muttered.

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I made my way through the halls of the soon to be Northern Palace. I felt his very powerful aura and I moved closer. I slipped into the room and he looked up. He was more than angry and I braced myself for the fight.

“You could have killed me you know.” He snapped.

“We did not kill your heart just his soul!” I snapped back.

“Poor Kagura confessed everything about an hour before she died. Imagine my surprise when I realized that it was my little inu who had betrayed me again.” He said glaring at me.

“I know you do not remember but that filthy ningen was taking you from me. Everything makes sense of your hatred of me. It was not the youki but the bandit.” I said defensively.

“I remember it very weakly as if it fades but you are high handed Asuna.” He said stalking closer.

“I had to. You were being taken from me.” I said crossing my arms.

“Why do I not remember you being there?” he demanded.

“I drugged you.” I said lifting my chin.

“You drugged me. You did not think I could be trusted?” he demanded.

“You still went through the final battle?” I asked.

“Hai and my whole body obliterated. Hai that happened.” He said sarcasticlly.

“You are angry that I ridded you of that monster? He merged with you and hated me. Is that what you wanted?” I asked hurt and angry.

“I do not know. I know you said that I should stay away.” He said hurt.

“You are going to hang on to that?” I asked in disgust.

“I am confused right now. I have memories of one thing and now this. You change my life on whim.” He thundered.

“You cannot be serious.” I said looking at him.

“Hai I am.” He said in a frigid tone.

“Alright Naraku-sama. Judge my actions and you go to hell. I am the one that needed you remember? I cannot take this.” I said quitting the room.

I was losing him either way. Well at least it was Naraku and not some ningen that was leaving me. I turned into my sphere and departed. I hated everything and wondered if our souls were tied. I laughed bitterly in mind and went towards the West. I stopped in Edo for respite and sat beneath the God Tree. Bitter tears fell and I was tired of fighting for him. I sat watching the grass blow in the hot breeze. I fell into a light slumber and did not dream.

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I sat in the study at Shenyang and read every report from the time I missed. I sat back and read an account from Ichigawa of Katashi fortifying Changchun. Our showdown was going to be there. Tekeshi had been moving amongst the people and garnering their support. It started to feel too easy and I knew Katashi well enough that he was good in battle. I stood and wondered at his motives. I was biting my lips and a nagging feeling was tickling my senses. I moved through the palace and I was going to find Tekeshi. I went outside and the feeling grew stronger. I was started to freak and I ran to the tents and found Ichigawa and Yuudai.

“Something is wrong.” I said.

“My Lady?” Yuudai asked.

“Where is Tekeshi?” I asked.

“Are you seeing something?” Yuudai asked taking my shoulders.

I was panicking and moved away from Yuudai but he followed me. He yelled for Ichigawa to gather up the men as I rushed out of the palace grounds.

“Something is off. I feel it.” I whispered.

“Chuusin calm down.” He said.

“It is like I feel it and almost see it. Where is Tekeshi?” I asked.

“He had gone to Zhuanghe.” He said.

“That is one fifty miles away. I cannot teleport. We are going.” I said grabbing his hand and transforming.

It would take me over half a day to reach it and I pushed every limit I had. I landed right outside of Zhuanghe and death could be scented everywhere. I tried to sense my mate's aura and I could not. Panic grabbed my very soul and I transformed into my true self. I whined to Yuudai to search too. I picked up a faint scent of Katashi and Tekeshi. I wandered into the very woods that I had first met Jing. Father and son were on the ground. Tekeshi was bleeding heavily and so was Katashi. I moved to them quickly and they both barely breathed. I saw a grievous wound in Tekeshi's gut and Katashi was torn horribly in the chest. I steeled myself and plunged my claws first into the belly wound of Tekeshi. He grunted softly and I released very small amounts of my Dakkasou. I went to Katashi and I was fixing to do the same. He caught my hand and growled very low.

“Do not touch me not even to save my life.” He snarled.

“You fool you will die.” I hissed.

“So will my beloved chichi.” He said in hatred.

“Katashi I do not want you to die.” I said trying to break his grasp.

“Faithless whore. I want nothing from you.” He said rolling to his side.

I jerked my hand away and checked on Tekeshi. His breathing was labored but the bleeding had stopped. I had never tried to really speak with my mind to a normal youki but I screamed in Yuudai's head. I prayed he heard me. I was brushing the hair off of his face and he came awake.

“Aijou?” he asked.

“Tekeshi I am getting you help.” I said with my voice shaking.

“Aijou listen it is done. I had more time than I was supposed to.” He said smiling to me.

“No Tekeshi please.” I begged him.

“Tell Hana her chichi loved her.” He said sighing.

“No you tell her please.” I said as hot tears spilled down my cheeks.

“I cheated death to be with you. I regret nothing. You gave me a beautiful daughter and I was never more happy than in your arms.” He said reaching a weak hand up.

“Tekeshi no. Do not leave me please.” I sobbed openly.

Yuudai appeared with some village men and he saw me. I lowered my lips to Tekeshi's and he kissed me. I pulled back and he was still. I reached over and closed his eyes. I laid my head to his chest and sobbed brokenly. My sobs tore through me but I checked on Katashi and he too breathed no more. I tore at my hair and sobbed till I just lay on Tekeshi's chest. Yuudai came over to me and pulled me into his arms and held on. I stared out and said nothing. My youngest daughter had lost her sire and older brother.

“They need their honors.” I said tonelessly.

“Hai my Lady. I will see to it.” Yuudai said.

“I need to see Ichigawa. I need to…” I started to say.

“Chuusin I will take care of it. We need to garner the troops to put down possible rebellions but you rule Manchuria now.” He said softly.

I shook and looked down at the body of Tekeshi and broke down again. I nodded to Yuudai and allowed myself to be led away. I had killed him inadvertently because of my own damn interests. I had caused the deaths of both his sons and I would never forgive myself.

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I stood at the family shrine in He Gang and watched them install the urns into the ground. I stood stalk still and Ang Chi by my side. I had a hand on his shoulder and he had wept openly. The people so far did not dispute my rule at all. I had their legitimate heir as my adopted son and that could not be protested. Yuudai stood behind me as well as Ichigawa. Guilt and self hatred consumed me but I kept my head up. When the prayers had been said I sank to my knees and touched the kanji on the grave marker. I kept my emotions in and my hand was clenched so tight that blood poured from my palm. I stood and led Ang Chi away.

“Mother what do we?” he asked through his tears.

“You will continue to be trained as lord and when you are of age you will take your rightful place. I am only your regent and all matters will be discussed with you.” I said flatly.

“I am sorry. I caused this.” He wept.

“No Ang Chi that responsibility is mine alone. Forgive me for my weakness.” I said in a toneless voice.

“How can you say that?” he asked.

“Because I was not strong enough but I shall be strong enough for you. You and your siblings are all I have left.” I said closing my eyes.

“Mother we shall endure this together.” He said hugging me.

I held onto him and I allowed a single tear to slip.

“We shall return to the West for a month or two. General Ichigawa shall handle all affairs and you will need to form a close relationship with him.” I said.

“Hai.” He responded.

I walked into the palace and gathered things to leave. I needed to be home and see my little ones. I had lost Naraku and Tekeshi in the space of one week and I had become the most powerful ruler in Asia. I ruled more land than even my father. My head ached terribly and I held Ang Chi's arm. I saw Yuudai and he kept his countenance professional for my sake.

“I shall be returning to the West in about a week my Lady and young Lord. I bid you an easy trip and will see you soon.” He said bowing.

“Hai thank you General Yuudai.” I said without the trace of emotion.

I transformed Ang Chi and I into my sphere and left the Winter Palace.