InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ I'm Still Here ❯ Plan in the Making ( Chapter 6 )

Chapter Six

A Plan in the Making

 

The morning sun rays hit Kagome like a blow in the face. She opened her eyes to a forest she would never forget, with tears still staining her cheeks. Her skull hurt from having her hair pulled at so much, and the mark on her neck burned like nothing ever had. Being the reincarnation of a miko, Kagome had had long talks about mating with Kaede. She remembered their conversations very well; they were always picking herbs, away from prying ears, when Kaede was talking about mating with a demon - or half demon. Kagome always blushed, and pretended to think that nothing would happen, but secretly took mental notes of everything Kaede said.

“You cannot be the true mate of a demon you do not love,” Kagome remembered her saying. “Many things will be different than a normal mating.” She had not talked about it a lot, seeing as the only demon she thought Kagome might mate with was Inuyasha, and knowing that the girl from the future had strong feelings for him.

Kagome closed her eyes, assaulted by the memories, as she realized this pain in her neck might never subside. Maybe it was her body reacting to the mark.

She tried to move, but felt Kouga's arm around her waist pull her back. His manhood was still inside her, and his arm had imprisoned her the whole time they'd slept, so she had not been able to move. She winced, pulling on the muscles she had never used so much before in her life. Every second of her night with Kouga would be forever forged into her mind. He'd pounded into her practically all night, making her scream and beg. It had been so forceful; he had been so enraged… She shuddered at the memories. She'd passed out shortly after he'd declared them done, and had had horrible nightmares about Inuyasha.

“Good morning,” Kouga said with his usual tone. Is he going to act like nothing happened? Kagome wondered, hating the sound of his voice.

She didn't answer, and he didn't react. Wanting nothing more than to yell and scream at him, Kagome held herself. He might get so mad he'd make her go through the whole thing all over again.

He pulled out of her, and she bit her lip to stop the whine that was about to make her look vulnerable. She had promised herself, in the couple of minutes that she'd been awake, that she would never show weakness to Kouga. He pulled her up and she put on a cold face that surprised him, although he wouldn't tell. She wanted to cry as she tried to dress herself, realizing that her clothes were ripped, and that she'd have to let the others see her in this state. Her legs hurt, along with her bruised and burned knees… not to mention the burning and pulling sensation between her legs.

“I'll go get your bag,” Kouga offered her, seeing her fumbling with her ripped skirt, and left without her answering him. A minute later, he was back with her bag as promised, and she took it from him silently. When she'd looked into his eyes, she'd wanted to hit him so bad it was eating up at her.

She looked down. “I need a bath,” she said. “I'm going to go take one.” She hadn't asked his permission, and she knew he might get mad at her, but she wasn't about to. Surprisingly, he just nodded, and Kagome wondered briefly if he was schizophrenic.

Silently, she made her way to the clearing that led to the hot spring. She knew Kouga was nearby to make sure nothing hurt her, and wondered if he would be watching. She looked around, expecting to see him standing under a tree watching her, but was surprised not to notice him anywhere.

She stripped off the shirt she'd been wearing and slowly slipped in the water. She hissed as her bruised and cut back connected with the warm water. She closed her eyes and just sat there for a second, hoping the pain in her back and nether region would just disappear.

As she silently replayed the events of the night she'd just been through, Kagome wondered why she was reacting the way she was. She didn't want to cry anymore, didn't want to tell anyone what had happened, didn't want to talk about it.

Strangely, she just felt numb.

She didn't move for about ten minutes, just reveled in the feel of her body in the warm water. She couldn't help but think that if she'd made love to Inuyasha, it would have been different… The more she thought of it, the number she felt. She didn't really understand why she was acting this way, but she just didn't want to feel a thing.

She reached behind her for her bag, and pulled out some shampoo. Untangling her hair appeared to be a lot harder than she thought it would be…

Memories filled her mind… The way he'd pulled on her hair to bare her neck, the way he'd pushed her upper body down for her to submit to him… all by her hair.

Kagome found herself scrubbing herself hard, feeling dirtier than ever. She washed her hair three times and scrubbed her skin so hard it burned. She then tried to relax into the water, letting her hand slide over her mark on her neck. It burned, and she realized it was probably because her aura was trying to push the claim away.

Someone kill me, she thought with a groan.

The raven-haired girl stayed in the water for a long time, and then decided that it was enough. She rose, wincing as the movement caused her knees to go weak. She towel-dried herself then wrapped the towel around her hair when she was done. She pulled on fresh clothes, and went about tying her hair in a ponytail.

Walking back to camp, she tried to imagine what she would say when and if Sango and Miroku questioned her about her night.

She spotted them sitting around a fire, making breakfast. “KAGOME!” yelled Shippo in his little voice.

Her breath caught as he jumped into her arms. She held him, looking around. Sango and Miroku had gotten up and were walking towards her. Kouga was nowhere to be seen. The taijiya was the first to react. She gasped, her hand flying to cover her mouth when her eyes settled on the mark on Kagome's neck. “Kagome…” she said slowly, her eyes filling with tears as her fears were confirmed. “W-What happened?”

Kagome looked straight in her eyes, letting herself show a second of weakness. “Nothing important,” she said in a voice that she did not recognize. “Nothing worth talking about.”

Sango looked surprised, but didn't say a word. Miroku had been frowning the whole time. “Alright…” he said to break the silence. “What do we do now?”

Kagome looked at him now. Strangely enough, she had expected them all to change, yet they were still the same. I'm the only one who got raped last night, she thought bitterly.

She felt so unlike herself, as if she was wearing the wrong skin. She felt so cold, so un-Kagome. She didn't know what to answer him. What were they going to do? Would they stay with Kouga to finish collecting the shards to kill Naraku?

Suddenly, she didn't care about killing him anymore. She didn't see the point to her staying in this era anymore. She had promised Sango she would, but now, after being defiled the way she had, she didn't really want to spend any more time with the wolf demon.

But he'll never let me go back, she thought miserably. How would she convince him to let her go home? She was his mate now. She couldn't just leave whenever she wanted to. She felt disgusted by the mark on her neck, wanted it to just disappear.

And suddenly all the consequences of it made themselves known. She would live as long as he would. If one of them died, the other one would follow. She wouldn't feel distressed without him, but he would feel distressed when she would be away. Most of all, he would feel her emotions, but she would not feel his. Remembering all the talks she'd had with Kaede, she missed the old miko.

And then the idea came to her, so easily that she thought she'd known what she had to do all along. She couldn't spend another minute with him and wanted to go back home - yet he would never willingly let her go back. So she had to trick him into letting her go back…

“We continue hunting for shards,” she said to Miroku.

He looked surprised, but nodded. “With Kouga?” he asked nervously.

“Of course,” a cold voice sounded from behind them. “Kagome cannot leave me now.”

For a second, the wolf demon felt fury rising in the girl he now called his mate. Then he felt her calm down, and she said. “Exactly. I cannot.” She had meant it to mean that she couldn't, but that she wanted to. And it made him angry. Very angry indeed.

“Pack your stuff,” he snapped. “We're leaving soon.” Then he turned to Kagome. “Do you sense any shards?”

Kagome closed her eyes for a second, realizing that what she answered now would either let her live happily, or make her life even worse. “Hai,” she said finally. “I feel something coming from farther south, around Kaede's village.”

Kouga nodded, and from the corner of her eye, Kagome saw Sango's eyes narrow. She had understood what Kagome was going to do.

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::Hides away from unhappy reviewers::

I know the chapter is really short - I know! But I just HAD to stop it there, I couldn't help myself…

At least I've been updating my fics like mad. This is the third in two days!

I promise the next chapter will be longer and more interesting. This really is just a filling chapter, but it has to be there at one point. Sorry if you're disappointed.

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