InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ If You Only Knew ❯ Chapter 4 ( Chapter 4 )

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If You Only Knew: Chapter 4

Kagome landed on her side of the well with a heavy sigh. Her crying had seized due to the anger towards Inuyasha. "That jerk! Why does he have to act that way? I wish he could care about something other than the Shikon no Tama for just one second!" Then she frowned as she thought, 'He cares about Kikyo, too. Of course the jewel is all he cares about, because with it he can become human for her. Or, he can become a full demon, which completely defeats the purpose of being with Kikyo." If her head could spin it would. 'Whoa! Hold on a minute! I wonder if Inuyasha actually knows what he wants to do when he gets the whole jewel or not." She pondered that for a moment but came to the conclusion that she'd lose him either way. She opened the door to the well house and made her way to the house.

"Mama! Souta! Grandpa! I'm home!" Kagome yelled as she opened the back door to the kitchen. The house was dark and no one seemed to be home. "That's strange, everyone should be getting ready for dinner by now." There was no note on the refrigerator, regardless, she figured they'd be back soon. She went up to her room to get out of her filthy clothes. Looking in the full-length mirror, she made a disgusted face. "I really liked this kimono too! I wonder if mama can get this blood out of it."

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Inuyasha pushed himself up from the ground, trying to move against the subduing spell. His efforts were pointless, for the moment at least. He growled, "Bitch! When she comes back here, I swear, I'll. . ."

Miroku inquired, "Inuyasha-sama, did you remember to return the Shikon fragments to Lady Kagome?"

'Shit! I forgot! Well, hell, like I had time to!' Inuyasha was finally mobile, standing up, he shrugged, "Oh well, she belongs in that time anyway."

"Surely you don't mean that!" The monk wasn't surprised at Inuyasha's lack of response, but he knew Inuyasha couldn't go more than a day without going back to get her.

"Like hell I don't! She's more trouble than she's worth!" Inuyasha leapt off until he reached the God tree and then jumped up to his favorite branch. He knew Sango had followed him, but he chose to ignore her.

"You know, Inuyasha-sama, Kagome-chan wasn't even angry with you until you tried to stop her from leaving. The girl needs some peace after the day she's gone through. Give her time."

"Feh! I don't care if I ever see her again!"

Sango smiled. 'He'll be at the well in no time.'

As soon as Sango was well out of sight, Inuyasha dropped down and sped off towards the well. 'Stupid wench! I'm only going to give her the shards, and I don't care how long she stays!' Bright light flooded his vision and when he next looked up, there was an old roof over his head. He exited the well house and climbed the tree that overlooked Kagome's bedroom window. When he was about to open it, he stopped and drew back. She was undressing, removing the blood soaked clothing Kaede had given her. Inuyasha briefly thought of just leaving and coming back later, but part of his brain was paralyzed.

Kagome removed the kimono carefully as to not open her wounds. She removed the bandages, only wincing a couple of times as it stuck to her side, and retrieved a robe from her closet. After wrapping it around herself, she sat at her vanity to brush her hair out, taking care to untangle all the knots that had accumulated in the past hours. With that done, she went to run a bath, and all the while unaware she had had an audience.

Inuyasha took in a sharp breath when she had unclothed and glared when the bandages were removed. 'It's my fault that she has such wounds.' Upon seeing her cover herself he let the air out from his lungs. When Kagome sat, brushing her hair, he couldn't help but think how lovely that single act could make her. 'What the hell is wrong with me?! I don't even like her, let alone see her as attractive!' He sighed in relief when she left the room. Slowly, he opened the window and crawled in, but it slammed shut behind him. Thankfully there was water running and it drowned out the sound. Retrieving the vial from his hoari, he placed all the shards within it and put it on her desk. He was about to leave when the running water stopped and a soft melodic humming replaced it. Curiosity only killed the cat, so he followed the sound.

Upon entering the hallway and making his way to an open door, he about- faced and raced back in the direction he came from. Her singing never halted, so she seemed to not know he was even there. Quietly he turned back around and crept to the doorway. Kagome was reclining in a large basin full of steaming water and suds, with her eyes closed. Her humming flowed into words as she sang along to music coming from her headset.

You only see what your eyes want to see

How can life be what you want it to be

You're frozen, when your heart's not open

You're so concerned with how much you get

You waste your time with hate and regret

You're broken, when your heart's not open

Mmm,Mmm,Mmm. . . If I could melt your heart

Mmm,Mmm,Mmm. . . We'd never be apart

Mmm,Mmm,Mmm. . . Give yourself to me

Mmm,Mmm,Mmm. . . You hold the key

'She sounds beautiful.' He mentally slapped himself. More and more lately he found these thoughts swimming through his mind and confusing the hell out of him. He didn't know what he felt or wanted anymore. All his reveries were of these past couple of years with this one human. He couldn't get her image out of his mind. Worse was how he felt like he needed her to be there with him. He continued to be mesmerized by her singing.

Now there's no point in placing the blame

And you should know I'd suffer the same

If I lose you, my heart would be broken

Love is a bird, she needs to fly

Let all the hurt inside you die

You're frozen, when your heart's not open

You're broken, when your heart's not open

Mmm,Mmm,Mmm. . . If I could melt your heart

Mmm,Mmm,Mmm. . . We'd never be apart

Mmm,Mmm,Mmm. . . Give yourself to me

Mmm,Mmm,Mmm. . . You hold the key

Inuyasha cocked his head to the side as he listened to the words. Somehow, although Kagome hadn't even noticed he was there, it was as if she were singing to him. She sounded so sad and her faced portrayed the same.

You only see what you want to see

How can life be what you want it to be

You're frozen, when your heart's not open

You're broken, when your heart's not open

Mmm,Mmm,Mmm. . . If I could melt your heart

Mmm,Mmm,Mmm. . . We'd never be apart

Mmm,Mmm,Mmm. . . Give yourself to me

Mmm,Mmm,Mmm. . . Love holds the key

Mmm,Mmm,Mmm. . . If I could melt your heart

Mmm,Mmm,Mmm. . . We'd never be apart

Mmm,Mmm,Mmm. . . Give yourself to me

Mmm,Mmm,Mmm. . . Love holds the key

If I could melt your heart

Kagome sighed. She liked the song, but it reminded her so much of Inuyasha. He was lost in his past of hurt and betrayal. No matter how much love she's shown him, his heart refuses to melt and open to her. Taking off the headphones, she set her CD player on the floor beside the tub. "Ahhh. It feels so good to have a nice hot bath." She sunk deeper into the bath until nothing but her head was above water.

Inuyasha leaned against the doorway a little while longer until his head cleared. His eyes snapped into focus as he transfixed his attention on the white fluffy stuff in the tub. There was no stopping himself before he was crouching over the edge of the bath, peering at the soapsuds. Inuyasha poked at some with his finger and it stuck there. He tried to shake it off, but it resisted. Bringing it up close to his face, he found that breathing out caused it to fly off his finger and float in the air. 'Cool!' He puffed up his chest really big, taking in a lung-full of breath, and blew it all out over the tub.

Kagome jump as she felt a burst of air ripple the water. When she opened her eyes, she couldn't believe what she saw. A wide-eyed Inuyasha stood there, covered in bubbles. She shrieked and grabbed a towel to cover herself with. "Inuyasha? What are you doing here?!" He backed up towards the door.

"You don't have to be so damn loud! I was just. . ." Inuyasha held his ears and tried to figure out a good reason why he had been in the bathroom, but none came to mind that wouldn't have gotten him into bigger trouble. He put his head down to mask his red face with a curtain of his hair.

In all the embarrassment she felt at him being in the room while she was bathing, she couldn't help but giggle at the sorry mess before her.

Inuyasha whipped his head up at the sound of her laughter, sending bubbles flying around his head, which only made her laugh harder. 'What does she think is so funny? Isn't she going to sit me?' He walked slowly towards her and put a hand on her forehead. "Oi, wench, you feeling okay?"

Kagome tuned her amusement down to a light chuckle and just a smile. She tied the towel about her tightly and stepped out of the tub. "I'm just fine Inuyasha, but you still haven't told me why you're here." She took another towel out of a cupboard and tried to wipe him with it.

Inuyasha dipped his head out of her reach, "What are you trying to do?"

"Would you just hold still a second so I can get the soap suds out of your hair?" She stifled another fit of giggles and managed to just grin. He growled but allowed her to do so.

"Why are you here, Inuyasha? I told you I needed to be home, and I can't go back with you now."

"Keh! I don't care when you come back. I was just bringing you the shards so you could do your job."

'The shards? I left my bag back in the Feudal Era! I wouldn't have been able to come back without them.' She smiled, "I will purify the Shikon shards, and thank you for bringing them to me."

"Feh!"

"But that still doesn't explain why you were here in the bathroom."

"I heard some weird noises coming from here, I thought you were dying or something." Oh boy! Now he's in for it! He waited for the round of 'sits' but it didn't come. She had stopped drying his hair, and he looked up to find her about to cry.

'Ite! He thought I was dying?! Do I have that badly a voice?' She forced a small smile. "No, Inuyasha, I wasn't dying, I was singing." She turned him around and started to push him towards the door. "Now, you can leave the room so I can get dressed.

Inuyasha had no problem leaving the room, but his senses caught the smell of her blood and he stopped. Whipping around and startling her, he noted a large red stain spreading across the towel she wore. Without thinking, he removed the cloth to get a look at the wound.

Kagome screamed, "SIT!!!!!" Inuyasha went face first into the tile floor with a muffled 'umph.' She regained her composure, retrieved the towel from the ground to place around her torso again, and stomped out of the room. She closed her bedroom door and leaned against it. "Honestly! The nerve of him! What did he think he was doing?" The spell was wearing off and she could hear Inuyasha shouting for her to get back there.

"That bitch!" He stood from the ground and followed the drips and scent of her blood to her bedroom. He threw open the door, practically knocking Kagome to the floor.

"What is your problem, Inuyasha?" Kagome instinctively held onto the towel for dear life and backed away from him.

"Stop acting like an idiot and come here!" Inuyasha stepped towards her and she continued to move away from him. He felt a pang of disappointment as he smelled the fear and confusion radiating from her. His tone came out sad and uncharacteristically soft, "Why are you afraid of me?"

Kagome didn't know what to say. 'He sounds so sad.' She walked up to him and put a hand on his arm. "Inuyasha, I'm not afraid of you. It's just, I don't understand the way you're acting." With no other ideas on how to make him feel she meant it, she hugged him. When he didn't return the affection, she pulled away. "I'm sorry."

He frowned and pulled at the towel. She grasped it tighter against her. "What are you doing, Inuyasha?"

"If you don't let me see your side, you're going to bleed to death, stupid!"

She looked down and gasped. "Oh! I didn't even notice! It must've opened when I took the bath." Before she could comprehend it, he had picked her up and sat her on her bed. Pushing the fabric out of his way, he examined her side. Kagome turned red from the neck up and tried to keep as much of her unexposed as possible.

She jumped slightly as his fingers grazed the cut. Inuyasha glanced at her and mumbled, "Sorry." It wasn't bleeding as heavily as it had earlier that day, but it still looked ghastly. 'At this rate it isn't going to heal quickly or properly.' He was pleased to notice she had relaxed a bit. "We need to clean this and find a way to bandage it so it won't open again."

Kagome thought for a moment, "Well I have plenty of supplies here to clean it. But I need my mother in order to stitch it up."

"Well, then I'll have to take care of it," Inuyasha said matter-of-factly.

"How? I mean, you can't give me stitches!" She didn't want to imagine him with a needle and thread pointed at her.

"I'm not going to 'stitch' you. I'm going to heal you. Lay down." He left no room for argument with his tone and expression.

Kagome lay down on her bed, taking heed to keep herself covered. 'I'll just have to trust him, but what is he planning to do?' She shut her eyes tight as she felt his hands rest on her shoulder and hip.

"Turn on your good side." Inuyasha was nervous as hell. He knew what to do, but the question was, would she accept it? 'Why am I even doing this to begin with? I could just wait for her mother to get home. I should just leave.' He contemplated doing so, but part of him was urging him to help her. 'She wouldn't have this if it weren't for me. I have to make it right.' He took a deep breath as she turned on her side, and then he lowered his head to the wound.

Kagome could feel his breath on her skin, making it tingle. She anticipated what he was about to do, and she tried to deny that she was actually kind of enjoying the attention. Relaxing a bit and opening her eyes, she realized his face was a mere inch from her side. He looked as nervous as she felt. No matter if she had been completely relaxed, it still wouldn't have prepared her for the feeling of his tongue running the length of her cut. More to her surprise, it didn't hurt, but actually felt soothing.

He heard her intake of breath as he licked her wound, and he almost stopped there, but she calmed down as fast as she had tensed. So he continued to cleanse the blood from her cut. He knew he could heal minor injuries on himself by cleansing them this way, but he had no idea what effects it would have on hers. Regardless, it was only part of his intentions. When he was satisfied there was no longer any danger of debris or infection, he proceeded to the next step. Using his own claw, he sliced his arm deep enough to draw a trickle of blood. Squeezing the self-inflicted wound slightly, he dropped his own blood into her cut. She yelled out in pain and doubled herself into a ball while holding her sides. Bright light flashed from under her hands, blinding Inuyasha. A strong unknown force originating from the illumination threw him back. He squinted enough to see Kagome stiffen and then go limp as the room darkened.

Inuyasha rushed over to her and gathered her into his arms. "Kagome? Are you alright? Kagome, answer me!" A whimper escaped her and she opened her eyes to gaze into the worried face of the hanyou. "I didn't know what that would do to you. I shouldn't have. I. . ."

She placed a finger upon his lips to quiet him. "I'm fine, Inuyasha. Whatever you did worked. See." She brought his hand down to her side. There wasn't even a mark to prove there had been anything there at all. And there were no longer cuts or bruises on her either. "Thank you." She laid her head back on his chest and smiled.

Inuyasha was dumbfounded. It had actually worked. Now what was he to do with the sleeping girl in his arms?

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(a/n) Well, sorry if the char's are OOC, but frankly, if we ever wanna see the two of them together, they have to be, right? R&R Oh and BTW, the song belongs to Madonna, gotta love her!