InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ In The Mirror ❯ Why? ( Chapter 14 )

Well I'm back with another chapter. The longest one yet I think. I hope you like it!

 

 

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha, if I did he'd be half naked though the whole series :-D

 

In the Mirror: Chapter thirteen. Why?

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Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK! Was the only thing running through my mind as I ran through the forest trying to get away from him. I hadn't seen him in a month. One long agonizing month with out her. One month trying to get her out of my mind and heart. And one month trying to avoid him. I hadn't seen any of them since she left. I would die before I said this out loud, but I was really starting to miss them. But there was no way in hell that I was going back there. I've stayed in my forest looking and listening for any word about the jewel shards; I didn't think it would be this hard to find them. I guess that we really did need her to find them for us. But I'm not going back on what I said to her now. It's still not safe here. And even if it was she hates me now, it would do me no good to go crawling back to her.

 

Shit he's right behind me. The little fucker's getting fast.

 

There's no way I'm going to out run him this time. I might as well give up and face my punishment like a man. I'm tired of running anyway. I landed on a Tree Brach looking over a canyon full of wild flowers, and I found my self thinking how much she would love this. I sat down against the bark of the tree and waited for him to come to me. He's in the bushes, I can smell him. I guess he's trying to see if I'm going to bolt again. I don't blame him; I've been acting like a chickenshit lately. Well, not anymore. I'm going to act like a real man.

 

…And not scream when he kills me.

 

Here he comes. He looks up at me for a minute before joining me on the Tree Branch. He sites right in front of me, looking me in the eyes. I don't look away, that would be cowardly. He stars at me for so long that I'm beginning to think that he's not going to say anything before he kills me. Not that I'm ever going to say this out loud, but I'd prefer it that way. Anything that's likely to come out of his mouth right now would just drive the knife in my heart a little deeper. I suppose I deserve that since I'm the one that put it there in the first place.

 

I'm going to say this telling my self that I'm just manly enough to say it.

 

I just don't think that I could take the one person that was like a son, or a really annoying little brother, to me saying what I know he's thinking. That I'm worthless, that he hates me, that I'm such a loser I couldn't even hold on to the one good thing I had in my life.

 

He opens his mouth, and I get ready for it.

 

`'Why?'' That was unexpected, and the same damn thing the Houshi asked me the last time I saw him. I really hate that word.

 

`'It's none of your business.''

 

`'Bullshit!'' Now how can you tell he grew up around me?

 

`'So do cows, dogs, ducks and any other animal on the earth, but that don't mean anything to me.'' Trying to cover up my nervousness with sarcasm usually worked.

 

Not this time.

 

`'Cut the crap Inuyasha, I want to know what in the seven hells possessed you to say all that to her. She said she was going to come back, that you weren't going to stop her from seeing us. But if you haven't noticed she hasn't come back. I don't know about you but I miss her, and so do the others. What the hell happened to make you hate her so much!''

 

I don't remember moving, but the next thing I know my hands are on his shoulders shaking him, not to hard but enough to get my point across.

 

`'Listen you little shit, I don't know what lies Miroku and Sango have been filling you head with but there's nothing in this or the next world that could EVER make me hate Kagome! Do you understand me!''

 

I guess I just snapped, the thought of him thinking that I hated her was just too much for me. He shrugged my hands off his shoulders and started punching me in the chest. It hurt a lot more then Kagome's punches. But they were nothing compared to his punch the last time. I didn't try to stop him. I said I was going to take my punishment, and if this is it then so be it. After the first three punches I heard him start yelling.

 

`'Why? Why did you push her away? She was the closest thing I had to a mother and I know that you loved her, so why did you say all those things to her!''

 

He broke down into tears, and I don't know what to do. He was right, maybe I should have thought about the others feelings before I made her leave. As I look back now I realize that Kagome really was like a mother to Shippo. I know she was a sister to Sango, whenever one of them had a problem or some juicy gossip to tell they always ran to the other first. To Miroku, well, I guess she was a sister to him also; a sister that he just happened to grope every once in awhile. Just thinking about that still makes me mad. Shippo's punches slowed down and lost there bite. I think the tears were getting to him.

 

And at that moment I realized that I did just what he said I did.

 

I took his mother away from him.

 

A sudden feeling of grief came over me, because I knew what he was going through. I lost my mother when I was young, younger then him. But then again I only lost her once; he's lost his mother twice now. Once when the thunder brothers killed her and then last month when I chaste her away. I never knew that I'd miss her this much. She was always there for me, for us, I just never thought about her leaving here. I keep forgetting she doesn't live in this time, whenever we went back to hers I always just thought about it as going to Kagome house.

 

I grabbed Shippo and hugged him to me, trying to stop my own tears from falling. I can't just leave him like this, if I tell him what I did and why I did it I know that if I ask him not to tell anyone he won't. Besides, I have to get this off me chest.

 

`'Shippo, do you remember that youkai Shizuka? The one that Kikyo took you away from?'' Somehow he managed to answer through his tears.

 

`'How could I forget?''

 

`'What you didn't see was that Shizuka got his hands on Kagome and put some kinda spell on her. He almost got her Shippo, he was going to take her away and make her his mate. I got her back but only by luck, I realized then that I almost lost her. That she could have been taken away from us and we'd never see her again. We wouldn't know if she was safe or if she was happy, or even if she was alive. I got her back that time but what about the next time? What if the next youkai that comes after her doesn't want to make her his mate and just wants to kill her?'' He pulled back to look at me.

 

`'Then you'd just protect her like you always do.'' He said like it was the most obvious thing in the world.

 

`'But what if I couldn't? I came damn close to losing her last time, and I refused to take that chance again. Don't you see Shippo? If she's in her time then she's not in danger, we might not be able to see her but she safe and alive. That's all I ask for. We're youkai's, we'll live long enough to see her again. And maybe by that time she won't hate me anymore.'' I whispered that last part to my self, but he heard me none the less.

 

`'She doesn't hate you; she's not capable of hate. I think she's just mad and upset and sad. You said some pretty mean things to her you know.'' He said leaning back into my arms. I keep forgetting that even though he had been through everything we've been through he's still just a kid.

 

`'I know, but that was the only thing I could do to get her to go. Remember the last time I tried to get her to leave? She just came back. I had to make her want to leave. Maybe one day after we bet Naraku I'll go bring her back, if she wants to come back. How's that sound?'' I asked him.

 

`'It sounds good to me, dad.'' My heart jumped into my throat.

 

Dad, he called me dad! Not that it was a bad thing, it was just a little shocking, that's all. In fact I kinda liked it.

 

Not that I'd ever tell anyone, but I've always wanted a family. To be the father to my kids that my father didn't get the chance to be to me. I guess looking back now that we really were his family. Sango and Miroku his aunt and uncle, Kirara his big sister always looking out for him, me and Kagome his mom and dad. That thought alone made me blush.

 

I smiled and hugged him closer. The only thing that we were missing right now was Kagome, a.k.a mom. But that won't be for long. After we defeat Naraku I'll go to Kagome and find some way to get her to forgive me.

 

Even if I have to beg her.

 

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O.o longness, but at lest we got to see, or read, Inuyasha and Shippo make up. We had some fatherly and son..ly love in the house! Woot woot! REVIEW PLEASE!