InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Into Inuyasha's Mind ❯ Half-breed ( One-Shot )

Disclaimer:

Turtlequeen2: Hey, I’m back again with another sad poem!

Inuyasha: What of this time?

Turtlequeen2: About what you think of yourself as a hanyou.

Inuyasha: Grrrr…. *growls*

Turtlequeen2: I know, I know, don’t kill me please! If it means anything, I like you just the way you are.

Inuyasha: Gee thanks! *sarcastically* Like I care what you think after making me sound so wimpy.

Turtlqueen2: *rolls eyes at Inuyasha* Well hope you enjoy! This is my perception of what Inuyasha thinks. I do not own Inuyasha, however, Rumiko Takahashi does. I do own these poems and now *squeals* the 3rd movie on DVD!

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Half-breed

A half-breed

It is what I am

An abomination amongst the youkai and human races

I am not human

I am not youkai

I am both

As a little child

I was alone with no one, but mother

None of mothers’ subjects played with me

They looked upon me with disgust

I saw how they looked down upon mother for having me

For ever loving a youkai

My father

The first time I ever heard the name ‘half-breed’

One night, I wanted to play with the people of mother’s court

They played with my ball

They threw it across the bridge

Saying that they wanted nothing to do with a half-breed

When I picked up the ball, I turned around

To find that all left me there alone

Mother stood there by me

I walked to her and asked the question

“Mama, what’s a half-breed?”

That’s when I first saw her tears

Crystal drops from the depths of her shattered soul

She wrapped her arms around me, crying for me

She cried for me

For what she knew my life to become

For how hard it would for me

To find someone who would like me for me

It was when I saw her tears, I knew she hurt because of me

I then started to know why I was unwanted by others

I was hanyou - a half-breed

A shame to ever walk the earth

My mother then fell ill

After promising that she’d always be there for me

That promise held fast for only a short time, unfortunately

After her death, I was chased out of the village

By the people she believed to care for her

It was then I wanted to become strong

I wanted to become full youkai to fight off my foes

To not know the emotions

To feel no pain

No sadness

No rejections from no one

To be feared and respected

I wanted to be like my brother

I remember him in my childhood as well

He often called me a half-breed

He still does

He says that I’m an insult to our father’s name

It was my fault that he died

While he tried to protect me and mother

He turned me away

It was because of my sullied human blood

He detests humans with a passion

He hates me even more because I now possess Tetsusaiga

The fang that he sees me unfit to wield

Because of my hanyou senses

At my long life of being alone

I strengthen my skills at killing

It was to kill or be killed

I started my search for the Shikon Jewel

It was when I met Kikyo

She was the first person since mother

To look at me and not be disgusted

We were alike

To have to hide our feelings or be weakened by it

Then she wanted to me to become human

So we could live as humans with each other

I loved her

I was prepared to do it

I could be a full human and not suffer

From being half anymore

Then Naraku with his greed for the jewel

Turned us against each other

My human emotions

Made me weakened by this and made me fall under

She pinned me to the Goshinboku

Under the 50-year sleep, I was harbored with hurt

When Kagome awoke me

My youkai side lusted for revenge and vengeance

My human side wanted to understand the betrayal

I still loved Kikyo no matter how much I tried to get rid of those thoughts

I wanted to once again become full youkai

To escape those feelings

I lusted for power

Being hanyou

Many often overlook me

They take me for a weakling

I use their stupidity for my advantage

Having half human in me, it makes me more prone

To want to protect those I care for

To never give up because I am too stubborn

Being part youkai

Gives me more strength to protect my friends

I am the only one that can wield Tetsusaiga

I have loyalty to those I love

Humans fear me

Kagome was the next woman that I started to care for

She loved me for me

For being just hanyou

With her, we had Shippo, Miroku, Sango, and Kirara with us

They also became my friends

They never cared about me being hanyou

Kagome helped them learn to understand that

Thanks to her, I no longer feel that much of a need to become youkai again

I am powerful enough with her to protect with Tetsusaiga

I defeated many enemies with their help

Being hanyou, I can value friendship

I may be a half-breed to some

But to others I am just being me