InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Kagome's CDs ❯ "Somewhere I Belong" ( Chapter 6 )

Kagome's CDs

 

 

Disclaimer: Inuyasha I don't own. (Simple, yet effective.)

 

SO SORRY it took me so long to update! I didn't know what to write, it's harder than I thought... Writing Inuyasha's thoughts and feelings about his love triangle was way easier than writing about his demon/human self. But I finally did it…hope you guys like it!

 

Enjoy!

 

Song = Somewhere I Belong by Linkin Park

 

Italic words are lyrics

 

---Chapter 6 ~ Somewhere I Belong---

 

(In Inuyasha's P.O.V.)

 

''HEY RUNT! Give me back my ramen!''

 

''WAHHHHHHHH…Kagome!!!''

 

''Sit, Inuyasha!''

 

I crashed (yet again) when Kagome said her spell. I cursed under my breath. It's not fair. That little runt always gets whatever he wants when he starts using his 'cute-puppy-eyes'. Maybe I should start doing the same…

 

We were currently having lunch in the middle of a forest. It's been 3 days since me and Kagome made up and returned back here. Miroku and the others didn't say much. They were just glad that I got Kagome back. Kaede got news from another village's villagers that there was an evil demon bothering their village. Kaede suspected that demon had to do with jewel shards, so we decided to go check it out.

 

''Inuyasha, you're such a meanie!'' Shippo taunted me, with his tongue out.

 

''Alright, Shippo. I'm sure he got what he deserves, don't push it.'' Kagome wisely told Shippo, putting her hand on the kitsune's head.

 

I glanced up at Kagome from my spot and gave her an evil stare. She looked passed it and smiled gently at me. I couldn't help but smile too.

 

After that little confession I had at her time, we were getting along better and we are constantly smiling at each other. Although I find it extremely mushy, I still do it. If it means I get to see Kagome smiling back at me, who cares if it's mushy, right?

 

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After lunch, we headed out west and continued our journey. We passed by mountains and rivers and finally reached the village the demon was around.

 

Miroku walked up to a villager (who just happens to be a female) and started asking her some questions.

''Excuse me, my beautiful lady, but may I ask you about the demon we heard that was bothering your village?''

 

''Oh yes, monk. That demon has been coming here once in a while, looking for children to bring back to her cave. We tried to stop her, but she almost destroyed our village once.'' The woman answered, blushing as Miroku smiled 'charmingly' at her.

 

I glanced over at Sango, catching her rolling her eyes while pushing Miroku aside, just when his hands were reaching out. ''Thank you for the information, do you know where we can find this demon you talk about?''

 

''We followed that demon to her cave once and it's just over that mountain over there.'' The woman pointed at the mountain near the village.

 

''Alright then, let's go.'' I lead the others with me and started walking towards the said mountain.

 

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As we got closer to the top of the mountain, we saw more foot prints of small children.

 

''Look at these footprints! They're so tiny! What do you think the demon do to these innocent kids?'' Kagome asked.

 

''I dunno…probably eat them.'' I answered back, smirking and giving Shippo a knowingly stare, that caused Shippo to cling onto Kagome even more.

 

Sango smiled. ''Don't scare Shippo, Inuyasha. I'm pretty sure the demon is doing something else to the kids.''

 

Shippo stuck out his tongue at me.

 

''Shippo! She's just saying that so you won't get scared, since you're such a…'' I stopped when I smelt the scent of a demon nearby.

 

Kagome gasped as the same time I stopped. ''I feel a lot of jewel shards coming this way…''

 

The others stopped and listened, looking around them for the demon.

 

Suddenly, a raspy female voice echoed throughout the area.

''Who dares to come near my cave?''

 

I turned towards the source of the voice, but still couldn't see the demon. My sensitive nose can't pick up her exact location either. Smog was starting to form throughout the area. I automatically moved beside Kagome, making sure she stays safe.

 

Sango called out to the bodiless voice.

''Who are you? And why are you taking little innocent children from the village?''

 

The bodiless voice didn't answer at first, she hesitated.

''I have my reasons.''

 

Miroku caught the change in her voice and started asking.

''Miss…I can hear some distress in your voice. Is there anything we can do to help solve your…reasons?''

 

''NO! None of you stupid humans can solve my problems! Your kind is all the same!'' The bodiless voice yelled, anger filling her voice.

 

I shot Miroku a 'good-going-look-what-you-did-now' look. I then indicated to Sango to protect Kagome while I walked forward, trying to see if I can hear or smell the exact location of the demon.

 

Suddenly, a huge body moved passed me and headed straight for Shippo.

The voice laughed while shouting, ''Ha! You there, the little one. You would be perfect!''

 

Sango and Miroku quickly got into action and tried to locate the demon, but the smog around them made it hard for them to see.

 

I turned around as quickly as possible; following the faint scent the demon left behind and ran for Shippo. Although it would be nice to get rid of that brat, I didn't want him to be seriously hurt. I immediately flung out my sword, it transforming in my hands as I ran. By the time I got there, I sensed the demon to be about a yard away from Shippo.

 

I got ready in my attack position and started swinging back. ''WIND SCAR!''

 

As I swung my sword forward towards the demon, a small young boy came running. I can faintly hear him calling 'mother' as the noise of the sword made contact with the demon's body and the demon's yell.

 

Silence followed after my attack, with Shippo whimpering behind me, still scared from being almost attacked. The smog started to clear as the others walked towards us, to see what was left of the demon, which was pretty much nothing. Kagome walked up to the spot where the demon was and picked up 7 shards.

 

''Wow, this demon did a lot of collecting.''

 

''I wonder why all she did was catch little children from the village?'' Miroku questioned.

 

I ignored them. Instead, I focused my attention to the little kid who was now sobbing on the ground. The scent coming from him was familiar…then I realized the scent. It was the scent of a half demon.

 

I walked over to the little kid and bent down, not sure how to start talking. He was about the size of Shippo and according to his scent, he was probably younger too. He had two long rabbit ears, resting against his jet black hair. He was clearly a rabbit demon. I was surprised that his father was the human and his mother was a demon. Usually it was the other way around. He looked up when he sensed me there, and scouted backwards, trembling and clearly very afraid of me.

 

Kagome came running over. ''Inuyasha, who's this?''

 

''I don't know…''

 

The kid looked up at Kagome, tears starting to form. ''Mother…''

 

Kagome bent down and placed a gentle hand on his shoulders. ''Oh my…was the demon…your mother?''

 

The young demon started to cry again, louder this time. Sango and Miroku made their way over and stared at the crying creature before them.

 

''What's your name?'' Kagome kindly asked.

 

''Kokoro…'' He sadly whispered.

 

''I know this may not be the perfect time to ask, but…can you please tell us why your mother has been taking little children from the village?'' Miroku asked.

 

Kokoro looked up at Miroku, grief shown all over his face. ''She wanted to find someone to play with me. Ever since I was born, I was cast away by others, because of what I am. My father died early and my mom has been the only one taking care of me. She constantly looked out for me. She tried her best to give me the things that I want. She moved near this village on purpose, so that I may get along with the village's children. But one day when I was playing with them, the villagers attacked me and forbid their kids to get near me ever again. My mother got very angry, so she started taking kids from the village, saying that since no one can stop her with her jewel shards, she can bring as much children up here as she want. I know it was wrong to take the children from their parents. But I couldn't help it. I wanted to belong.'' Kokoro tilted his head down, his voice getting sadder and sadder.

 

''My mom didn't kill those children she took from the village.'' He said quietly. ''In fact, she took care of them like how she would to me. They're currently in side the cave.''

 

''So all she wanted was her kid to fit in.'' Miroku said, with a sad look in his eyes.

 

''We're all very sorry that we…killed your mother.'' Sango added, bending down near Kokoro.

 

''It's okay. I expected this day. I knew one day she was going to leave me, either from the villagers attacking her, or from other demons who wanted the shards.'' Kokoro sadly added, sounding more mature than his age. ''I just didn't know she had to go so fast.''

 

''So, what are you going to do now? Do you have any one to go to?'' Kagome asked.

 

''No…it was always only my mother and I, after my father died.''

 

''Maybe, he can come along with us.'' Shippo timidly suggested, stepping out from behind me. He was obviously thinking back to what happened when we saved him from the Thunder Brothers.

 

Shippo walked over to Kokoro and held out his hand. ''Hi, I'm Shippo.''

 

Kokoro shyly shook Shippo's hands. ''I would love to. But I don't want to become a hassle to you guys. I'm not powerful at all and all I will do is drag you down.''

 

Kagome shook her head. ''That's not true. You won't drag anyone down. You'll get powerful as you grow older. Here, we can bring you back to our village and you can stay there with Kaede. People in that village are very kind and friendly. And Kaede will take great care of you.''

 

Kokoro's eyes lit up at that offer and a small smile formed on his lips. ''That would be great!''

 

Kagome smiled at the young demon staring at her with innocent eyes. She picked him up and gently cradled him in her arms. ''It'll be okay, Kokoro. You'll feel welcomed in our village, and you'll meet a lot of friends there.''

 

Kokoro smiled up to Kagome.

 

''Come on, let's head back. Miroku and I can take the other children back to the village on Kirara.'' Sango said, walking towards the cave.

 

I stayed where I was. ''You guys go on ahead. I'm going to go for a walk.''

 

Kagome gave me a quick questioning look.

 

I walked over to her and looked at Kokoro. ''I'm sorry, kid.'' And with that, I ran off.

 

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I sighed. Sitting here in one of the many trees in the forest was very relaxing. Nothing to disturb me...no demons…no people. Just me…the wind…and my very own thoughts.

 

Although it was very relaxing leaning against the tree, my thoughts were racing in side my head. Different feelings were brought up inside me. I didn't know what to do.

 

So the first thing that popped into my head was Kagome's strange device. For some reasons, her strange device always gave me…things to think about.

 

I took the device out of my hoari (I kept it in there from this morning when I was secretly listening to it), and pushed the triangular button. Music started to come out of the black head ban and gently took me into a calmer mood. I leaned back and closed my eyes.

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)

 

Talking and listening to Kokoro reminded me of my own parents. And the thoughts I was going through as a kid. Like him, I was cast away by others, not fitting in with anyone.

 

I remembered how all the village people would make fun of me, and say stuff about my mom behind our backs. Saying how she is a shame towards humans for bearing a child for a demon. Back then I was pretty young and didn't quite understand what exactly they were doing. All I felt was I didn't fit in and it was the only feeling I felt throughout my childhood.

 

And I let it all out to find
That I'm not the only person with these things in mind

As I gently listened to the music and wind blowing around me, I can faintly remembered meeting with another half demon once, when I was a kid. He was another half demon just like me. He was a very friendly hanyou and one of the very few friends I had back then. I couldn't quite place his name; all I knew was that he got killed by the villagers…because he was like me. A half demon.

 

(Inside of me)
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel

 

I was torn when I heard my friend had died. I was angry and felt alone in the world again. Why does everyone treat us, hanyou, different? What do they have that we don't?

 

(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone

And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

Is it my fault that I'm a hanyou?

 

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've held so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real

I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

Belong. That's what I've been looking for my whole entire life. Throughout my childhood, I was cast away by other children. Cast away by humans and demons. Neither of the kind looked at me normally. My mom was the only one who loved me for who I was. I did felt belonged back then but when she died…

 

When I heard about the Jewel of the Four Souls, I knew I had to get it. To become a full fledge demon, so I can get more powerful. And fit in, to belong. So I went searching for it.

 

That's how I met Kikyo. She did give me a sense of belonging. But that belonging was only because I was just like her, different from others. Both longing for a way to live a normal life. After some time following and spying on her, she talked to me and found comfort in me. We both knew what each other felt like, the feeling of being left out. That's how we started to fall in love.

 

But as fate would have it, we were not meant to be together. Kikyo died and I got sealed to the God Tree. Ironically, 50 years later, her reincarnation came to me and woke me up. Not to mention shattering the jewel.

And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
(I was confused)

I was so angry at her, the only hope of me belonging was shattered, along with the jewel.

 

Looking everywhere only to find
That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)

But Kagome showed me that I don't really need the jewel to belong. She showed me that there are people out there that would accept me for who I was. People who are willing to stay by me, support me and protect me…although most of the time it's me who protect them.

 

What do I have but negativity
'Cause I can't justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)

She proved to me that I don't need to belong to a specific group, as long as you've got people around you who cares about you is enough. There are way too many people and demons out there for me to please them all, might as well forget how they look at me and just concentrate on what makes me happy.

 

I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today

Even though I know Kagome makes a point, I still can't get over the fact that I don't belong. I've been going through it my whole entire life, I can't just give it up and ignore the world. Maybe someday I'll be content with who I am and not worry about fitting in.

 

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I've somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I've somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

 

But until then…I'll keep looking for somewhere to belong.

 

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Phew…finally did it! I finished Chapter 6! Hope you guys like it…I tried to make it longer to make up for not updating so long. Anyways…don't forget to review!

 

Oh…by the way, Kokoro means Heart, Mind or Spirit. I decided to use that name because of Kokoro's mother and how she tried her best to give what Kokoro wants. I just thought that since Kokoro's mother cared about her son so much, she would name him something special. Plus…Kokoro sounds nice =)