InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Kagome's Realization ❯ Chapter 5 ( Chapter 8 )

Realizations:

By: Higarashi, Kagome

Music Appreciation was to be a simple class for me. I have had a lot going on in my young life this past year. I have missed a lot of school due to the poorest of health and this was supposed to be a class that I could take that would be simple. It is amazing to me that I should find out the truth of the matter so early on in the in the class, but maybe it is best. Maybe it is right for me to realize that there is something so much deeper to music than just its words and tap your feet beat. Music does not only reflect the soul of the author but it can also reflect the soul of those who are not capable of making such words of their own. Maybe they don't even realize that the words are there and they need a wiser, maybe even stronger, soul to show them the light.

I first "consider"ed the music "Beat It", that was so well written by Michael Jackson, to be a recollection of an old childhood memory. A song that I have heard only once before in my life, when I was too young to really know what it was that I was listening to. In exchange for those memories I took on the memories of a soul who could claim truth to the words of said song. Who has lived the life of an orphan, and been exposed the darkest corners of a person's heart. He was unwanted by all and cared for by no one but his determination to be the stronger. He has learned to his own father and mother, brother and sister, he is truly his own best friend. Care for him what I may, due to his life experiences; I may never truly have the trust from him that I crave. Not to say that, how things are now, he does not trust me with his life. I do not know if I could trust him with mine, the way that I do, if he could not trust me in kind. For I would never purposely do anything to ever bring harm to him. The guilt of having shown him another dark heart would be carried with me always and that has been this Kagome's realization. The realization that to hurt him the way that he has been hurt in the past would break my heart and realizing just how much hurt might have already been inflicted upon him breaks my heart anyway.

Just maybe this is not what I am supposed to be considering. Maybe for not considering what Michael Jackson wanted us to understand about him with his words and letting my mind be only engulfed by how they speak for someone else I should be given a failing grade. I just might not yet grasp the concept of music appreciation and should try again, but it would be in vain. With my realizations into the life of my dearest friend, brought to me by the words of "Beat It", I can hold to no other truth. My truth in this matter is that this song has spoken to my heart in a way that my friend might not be ready to do yet. Maybe he has not found the words he wishes to use to help unburden the load he has, for so long now, carried all alone.

(End of paper)

Kagome was shaking with anticipation of how such a bold paper would be taken. She was basically asking to be failed but had a feeling that she wouldn't. If this didn't show that she had considered the song assigned than she just might be doomed to fail Music Appreciation. With her paper now completed she felt better about what she learned of Inuyasha. After she first heard the song she almost dreaded having to write it. She couldn't say that her hanyou friend who lives in the feudal era could definitely relate to this Nineteenth century song. I wonder how he would react if he knew the words that had given her an insight to his growing pains. An insight to why he acted and reacted the way that he did. He was all bark but no bite, if she could secretly coin such a phrase. Say that out loud Kagome and he just might show you his bite, Kagome told herself smiling, an image of what his look might be like showed itself to her minds eye.

Kagome looked up to see the sun almost raised. After her and Inuyasha's talk after he fell from the tree wouldn't let her sleep if she hadn't sleep for three days. His touching her cheek with such tenderness alone was enough to keep her awake. So she laid there doing what she had been doing for the last four days, considering what she learned for herself due to a homework assignment. Wondering what she would write when she put the pen to the paper. Kagome laid thinking about it for so long that when she caught the glare of the first rays of rising sunlight decided that since she was thinking about it anyway might as well try her hand at it and see what she came up with.

Ever so gently she moved Shippo aside so that she could get up without disturbing his sleep, for the group still had about an hour or so worth of sleep, grabbed her notebook and pen and with a glance up at Inuyasha and an "I'm by the creek" she left the campsite. Almost an hour had now passed and what she thought would be her rough draft seemed to be the finished project. She would have to consider it but upon hearing the voices of her now awake companions put the thought aside for a later time and went back to the campsite to pull out the Ramen.

Author's Note: I know it's short but it's almost 1 A.M. and I have to be at work by 8:30 and this was just going to be my rough draft but it's feeling like a chapter so I am posting it as is.