InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Kagome's Secret Buttons ❯ About Us ( Chapter 11 )

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any characters associated with it. This story is rated for a mature audience.

 

Lemon warning.

 

After some consideration, I've decided to up the drama a little this chapter. Have no fear, it's only for this chapter.

 

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“It's been three weeks! Are you going to ask him or not?” Kikyo huffed, slamming her fists against her hips as she stared angrily at Kagome. Kagome didn't answer right away, averting her eyes as she fiddled her thumbs in her lap.

 

“I've been… busy,” she answered after a pause. It was true, in a sense. She was busy. The new quarter had a much heavier workload than her last one. She was getting close to graduating and she had put off some of the harder classes for later. Well, she couldn't avoid them anymore. It wasn't her work load that was keeping her from asking what he thought of officially adding Kikyo into their relationship. In all honesty, she was terrified of asking him. Besides the time Kagome asked him about his feelings for Kikyo, he never once spoke about them. It seemed to her that he was content burying them inside and forgetting he ever had them. He was fairly open about things, but she didn't want to push her luck. There was always a limit and she was afraid officially bringing Kikyo in would surpass it.

 

Kikyo's expression darkened into a scowl. “I know you're nervous about asking him, but remember, this was your idea in the first place.” Her face softened. “I'm having fun being with you two, don't get me wrong. I love both of you. But I want what you have - a relationship. I can't wait around forever. If I can't be with you and Inuyasha, I need to move on and find someone I can be with.”

 

Kagome sighed, rubbing her temples. “I'm sorry, you're completely right. It's just - difficult.”

 

Smiling, Kikyo rested her hand against Kagome's thigh, giving it a comforting squeeze. “The worst he can say is no, right?”

 

She resisted the urge to laugh. Worst? No, the worst is he breaks off the engagement. It was an extreme case, but it was still possible. Was it worth the risk? She was happy with Inuyasha and would continue to be as his wife, but things were a lot different now than they had been when they started dating. They had both done and explored things that their past selves could never have conceived them doing. Happy? Yes, absolutely. Satisfied? No. All Kagome needed to do was think back to the few weeks Sango had left, before Kikyo had been brought into the picture. Sex with Inuyasha was great, but it became mundane quickly. She had the taste of something more, and everything else seemed bland in comparison. She didn't want that if she could avoid it. If Inuyasha wanted to leave all this behind them after the ceremony, then she wouldn't look back. In time, maybe she would get use to less excitement. If it meant making Inuyasha happy, she would and could live with it. But if he wants something more…

 

“He could always break up with me,” Kagome finally answered. Kikyo looked shocked by her casual tone.

 

“Break up?” she said, horrified. “I don't think so. He wouldn't break up with you over something as trivial as this!”

 

“Trivial?” This time, Kagome did laugh. “Asking to bring another woman into a relationship isn't trivial.”

 

“We fuck all the time.”

 

Kagome frowned, her eyes darting from side-to-side. Kikyo forgot they weren't in a private area. Luckily, no one seemed to be in earshot of them. “This isn't the same and you know it. This is going to add a lot of complications to our relationship.”

 

Kikyo sighed. “I told you already, I don't need the ring on my finger. I'm fine with just being the mistress as long as he can love me as much as he does you.”

 

“You won't be a mistress.” Kagome didn't like Kikyo calling herself that. It made her seem like she was somehow below her. If they were going to do this, Kikyo would be on the same level as herself and if she was going marry Inuyasha…

 

“It's just a word. You know what I mean.”

 

Kagome let her shoulders slump. “I know. I'll talk to him about it tonight.” She looked up to meet Kikyo's eyes. “Alone.”

 

Smiling, Kikyo nodded, resting her hands over Kagome's in reassurance. “It'll be fine. You'll see.”

 

“Yeah… I hope you're right.”

 

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Kagome ran a hand across Inuyasha's chest, cuddling closer to him. She wanted to make sure he was in a good mood before asking, and sex seemed to be the one guaranteed thing to put him in a good mood. His breathing was slow and steady, his heart pounding rhythmically in her ear as she pressed her head against his chest. She took a deep breath, gathering her courage. It was now or never.

 

“Inuyasha?” she asked in a small voice. It was a miracle she managed to get the word out at all, it felt like her heart was trying to escape out of her chest.

 

“Hmm?” he asked sleepily.

 

“You love Kikyo, right?”

 

“This again?” he grumbled. He wasn't angry, but bringing it up did seem to annoy him. “I told you not to worry about it.”

 

“I know, but—”

 

“No buts. Nothing is going to change the way I feel about you. The ring I gave you is proof of that.”

 

“But what if I love her too?” she pressed, ignoring his attempt to silence the conversation. There was a long pause. She felt his body tense against her. She kept herself against him, not daring to look up.

 

“What do you mean?”

 

Her nerves were making her feel sick. It took everything she had to keep her stomach calm. “Exactly what I said, I love Kikyo too.”

 

“And?” His voice had an edge, like he was preparing himself against something dangerous.

 

“W-well,” she stammered nervously, “since we both love her, I was thinking…” Her voice caught in her throat. Her best efforts to continue failed. Her anxiety tightened her chest, making it hard to breath.

 

“Thinking what?” he pressed, the edge still in his voice.

 

“About letting her to join us,” she finished in a rush. Immediately, she braced herself for his answer or some sort of angry retaliation. Time seemed to stop as she waited for him to answer. She could hear her heart pound in her ears as she squeezed her eyes closed.

 

Inuyasha seemed to relax slightly. “Isn't she already?” he said finally, a confused tone in his voice. He didn't seem to understand what she was asking.

 

“Ah, well… I was thinking of something a little more - permanent.”

 

“Huh?”

 

“I want her to join us as a member of our new family.”

 

He pulled away from her slightly, causing her to look up at him. He was staring into her eyes, searching. “You can't be serious.”

 

Kagome steeled herself. She was sensing this wasn't going to go as smoothly as she hoped. “I am.”

 

“No Kagome, I don't think you are.”

 

“I am serious. I want her to be with us.” Her hands found his.

 

“Fuck,” he swore, pulling his hands away from her before running them through his hair, his eyes moving from hers. “Kagome…” His voice trailed off before he could say anything important.

 

“What's wrong?” she said quickly, her voice desperate. This was going very badly. Her hands rested against the sides of his face, pulling it gently so he was looking at her. “We already do so much together! You love her, you love me, I love both of you! What's so wrong with it?”

 

“Wrong with it! Kagome, listen to yourself! Do you even realize what you're asking?” he yelled angrily.

 

“Of course I do!” she responded heatedly. They were both sitting up now, facing each other. “You still haven't answered my question.”

 

“I'm willing to allow a lot of things, but this - this is too much.”

 

“I thought you would be happy. You would get both of us.”

 

“I don't want both of you! I want you.” She blinked several times in surprise. “I'm not marrying Kikyo, I'm marrying you.”

 

Kagome was confused. He sounded tired, worn out. After all they had done together, she expected him to be at least open to the idea, yet he had lashed out. “Why?” she asked softly. “The three of us have been together all this time. Why are you so against it now?”

 

Sighing, he looked down. “Because it makes you happy.”

 

“Is that all?” she asked, suddenly horrified. He had always said he enjoyed it. If he was doing it only because she wanted it…

 

He took a deep breath. “Kagome, I would be lying if I didn't say I enjoyed it, but we have to be realistic. You can't seriously believe things were going to continue this way forever.” She didn't answer him. As deluded as he seemed to think it was, she believed it was possible. “Your mother would skin me alive if she found out about all the things we've done.”

 

Her expression darkened. “I'm not going to live my life constantly worrying if my actions please my mother.”

 

“You've changed. Hell, we've both changed.”

 

“Change isn't always bad.”

 

“No, but Kagome, we were in an orgy - an orgy!”

 

She narrowed her eyes at him. “You enjoyed it. I know you did. Don't bother denying it.”

 

“That's exactly my point! I'm afraid! For you and for me! A year ago, we thought orgies were for sluts, whores and players.”

 

“We were wrong.” Kagome said firmly.

 

“Kagome…” he said weakly. “I'm not trying to be the bad guy here. I'm just saying we should slow down; reflect on some of our sexual activities. I want to be sure this is what we really want.” A silence fell between them, a very long silence. No matter how hard she tried, she couldn't find the strength to say anything. She couldn't even look at him. She knew he was being reasonable. Their activities were pushing their boundaries farther, but they were all with friends. He wasn't mad about doing them, he was fearful about them becoming too commonplace. When they graduated college, there were no guarantees they would all stay together. She would go with Inuyasha to wherever they found work and the others would do the same. Inuyasha was worried that when that happened, their desire for the added excitement in bed would lead them to invite strangers. It was a valid fear, but it was one Kagome feared was realized too late. She didn't want a normal life if there was a possibility of something more. But there isn't a possibility, not anymore. Inuyasha had made it clear what he wanted. She loved him and would respect his decision.

 

She fought back tears as she nodded. “I understand.”

 

“Kagome,” he said, voice soft as a tear ran down her face. “Please don't cry.”

 

“I'm not crying!” she lied, her voice quivering. She didn't understand why she was. She was going to marry Inuyasha. Nothing else besides that mattered. Then why does it hurt so much? “I just thought - I thought you were happy.”

 

“I am happy. I'm just a little frightened things might get out of control, that's all.” He used his thumbs to wipe the tears from her face. He brought her chin up so she was looking at him. “Okay?” She nodded slowly. He smiled. “Okay.” Taking a deep breath, he released it slowly, relaxing his shoulders. “But I will think about it.”

 

“Huh?” She thought it was all over; that he had made his decision.

 

“About Kikyo.”

 

Surprise lit up her face. “But you said—”

 

“I know, but you seem really keen on the idea. I won't dismiss it without at least thinking it over.”

 

Her expression brightened as she rubbed the tears from her eyes. “Really?”

 

“Don't expect much,” he warned. He sighed, shaking his head. “I can't believe I'm actually going to consider it.”

 

“Thank you!” she cried out, leaping on him as she wrapped her arms around him. Her breasts pushed painfully against his chest as she squeezed him as hard as she could. “I love you so much!”

 

“Hey!” he gasped, giving her a flimsy hug in the process. “I told you not to expect much.”

 

She released him, holding him out at arm's length. “I know, but I have confidence.”

 

“Confidence,” he huffed. A thin smile broke out. “You're such a needy fiancée.”

 

She grinned. “You know you like it.”

 

“Maybe too much,” he said, smile widening. “I love you.”

 

She beamed at him. “I love you too.” She spent the rest of the night showing him just how much she meant it.

 

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Even though they had such a passionate argument three days ago about the future of their sex life, nothing immediately changed. Kagome gave Inuyasha the space he needed so he could think. He was seriously thinking about it too, she could see it in his face. He wasn't much of a conversationalist at dinner either. Kagome hoped he would decide soon. Though it wasn't too important, they hadn't had sex since the night of the argument. She knew he was getting close to finding his answer when he suddenly announced he wanted to talk to Kikyo - alone. Kagome was more than happy to make herself scarce. She hoped Kikyo had better luck with him than she had.

 

She knew going to Sango's was probably the worse decision she could make in a time like this after all they had discussed, but she couldn't help it. It was this very sort of thing Inuyasha had told her he was worried about. She couldn't help it. The worry and stress were getting to her, driving her insane. As terrible as it sounded, the sex helped keep her sanity.

 

“So you going to tell me what's going on?” Sango asked, folding her arms under her breasts as she leaned against the wall. Kagome didn't answer her right away, her attention more on riding Miroku's hard cock than her friend. She could detect a pang of annoyance in Sango's voice, undoubtedly caused by Kagome's selfish use of her boyfriend. They were on their fourth condom and Sango had yet to get a turn. In fact, she was the only one still clothed in the room. Kagome had confessed earlier that she wasn't in the mood for a third person joining them and Sango was reluctantly honoring her wishes. That didn't mean she wasn't going to watch.

 

“Seriously,” Miroku gasped below her. “This isn't like you.” A grin touched his lips. “Not that I'm complaining or anything… but any more and I fell like my dick will fall off.”

 

“Just a little more,” Kagome gasped, running her hands along his chest as she rolled her hips.

 

“I don't think I have `a little more' left,” he groaned in complaint. He didn't stop her though; in fact, his hips expressed otherwise as he pushed up against her downward motions and his hands gripped her hips, pulling her down. Throwing her head back, Kagome's moans grew louder, more shrill as she inched closer to release. Her breasts flopped up and down from the force, the wet slapping noises of their skin providing a steady beat to their passionate cries. One of her hands trailed down to where her body met Miroku's running her fingers gently across her sensitive skin. The touch provided her with that little extra bit needed to send her over the edge. With a loud cry, her body shook as she came. With a lame grunt, Miroku followed shortly after. Together, they both let out ragged breaths as she sat atop him, feeling his twitching cock inside her. Her hands were pressed against his chest, supporting her as she let her head hang, sweat falling onto his bare chest as her hair fell around her face, sticking to it in some areas.

 

“Feel better now that you've fucked my boyfriend dry?” Sango said bitterly from her perch on the wall. Though she sounded bitter, Kagome could detect a hint of her teasing tone. The thin wisp of a smile on her face betrayed her true feelings on the matter.

 

“Very much so,” Kagome gasped, tossing her head back, and at the same time, her hair. Not moving off Miroku, she sat back, idly pulling the hair from her face and tossing it over her shoulder.

 

Sango waited in silence as Kagome fixed her hair and finally lifted herself off Miroku's wilting erection. “So, are you going to tell me what's going on now? It's the least you can do considering you just killed any chance I have of getting sex tonight.” Miroku yawned, a content look on his face. “My point,” she said, gesturing towards the tired man.

 

“Sorry,” Kagome said, grinning sheepishly.

 

Her friend shrugged. “It is a small price to pay if it will get you to finally spill what's bothering you.” She moved over to sit on the bed next to Kagome.

 

Nodding, Kagome took a deep breath and began to speak. She didn't leave out any details, telling Sango and the half-conscious Miroku about her agreement with Kikyo and her discussion with Inuyasha. They took the news first with shock, then interest before finally falling into a nonchalant attitude about it.

 

“That's it?” Sango asked when Kagome finally reached the end, as if she expected something more.

 

“That's it,” Kagome confirmed, letting out a sigh, finally glad to have finished her story.

 

“What the hell is wrong with him!? Most guys would kill for an offer like yours!” Miroku said, flabbergasted at Inuyasha's reluctance.

 

“I know, right?” Sango said with a laugh.

 

“Does that me we can do that too?” Miroku asked, hope sparkling in his eyes as he watched Sango.

 

“Never in a million years,” Sango answered with a tone of finality in her voice. “Of course, you and Kikyo will always be welcome in our bed,” she said, giving Kagome's leg a reassuring tap.

 

Miroku crossed his arms in a pout. “Inuyasha always gets the lucky breaks,” he muttered.

 

Sango crossed her arms under her breasts, ignoring Miroku. “So, what do you think the odds are that they are actually `talking'?”

 

Kagome grinned. “They're probably doing as much talking as I did with Miroku.”

 

Miroku frowned. “We hardly talked at all.”

 

“I know.”

 

His eyes lit up in understanding. “Ah right, got you.” He let the silence stretch for a few seconds. “And you're okay with that?”

 

“Why wouldn't I be?”

 

“I thought you liked to watch.”

 

“Right now I'm more concerned with Kikyo convincing Inuyasha that's it's a good idea to include her in our future plans.” Kagome took a deep breath, suddenly feeling tired. “How long have I been here?” she asked, looking around for a clock.

 

“About two hours,” Sango answered after glancing at her watch. A sly grin came to her face as she glanced over at Kagome. “You think that's enough time?”

 

Kagome sighed. “I hope so.” She rolled off the bed, her legs buckling slightly as she put weight on them. She knew already she was going to be sore in the morning.

 

“Well, I wish you luck,” Sango said, getting to her feet as well.

 

“Thanks,” she answered with a smile. “I'll get out of your hair here in a second.” She pointed to the spot next to Sango's foot. “Would you mind passing my bra?”

 

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Neither one bothered to hide the fact they had sex. Both were still stark naked when she entered the house and the living room reeked of sex. Kagome simply closed the door and set her keys on the small stand next to the door before stepping out of her shoes. Both eyes were on her as she entered the living room.

 

“Seems like I wasn't the only busy one tonight,” she said with a smile.

 

“Kagome, about what we discussed before—” Inuyasha started.

 

“He's agreed!” Kikyo cried out excitedly, unable to hold it in any longer. “I had to do some - convincing - but he agreed none the less!”

 

An eager cry escaped Kagome's lips as she rushed Kikyo, hugging her tightly. “That's great! This is great!” She ran her hand over the back of Kikyo's head as she kissed her. Releasing her, she turned to Inuyasha and repeated herself.

 

“Where did you go anyways?” he said after she released him.

 

“I was with Miroku.” She saw the frown on his face. “What, is that not allowed now?”

 

“I never said that,” he grunted, waving it aside.

 

“What's wrong with him?” Kagome asked, gesturing to Inuyasha while looking at Kikyo.

 

“I think he's just grumpy because he didn't get his way. He was really fighting this,” Kikyo answered with a smile. “But he came around in the end.”

 

“There are going to be some rules—”

 

“Yeah, yeah, we can get into that later. Right now…” Kagome smiled as she ran her hand up his leg. “I think celebration is in order.” A smile spread across his lips. He didn't argue much after that.

 

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