InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Kissed by the Shadows of Dispair ❯ Finding No Escape from Your Lingering Presence ( Chapter 1 )

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A/N: Thank you very much for your reviews… I'm sorry if I made you cry, Shuro Tsukasa, but actually that was sort of the point. It was suppose to be painful. And the reason for the horrific nightmares, you will see later on in the story. Oh I forgot! this is a Sessh/Kag, story. Thanks again for reviewing. ^^"

Yours truly,

Gothic Slytherin

Chapter 1 - Finding no escape from your lingering presence

Kagome awoke, slowly opening her lifeless blue eyes. She could still feel his lips on her own. She could still feel the passion that had fused between the two. She could still feel his fingers running through her hair, and most importantly, the hold he still had on her heart. The tears started again, silently. She didn't move, so she would still appear asleep to Sango and the others. But she did twist her head around to look at the two loving couples.

Sango and Miroku were cuddle together, like the loving pair they had become. The tears flowed freely. Even when they weren't awake, the whole world could see how much they were in love. Kagome turned her head back, her figure shaking with her silent sobs. She got up, off her sleeping mat, and went to the hot spring that was not to far away, bringing a towel with her. It was not quit dawn yet, but she didn't care. She could take a bath, get her stuff and go home.

Her steps were silent, and lifeless, just like she was. She was like a walking corps. `How could one night do this to me?' she asked herself, her head swarming with painful thoughts. But she didn't want to mourn over him. He had treated her so badly, always leading her to believe that he loved her by protecting her so much.

She sighed as she finally reached the hot spring. Slowly, she striped down to nothing, with only the complete Shikon no Tama hanging about her neck. They had finished it a few months ago, after the final battle with Naraku. Kouga and all their other friends who had had a shikon shard in their legs had come out alive and pain free. The shikon of course talked to her a lot, giving her information and such. She had learned that on her next birthday, she would take the shape of the true Shikon Guardian. What that was she didn't know.

She sighed again once she was in the water and looking at her reflection. She saw the same Kagome, only dry tears streaking her cheeks. Her once beautiful blue eyes were blood shot, with pain reflecting off of them. Kagome shuddered. This isn't who she wanted to be at all. How did she manage from going to an outgoing, fun loving school girl, to a broken down reck? She shook her head and slapped her reflection in the water. She didn't care anymore. Why should she let that flee bag of a half inuyoukai ruin her life? Why did she even fall in love with him in the first place when she could have someone who liked her like Hojo or even Kouga?

She vowed that she wouldn't be ruined by his selfish act to break her. He was gone now, and she wouldn't have to suffer from his name calling. She smiled at her new found hope, and quickly finished bathing. She would go home and get on with her life, of course always coming back to visit her friends a lot. After all, they had nothing to do with what Inuyasha has done, and she wouldn't let her pain get in the way of her true friends and herself.

Finally she had finished bathing and was in the nice Kimono Sango had given her for her 20th birthday. She would be turning 21 soon. God the years have passed by so quickly. She didn't want to go home just yet. Instead she laid back near the hot spring, her head on her back and her hands crossed over her stomach as she looked up at the tree tops circling around her in a beautiful natural pattern. She remembered everything that had happened in the last five years with Sango, Miroku, Inuyasha, Shippou, and all the friends they had made on their long journey. It was great. Kagome even brought back a few disposable camera's and had taken pictures of everything and everyone.

The pictures now hung on a huge wall in her room. She liked to call it her memory wall, where she stored all the pictures of every friend she had ever taken a picture of. This brought a smile on her sorrowful face. She felt a buzzing warmth by her heart and looked down to see the Shikon no Tama glowing a comforting pink. If it had a face, she was sure it would be smiling comfortingly at her. She knew that the Shikon jewel is the one who was giving her the strength to go on. The hope to start afresh new life and leave all the pain behind.

After awhile, Kagome got up and made her way back to camp to tell everyone her new revolution, and that she was going to go home for a week to visit her family. They smiled at her when she told them and nodded their head in agreement. "We'll walk you to the well," Miroku said, his eyes closed. They were all glad to see that Kagome wasn't hurt anymore, though how her heart cured of its pain so fast was beyond him, though he had a sneaky suspicion that the Shikon no Tama had something to do with it with the way it kept glowing happily at her breast.

They all walked to the well, all chattering like happy friends. The occational shout of `hentai' which was later followed by the sound of hand meeting cheek filled the air. Everyone would laugh good naturedly at it and keep walking. Shippou rode on Kagome's shoulders, his legs hanging on either side of her head while he played with her hair. He was now 11 years of age, but only looked to be around 8 to 9 years. It didn't matter to him though, as long as he could always be with his mother until it was time for him to move out and become a man, but he would always be Kagome's little Shippou.

She had informed them of what the Shikon no Tama had been telling them, about her turning into the youkai of her true form on her next birthday, which was only a month from today away. Everyone of course was ecstatic about this news. Inuyasha had been utterly shocked, but of course hid it.

Soon they reached the well and the little fox boy jumped off Kagome's shoulders and she stepped over and waved everyone goodbye. They waved back with a smile on each other their faces. But the smile faded into one of worry when they heard a loud `thud' at the bottom of the well and a cry from Kagome. They looked in to see Kagome spread angled on her back looking shocked beyond anything.

Kagome hit the ground with a force. She looked around and up. She didn't see the blue light, and now she saw Sango, Miroku and Shippou. The portal didn't work. Then she heard the Shikon in her voice.

`Your true home is here Lady Kagome, in this time. The portal on the other side has been destroyed, so you can not go home.' It said in its usual echoing voice. Kagome felt her heart being ripped apart.

"Why? How did this happen?" she asked sorrowfully.

`Someone has set your well house ablaze.' It informed her. Kagome paled. `Your family has not been hurt. It was only your well house.'

"Kagome? Are you okay? What happened?" Shippou asked jumping down into her lap softly as not to hurt her. He saw the tears in her eyes and quickly wrapped his arms around her.

"The well on the other side has been destroyed," she whispered sadly. She felt him tighten his small arms around her shoulders. She got up slowly and started climbing back up the well walls, only to be pulled up by a really strong, long fluffy tail, the rest of the way. She looked at the tail curiosly as it didn't seem to drop its hold on her when she was out of the well.

"Where is my brother and Tetsuseiga women?" asked a deep cold masculine voice above her. She blinked and looked up into the eyes of Sesshomaru, the brother of Inuyasha.

"He went to hell with Kikyo. Now get your tail off of me," she said trying to pry its iron grip off of her. She gasped when she felt it tighten menacingly. "Let me go you baka!" she said angrily. Bad idea. A loud resounding slap could be heard. Kagome cried out and fell to her knees holding her cheek.

"Do not talk to me that way," he said then caught the glint of the Shikon no Tama. He smirked. It was the jewel his stupid half brother was after. He made a grab for it, but just as he was about to wrap his fingers around it, the jewel sunk itself into the human womens heart. He growled and started digging his long claws into her chest to retrieve it. However they wouldn't go past her ribcage, like a barrier was blocking him. Kagome cried out in pain as she felt his nails burry into her skin.

"Let me go," she sobbed, then screamed out as a pain so terrible racked her body. She doubled over, and dug her finger nails into the ground with the Shikon no Tama talking to her.

`I am sorry Shikon Guardian. I know I said that I wouldn't change you till your next birthday, but I must now,' it said and disappeared. Kagome swore that thing had a person inside it or something.

The first thing she felt change were her hands. Her fingers lengthened and turned into claws just like Sesshomaru's. Next, was her skin, which darkened into a darker tan and pink and yellow marks went over her body, like little patterns on her arms, her chest, her stomach, her legs, her neck, even her rear end. The next to happen was her hair. It lengthened even past Sesshomaru's by a whole foot. It turned white, with pink tips and 1 in. black roots, with a few strips of black and pink going through her now white hair. The last things to change were her canines, which turned into fangs, her ears which turned like Sesshomaru's, her eyes, which turned pinkish purple, her body which lengthened and filled out in all the right places, and her breasts which become fuller.

Sesshomaru blinked and withdrew his hand. What had happened? What was she doing? She looked like she was going through a lot of pain with this sudden transformation. The other humans around them looked at her in awe, obviously knowing what was going on. The kitsune which was hugging her and had fallen, down was edging towards her. He snarled and kicked it away. This situation was intreging him when he realized that she was turning into an inuyoukai. His tail was still wrapped around her body.

Kagome ached all over. She was panting like there was no tomorrow. She slumped back and closed her eyes which were aching. But of course she opened them when she felt someone picking her up, or more like the tail pick her up.

"What do you want?" she spat icily. She was in to much pain to struggle though. She looked into his eyes and saw what she could have sworn was lust in them. She looked down at herself. Well at least she still had her clothes on.

"You intrigue me women. And you will be coming with me back to my castle," he said his voice croaked over with his arousal. Her body was now the object of his lust. This was strange because he had never felt lust this great. So he took off into the sky with the girl in her arms, and her friends shouting after her.

"KAGOME!" they all screamed, the kistune trying to jump for her.

HAHA! I'm evil…hehe….R&R please