InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Kurayami no Naka de Hikari ❯ 18a - The New Moon ( Chapter 18 )

Kurayami no Naka de Hikari

Notes: 3,245 words / 6 pages – This is a half-chapter teaser because my life has completely imploded and I'm finally prepared to reveal to all of you everything that I have been going through. If you are interested to know about all of the insanity in my life, stick around for the author's notes at the end of the chapter.

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'Thoughts/dreams' will be in single quotes (IE: ' ')

Chapter 18a – The New Moon

Inuyasha leaned back on the bed, hands behind his head and stared up at the ceiling. This was the night he really hated ever since he was young. Ever since he was a kid, he would lock himself in with the blinds and curtains tightly closed and sit awake all night just waiting for the night to end.

He pushed a chunk of black hair off his shoulder and sighed as he scanned the room. His phone sat on the bed beside him, the light off as it remained silent. It had been around an hour since the last text message he had received from Kagome saying that she was probably going to get some sleep. He hated keeping it from her and spending the night away, but he really didn't have much of a choice at this point. He really wasn't ready to reveal his night of vulnerability to the strikingly beautiful human woman.

Miroku seemed to disapprove of him not telling Kagome with actions rather than words. He voiced having a really bad feeling about this night, though wasn't able to express where the negative vibe stemmed. Inuyasha just chalked it up to stress from the legal issues he had pending. Inuyasha, obviously, felt a great tension gripping his chest, but that was a normal occurrence on this night. He always felt more at risk during his human night.

He had to admit that it was a good thing he had been born in this day and age, though. A hanyou born during the warring states era probably had a much harder time with everything. During that time hanyous were hated by everyone and both humans and youkai wouldn't hesitate to hurt or kill a hanyou without reason.

With a more civilized culture, hanyous were just shunned and would risk getting beat up but were protected under the same laws as all other citizens. Some of the laws did vary slightly whether you were human or youkai, but the rule of thumb was that all hanyous were the follow the youkai laws because of their enhanced strengths and abilities. The youkai laws would tend to be a bit more harsh in some areas, but more lax in others.

For example, because of instincts they would be a little more lax on fights that occur between youkai because of the protective and possessive nature of certain breeds. Whereas, they would be more harsh on a human that got into a fight because they don't have an inner demon urging them on. If a youkai were to beat up a human, though? The law would come down very hard on the youkai because of the enhanced strengths of a youkai and the fact that the human is extremely frail in comparison to a youkai.

Inuyasha let out a heavy sigh a pulled a pillow over his face and growled into the fluffy depths. It sounded nowhere near threatening coming from his now human throat, but it felt good to let out his frustration in some way. He really hated his human night and the human part of him was mad that he hadn't told Kagome the truth. After all, she seemed to have opened up to him more and more as the weeks progressed.

She had even shared tidbits of information about her family from time to time. He had found out she had a relatively small family that consisted of a mother, little brother, and a senile old grandfather. She seemed to get a faraway look in her eyes when she spoke of them, and that smile that he HATED would grace her face. The one where her lips would smile, but her expressive chocolate eyes would show a deep sorrow and more pain than anyone at her young age should be feeling.

It had only been a few hours since Inuyasha had seen Kagome, but he found himself missing her greatly. Even to his human nose he could still smell Kagome's scent clinging to his hair and clothes. That tantalizing scent of sweet flowers and tangy spices that drove him out of his mind. He missed the feel of her curled up in his arms, a light smile turning her pouty lips up at the corners. He missed the warmth of her pressed up against him, the feel of her soft breathing on his throat.

As Inuyasha punched the pillow underneath his head to fluff it up a bit, he heard a soft tap on the door. With a sigh over the fact that he couldn't pick up the scent of the person knocking, he grudgingly rolled out of bed and went to answer the door. He cracked the door open, keeping himself shrouded in the darkness of the room, one gray eye showing through the crack. It was Sango looking extremely annoyed. She had her arms crossed over her chest, her eyebrows drawn down dangerously, and one foot was tapping impatiently on the floor. He took a deep breath to prepare himself. He had been waiting for this confrontation with Sango knowing that she got off from the hospital at midnight. She must have been able to duck out early to already be there.

"Where is Kagome?" Sango inquired darkly as she glared up at the taller 'human' in front of her. He frowned back at her and put on the haughtiest look he could muster with his smoother, human features.

"She's having a movie night with the runt." Inuyasha said, his normal smirk seeming somewhat diluted on his changed facial features, his nervousness not completely hidden.

"Uh huh, and have you told her about your... weakness yet?" She questioned with a raised eyebrow. She had been on his case for weeks to get him to tell her what happened on the new moon. Inuyasha's last human night had been a few days before he had rescued her from her ex-boyfriend and he had spent the night locked in his condo the whole night with every light out to feign not being there.

"Keh!" He said and crossed his arms over his chest, his eyes distinctly diverted away from Sango's hard look. He hated being human because his emotions seemed to be closer to the surface. He was feeling guilt and unease gnawing at his belly for not telling Kagome about his human night. She had been with a hanyou before so surely she would understand? His human heart told him she would accept him as he came, but the harsh memories growing up despised just because of WHAT he was kept creeping to the surface.

"Stop trying to act like you don't care!" Sango growled out as her teeth clenched and a vein pulsed in her forehead impatiently. "If anyone could understand and accept it, it's Kagome."

"You don't know shit, Sango." Inuyasha said as he made to close the door on her. She reached out and blocked the closing door, her foot slid into the doorway to brace it open.

"Since when are you a coward?" Sango asked, knowing just which buttons to push to get a reaction from him. "What are you afraid of?"

"Fuck you, Sango." He growled back as he threw the door open angrily. "You don't know anything!"

"I know she's important to you! And i know you want to protect her!" Sango yelled back as she raised up on her toes, her hands fisted at her sides as she met him glare for glare.

"Yeah and how the hell CAN I protect her like this?" He roared as his hardened gray glare burned into her. Her angry look turned into a satisfied smirk and it took a moment for Inuyasha to comprehend what he'd just said.

"Thanks for telling me that." Sango stated calmly as she smoothed the front of her scrubs casually. Miroku had his patient way of getting answers from the hanyou, but Sango's way was much more fun. Piss him off then attack his pride and he would blurt out whatever he'd been hiding.

"Damn it..." Inuyasha muttered in annoyance as he realized she'd bated him again. "I'm going to bed." He turned and made to close the door before Sango spoke again.

"You know she's stronger than you think." Sango said with a soft smile before turning and walking away.

"Keh!" Inuyasha scoffed as he slammed the door on her retreating back, inwardly cursing himself for falling for it AGAIN! "Stupid Sango..." He grumbled as he flopped down on the bed again, staring up at the white ceiling above him with unfocused eyes.

His human was cursing him out for not telling the girl he cared about that his human night was on the new moon. He wanted her by his side even if her scent wasn't as pronounced while he was in a human form, her warmth was a regrettable loss. He missed hearing her soft breathing on his throat and her petite hand on his chest. His demon and human had been battling for the last week on whether to tell her or not, but the demon had won in the end, feeling it was better to have Kagome at his parents' during his period of weakness since he couldn't protect her and the manor was crawling with security, youkai and human alike. She was most certainly safer there on this night. He told himself that he had done the right thing, but he still couldn't shake the feeling of dread that was lodged in the pit of his stomach.

He lay back on the bed and pictured the object his mind kept straying to... Kagome... He pictured her wild, ebony locks, visualizing the silky smooth strands slipping through his fingers as he ran his hands through her hair. He pictured her expressive, deep brown eyes that twinkled with laughter as she smiled at him through her long, thick lashes. He pictured her pale, milky skin that felt like satin beneath his fingers as he ran his hands across her stomach and hips. Her soft, whisper of his name that made him feel hot all over. He licked his lips as he thought about the sweet taste of her, like honey on his tongue as he kissed her passionately. His pants were slowly becoming constricting as he pictured her body beneath his, arching up to his touch and had to force the mental picture from his mind. He was going to need a cold shower before the night was through, he couldn't get enough of Kagome so when she wasn't around, he seemed to be going through withdrawal from her. There was so much passion and heat when they made love and he never seemed to get enough of her.

Inuyasha growled to himself and pushed himself to his feet before heading for the hallway, intent on getting a cold shower to calm down his bubbling hormones. He had thought that it was his demon that caused these types of lustful thoughts, but it seemed to be deeper if they were still so strong when he was in his human form. He was really uneasy because... he wanted her just as much as his inner demon did and he was afraid of what that meant...

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Inuyasha peeked out of the closed blinds to look at the sky, judging that the sun would be rising in another few minutes. The night had gone by tortuously slow and the deeper into the night it got, the greater his uneasiness became. He wasn't so sure that the bad vibe he was sensing was due to the fact he was in such a vulnerable state, or if it was something much bigger. He knew Kagome would still be sleeping since it was the weekend, but he was tempted to call her cellphone anyway to make sure she was all right.

"Hey, you still up?" Miroku's voice broke into Inuyasha's musings and the tall monk walked into the room and stood beside Inuyasha.

"What do you think?" Inuyasha asked dryly as he let go of the blinds with a quiet snap. He could feel his sense of smell becoming stronger the closer it got to sunrise, but his sixth sense seemed to be heightening and his bad feeling was growing much more extreme. Miroku sighed and clapped Inuyasha on the shoulder while he was shaking his head.

"You know you could make this night a positive experience easily." Miroku said calmly as they stared at the closed blinds and curtains before them. "All you have to do... is tell Kagome."

Inuyasha frowned and his brows furrowed in thought. He knew what Miroku and Sango had said was true, even this close to the time when he could regain his youkai blood. If only this annoying feeling in his gut would go away he would be able to think clearly. Of better yet, if the damn sun would rise, he'd be able to leave the apartment to go check on Kagome. That is the only thing he thought could rid him of the uneasiness. Once he saw her peacefully sleeping with her hair splayed above her head like an onyx halo, this bad feeling would dissipate.

"Whatever..." Inuyasha grumbled distractedly as he felt a surge of power building from deep within. The sun must be rising because a pulsing started deep in his gut that slowly grew stronger exponentially as his youki began to expand, filling his whole body as his features began to change. His facial features began to sharpen a bit, his teeth and claws began to elongate, digging into his palms slightly. He could see his dark bangs that were hanging before his eyes start to streak with silver as the pulsing power grew with each beat. He could feel a prickling feeling as his human ears on the side of his began to shift upward into the soft triangles on the top of his head.

As soon as he knew the uncomfortable transformation was complete, he turned away from Miroku and headed for the door at a brisk walk. He grabbed a jacket from the chair next to the door and snatched up his keys off the dresser and swept from the room. He grumbled to himself as he pulled open the front door and let it close quietly on it's own as he practically ran down the hallway toward the stairs.

Miroku just grinned as he watched his friend rush out the front door so he could go see Kagome. Said monk had a feeling that things were getting pretty heavy with Kagome and Inuyasha. He hadn't seen Inuyasha rush out of the door for any woman before, not even Kikyo and everyone knew how much he had loved her. Kikyo had loved Inuyasha but she had been the polar opposite of the fiery Kagome. While Kagome had a temper, spontaneous, and wore her emotions on her sleeve, Kikyo was serious and reserved, she had all of her goals planned ahead of time, and rarely ever allowed her emotions to show on her face with the exception of a very small smile that touched her eyes when she was with Inuyasha.

After Kikyo had died, Inuyasha had gone into a deep depression. He blamed himself for her death because he wasn't able to commit to take their relationship to the next level. He had searched for the drug-dealer and thug, Onigumo, but the man was elusive and well-protective so he had never managed to track him down. Miroku was fairly certain Inuyasha would have ended Onigumo's life and ended up in prison for the rest of his life if he had managed to find him.

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Inuyasha flew down the highway on his motorcycle, weaving in and out of traffic as his youkai instincts went nuts. The closer he drew to his parents' manor, the more intense the feeling were becoming. He could feel his inner demon stirring and trying to force its way to the surface to get to it's 'mate'. Inuyasha's ears twitched violently as the thought originating from his inner youkai reached his own consciousness.'There's now WAY she's my mate!' He screamed to himself in his mind as his eyes narrowed in focus. 'I hardly even know her! Damn instincts!'

He pulled off the highway and headed down the exit to the familiar wooded street that led up to his parents' manor. He opened the bike up as he sped along the road, knowing it was a private street so the chances of him being pulled over by a police officer was slim. If he got one more arrest for speeding and reckless driving, he was likely to lose his license regardless of who his dad was.

He reached the large gates in half the time it normally took him and pulled up to punch in his security code to open the doors. The scanner beeped at him and flashed red, indicating he had input his code incorrectly. He furrowed his eyebrows in annoyance and punched in his code again. It flashed red and beeped at him again, earning a growl from the silver-haired hanyou.

"What the hell... did pops change the damn code again?" Inuyasha growled as he climbed off his bike and pulled it to the side of the driveway and put it up on the kickstand.

He walked up to the gate and bent at the knees before smoothly launching himself into the air up and over the gate. He ran as fast as he could while leaping into the air as he rushed toward the manor set way back from the road for privacy. He growled as he quickened his pace, feeling his breathing grow heavy and labored as he traveled as fast as possible, his gut telling him that something very wrong was happening.

After what felt like hours, Inuyasha saw the front door of the manor house in front of him. Something was wrong as he approached the house. There were no guard to be seen anywhere and the front door of the manor was hanging off of one hinge. His heart clenched in his chest as he forced himself through the hanging door and into the house. He took in a deep breath of air as he searched for her scent and his breath hitched in his throat as his nose met the scent of blood... Kagome's blood... It was a very small amount and it was several hours old, but it was definitely her blood...

"Ka... go... me..." He whispered as he came into the video room and saw a sight that made his heart stop in his chest. Sitting on the couch was a black rose with a white ribbon. There were a few drops of blood on the ribbon, Kagome's scent was prominent, but there was also another scent that made him fall to his knees... "Mom..."

::FIN::

December 12, 2011

Okay, sorry for the half-chapter but it was mostly posted for the notes here. If you're not interested in my life, feel free to skip this section completely~.^ Also, visit my profile to see the progress of updates. I've also created a Twitter account that I'll post up status updates and whatnot so check it out [at]Pokahydee_chan.

So I originally started this story as an outlet from the stresses of being in an emotionally, psychologically, and verbally abusive relationship that I had been in for the past 4 years. Many of the things that happened in the prologue of this story have actually happened to me, including having him lock me out of the apartment in the rain (thankfully, I managed to get back into the apartment and didn't get sick). Anyway, my baby's father has some mental health issues that made living with him very difficult, but recently, he decided that all of the problems were caused by me and that I was the unstable one and yadda yadda yadda.

Well, last November the day after Thanksgiving he and I got into a nasty argument and he ended up stabbing me in the arm, shoulder, and hand with a pair of tweezers and I called the police. They arrested him and I took out a Protection From Abuse (PFA) against him. He violated the PFA the day he got out and was sent back to county jail where he stayed for 10 days. I lost my job and the house we were supposed to move to a week afterward because I didn't have verifiable income and we ended up in a hotel since we had nowhere else to go. I got a new job (a better job) about two weeks later and we were able to get a new apartment in April. The verbal, psychologically, and emotional abuse continued throughout this whole time period. In June, he pissed off Children Services (who were involved with us because our daughter was under 2 at the time so they were required by law to investigate), then removed our daughter, put her in foster care, and made us do SUPERVISED visits.

He blames me for everything that has happened in the entire relationship regardless of the number of times I have told him that we were both to blame. If we could take care of our problems and keep our emotions in check, none of this would have happened. I have accepted responsibility for my actions, but he refuses to do the same and merely tries to justify his actions or turns them around on me. He had completely isolated me from my family and most of my friends. Any potential friends I had, he would run off in some way or another. He even ran off friends that I'd had for years, like my best friend from first grade who I am finally allowed to associate with again.

Not only that, but all of my family live an hour and a half away so I'm out here pretty much alone. This is a typical pattern for an abuser to gain control of someone. That is why some of these elements are in the story regarding Kagome's family 'abandoning' her (they will likely have a role later in the story). All of the sexual abuse described in this story was completely made up for this story and is not something that I have experienced. There was a brief stint (about a year) when my baby's father was physically abusive, which ended when he went to jail. There was along of slapping, a few punches to the back of the head, a few headbutts, lots of hair-pulling, lots of throwing me to the floor, lots of putting pillows or hands over my mouth to keep me quiet, and lots of destruction of property.

Anyway, onto the major explosion that happened on Thanksgiving day. He was on a tangent because it was the anniversary of the day when it all started (I knew it would be bad to begin with). He said I couldn't go to his family's for the holiday so, having heard enough, I told him I was going to sleep, rolled over on the futon, and pulled a blanket over my head. He was insulted and kept going on his tangent. About an hour later, I got up, didn't say a word, and began to pack an overnight bag so I could leave the apartment. When I tried to take my netbook computer and my cellphone charge cord, he snatched them out of my hands and said I couldn't have them because his work was on my computer. Told him he had ten minutes to get his work off, he cursed at me, called me names, and said he didn't have to listen to me.

We got into a verbal altercation, I tried to take my stuff back and leave, he held up his fist to punch me, I dared him, he didn't hit me and then I called the cops. They came, gave me my computer and charger and I left. I went to Ohio to stay with family for the weekend because I couldn't deal with him anymore. When I got back on Sunday, he had filed a Protection From Abuse (PFA) against me while I was gone (which he lied to get... he said I threatened suicide and clung to his legs and left out the fact that the computer was mine and just wrote 'the computer I was working on').

I got evicted from my apartment, which is in my name and he's not on the lease (a Judge and overrule a lease and landlord). I'm currently staying at a battered womens' shelter, which he, thankfully, doesn't know where its at (not that he could get into the building even if he DID know where it was). I go to court on Monday for the finally PFA hearing so I can get a permanent PFA against him (I believe they last three years or something?).

As if this all wasn't enough... on Wednesday, he had me taken forcibly to the hospital to have a mental evaluation (it's called 302ing someone). The police came to my job and made me leave work in the middle of the day. When we got outside the building, they HANDCUFFED me, tossed me in the back of a police van, and drove me to the damn hospital! I contacted my person at the womens' shelter and she was there like as soon as the next bus came. When I spoke with the doctor, I explained to him what was happening and he said that there were reports to a Local Crisis Network that I had made a statement that I was going to overdose on medication and kill myself. I believe my baby's father is having people pose as me to make these reports because I sure as hell never said that. Anyway, the doctor recognized that it was a domestic dispute and immediately overturned the 302 order.

Since then, he has been trying to get my address so I've been very scared for my safety. There is already a court order that when he and I establish separate housing, Isis is to be returned to me. I have also spoken with my landlord, who is willing to transfer the remainder of my lease to a different property that they manage so he won't know where I am (since I will be getting my apartment back on Monday). I have been making sure I have someone walking with me no matter where I go because I'm scared he will see me and follow me to find out where I'm at. He is seriously mentally unstable and I probably have a long road ahead of me with this situation -.-

… anyway, that's where I'm at now... I hope you understand better why this story keeps stalling. I love all your reviews and support and I'm hoping you continue to stick with me in my time of crisis. Having a lot of supports will help me get through this faster, I love you guys!