InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Learning to Live Again ❯ Tainted Love ( Chapter 15 )

A/N: Sorry it's been a while since I updated. My computer was messed up. Thanks to my reviewers for your support! I'm sorry for this chapter. You'll know what I mean when you read it. Please don't kill me.

 

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha, if I did I'd have enough money to buy a new computer.

 

Chapter 15: Tainted Love

 

Tears poured down her face as she stood against the wall. Her hands were clamped over her ears, but that didn't mute the sounds echoing through the room. The cries of pleasure coming from the adjoining room had been that loud since he had brought home his demon whore a week before.

 

Of all the ways she thought he would punish her, she never thought he would ever do something like this.

 

They hadn't spoken about the incident since it had happened.

 

In fact, they hadn't spoken at all. When she had woke up the day after they had gone to Kaede's village, he was gone. He had been gone for two weeks before he returned home with his whore last week.

 

She tried to ignore it the best she could. Most of the time, she was with Rin and it was easy to do. Hitomi brought meals to Kikyo in her room. For the past few nights, she had been sleeping in Rin's room, just so she didn't hear them.

 

Hitomi detested what her Lord was doing to Kikyo. Hitomi had only discussed her feelings with Jaken, who actually agreed with her. They were both disgusted by Sesshomaru's actions. Both of them had gotten to know her when Sesshomaru had left without Jaken.

 

Couldn't Sesshomaru see that his mate would have done that for anyone?

 

Both of them knew that if by some chance, Inuyasha actually threatened some innocent's life, Kikyo would seal him back to the tree. Again.

 

She was just as rash as the half demon she had thoughtlessly defended sometimes and Hitomi thought Sesshomaru was aware of this. Obviously, he wasn't. Or he just didn't care.

 

She listened to the woman pant Sesshomaru's name over and over in growing screams. Huddled in a crouch with her hands over her ears, Kikyo began to sob. She couldn't believe that he was doing this to her. She knew she loved him. Despite everything he had done to her, Kikyo had known that she loved him for a long time. It had probably been that night that they had shared the dream about Naraku and he was so gentle, despite his words, and offered her comfort in one of the only ways he knew how.

 

Obviously he didn't comfort Rin like that, but everything he did for that little girl made Kikyo fall in love with him even more. When it all came down to it, Kikyo knew without a doubt that Sesshomaru actually did have a kind heart.

 

At least she had thought that he did.

 

Suddenly, Kikyo was on her feet and jerking open the door. She couldn't listen to this anymore. If he wanted to fuck someone else, he would do what he wanted. That didn't mean that Kikyo had to sit there and listen to it.

 

She sped past Jaken, Hitomi, and Rin on her way toward the main entrance.

 

Rin opened her mouth to say something to Kikyo, but Hitomi shushed her. “You know Lord Sesshomaru brought that other person here?”

 

“Yes.”

 

“Well, that upsets Kikyo very much. We need to let her have time by herself,” Hitomi explained to Rin. “Now go on into the dining area and wait for Lord Sesshomaru and his friend to arrive.”

 

Rin felt really bad for Kikyo. Lord Sesshomaru was being so mean. Never before had she been upset with her lord, but she was now. “Yes Hitomi.”

 

“Lord Sesshomaru is unbelievable. Doesn't he realize that he could very well have gone totally mad and killed everyone if she hadn't stopped him?” Jaken asked Hitomi. Usually he never questioned Sesshomaru's actions, but this was simply disgusting to Jaken.

 

Both he and Hitomi knew Kikyo would do something she'd regret because of this. They just didn't know what. Hopefully she didn't decide to go try to seduce Inuyasha.

 

“Come one, Jaken.” Hitomi's voice broke him out of his thoughts. “Let's go make sure the meal is being prepared properly.”

 

“Do you think Lady Kikyo will be okay?” Jaken asked.

 

No. She didn't. “I don't know, Jaken. I just don't know.” They walked down the hall and toward the dining room.

 

*Kikyo*

 

She ran as fast and as far as she could in the driving wind and snow. Darkness had enveloped the land, but the reflection of the snow allowed some vision to what was ahead. Ryu and Sakura were flying above Kikyo, both concerned about their master.

 

Sobbing, she fell to her knees. The wind tore at her hair and howled through the trees as the Lady of the Western Lands rocked back and forth in the driving snow.

 

Never before had she experienced pain like this. She loved him so much that she would die for him.

 

And she was already dead.

 

She was cold, but it wouldn't kill her. There wasn't much that could. Ryu and Sakura began to brush against her and she began to cuddle against the two. She felt bad because she had been nearly ignoring them at the palace. They had always been there for her and she had abandoned them.

 

Her head jerked up when she heard Ryu begin to hiss. She knew it was Ryu because Sakura had yellow eyes and she was nuzzing against Kikyo.

 

“I told you that he would hurt you, Kikyo.” Naraku's voice didn't even mock her. He was simply stating a fact.

 

Kikyo turned her head away from him and simply nodded.

 

He walked closer to her, but froze when the two soul collectors circled her. “Call them off, Kikyo.”

 

“It's okay. He won't hurt me.” At least I don't think he will. Kikyo thought. She watched as they flew into the sky and vanished in the heavily falling snow.

 

Kikyo hadn't turned around to face Naraku, but she felt him sink to his knees behind her. His hands rested on her shoulders and he kneaded them with gentle hands. Of course those hands were deceiving. They weren't nearly as gentle as they seemed.

 

He had killed hundreds of people with them.

 

“I know what he is doing. I saw some of it in Kanna's mirror. I want you to know that when I kill him, I will make him suffer.” He breathed into her ear.

 

Kikyo wasn't even sure what she was feeling. She didn't want to be with anyone right now, let alone Naraku, but it felt so good to have someone comfort her. Even if he did it in a very creepy, evil sort of way.

 

She watched as Kohaku and Kagura appeared in front of her. Her eyes met with those of wind sorceress. Kagura glared at Kikyo for a second before her face became blank and bored. The look that had crossed her face was one of pure hatred. It was a look she reserved for only two people. Kikyo and Naraku.

 

Kagura's hatred of Kikyo was perfectly understandable. If Kikyo was raped repeatedly by someone because they wanted another person, and used her as a replacement, she'd hate that woman too. Kikyo had found out what Naraku did to Kagura a little over a year ago.

 

There had been a time when Kikyo stayed with Naraku. (When she gave him Kagome's jewel shards. I don't remember if Kagura was around yet, but for the story lets say she was.) She had been what many would call snooping, but Kikyo had thought of it as getting better acquainted with her surroundings, when she had come across Naraku raping Kagura.

 

Neither one of them knew she was there, and she had hauled ass from that section of Naraku's castle. After she left, she hadn't gone back. She knew he was thinking of her, because he didn't call Kagura by her name. He had called her Kikyo.

 

“Kikyo.” Naraku's voice snapped Kikyo from her zoning. She allowed him to help her to her feet. Before she had time to think, he pulled her into an embrace that would seem loving, if it wasn't Naraku hugging her.

 

Tears leaked from Kikyo's eyes again as she felt her arms reach up to wrap around him. It seemed that she was so weak, she couldn't pull away from the comfort he was providing.

 

Of course he had a hidden motive. Naraku always did. She just wasn't sure what it was yet.

 

Kikyo sobbed and clung to him tightly. It just felt so good to cry on someone. Even if it was Naraku.

 

Naraku lightly stroked her hair. Kikyo couldn't see the vicious smile on his face as he held her. So far, his plan was working out perfectly. He rocked her back and forth, until she stopped crying. “Come back with me, Kikyo. Spend just tonight with me. Wouldn't that teach Sesshomaru a lesson?”

 

`Not really' She thought. But then again turn about was fair play. If Sesshomaru wanted to take a lover, then she could too. She had thought of Inuyasha for a fraction of a second, but Sesshomaru would go insane, if she even looked at Inuyasha, so that was out of the question. She didn't care if Sesshomaru killed Naraku. In fact, she hoped he did, so it made her consider it. She needed to save Kagura and the boy Kohaku. Any way she could. Even if she had to fuck Naraku to get close enough to him to do it.

 

Naraku had his maniacal plans and he could keep them. Kikyo had a plan just a devious. Naraku wanted to use her, and she was going to use him. Despite the fact that the idea of being with Naraku made her want to vomit on the spot, she would do it.

 

“Just for tonight Naraku. I will come back with you and be with you tonight.”

 

His hand caressed Kikyo's face as a smile lit his dark features. “You won't regret this Kikyo.” He secured her in his arms and looked to Kagura and Kohaku. “Come, we are returning to the castle.”

 

Naraku didn't know that part of Kikyo already regretted it.

 

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*Palace of the Western Lands*

 

Meal times were strained to say the very least. The tension was thick that the Tetsusaiga couldn't cut through it.

 

Rin wouldn't even look up from her plate as she picked at her food with the chopsticks in her hand.

 

All the demons in the room could sense the upset of the human girl. Her emotions were changing so fast that no one could pin down one of them.

 

“Hitomi?”

 

“Yes, Lord Sesshomaru?”

 

“Where is Lady Kikyo?” He was bored as he asked the question. “She was supposed to join us for the meal.” Now he seemed slightly irritated.

 

The whore seated next to him shifted uncomfortably. “Who is Lady Kikyo?”

 

No one answered her.

 

“I'm not quite sure, my lord,” she replied vaguely.

 

“And why aren't you quite sure?”

 

“Because I'm not.”

 

Sesshomaru had greatly wanted to rub his whore in Kikyo's face. A small pang of disappointment coursed through him, but mainly he was angered by her absence. He rose to his feet and stalked toward Hitomi. She stood her ground, refusing to shrink away from him. “Where is she, Hitomi?”

 

“I told you. I don't know.”

 

“Who is Kikyo?” The whore had jumped to her feet. She had agreed to serve Sesshomaru, because she believed that he wasn't mated. She never slept with mated men. The only thing worse than a pissed off male demon was his even more pissed mate when she found out about the whore he was with.

 

“That is none of your business, whore.” Sesshomaru turned to her.

 

All three of them jumped at the sound of porcelain shattering. They turned to stare at Rin in shock. She had rose to her feet and slammed to bowl of rice against the table. “Lady Kikyo is Lord Sesshomaru's mate!” Rin shouted, her eyes overflowing with tears. “And she ran away because you came here!” She pointed an accusing finger at the stunned demon woman.

 

Rin shook her head, she might be young, but she was really observant. She knew the woman wouldn't be here, if Sesshomaru hadn't brought her. “I'm sorry.” She bowed slightly to the woman, before she turned to Sesshomaru. “It's not your fault.”

 

Her wide loving brown eyes held disgust and hurt as she regarded Sesshomaru. “This is all your fault, Lord Sesshomaru!” She screamed at him. “It's your fault that she cries when she doesn't think anyone is watching! It's your fault that she is so unhappy! It's your fault that she's gone!” Rin ran from the room totally hysterical.

 

“You told me that you didn't have a mate.” The whore accused him.

 

“You are just a whore. I see no need to be honest with you.” He looked down his nose at her.

 

She stepped back. “Oh. I will be taking my leave. You can burn my clothing and keep your payment.” With that said she just walked from his palace.

 

Sesshomaru ran a hand through his hair. He had never expected Rin to react like that. Of course, he hadn't thought Kikyo would run. Suddenly he felt like his plan had come back to bite him on the ass. At first, he had wanted to watch her suffer without beating her, but now he realized, in some ways what he had done was even more cruel. He felt like such an asshole.

 

Rin. He needed to go speak with Rin. She was so upset, and why wouldn't she be? The woman she called mama half the time, just ran from the palace because of his cruelty. He moved toward Rin's chamber, but Hitomi stopped him.

 

“I'll talk to her. You've done enough.”

 

Sesshomaru's hand clamped down on her wrist. “No. I will go speak to her. I need to apologize to her. To tell her that everything is going to be okay.”

 

“But…”

 

“Do not question me in this, Hitomi. Rin is my child and I will be the one to speak her about this.” Sesshomaru berated the maid.

 

Hitomi knew that look and she knew when to bow out. “Yes, my lord.” She moved away from the door. Part of her knew that he would never be able to fully explain things to Rin. His pride wouldn't let him, but Hitomi knew he would try his best. She watched as he walked into Rin's room and closed the door, before she turned down the hall to talk to Jaken.

 

It seemed that Sesshomaru and Kikyo were about to end up destroying one another with their self-destructive behavior.

 

Didn't they realize they would take Rin down in the process?

 

Hitomi sighed as she looked at Jaken. “He's talking to Rin.”

 

“They're going to destroy each other.”

 

“Kikyo and Sesshomaru? Yes, I know,” Hitomi replied.

 

“Where do you think Kikyo is?” Jaken asked wearily.

 

“Probably doing something she'll regret, Jaken.” Hitomi told him as they walked toward the dining room to help clean up.

 

A/N: I know by now, most of you are freaking out about what Kikyo is going to do. While she is going to do the nasty with Naraku, I'm not going to write the sex scene. It is in here because it sets up the next two stories in the trilogy. We won't find out Naraku's true motivation until the last chapter or so. Which is probably in another 2-4 chapters.