InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Learning to Trust ❯ Guilt ( Chapter 5 )

Lemon content in this chapter.

 

Inuyasha was still holding her when a soft tap sounded against the doorframe. He gently laid her down, stroking her face to comfort her while rising to answer the door.

 

“Is Kagome there?” Izayoi looked around him worriedly. He stopped her from entering.

 

“Kagome's gonna spend the day with me, she's just tired.”

 

Izayoi frowned, then chuckled. “I've forgotten how tiring it is to carry a child, especially one of the pups of this house. They seem extra troublesome. Not surprising when you look at you and Sesshomaru, ne, Kagome-chan?”

 

Kagome cheeped, and huddled under the blankets, obviously embarrassed.

 

Izayoi smiled. “I'll leave you then. Do you want food to be sent up?”

 

Inuyasha nodded, smiling at his mother in return.

 

When the door was slid closed again Inuyasha returned to his small mate, to coax her out of her embarrassment.

 

After much coaxing and tickling, Kagome was sitting in Inuyasha's lap. Her head rested upon his shoulder, and she played with his long silver hair that flowed over his shoulder. He in turn had his hands in her kimono, resting directly on her swollen belly.

 

“Inuyasha?”

 

“Hai, koishii?”

 

“Do you-well-wanna?” she mumbled.

 

He raised his eyebrows at her, a thought niggling at the edge of his mind, but he wanted her to get the courage to be comfortable around him.

 

She was blushing heavily, and staring down, probably at where his hands were inside the folds of her kimono.

 

She changed tactics and the hand that had been twining his hair gripped the hair at the base of his head. Her gentle hand stroked down his neck and under the collar of his kimono. As her hand traveled down his shoulder blade and arm, her arm pulled the shoulder of his kimono off his shoulder. The flesh she revealed twitched at exposure and sensual stimulation.

 

Slowly leaning forward, Kagome lowered her lips to his exposed collarbone, occasionally glancing up to watch his reaction. He would smile reassuringly at her, silently encouraging her to continue.

 

She took her time, going at a much slower pace than he usually went. Her touches were light, and seemed very innocent to the un-innocent youkai. Inuyasha felt like a first time lover again, helping to guide his own very innocent young lover.

 

Kagome successfully pushed his kimono top off, and it fell to settle around his waist. His entire chest was exposed, and she took advantage of that by running her hands around his chest, back, and sides. Her touches were light, gentle, and stimulating at the same time.

 

Inuyasha chuckled and nuzzled her gently. She seemed to be very gentle with him, more gentle than she needed to be, or than he really wanted her to be. However, he realized that her usual experience with sex was rough, impersonal, and generally unpleasant for her. Her want to be gentle with him made him very aware of what she in turn wanted for her own experience.

 

Usually he wasn't so aware or sensitive to her feelings, but he wanted to care for his new mate, and wanted his unborn pup to be born to comfortable and happy parents.

 

Now that he thought about it he was saddened by how she had reacted when she found out she was pregnant. According to his father, his mother had been overcome with happiness when she discovered her pregnancy. He sighed internally. Kagome had actually tried to run away for fear for her life and that of their pup. She had actually thought he would kill his own pup.

 

Inuyasha shivered and was brought back to the present by Kagome's timid attentions. Her mouth had migrated down from his collarbone to his nipple, and he gasped when her tongue came into contact with the pink circle.

 

Whining softly, Inuyasha nodded encouragingly to the hanyou girl. She licked a little harder, and then sucked softly.

 

He allowed himself to fall back onto the futon, and Kagome hesitantly settled herself over him. Her dark hair brushed his highly sensitized chest and he shivered. Inuyasha pulled his kimono top out of his hakama and threw them aside. Kagome took advantage of the now open slits in the hakama and slid her small hands into them.

 

She didn't go immediately to the obvious location of pleasure, but ran her hands gently up and down his thighs. She lay down against his chest, rubbing her cheek against his shoulder and beginning to play with the hard muscle of his legs. He moaned softly.

 

Inuyasha undid the ties of his hakama and started to slide them off. She pulled her hands away from his thighs to allow the removal. Before she could go to work on the exposed flesh he pulled her up to him. He gently kissed and nipped her neck, making sure to leave no mark or blemish on her skin. She clung, trusting him to take care of her.

 

He moved her to his lap, lifting her and lowering her down onto him, the way he had first made love to her. Her legs wrapped around his back, and he wrapped his strong arms around her shoulders.

 

Inuyasha pumped steadily, maintaining a steady beat which Kagome easily matched, leaning her head onto his shoulder and letting he hair fall down his chest.

 

He could hear her soft pants against his neck, and he began to thrust harder, sending them both closer to ecstasy.

 

She mewled loudly when she came, coating him in warmth, slumping against his dewy chest as he thrust with mild abandon, seeking release. He stiffened and cried out when he came, soaking her inner walls with his warmth.

 

They sat like that for a while in silence, Kagome purring and Inuyasha rubbing her back. When they did separate Kagome resumed her former position on his lap, but this time to a side so that she could lean to the side against his still sweaty chest. She purred again when he found her ears among the damp strands of her hair and began to rub.

 

Inuyasha laid her down and went to the door when a voice announced that their lunch had arrived. He and Kagome spent the rest of the day eating and simply enjoying each other's company.

 

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Kagome pressed herself against the wall as Inuyasha advanced. She looked around frantically, noticing in horror that she was back in his cave, in her old kimono. Her eyes returned to Inuyasha, her breath coming in quick gasps of panic.

 

She cowered as he reached for her, his claws already dark with the stain of her blood, which dripped down her neck from where he had scratched her. His hand closed painfully tight around her upper arm, and then she saw nothing.

 

Kagome sat up suddenly, quivering in fear and gasping for breath. As she slowly calmed down from her nightmare, she took in the soft wooden walls and the light coming from the open window. She slipped out of bed, not daring to look at her mate. She settled near the window, holding her womb protectively and gazing out at the waxing moon.

 

The nightmares won't go away, I guess…

 

Gentle tears glided down her cheeks.

 

“Kagome?”

 

Shaking her head softly, she turned away when Inuyasha sat next to her.

 

“What is it? Why are you crying?”

 

She bowed her head. “It isn't important.” She said softly.

 

He wrapped an arm around her, backing away in shock when she flinched.

 

“Nightmares?” he whispered. She nodded.

 

He sat silently, leaning against the wall, watching Kagome and the moonlight. He sighed and turned away.

 

“It's my fault, isn't it? My fault you're so hurt.” He said.

 

She didn't respond, but she didn't need to. He could feel the pain radiating from her.

 

“I'm cold.” She whispered finally. Inuyasha woke from his stupor and pulled a thick blanket from the closet. He carefully approached and wrapped it around her, letting his hands graze her shoulders and arms.

 

“Better?”

 

She nodded. He was about to return to his watching post when she cautiously put out a hand, bidding him come closer. He did, settling right next to her.

 

“I'm afraid.” She whispered feebly.

 

Inuyasha took her into his arms, cradling her small form carefully in his lap. She quivered, and he gently stroked her hair in an attempt to calm her.

 

“I still feel it,” she commented. He turned his eyes down on her. “The claws, the fists, I still feel the pain. I was… I was so scared. All the time…” Her quivering worsened.

 

Inuyasha held her, stroked her hair, and soothed her as best he could as she cried again.

 

“I won't hurt you any more.” He assured her. She fisted his clothes and pulled him closer.

 

“You're safe, koishii, you and our pup are safe.”

 

She hiccupped, gently rubbing her firm, slightly rounded stomach. “Our pup.”

 

He nodded. “Hai, our pup, Kagome.”

 

“I'm tired, Inuyasha.”

 

“Okay.”

 

He carried her towards the futon, letting her down like something precious. He followed her under the comforter, and smiled when she tucked the blanket he had brought her around him as well.

 

“I'm safe.” She murmured to herself. He ran his fingers through her hair, careful to not let his claws touch her.

 

“Hai, you won't hurt anymore, I promise.”

 

She lay down and was silent for a time, though neither of them slept.

 

“Izayoi-san says birth is painful.”

 

Inuyasha blinked, and nuzzled her. “I'll be there the whole time, Kagome. I'll be there for you. Don't worry about it.”

 

She paused, and relaxed. “Arigato.”

 

He stroked her soft skin, helping her to relax. “Sleep, koi; you need to rest.” She nodded and curled up to him.

 

Inuyasha lay awake long after she had fallen asleep, cradling her small body and focusing on keeping her warm and cared for. His burning guilt did not allow him to sleep that night.

 

Sorry it's so short. School starts on Monday, so you will not be seeing much of me until spring break…and I'm going to be in California, so maybe not till June. I figured a cliffhanger wouldn't be appreciated, so I tried not to leave one. -Akihana