InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Lolita: Sesshomaru and Rin ❯ Confession ( Chapter 10 )
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
By: animetributes 
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Action | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 02.03.2016 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.9K | Visits: 708 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Action | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 02.03.2016 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.9K | Visits: 708 | Status: Completed
(A/N: There are no explicit descriptions of sex in the book; I've put in the description based on what I think it would've been like, given the description of Lo's behavior by Humbert, and keeping in mind her lack of experience, and what lots of young teenagers tend to think about sex. I've heard teenagers talk about sex and they don't know these things-one girl even thought it was weird that lemons had the guys "suck the girl's boobs" because that wasn't in her biology book. Back to Sesshomaru's P.O.V.)
Rin didn't have a clue what she was doing. She saw sex as a simple game-a "disgusting and sick" game, as she kept repeating, but still just a game that the "cool kids played". It wasn't something that she was honestly desiring. I didn't get to penetrate her much because I was, as an adult, obviously too big to fit in her, as a twelve-year-old.
When it didn't work, she tried again. She ridiculously tried to jump into it with no foreplay whatsoever, when she was obviously dry and I would not be able to slide in her. Of course, the only other sexual encounter she had was with a tiny twelve year old boy who fit in her easily, so she probably didn't see the need to be wet. And I was sitting there still soft, nowhere near hard enough to enter her, and she tried to have sex anyway. Oh how shocked she was when she found out that if you try to put a soft penis inside you, it will not stay still, continuously fall out and flop everywhere like jell-o, making intercourse impossible.
She practically bit me off when she tried to give me oral, but I didn't say anything. Her movements were clumsy and she didn't know how to pace herself, hit the right spots, use the right movements or anything. She thought that she could just put her mouth on it, move up and down and that was it. Not to mention her hands, and the fact that she wasn't aware that some men ejaculated in their partners' mouths during sex and some women actually swallowed. She thought that ejaculation was something that happened during intercourse only, and she didn't even know that women came as well. To add to that, she didn't pay any attention at all to any other parts of the body, and was confused when I tried to suck her nipples. The girl didn't know her own body and was unable to guide me in pleasing her at all.
It was a frustrating experience to say the least.
Why is it that I have to suffer so much? Back in the day in Rome, a girl was considered fully grown at twelve. Many countries had children as brides due to political affairs, and the Muslim prophet Mohammed consummated his relationship with his wife when she was nine. And I was not even Rin's first lover.
She told me about her friends, many of them which had already had sexual encounters of their own. At camp she met Kanna, two years older than her and a great swimmer who had a thing for mirrors, and an extremely pale child who always wore white. At this description my mind flashed back to visions of the nymphet that I had met outside in the lobby.
"We shared a canoe." said Rin, chewing on a banana. "Cause I was the only other girl who could pass the advanced swimming test. So anyway, every morning Hakudoshi would come and help us carry the boat to Onyx or Eryx. He's around thirteen or so. Crazy and has the bad-boy thing going on, it's kind of cute-plus he was the only boy around for miles, besides some old farmer guy."
She made a face and coughed; she must have taken a bite too big.
"Anyway, the three of us took a shortcut every morning through the forest and at first it was just Kanna doing things with Hakudoshi behind a bush." Rin threw the banana in a garbage can. "I didn't want to try what it was like, but then Hakudoshi would tease me about being scared and Kanna would stare at me." She frowned. "I'm not scared...don't they know? But they didn't believe me, and I got curious about what was going on...so me and Kanna would take turns sharing him. Good Lord, he could go on forever. It was...interesting to say the least, but gross. Disgusting is putting it lightly."
It was near ten, and Rin stood there naked with her back to me, facing a mirror. Someone tried to open the door-room service, I imagined-and I told Lo to hop in the shower. She had made a mess in the bedroom, throwing her stuff everywhere. When she came out, I gave her a new purse that I had bought for her which had some money in it and told her to entertain herself in the lobby.
"I'll be back. Don't talk to strangers." I ordered like a caring father.
I packed quickly and called the bellboy up to get the bags. Rin sat in the lobby, reading a magazine in a red oversized chair. That is when I noticed a man about my age, creepy red eyes and a mass of oily black hair, staring at her over his newspaper.
Feeling unsettled, I paid quicky and walked with Lo to the car. That man seemed eerily familiar, but I couldn't put my finger on it.
Rin stuffed her face at a nearby coffee shop. For some reason, her usual cheerfulness was gone. Was it anger? I waited for her to lash out at me and criticize me or something, but she didn't. When I tried to make small talk with her, she just grimaced and brushed me off. I felt more and more uncomfortable. This wasn't the Lolita that I knew-this was more like a ghost. So much pain in those eyes...
"Rin. What is troubling you?" I asked.
"Nothing, you brute."
What did she just call me? And does she mean by that?
She was silent-Rin, the chatterbox was silent. Then I realized in fear that this was an orphan-a lonely, small child-who has had intercourse with an adult twice her size three times that very morning. Is that why she called me a brute? And in my ignorance, I was afraid-not because of what I realized I'd done to her, but because I felt that her mood might prevent me from touching her again.
"Can we make a stop by the next bathroom?" She asked.
I nodded and did as told. She sighed from next to me.
"You idiot. You're gross." She wasn't angry. No, she had a smile on her face, though it wasn't one of her usual smiles. This smile was filled with melancholy and regret instead of the usual happiness and joy that Rin's smiles held. "I was so innocent and look what you did. Ha." She chuckled tiredly. "I should tell the police and say that you raped me."
Is she serious? Rape? Why on Earth would she be talking this way? She was smiling, but...what a way to joke.
"Dammit, I can't sit." she continued, shifting. "I think you tore something inside me."
That startled me so much that we almost ran over a rabbit, and once again, Rin insulted me. I couldn't drive like this, and had to stop at a gas station.
"Can I borrow some money?" Lolita turned to me with an expression so broken that it made me feel a twang of pain. "I wanna call mommy in the hospital."
I shook my head no. "You can't."
"Why?"
Without answering, I took off and left the station. She had to ask me this now, after I'd come so far in my plans, lying to her. Dammit. I had no story to give her.
"Sesshomaru? Why can't I call mom?"
The only option now is the truth. "Because your mother is dead."
From that point on, everything changed. Understanding her distress I bought her everything that I could think of-magazines, candy, those comics she loves, nail polish, junk food, jewelry and anything that I could think of that a twelve year old girl might like. But none of it worked. We had to get separate rooms at the next hotel that we stayed in, and every night, I heard her crying herself to sleep.
Sometimes, she'd wake up in the middle of the night and come to me in her sorrow, seeking comfort. Somehow it didn't seem real, but I didn't really care as long as I got to keep her with me, even if it was only because she had nowhere else to go and the only other possible option that she had was death.
(A/N: Like they always do, Humbert-or Sesshomaru in this case- continuously tries to justify his behavior by saying it was okay hundreds of years ago, and that it's okay in some other countries. Well, back in the day, slavery was legal, women were property and everyone believed the Earth was flat, and racism was considered factual. So I guess all that is totally okay too, huh? No. Just like we stopped doing these things because we realized they were wrong, society is growing out of pedophiliac practices because we have grown and have realized exactly how harmful it is and how much objectification it does.
Rin, out of juvenile curiosity and confusion, may have come to him, but it is completely ridiculous for him to interpret that as her wanting a deep relationship with him, especially as he noted himself, she became extremely sad afterwards. She constantly makes references to incest and rape, and though curious like adolescents are, expresses disgust-a clear sign she isn't emotionally ready. She reacted like a normal child that's not ready for sexual relations, ESPECIALLY with a grown man, would-with sorrow and pain.
But she now has no choice but to stay with him, and he's fully willing to trap her down and completely drain her of her personality, humanity and life, which is exactly what happens when an adult takes a child, forms a relationship with them in which they can earn their trust (aka brainwashing), and prepares them to have sex with them as soon as they hit a socially acceptable age. He's so into his brainwashing of her that he doesn't care that she cries herself to sleep, an obvious sign she regrets her decision and doesn't want this-and disregards her sorrow as "mysterious bad moods".
If he had developed feelings for her at a later age, it would have been no different. He still took advantage of a pre-existing parental relationship (like the one Rin had with Sesshomaru for THREE YEARS in the manga) to manipulate her and fulfill his own selfish desires.)
Rin didn't have a clue what she was doing. She saw sex as a simple game-a "disgusting and sick" game, as she kept repeating, but still just a game that the "cool kids played". It wasn't something that she was honestly desiring. I didn't get to penetrate her much because I was, as an adult, obviously too big to fit in her, as a twelve-year-old.
When it didn't work, she tried again. She ridiculously tried to jump into it with no foreplay whatsoever, when she was obviously dry and I would not be able to slide in her. Of course, the only other sexual encounter she had was with a tiny twelve year old boy who fit in her easily, so she probably didn't see the need to be wet. And I was sitting there still soft, nowhere near hard enough to enter her, and she tried to have sex anyway. Oh how shocked she was when she found out that if you try to put a soft penis inside you, it will not stay still, continuously fall out and flop everywhere like jell-o, making intercourse impossible.
She practically bit me off when she tried to give me oral, but I didn't say anything. Her movements were clumsy and she didn't know how to pace herself, hit the right spots, use the right movements or anything. She thought that she could just put her mouth on it, move up and down and that was it. Not to mention her hands, and the fact that she wasn't aware that some men ejaculated in their partners' mouths during sex and some women actually swallowed. She thought that ejaculation was something that happened during intercourse only, and she didn't even know that women came as well. To add to that, she didn't pay any attention at all to any other parts of the body, and was confused when I tried to suck her nipples. The girl didn't know her own body and was unable to guide me in pleasing her at all.
It was a frustrating experience to say the least.
Why is it that I have to suffer so much? Back in the day in Rome, a girl was considered fully grown at twelve. Many countries had children as brides due to political affairs, and the Muslim prophet Mohammed consummated his relationship with his wife when she was nine. And I was not even Rin's first lover.
She told me about her friends, many of them which had already had sexual encounters of their own. At camp she met Kanna, two years older than her and a great swimmer who had a thing for mirrors, and an extremely pale child who always wore white. At this description my mind flashed back to visions of the nymphet that I had met outside in the lobby.
"We shared a canoe." said Rin, chewing on a banana. "Cause I was the only other girl who could pass the advanced swimming test. So anyway, every morning Hakudoshi would come and help us carry the boat to Onyx or Eryx. He's around thirteen or so. Crazy and has the bad-boy thing going on, it's kind of cute-plus he was the only boy around for miles, besides some old farmer guy."
She made a face and coughed; she must have taken a bite too big.
"Anyway, the three of us took a shortcut every morning through the forest and at first it was just Kanna doing things with Hakudoshi behind a bush." Rin threw the banana in a garbage can. "I didn't want to try what it was like, but then Hakudoshi would tease me about being scared and Kanna would stare at me." She frowned. "I'm not scared...don't they know? But they didn't believe me, and I got curious about what was going on...so me and Kanna would take turns sharing him. Good Lord, he could go on forever. It was...interesting to say the least, but gross. Disgusting is putting it lightly."
It was near ten, and Rin stood there naked with her back to me, facing a mirror. Someone tried to open the door-room service, I imagined-and I told Lo to hop in the shower. She had made a mess in the bedroom, throwing her stuff everywhere. When she came out, I gave her a new purse that I had bought for her which had some money in it and told her to entertain herself in the lobby.
"I'll be back. Don't talk to strangers." I ordered like a caring father.
I packed quickly and called the bellboy up to get the bags. Rin sat in the lobby, reading a magazine in a red oversized chair. That is when I noticed a man about my age, creepy red eyes and a mass of oily black hair, staring at her over his newspaper.
Feeling unsettled, I paid quicky and walked with Lo to the car. That man seemed eerily familiar, but I couldn't put my finger on it.
Rin stuffed her face at a nearby coffee shop. For some reason, her usual cheerfulness was gone. Was it anger? I waited for her to lash out at me and criticize me or something, but she didn't. When I tried to make small talk with her, she just grimaced and brushed me off. I felt more and more uncomfortable. This wasn't the Lolita that I knew-this was more like a ghost. So much pain in those eyes...
"Rin. What is troubling you?" I asked.
"Nothing, you brute."
What did she just call me? And does she mean by that?
She was silent-Rin, the chatterbox was silent. Then I realized in fear that this was an orphan-a lonely, small child-who has had intercourse with an adult twice her size three times that very morning. Is that why she called me a brute? And in my ignorance, I was afraid-not because of what I realized I'd done to her, but because I felt that her mood might prevent me from touching her again.
"Can we make a stop by the next bathroom?" She asked.
I nodded and did as told. She sighed from next to me.
"You idiot. You're gross." She wasn't angry. No, she had a smile on her face, though it wasn't one of her usual smiles. This smile was filled with melancholy and regret instead of the usual happiness and joy that Rin's smiles held. "I was so innocent and look what you did. Ha." She chuckled tiredly. "I should tell the police and say that you raped me."
Is she serious? Rape? Why on Earth would she be talking this way? She was smiling, but...what a way to joke.
"Dammit, I can't sit." she continued, shifting. "I think you tore something inside me."
That startled me so much that we almost ran over a rabbit, and once again, Rin insulted me. I couldn't drive like this, and had to stop at a gas station.
"Can I borrow some money?" Lolita turned to me with an expression so broken that it made me feel a twang of pain. "I wanna call mommy in the hospital."
I shook my head no. "You can't."
"Why?"
Without answering, I took off and left the station. She had to ask me this now, after I'd come so far in my plans, lying to her. Dammit. I had no story to give her.
"Sesshomaru? Why can't I call mom?"
The only option now is the truth. "Because your mother is dead."
From that point on, everything changed. Understanding her distress I bought her everything that I could think of-magazines, candy, those comics she loves, nail polish, junk food, jewelry and anything that I could think of that a twelve year old girl might like. But none of it worked. We had to get separate rooms at the next hotel that we stayed in, and every night, I heard her crying herself to sleep.
Sometimes, she'd wake up in the middle of the night and come to me in her sorrow, seeking comfort. Somehow it didn't seem real, but I didn't really care as long as I got to keep her with me, even if it was only because she had nowhere else to go and the only other possible option that she had was death.
(A/N: Like they always do, Humbert-or Sesshomaru in this case- continuously tries to justify his behavior by saying it was okay hundreds of years ago, and that it's okay in some other countries. Well, back in the day, slavery was legal, women were property and everyone believed the Earth was flat, and racism was considered factual. So I guess all that is totally okay too, huh? No. Just like we stopped doing these things because we realized they were wrong, society is growing out of pedophiliac practices because we have grown and have realized exactly how harmful it is and how much objectification it does.
Rin, out of juvenile curiosity and confusion, may have come to him, but it is completely ridiculous for him to interpret that as her wanting a deep relationship with him, especially as he noted himself, she became extremely sad afterwards. She constantly makes references to incest and rape, and though curious like adolescents are, expresses disgust-a clear sign she isn't emotionally ready. She reacted like a normal child that's not ready for sexual relations, ESPECIALLY with a grown man, would-with sorrow and pain.
But she now has no choice but to stay with him, and he's fully willing to trap her down and completely drain her of her personality, humanity and life, which is exactly what happens when an adult takes a child, forms a relationship with them in which they can earn their trust (aka brainwashing), and prepares them to have sex with them as soon as they hit a socially acceptable age. He's so into his brainwashing of her that he doesn't care that she cries herself to sleep, an obvious sign she regrets her decision and doesn't want this-and disregards her sorrow as "mysterious bad moods".
If he had developed feelings for her at a later age, it would have been no different. He still took advantage of a pre-existing parental relationship (like the one Rin had with Sesshomaru for THREE YEARS in the manga) to manipulate her and fulfill his own selfish desires.)