InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Love for 3 ❯ Our last night together ( Chapter 1 )

A/N: Okay so let me remind you this is Inu/ Kag just don't kill me after this chapter. It has been lying in my desktop for a while and I thought it was time to post it, I hope you like it and review please!!! =)

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha; I'm just having fun while using the characters created by Rumiko Takashi.

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I had been living my whole life next to him, he was my only friend when I entered school and by junior high he had become my best friend. This summer, I realized that I needed to tell him how I felt, how I really felt. It wasn't that I was a chicken or that I was afraid of rejection but because every sign I had given him had gone unnoticed. Flirting, suggestive valentine gifts, occasional sleep over at his house, usual stuff best friends who are in love of their best friends try to make them realize they are in love with each other, well… at least I knew I was. Being 17 and knowing that your true soul mate is going away is kind of depressing, really depressing actually and it leaves you an empty feeling.

It always comes out to the what if. What if he is the one I'm supposed to be? What if I never let him know and I regret it? What if his feelings are the same but he never dared to make a move because he was unsure of my feelings? What if we never see each other again? What if… what if… just, what if? It's impossible not to feel this way when you have spend your whole life next to him and hiding such a great secret, such passionate love towards someone.

It was tragic when I found out he was moving, it was even worse when I found out we only had a week left together. I finally knew how I wanted to remember him, how I wanted to remember us. It is the most perfect gift because not only would we remember it always but it is about time that I lose my virginity, my friends had done it and I thought… why not? It's going to be better for me though because I'm actually going to do it with someone I care, someone with whom I won't regret it later. It is time I lose my virginity to my best friend, the only man I've ever loved… Kouga. How to explain my feelings towards him? It's kind of hard… When I broke the boundaries from friend to lover, it's blurry but I do recall the moment in which I decided I wanted him to be the one.

It was the hottest day of summer, we were barely 12 and we had spent the whole day at the pool, we were just heading back home when he found his friends on his way. I remember the conversation as clearly as if it was yesterday.

“Kouga!” his friends had yelled. “Ayame is looking for you! She is inviting you to her pool party tonight; she said she only invited the coolest people at school…”

“Oh really?” he asked uninterested. “I'll consider it.”

“What?! C'mon! Drop Kagome at home and come! She's the hottest girl at the school and she wants you to be with her! What are you waiting for?” They reminded him, he simply shrugged his shoulders.

“Nah… I'm already with the hottest girl.” He whispered it before kissing my cheek lightly; I blushed so much that I could have burned my own skin with the heat eradiating from my face.

That was it for me; Kouga would be the only guy for me back then. But destiny had other plans for us; he eventually went out with Ayame. You see, after a few years he found her very attractive so by 9th grade Kouga and Ayame were named the cutest couple at our school at the spring dance. It broke my heart but I wasn't going to sit back and let everything happen. Of course I had my first kiss with someone else but that was because of a dare and I wanted him to get jealous. I know I'm an idiot for still loving him but as much as I tried my feelings for him wouldn't disappear, in the end I went out with Hojo, the guy with whom I shared my first kiss with and I ended things with him this summer. I couldn't lie to him anymore, it wasn't fair. Ayame and he broke up by the end of sophomore year; according to her they were “too different” and poor Kouga was a wreck for a year.

And now, after such a long drama he could be finally mine. I was going to let him know how I felt when his phone had ringed and his father let him know the “big news”. What was his father thinking when he accepted a job offer in the Philippines? Does he know how far away that is from Tokyo? Does he know how much I'll cry once Kouga is gone? I guess not.

The week had elapsed in a blink of an eye and I had only one night left, I knew exactly how I wanted to spend it. I decided to wait for him to be alone, his parents were going to this go away party and then I would make my move. It was his parent's gift to him to let him spend his last night with his best friend who luckily, was me. I had no idea of what to wear, I mean… when we were together I would wear jeans and a sweatshirt but this was the night I would remember forever and I would want an outfit to go with it. I decided to borrow my sister's night gown, she wore it whenever her boyfriend climbed up to her room and I thought it would be a good idea. It was a pink silky dress, a see through that allowed me to wear black lingerie to cover up somehow. I got on my winter coat to cover up so my neighbors wouldn't think I was crazy, got on my black flat shoes and walked to his door, I was going to succeed in this and it would be the most amazing night in my life. I let myself in like every other day, I walked upstairs as the sound of jazz music flooded the environment; another reason to love him was his wonderful taste in music.

Everything was piled up in boxes; 17 years of his life packed in 9 boxes to be shipped away from me so he could move on and start again somewhere else. The only things out were his laptop from which the music was coming and his mattress that was lying on the floor with a pillow and a blanket, at the sound of my footsteps he looked at me with his piercing blue eyes before smiling widely at me. I stopped for a moment at the frame of his door, I wanted to remember him forever; his dark blue jeans with his black and light blue stripped sweater with his favorite old black converse.

“I thought you weren't coming.” How stupid of him to think that but I wasn't going to argue with him, not tonight.

“I was waiting for the perfect moment,” Gosh, I sounded so stupid but he didn't mind it; he got closer to me and grabbed me by the waist.

“It's our last night together, will you stay over? Like the old times?” His eyes were sparkling when he said it; I nodded without thinking it.

“Of course I will.” He smiled and kissed my cheek.

“I have to set a perfect mood.” Kouga said as he turned off the lights and started swaying me at the rhythm of the music.

“I don't want to cry.” I confessed as I rested my head on his shoulder, I felt him chuckle.

“Then don't,” He replied before he stopped dancing, he pushed himself apart from me and studied my clothing. “What's that?”

“I was cold.” I replied instantly and he arched his brow.

“Really? In summer?” Kouga asked skeptically.

“Don't judge me!” I let out with a giggle and he sat on his mattress, I imitated him and placed my hand on his knee. “I'm going to miss you.”

“And you think I won't?” He mumbled as he let out a heavy sigh, things were getting sentimental so I better start throwing out some hints.

“Maybe we should do something… something that will bond us.” I suggested. He couldn't be that dense, he should get the hint immediately. Kouga shot me a look.

“Like a good bye letter?” Okay, he could be dense sometimes so I think I should take the first step; I gathered all the courage that could form inside me and slowly pushed him to lie on his bed.

“I was thinking of something different.” I half whispered as I lay next to him, he was perplexed that was for sure but suddenly he understood.

“Kagome, you don't have to do this for me… I thought you would have already known I love you but if your feelings…?” Wait, what?!

“You love me?” I asked, I couldn't believe it even when the words have left his mouth. Kouga immediately got up.

“I'm sorry; I know we are supposed to be only friends but I… I'm in love with you.” I got up and immediately wrapped my lips against his, he pulled a bit apart.

“Seriously,” I kissed him again. “You don't have to…”

“Kouga.” I said as I pulled apart. “I loved you for such a long time and this is finally what I wanted to happen, just shut up.”

“Okay.” He agreed as we started kissing again.

It was better than I had imagined, things were going just like I had planned it. Our lips together fit perfectly; they were just like puzzle pieces meant to be. Our tongues danced around our mouths and his hands were slowly making their way up to my coat. I stopped him there.

“What's wrong?” he asked as he breathed heavily.

“Nothing, I wanted to do this for you…” I said before kissing him again and standing in front of him.

I slowly got rid of my shoes, they were just an impediment and now it was time for the real stuff. I unbuttoned my coat as I stared into his eyes hoping for the right reaction, my breasts were already perked up and thanks to Kikyo's night gown they were easily seen through. Kouga's eyes were about to pop out of his head as I threw away my coat. He stood up and walked closer to me.

“What do you think?” I asked as he placed his hands around my waist.

“I love it.” He said before crashing his lips against mine.

Kouga enlaced his hands with mine and slowly pulled me with him to his bed or what was left of it. We were still kissing when I felt one of his hands going up to my chest, I gasped but not because I was surprised but because he made my stomach flutter in excitement. He smiled pleased before he turned me and left me under him as he pulled up my nightgown. The air was hot but I still shivered as I remained almost naked in front or I should say underneath him. He slowly removed my bra and left my breast free, the feeling of his lips against mine was nothing compared to when I felt his tongue ravishing my breast. I moaned in pleasure as he moved on to my next breast, repeating the same tongue massage he had given to the other one; heaven.

“Kou…” I managed to let out as he pulled away and took off his sweater along with his t-shirt.

I had seen him shirtless tons of times but for some reason this time I felt hot, I wanted him to take me right there. But he was far away from feeling how I was feeling, I could tell by the small bulge forming on his pants. He was about to kiss me when I turned things around, it was my time to show him how much I loved him. I turned things around as he lay under me and I kissed him chest before going down to his pants.

“Kagome…” It came out like some sort of warning but I ignored him and unbuckled his pants before pulling them down.

I asked my best friend of how to do it and she gave me some pretty good examples by using a banana and it seemed pretty easy. I wrapped my lips around his member; its taste wasn't flattering but the feeling of it made me as excited as it made him. I moved my lips up and down his member as he moaned in pleasure. Kouga pressed his hand on my head, pushing me closer to his groin, I still licked his cock as it became harder and harder. My mouth felt juices dropping from him as he moaned even louder and then it hit me. The sour milk Sango had warned me about; I swallowed it because it didn't have such a bad taste although she said it wasn't pleasant. I pulled away and he was panting heavily.

“Come here.” He said as he breathed heavily, I got closer to him and he kissed me as he laid me on his mattress again.

The kissing was getting deeper and his hands were maneuvering to remove my underwear. I saw something fly and I guess that was the only piece of clothing I had left, I was now lying completely naked in front of him. I felt his finger inside my core; it made me groan in pleasure. Slowly going inside and out, my whole body was begging for him to do it faster and I felt him add another finger. I yelped, making him freeze in terror.

“Are you okay? I didn't hurt you… did I?” I shook my head.

“Just… please, don't stop.” I said, my voice was cracking and the burning heat surrounding my body was making me wet.

Kouga obeyed me as I kept on trying to say his name; it was hard when that large wave of pleasure came to me. Then I felt his tongue inside me, licking every inch of my inner tights as I tried to grab something to control the overwhelming bliss that was conquering my body, I let out a delighted scream and then I knew what I wanted.

“Please… Kouga…” I said, I wanted it to happen now.

“Do you have a condom?” He asked and I shook my head.

“Don't you have one?” He mimicked my movement and I shrugged my shoulders. “Well… I don't think something could happen in my first time,”

“Are you sure?” I nodded and he kissed my forehead, Kouga got on top of me again. “I love you.”

I was about to repeat his words when I felt him entering me, his hard member inside me stretched my walls far too much and I felt a slight pain breaking through my inner tights. A single tear rolled down my cheek and a felt his warm velvet tongue lick it clean.

“I'll go slowly.” He promised and I nodded.

Kouga slowly retreated and then pushed inside me again, this time it was sweeter and it felt that way as well. He kept on going at that steady rhythm and the pain he had caused me was now turning into a great pleasure. Inch by inch as he pushed himself inside me, my body wanted more I panted and moaned as I moved my head towards his ear.

“Hard… harder, fast… faster.” I begged him and he nodded.

His thrusts were just like I had asked him to and I felt a small knot forming up under my stomach, each time he pulled out and pushed in it became greater. My moans were louder and I wrapped my arms around him, his lips explored my neck as the knot became bigger and bigger. More moans, his hips thrusting into me faster, sweat falling on to me, the knot feeling as a time bomb, everything was making me feel in bliss. One last trust and I finally came into paradise.

“Ah!” I shouted as the knot exploded, my vision was blurry but I could still feel him inside me; thrusting a few more times before a felt a liquid running up my inner thighs.

“That was…” he started as he lay next to me, he placed one of his arms around my body and pulled me closer to him.

“Amazing.” I whispered as he looked down at me and kissed me. “I love you.”

“I love you too.” He said as he pulled me closer to him and I rested my head on his chest, listening to his heart beat. Kouga picked up the blanket and covered us before kissing my forehead.

“I'm tired…” I mumbled as my eye lids tried to close. “I don't want you to go.”

“I don't want to leave you.” He whispered as he closed his eyes.

The last thing I heard that night was the jazz music and his heart beat, mixing to perform my perfect lullaby to help me to sleep.

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“No way!” Sango shouted.

We were in her room; I didn't know what to do now. Kouga had left about three months ago and I was still feeling an empty whole in my heart. Our last night together was more than perfect and now… this. It was just perfect, I know I wanted to remember him forever but I didn't want someone to remember him. A month after her left, I woke up early with sickness and apparently my period decided to not show up. Things were tough but I thought maybe I was just late, it happened once in a while but then another month and nothing… just more sickness, I told myself that I should probably wait more. Another month without it, even more sickness and this time I was even getting fat. I thought I should ask my best friend about it. I had to tell Sango about my last night with Kouga and now I could only wait for the unbearable.

“You have to be pregnant.” Have to be? Is that like an option?

“I can't be pregnant, we just started school! It's the first month in senior year… what am I supposed to tell my mother?!” Sango placed her finger on her mouth, I had been yelling and then I sighed. “It's my last year… this can't happen to me.”

“I'm sorry Kags, you should have been more careful I told you…”

Her words seemed to drown down an abysm, this just couldn't happen… not now, not a step away from college. Another month didn't sound reasonable anymore, it would just end up like the previous two and things will get even uglier or should I say bigger. I didn't know if it was the shocking news or maybe just the pregnancy but I ran to Sango's bathroom and threw up. I was getting used to it… the vomiting not the pregnancy! When I wanted to remember Kouga forever I didn't mean to birth his child… just a nice good memory of him, like our last night together. Sango pulled me up from her toilet and flushed it as she helped me wash my mouth.

“So… now that you are conscious, will you answer my question?” Sango said as she cleaned her hands with her towel.

“What question?” I asked cleaning myself with my sweater, Sango rolled her eyes.

“Are you going to tell Kouga? He's the father after all.” I was blank.

Of course he was the father but should I let him know he was becoming a father? That was a tough question. I should probably tell him, he was the love of my life and apparently I was his. I just hoped his reaction was a good one, I could only imagine how much stress I could cause him.

“Let's call him.” I suggested and she nodded, she handed me her phone and I dialed the number I had memorized in less than a week.

The seconds listening to the phone ringing were the longest moments in my life, anticipation was killing me and it was a matter of seconds to hear his voice again. I gulped hard, I didn't know what to say… should I just drop the bomb immediately after I said “hello” or should I wait for the proper time? But what kind of moment was that? Listen to him talk about his friends and just casually say “Oh, speaking of which maybe our son or daughter will have friends… yes, I'm pregnant”. I had no idea and time was up, I heard someone pick up.

“Hello?” His strong voice answered, I gulped.

“Kouga… hey.” I answered trying to push away my nervousness.

“Love, how are you?” Love, that was a good sign… he loved me which meant he would accept our forged future together.

“I'm okay; school's a pain but no problem… what about you?” I heard him sigh; did that mean I was boring him?

“I'm still trying to learn the language and make friends… it's tough but I like it.” I nodded and looked at Sango who had a piece of paper, she handed it to me; it said “Tell him already!!!”

“Oh, yeah Kouga… there is something very important I wanted to tell you.” It was now or never.

“You can count on me for anything Kags.” He promised and I sighed.

It was very hard for me to do the right thing but I knew what had to happen, so I forced a smile upon my lips and threw away her note.

“Could I visit you by next summer? I hear Philippines is great at that time of the year.” Sango was about to smack me but I didn't care.

“Of course my love, you're welcome at any time of the year.” I smiled at the nickname, of course he loved… he would always love me and so would I.

“Alright, I'll talk to you later tonight… I'm at Sango's and I don't want her phone bill to get that big.” I heard his adorable laugh.

“Okay, I'll miss you… bye.” He said and I sighed.

“Bye, I love you.” I hung up after that and felt Sango's slap on my arm. “Ouch!”

“Why didn't you tell him?! He should know! It's his fault too!” She reminded me; I nodded and let out a heavy sigh.

“Yeah… but he's miles away and he won't be able to do a thing, I should try to go on by myself… it can't be that hard.” Sango rolled her eyes.

“You, my friend, are in deep shit.” I laughed and nodded.

“Yeah… I know,” I thought about how different my situation would be if Kouga was still with me… probably very different but that was not the case so I let myself let out another sigh. “I know.”