InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Love Is... ❯ Bliss Is Overrated ( Chapter 12 )
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
By: Samarah-chan 
Kagome visits someone. Kira and Sesshoumaru talk.
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Drama / Comedy | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 07.31.2003 | Pages: 3 | Words: 4.2K | Visits: 1.9K | Status: Completed
Kagome visits someone. Kira and Sesshoumaru talk.
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Drama / Comedy | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 07.31.2003 | Pages: 3 | Words: 4.2K | Visits: 1.9K | Status: Completed
Sorry this took so long, I have been very busy, and I tend to forget about my fic being on this site, so again sorry.
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"This is getting irritating, it seems I always 'just miss him', he's avoiding me! Kouga told him to avoid me today!" I thought as I stomped back towards the main bar, I was going to get some answers if it killed someone, namely Kouga
Kouga saw me coming, he was trying to sneak of into the back room, but I won't let him. I used my demon spe3ed and was in front of him within a second.
"I want to know what is going on, and you will tell me or I will kill you." I said as calmly as I could because I knew he found it unnerving to have me calm, people say that's when I act the worst
"I-I don't know what your talking about, Kira-chan." he said nervously, I could smell his fear and he knew it too
"Don't 'Kira-chan' me. I want to know everything that's going on otherwise I will be forced to hurt you very badly, and you know I can." I said glaring at him, he was really pissing me off now, and that is sooo not a good thing
"Really, I have no clue what your going on about." he said not even looking me in the eyes, he was lying beyond reason
"Your avoiding me, so is Miroku the one person you tell everything to. You stood me up last night and now you will not tell me why, I am getting impatient, and if you do not tell me soon there will be hell to pay." I snarled at him, he made me just that mad
I didn't even wait for him to answer before I left. I know I can be cruel, vindictive, and just plain mean, but I do not deserve to be treated like this, no one does. Is it just me or is everyone acting weird lately, life is just to complicated. I walked back towards the restaurant, that was the only place it seemed I could go right now.
"I hope Kagome-chan is still there, I really need to talk to her." I thought to myself as I walked, not really fast, but slow enough
It's selfish of me to think about relaying all of this to Kagome, she's going through her own stuff right now, it's just not right. Though I do really need to talk to someone about it..Sango? Would she listen to me and help me out? I have never went to her with a problem like this, maybe she could help me.
"Hai, I will talk to Sango." I resolved as I walked up to the door and pushed it open
As soon as I walked in I found my twin brother in a very amusing situation, well not really a situation, but it was still very amusing. Yura was trying her damnedest to get my brothers attention, and he was just ignoring her, which only made her try harder. I should really get him out of this, but do I really want to. Hai, I feel sorry for him.
"Sess-chan." I said as I walked up to him with a smile
"Kira, sit down and join me." was all he said as I sat myself across from him
"I will have a Dr. Pepper." I said to Yura with a little smirk, she just stomped off into the kitchen
"I see she still has a thing for you, ne?" I said teasing Sessy, it was always so much fun to do
"Obviously." he said going back to his food he seemed to have not been eating very much of when Yura was here
"Is Kagome-chan still here?" I asked trying to change the subject a bit, and I really wanted to know
"She left a few minutes ago. She seemed to have been in a bit of a hurry." he answered me without even looking up
"I guess I'll go and talk to Sango-chan then." I said and then stood up, but I did not get to leave because my brother decided to attach his hand to my arm
"Stay here until I leave." he said, not asked mind you, but if I didn't know any better I would say he had a bit of a pleading look in his eyes
"Fine, but you owe me." I said sitting back down
"You do not enjoy my company." he said trying his best to act hurt, of course I knew he was just playing with me like I have done to him so many times in the past
"Of course I don't, who would?" I asked in a playful tone
"Apparently many females, youkai and human both." he said, I knew his ego was big, but man this was too much
"Hai. I mean with that much money who wouldn't tolerate being around you?" I asked smirking at him
"Same with you sister dear, same with you." he said returning my own smirk
"Hmm.I do believe it is time for me to go. Enjoy your lunch, brother dear." I said once again standing up, but again my arm was grabbed before I could walk away
"You do know that this habit of yours will have to stop, right?" I asked looking over at him again
He did not answer me nor did he let go of my arm, so I just sat back down with him. He smirked as soon as I sat back down in my chair, he loves to win even though he does not often win when it comes to me.
"Is there a reason you are here? You rarely come down here to eat, so why today?" I asked curious as ever
"Must I tell you everything?" he asked not looking at me
"Yes." I said smiling even bigger than I was before
"What makes you believe that?" he asked finally looking up at me
"What makes you believe you can change the subject like that?" I asked, he always thinks he can just change the subject whenever he wants
"I was not changing the subject, I was asking a simple question." he answered me with that smug smile of his, I want to smack it right off of his pretty little face every time I see it, and one of these days I will
"Just answer my question." I said getting frustrated with him, today was not a good day and he was making it worse, and I was going to let him know it
"I just came here to eat, that is all." he said then took a sip of his water
"Just to eat? Are you sure about that?" I asked smirking at him once again, this was fun, the most fun I have had all day in fact
"Quite sure." he answered me in his annoyed tone, I'm the only one that could get him to use that tone, it was just for me, and it makes me happy
"Alright, I'll believe you for now." I said as I watched him eat his food, and believe me it is so very boring to sit there and watch someone eat, it is probably be more fun to sit and watch paint dry
I didn't say anything, I just sat there and watched him eat, taking his sweet time. I could always just get up and leave, but I'm not that cruel as to do something that would in the long run cause my brother to lose his mind. Well I would never be so cruel to do something to cause Sess-chan to lose his mind, but Inuyasha is a whole other story, and it gives me way too many ideas. After a few minutes I looked up to see that Sess was finally done eating and he was just taking a sip of his water, and I was so glad because I really didn't feel like sitting here anymore.
"Since you seem to be done eating, I want to leave now." I said and stood up, but this time he also stood up, but did not grab my arm
"I will see you later, I mean someone has to bring you dinner and drag you to the show tonight." I said as I gave him a kiss on the cheek
"Indeed." was all he said back to me, but I don't care, it's just how he is
"Don't work to hard, we wouldn't want you dying of a heart-attack anytime soon." I teased him as I watched him walk out the door simply waving his hand so I would know he heard me but really didn't care one lick about what I had said
I walked into the kitchen to spill all of my problems to Sango.
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I walked into the building, I have not been here for so long now. It has been almost a month and I felt very badly about it, my heart-ached even more than it had when I broke it off with Inuyasha. I walked down the hallway until I came to a door.
"Here I go." I thought to myself as I pushed the door open
I walked in looking around, but I could not find the two people I had come to see. They did not seem to be here, where could they have gone too? It had only been a month, they should still be here.
"Kagome-chan!?" two excited yells came from behind me
"Shippou, Rin." I said as I bent down and hugged the two children
"You have not come to see us in so long." Shippou said looking at me with tears in his eyes
"I am so sorry, I really wanted to come sooner, but I couldn't." I said looking down at the two children who were so close to crying, it made me feel even worse than I had before
"Can we leave with you soon?" Rin asked as she help onto my hand, gripping it tightly as if she was afraid that I would disappear
"Iie. I'm working on it though. Soon I will have a new bigger place to live, then they will let me take you home." I said trying to sound convincing, but I did not know if it was more for my sake or theirs
I watched as their faces seemed to brighten at the thought of leaving this place, and I could not blame them. They were both orphans, Shippou's parents had died, and Rin's had simply left her here when she was but two. I had been coming here at least once a week to be with them, my wish is to one day take them home with me, as my children. But I can not, for I do not make enough money, and I am not married. They do not seem to like the idea of single mothers. I thought having Inuyasha with me would help, I thought one day soon we would get married then I could have my perfect little family, but he had dashed my dreams like they were nothing, and the thing was he didn't even know it.
"Do you want to play with us Kagome-chan?" Shippou asked with big pleading eyes
"Of course." I said, I could never refuse them, one day I was going to spoil them rotten, well if I ever got the chance
"Yay!" they both chanted in union which made me smile
Those to had that effect, no matter what went wrong in my life, no matter how sad I was whenever I am around them my mood seems to lighten, and I love it. They are my children, and I am going to find a way to take them home with me, well take them when I get a home. I was starting to forget about that person, who had left that card. I can not possibly bring that kind of danger to my children, what have I been thinking. Am I so selfish that I had forgotten the safety of the two most important people in my life? I have been so wrapped up in myself lately that I forgot that I have a possible murderer sneaking into my home, no. Not my home anymore.
Before I could think more into this both of the children each grabbed one of my hands and led me over to a table that they seemed to have been playing tic-tac-toe at. I smiled at them and sat down as they resumed there game. While they played, I began to think again, think about how I was going to make my life to go right.
"My life will never be how I want it." I thought to myself as I watched the children play their little game, they were truly brother and sister now, they even got into little fights like real siblings do
I hate having to leave them here all by themselves, but there's nothing I can do. Maybe if I can make enough money they will over look me being single, but I don't know how I can do that either. I make a pretty good living for myself, and I have a fairly big savings, but it is still not enough to satisfy these people. It's like someone doesn't want me to be happy. I always thought about asking Kira to help me, but she does that so much already that it doesn't feel right to ask her.
"I need to figure this out on my own." I thought to myself making up my mind, I would find a way to get my children out of this place on my own
"Oh I brought something for you two." I said as I reached into my bag pulling out two stuffed animals and two lollipops
As soon as the two kids saw what I had brought them they were up from their seats and at my side. I handed them their presents and watched as Rin hugged her black cat plushie, and Shippou stuck the lollipop is his mouth right away. These two are my world and I will not let anyone take them away from me.
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After I ate lunch I went back to my office to work, but work is not what I did. I never have as much work as I say I do, really I just sit here and think. I think about how life can be so cruel, and how the people that deserve nothing have everything. Sure I have money, and I can have any woman I want, but I do not have love. That is right, I want to love. I want someone to love me, but that I fear will never happen. I push everyone away, the only exception being my sister. I have my reasons for this, but then again I wish I was not this way. I look at my sister, and even Inuyasha, and wonder how they can be so lucky to have found love. Granted my brother is a moron that could never actually love another person, no matter what he says. At least he has someone that he thinks he loves, and thinks loves him back even if she is a little tramp that only wants his money. Kira on the other hand has found her love, and one day soon she will be leaving me to be with him, and I will be left alone to rot away.
"How can I find my love? Do I even have a love out there?" I ask myself that every night, and I have yet to get an answer
I should not think about this though, it is not like me to care about such things. But it is like me, the only person ho knows the real me is my sister, and even she does not fully understand me. Kira knows everything about me, except for my jealousy that she has found something that I can not. My father found it twice, and yet I have not found it at all. I hear love can hurt so very bad, but I have never had a chance to feel it for myself. I would give anything to love, even just for a day, just a day of pure happiness.
"Sess-chan! The show is about to start so get your happy ass ready!" I could hear Kira yelling from in front of my office door, she was always bitchy before Kagome's shows, it made you think she was the one performing
"I will be ready shortly." I said back to her knowing she could hear even though I was not shouting like she did, I decided I would not fight her today, she insisted that Kagome had something planned for her show that I had to see
"Good, I'll be waiting outside." she said normally this time shutting the door again
I got up from my desk grabbing my jacket, I knew they would want to leave right after, and this time so did I. It has seemed lately I have been wanting to go home earlier at nights, and I did not work as much when I was there. The only reason I had work was because I never finished it here, and I always insisted upon doing most of the work around here. I made sure I had everything I would need to work on later at home and put it into my briefcase before I turned off my desk light and walked to the door. As soon as I opened the door and shut off the main light Kira was at my side, but there seemed to be something wrong with her.
"What is wrong?" I asked as we walked to the elevator
"Not a thing." she said as we stepped in
"I can tell when something is the matter with you, so you may as well tell me." I said turning to look at her, and that's when I noticed how close she was to crying
Kira never cried, not even as a child. She tried to be like me and show nothing was wrong, she tried to hide her inner turmoil, but now, now she seemed so weak and helpless.
"I-I. Kouga, he is keeping something from me. Something I feel is important, and I have no clue what to do." she said as the tears slowly came from her eyes rolling down her cheeks
I never learned how to comfort someone, not all the way at least. Usually I would only have to touch Kira to make her feel better, but now I am not so sure that it would work. I did the only thing I could think of, the only thing my body would let me do. I hugged her. I pulled her close to me and smoothed her hair out while she cried into my chest. The only person I had left to live for was crying because of her love, and that made me think that maybe love isn't as great as I thought it was. I knew I thought even if it hurt it was still something I wanted, but afte2r seeing my sister like this I am not sure that I want it anymore.
"It will be alright." I said trying to comfort her, knowing I was doing little to make her feel better, but this is all that I can do for her
She did not answer me, she just kept crying. It hurt me to see her like this, and it was all Kouga's fault, I thought he was good enough for my sister, not all I wanted to do was rip his insides out. How could someone make such a perfect and loving creature feel like this. So maybe she was not as perfect as I like to believe, but she did not deserve the way she is treated. Kouga had not been her first boyfriend, or fiancée for that matter, over the hundreds of years that we had been alive she has been in love many times, but she always ended up being the one who was hurt. They only wanted her money and power, and her beauty was an added bonus, but we figured them out. I thought she had found someone that could take care of her and treat her with respect, but that is not so.
"We should get downstairs and cheer Kagome-chan on." Kira said taking her head off of my chest smiling up at me, it pained me to that smile for I knew it was not real, her eyes were filled with pain, so much pain
"Hai. Let us go." I said softening my voice, but only for her, and that earned me a real smile, which in turn made me smile
"I like it when you smile. It reminds me of when we were children." Kira said as she pressed the button on the elevator and grabbed my hand
"Then I shall try and smile more often, but only for you." I said keeping the smile I had so that she may keep hers even if it was just for a while
"Arigato Sess-chan, that makes me happy." she said smiling even more
"Dou itashimashite, Kira-chan." I said then hear her gasp and I knew why, I had not called her Kira-chan in so long that I could not even remember
"Do not sound so surprised." I said laughing at the face she was making, we acted how true siblings should act, and I loved every minute of it
She did not say anything again, she was almost to quiet to be my sister. Even with her smiling I knew there was something on her mind, but I did not want to pry, I just wanted to make her happy.
"Come, I believe we have a show to see." I said earning another smile from my sister and a nod
The elevator came to a stop and we stepped out, the lobby was filled with people. Ever since Kagome had begun to sing here we had gotten more business, which was a good thing most of the time. Not that we were not popular before she arrived, we were and still are the top casino in Tokyo. Kagome just made everything more pleasant.
"It's about to start." Kira said tugging at my arm like a child would do to it's parents
"Then let us find a table." I said as I began walking towards the front of the stage
They were setting everything up still so I sat down at a table in the front that everybody knew was off limits, being the owner had it's benefits besides a lot of money. Beside me I could hear Kira giggling at something, so Looked up and fount the source of her amusement it was, out little brother trying to get the attention of his wench that was across the room flirting with a table full of men, most likely rich.
"You did something." I said looking at Kira who gave me that look she used when she wanted to act innocent
"I have no clue what you are talking about Sess-chan." she said looking towards the stage trying not to make eye contact with me, she only did this when she was lying to me, but still even then she looked me in the eye most of the time, so this must have been something bad
"I will let this slide, but only until we get home." I told her as I too looked towards the stage, they must have been running a bit late tonight because the show usually started by now
"Kira! What did you do!?" a voice recognized as that of my little brothers could be heard shouting from across the room
Apparently Inuyasha had just noticed Kira was here, or he had just noticed what she did to him. Either way he was being very loud about it, and Kira was trying not to laugh out loud at his antics. And me, I was getting very irritated. I want to smack Inuyasha upside the head and make him go sit in a corner, but alas I knew better than to sink to his level, or to sink to a level just above his.
"It's starting." Kira said snapping me out of my thoughts, I was so far gone I had not noticed that Kira made Inuyasha sit down and shut up
I did not ponder on it too much because the show was starting. Kagome walked out on stage wearing a very nice black dress, not as dressy as the one she wore the other night, but still very nice. She looked almost sad as she stood there looking out at everyone, usually her songs told what mood she was in. Again before I could think too much into it, Kagome began to sing.
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"This is getting irritating, it seems I always 'just miss him', he's avoiding me! Kouga told him to avoid me today!" I thought as I stomped back towards the main bar, I was going to get some answers if it killed someone, namely Kouga
Kouga saw me coming, he was trying to sneak of into the back room, but I won't let him. I used my demon spe3ed and was in front of him within a second.
"I want to know what is going on, and you will tell me or I will kill you." I said as calmly as I could because I knew he found it unnerving to have me calm, people say that's when I act the worst
"I-I don't know what your talking about, Kira-chan." he said nervously, I could smell his fear and he knew it too
"Don't 'Kira-chan' me. I want to know everything that's going on otherwise I will be forced to hurt you very badly, and you know I can." I said glaring at him, he was really pissing me off now, and that is sooo not a good thing
"Really, I have no clue what your going on about." he said not even looking me in the eyes, he was lying beyond reason
"Your avoiding me, so is Miroku the one person you tell everything to. You stood me up last night and now you will not tell me why, I am getting impatient, and if you do not tell me soon there will be hell to pay." I snarled at him, he made me just that mad
I didn't even wait for him to answer before I left. I know I can be cruel, vindictive, and just plain mean, but I do not deserve to be treated like this, no one does. Is it just me or is everyone acting weird lately, life is just to complicated. I walked back towards the restaurant, that was the only place it seemed I could go right now.
"I hope Kagome-chan is still there, I really need to talk to her." I thought to myself as I walked, not really fast, but slow enough
It's selfish of me to think about relaying all of this to Kagome, she's going through her own stuff right now, it's just not right. Though I do really need to talk to someone about it..Sango? Would she listen to me and help me out? I have never went to her with a problem like this, maybe she could help me.
"Hai, I will talk to Sango." I resolved as I walked up to the door and pushed it open
As soon as I walked in I found my twin brother in a very amusing situation, well not really a situation, but it was still very amusing. Yura was trying her damnedest to get my brothers attention, and he was just ignoring her, which only made her try harder. I should really get him out of this, but do I really want to. Hai, I feel sorry for him.
"Sess-chan." I said as I walked up to him with a smile
"Kira, sit down and join me." was all he said as I sat myself across from him
"I will have a Dr. Pepper." I said to Yura with a little smirk, she just stomped off into the kitchen
"I see she still has a thing for you, ne?" I said teasing Sessy, it was always so much fun to do
"Obviously." he said going back to his food he seemed to have not been eating very much of when Yura was here
"Is Kagome-chan still here?" I asked trying to change the subject a bit, and I really wanted to know
"She left a few minutes ago. She seemed to have been in a bit of a hurry." he answered me without even looking up
"I guess I'll go and talk to Sango-chan then." I said and then stood up, but I did not get to leave because my brother decided to attach his hand to my arm
"Stay here until I leave." he said, not asked mind you, but if I didn't know any better I would say he had a bit of a pleading look in his eyes
"Fine, but you owe me." I said sitting back down
"You do not enjoy my company." he said trying his best to act hurt, of course I knew he was just playing with me like I have done to him so many times in the past
"Of course I don't, who would?" I asked in a playful tone
"Apparently many females, youkai and human both." he said, I knew his ego was big, but man this was too much
"Hai. I mean with that much money who wouldn't tolerate being around you?" I asked smirking at him
"Same with you sister dear, same with you." he said returning my own smirk
"Hmm.I do believe it is time for me to go. Enjoy your lunch, brother dear." I said once again standing up, but again my arm was grabbed before I could walk away
"You do know that this habit of yours will have to stop, right?" I asked looking over at him again
He did not answer me nor did he let go of my arm, so I just sat back down with him. He smirked as soon as I sat back down in my chair, he loves to win even though he does not often win when it comes to me.
"Is there a reason you are here? You rarely come down here to eat, so why today?" I asked curious as ever
"Must I tell you everything?" he asked not looking at me
"Yes." I said smiling even bigger than I was before
"What makes you believe that?" he asked finally looking up at me
"What makes you believe you can change the subject like that?" I asked, he always thinks he can just change the subject whenever he wants
"I was not changing the subject, I was asking a simple question." he answered me with that smug smile of his, I want to smack it right off of his pretty little face every time I see it, and one of these days I will
"Just answer my question." I said getting frustrated with him, today was not a good day and he was making it worse, and I was going to let him know it
"I just came here to eat, that is all." he said then took a sip of his water
"Just to eat? Are you sure about that?" I asked smirking at him once again, this was fun, the most fun I have had all day in fact
"Quite sure." he answered me in his annoyed tone, I'm the only one that could get him to use that tone, it was just for me, and it makes me happy
"Alright, I'll believe you for now." I said as I watched him eat his food, and believe me it is so very boring to sit there and watch someone eat, it is probably be more fun to sit and watch paint dry
I didn't say anything, I just sat there and watched him eat, taking his sweet time. I could always just get up and leave, but I'm not that cruel as to do something that would in the long run cause my brother to lose his mind. Well I would never be so cruel to do something to cause Sess-chan to lose his mind, but Inuyasha is a whole other story, and it gives me way too many ideas. After a few minutes I looked up to see that Sess was finally done eating and he was just taking a sip of his water, and I was so glad because I really didn't feel like sitting here anymore.
"Since you seem to be done eating, I want to leave now." I said and stood up, but this time he also stood up, but did not grab my arm
"I will see you later, I mean someone has to bring you dinner and drag you to the show tonight." I said as I gave him a kiss on the cheek
"Indeed." was all he said back to me, but I don't care, it's just how he is
"Don't work to hard, we wouldn't want you dying of a heart-attack anytime soon." I teased him as I watched him walk out the door simply waving his hand so I would know he heard me but really didn't care one lick about what I had said
I walked into the kitchen to spill all of my problems to Sango.
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I walked into the building, I have not been here for so long now. It has been almost a month and I felt very badly about it, my heart-ached even more than it had when I broke it off with Inuyasha. I walked down the hallway until I came to a door.
"Here I go." I thought to myself as I pushed the door open
I walked in looking around, but I could not find the two people I had come to see. They did not seem to be here, where could they have gone too? It had only been a month, they should still be here.
"Kagome-chan!?" two excited yells came from behind me
"Shippou, Rin." I said as I bent down and hugged the two children
"You have not come to see us in so long." Shippou said looking at me with tears in his eyes
"I am so sorry, I really wanted to come sooner, but I couldn't." I said looking down at the two children who were so close to crying, it made me feel even worse than I had before
"Can we leave with you soon?" Rin asked as she help onto my hand, gripping it tightly as if she was afraid that I would disappear
"Iie. I'm working on it though. Soon I will have a new bigger place to live, then they will let me take you home." I said trying to sound convincing, but I did not know if it was more for my sake or theirs
I watched as their faces seemed to brighten at the thought of leaving this place, and I could not blame them. They were both orphans, Shippou's parents had died, and Rin's had simply left her here when she was but two. I had been coming here at least once a week to be with them, my wish is to one day take them home with me, as my children. But I can not, for I do not make enough money, and I am not married. They do not seem to like the idea of single mothers. I thought having Inuyasha with me would help, I thought one day soon we would get married then I could have my perfect little family, but he had dashed my dreams like they were nothing, and the thing was he didn't even know it.
"Do you want to play with us Kagome-chan?" Shippou asked with big pleading eyes
"Of course." I said, I could never refuse them, one day I was going to spoil them rotten, well if I ever got the chance
"Yay!" they both chanted in union which made me smile
Those to had that effect, no matter what went wrong in my life, no matter how sad I was whenever I am around them my mood seems to lighten, and I love it. They are my children, and I am going to find a way to take them home with me, well take them when I get a home. I was starting to forget about that person, who had left that card. I can not possibly bring that kind of danger to my children, what have I been thinking. Am I so selfish that I had forgotten the safety of the two most important people in my life? I have been so wrapped up in myself lately that I forgot that I have a possible murderer sneaking into my home, no. Not my home anymore.
Before I could think more into this both of the children each grabbed one of my hands and led me over to a table that they seemed to have been playing tic-tac-toe at. I smiled at them and sat down as they resumed there game. While they played, I began to think again, think about how I was going to make my life to go right.
"My life will never be how I want it." I thought to myself as I watched the children play their little game, they were truly brother and sister now, they even got into little fights like real siblings do
I hate having to leave them here all by themselves, but there's nothing I can do. Maybe if I can make enough money they will over look me being single, but I don't know how I can do that either. I make a pretty good living for myself, and I have a fairly big savings, but it is still not enough to satisfy these people. It's like someone doesn't want me to be happy. I always thought about asking Kira to help me, but she does that so much already that it doesn't feel right to ask her.
"I need to figure this out on my own." I thought to myself making up my mind, I would find a way to get my children out of this place on my own
"Oh I brought something for you two." I said as I reached into my bag pulling out two stuffed animals and two lollipops
As soon as the two kids saw what I had brought them they were up from their seats and at my side. I handed them their presents and watched as Rin hugged her black cat plushie, and Shippou stuck the lollipop is his mouth right away. These two are my world and I will not let anyone take them away from me.
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After I ate lunch I went back to my office to work, but work is not what I did. I never have as much work as I say I do, really I just sit here and think. I think about how life can be so cruel, and how the people that deserve nothing have everything. Sure I have money, and I can have any woman I want, but I do not have love. That is right, I want to love. I want someone to love me, but that I fear will never happen. I push everyone away, the only exception being my sister. I have my reasons for this, but then again I wish I was not this way. I look at my sister, and even Inuyasha, and wonder how they can be so lucky to have found love. Granted my brother is a moron that could never actually love another person, no matter what he says. At least he has someone that he thinks he loves, and thinks loves him back even if she is a little tramp that only wants his money. Kira on the other hand has found her love, and one day soon she will be leaving me to be with him, and I will be left alone to rot away.
"How can I find my love? Do I even have a love out there?" I ask myself that every night, and I have yet to get an answer
I should not think about this though, it is not like me to care about such things. But it is like me, the only person ho knows the real me is my sister, and even she does not fully understand me. Kira knows everything about me, except for my jealousy that she has found something that I can not. My father found it twice, and yet I have not found it at all. I hear love can hurt so very bad, but I have never had a chance to feel it for myself. I would give anything to love, even just for a day, just a day of pure happiness.
"Sess-chan! The show is about to start so get your happy ass ready!" I could hear Kira yelling from in front of my office door, she was always bitchy before Kagome's shows, it made you think she was the one performing
"I will be ready shortly." I said back to her knowing she could hear even though I was not shouting like she did, I decided I would not fight her today, she insisted that Kagome had something planned for her show that I had to see
"Good, I'll be waiting outside." she said normally this time shutting the door again
I got up from my desk grabbing my jacket, I knew they would want to leave right after, and this time so did I. It has seemed lately I have been wanting to go home earlier at nights, and I did not work as much when I was there. The only reason I had work was because I never finished it here, and I always insisted upon doing most of the work around here. I made sure I had everything I would need to work on later at home and put it into my briefcase before I turned off my desk light and walked to the door. As soon as I opened the door and shut off the main light Kira was at my side, but there seemed to be something wrong with her.
"What is wrong?" I asked as we walked to the elevator
"Not a thing." she said as we stepped in
"I can tell when something is the matter with you, so you may as well tell me." I said turning to look at her, and that's when I noticed how close she was to crying
Kira never cried, not even as a child. She tried to be like me and show nothing was wrong, she tried to hide her inner turmoil, but now, now she seemed so weak and helpless.
"I-I. Kouga, he is keeping something from me. Something I feel is important, and I have no clue what to do." she said as the tears slowly came from her eyes rolling down her cheeks
I never learned how to comfort someone, not all the way at least. Usually I would only have to touch Kira to make her feel better, but now I am not so sure that it would work. I did the only thing I could think of, the only thing my body would let me do. I hugged her. I pulled her close to me and smoothed her hair out while she cried into my chest. The only person I had left to live for was crying because of her love, and that made me think that maybe love isn't as great as I thought it was. I knew I thought even if it hurt it was still something I wanted, but afte2r seeing my sister like this I am not sure that I want it anymore.
"It will be alright." I said trying to comfort her, knowing I was doing little to make her feel better, but this is all that I can do for her
She did not answer me, she just kept crying. It hurt me to see her like this, and it was all Kouga's fault, I thought he was good enough for my sister, not all I wanted to do was rip his insides out. How could someone make such a perfect and loving creature feel like this. So maybe she was not as perfect as I like to believe, but she did not deserve the way she is treated. Kouga had not been her first boyfriend, or fiancée for that matter, over the hundreds of years that we had been alive she has been in love many times, but she always ended up being the one who was hurt. They only wanted her money and power, and her beauty was an added bonus, but we figured them out. I thought she had found someone that could take care of her and treat her with respect, but that is not so.
"We should get downstairs and cheer Kagome-chan on." Kira said taking her head off of my chest smiling up at me, it pained me to that smile for I knew it was not real, her eyes were filled with pain, so much pain
"Hai. Let us go." I said softening my voice, but only for her, and that earned me a real smile, which in turn made me smile
"I like it when you smile. It reminds me of when we were children." Kira said as she pressed the button on the elevator and grabbed my hand
"Then I shall try and smile more often, but only for you." I said keeping the smile I had so that she may keep hers even if it was just for a while
"Arigato Sess-chan, that makes me happy." she said smiling even more
"Dou itashimashite, Kira-chan." I said then hear her gasp and I knew why, I had not called her Kira-chan in so long that I could not even remember
"Do not sound so surprised." I said laughing at the face she was making, we acted how true siblings should act, and I loved every minute of it
She did not say anything again, she was almost to quiet to be my sister. Even with her smiling I knew there was something on her mind, but I did not want to pry, I just wanted to make her happy.
"Come, I believe we have a show to see." I said earning another smile from my sister and a nod
The elevator came to a stop and we stepped out, the lobby was filled with people. Ever since Kagome had begun to sing here we had gotten more business, which was a good thing most of the time. Not that we were not popular before she arrived, we were and still are the top casino in Tokyo. Kagome just made everything more pleasant.
"It's about to start." Kira said tugging at my arm like a child would do to it's parents
"Then let us find a table." I said as I began walking towards the front of the stage
They were setting everything up still so I sat down at a table in the front that everybody knew was off limits, being the owner had it's benefits besides a lot of money. Beside me I could hear Kira giggling at something, so Looked up and fount the source of her amusement it was, out little brother trying to get the attention of his wench that was across the room flirting with a table full of men, most likely rich.
"You did something." I said looking at Kira who gave me that look she used when she wanted to act innocent
"I have no clue what you are talking about Sess-chan." she said looking towards the stage trying not to make eye contact with me, she only did this when she was lying to me, but still even then she looked me in the eye most of the time, so this must have been something bad
"I will let this slide, but only until we get home." I told her as I too looked towards the stage, they must have been running a bit late tonight because the show usually started by now
"Kira! What did you do!?" a voice recognized as that of my little brothers could be heard shouting from across the room
Apparently Inuyasha had just noticed Kira was here, or he had just noticed what she did to him. Either way he was being very loud about it, and Kira was trying not to laugh out loud at his antics. And me, I was getting very irritated. I want to smack Inuyasha upside the head and make him go sit in a corner, but alas I knew better than to sink to his level, or to sink to a level just above his.
"It's starting." Kira said snapping me out of my thoughts, I was so far gone I had not noticed that Kira made Inuyasha sit down and shut up
I did not ponder on it too much because the show was starting. Kagome walked out on stage wearing a very nice black dress, not as dressy as the one she wore the other night, but still very nice. She looked almost sad as she stood there looking out at everyone, usually her songs told what mood she was in. Again before I could think too much into it, Kagome began to sing.
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