InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Love Is... ❯ Christmas Season ( Chapter 19 )

Here we are chapter 19. It's not that long, but the next one will be. This is about 6 months after the last chapter, everyone said it was going to slow so I sped it up. Please R&R.

EDIT: Due to a review that I did take as a flame, bigs words do not make it a non-flame. I checked over my chapter AGAIN and fixed the spelling mistakes, well all that I could.

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WARNING: I no longer have spell check, so spelling is horrible. Lemon will be in later chapters, just not this one.

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DISCLAIMER: I do not own Inuyasha. I do however own Kira and this plot, so no stealing!

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"I can't believe that Christmas is almost here. This is my favorite holiday." I said sighing as I laid back on Kira's bed

We had been out shopping all day, we wanted to get a head start on Christmas shopping this year. We just got back and now we had begun wrapping the presents while Sesshoumaru was out.

"Same here. I love this holiday, Sesshoumaru is a different story though." Kira said as she wrapped the present she had gotten for her brother

"Why's that?" I asked, not thinking that may be something painful

"It was our mothers favorite holiday, she always got dressed up and made such a big deal out of it." Kira had stopped wrapping and looked over at me with a sad smile on her face

"Sesshoumaru loved the holiday up until mother was gone. After that he sort of just acted like it was any other day." She said and then turned back to her task

It was a painful reason. I knew I shouldn't have asked but I was not thinking about it until after everything was said and done. I was going to get Sesshoumaru a present even though I do not know what to give him, but now I am not so sure that he would want one. Still, Kira did get him something so that must mean that he does get still except presents from her so maybe he would except one from me.

"My mother loved Christmas to, she loved getting the whole family together. After she left I decided that it was not just her holiday but my own, so now I celebrate it by myself." It seemed we were a lot alike, yet so different in what we do

Sesshoumaru acts like a certain day does not exist because his mother is not here to celebrate it with him, but I celebrate it even though my mother isn't here.

"I am getting to big to sit on the floor like this. It hurts like hell getting up sometimes." Kira sighed as she laid down on the floor

"You're not that big yet, actually you are considered to be little in the eyes of most women." I have been telling her almost the same thing for two months now

"I know, and the bigger I get the better. I heard it all but I can't help it I feel so tired with the extra weight." she whined still laying on the floor

"Why don't you put those packages away and take a nap. I will wake you up when dinner is ready, we might as well eat here tonight since we don't have to work." I said as I stood up and reached my hand down for her to grab

"You're going to cook? Okay, I don't feel like going out anyway." Kira said then grabbed my hand

After a little struggle Kira was on her feet putting her bags in the closet

"I'll be back to wake you up soon." I said as I walked out the door and shut it as quietly as possible

I walked into the kitchen and to my surprise Sesshoumaru was there sitting at the table drinking some tea.

"Hello Sesshoumaru." I greeted as I walked closer to the table

"Hello Kagome. How is my sister fairing?" He asked as he looked up at me

"Okay for the most part, she's taking a nap at the moment." I said as I pulled a chair out and sat down next to him

We had been getting along, but it was awkward. Since he kissed me that's almost all I can think about, I find myself forgetting lyrics just minutes before a show starts because of it. We had not talked about it, and I never thought we would, it was just a harmless kiss between friends, if that's what we are.

"That is good. She needs to rest more, she does to much still." he said looking down at his cup, he was worried about her

"I think she can handle it, she's just complaining to get extra attention from us. She likes being pampered even if she knows it won't last very long." I said as I looked into his amber eyes

Those eyes could capture the heart of the coldest being on Earth, they always seemed so icy, but if you look deep enough then you can see the fiery passion that they hold.

"I know, but I cannot help feeling that something bad is going to happen to her. I cannot lose my sister like I did my mother. I would be alone if I did."

I was shocked to say the least at that outburst of raw emotion. Sesshoumaru was always known for hiding everything he felt, burying it deep inside his soul so that no one could see what he held within his thoughts and within his heart.

"Nothing will happen to me, so quit worrying."

I turned in my seat to see Kira standing at the door looking at her brother with her softest smile that she reserved only for her twin.

"I cannot. Any and everything could go wrong, I will not lose you." Sesshoumaru said looking up at his sister trying to sound resolved in the issue

"Nothing is going to happen, plenty of human women go through the exact same thing and they come out of it just fine." Kira tried to reason, she was right it was unlikely that something would happen, but Sesshoumaru also had a point

"You are not human and neither is he." Sesshoumaru countered

"Nothing will happen because I am not human. This is normal, our mother went through it with two of us and she was fine, I am only having one."

This conversation was on the verge of someone yelling or breaking something. They seemed to forget that I was here and I was thinking about leaving and letting them talk in private, but that was also rude to leave without saying anything.

"Our mother was different." Sesshoumaru said quietly, Kira struck a nerve with her last remark

"Are you saying that I am not as strong as her?" Kira asked almost seething at the thought of being called weak when she was anything but

"Of course not." Sesshoumaru tried to calm her down, but his efforts were not working

"That is exactly what you are saying. I am just as strong as her, maybe even stronger." Kira said standing up and running to her room

A second later I heard her door slam, she was in a weak state and this did not help anything. Her emotions were all out of whack to begin with, but the what Sesshoumaru said made it even worse.

"I try to protect her but I end up hurting her even more. I know she is not weak, but I cannot help but to think it when I see her like she is. She is my sister and the only true family that I have, I do not want to lose that."

There is was again, Sesshoumaru sharing what he was feeling.

"I know you want to protect her, but try letting her protect herself for once. That is all she wants, that is all she ever wanted to prove that she does not always need you to keep her safe and to take care of her. She wants to prove that she will be all right by herself without being alone." I tried to explain to him everything Kira had told me

She wanted to prove that she could survive on her won even if she did not need to. She was not a fragile little girl who needs someone to look out for her all of the time, she is a woman who can take care of herself.

"I know, but I need her to need me."

I did not know what to say, he showed more of his feelings tonight than he had the whole time I have lived here with him. I did the only thing I could half think of, I put my hand over his on the table and squeezed it hoping he would know what I was trying to say.

"I need to go think. Thank you for listening to me." Sesshoumaru said as he stood up, before I could move my hand he picked it up and kissed it gently

I could not muster any words, but then he was gone when I finally got my though process back. Even though it was only a little kiss on the hand, it meant more than the one we shared at the beach.

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I walked down the hall and stood in front of her door, I opened it without bothering to knock first. I could hear her crying and it was eating away at me. She knew I had entered, but did not bother to look up at me. I was always doing things to upset her when I say that I am only trying to protect her. Who am I really trying to protect, me or her?

I sat down next to her on her bed, she did not move so I picked her up and settled her in my arms, she was crying to much to fight it.

"At least pretend that you need me a little." I whispered in her ear

She grabbed onto me and began to sob into my shirt, I had no idea that her being here with me was hurting her like this. My own selfishness was causing her so much pain and suffering. I stayed there until she fell asleep then I laid her down on her bed and tucked her in like our mother use to do. I walked out of the room as quietly as I could, I needed to get out of here, but everywhere I go it is Christmas. Even at the Casino we have a tree and decorations, Kira had talked me into it since she loved this holiday so much.

This year was different for me though, I had gotten someone a present, actually four people. Tomorrow my little sister would be getting married, so her gift counts for two things. The others present would be coming tonight, Christmas Eve as I promised. I needed to get everything set up, but the thought of my sister crying herself to sleep like that made me not want to do any of this. The wedding had been planned for almost a month, and my present had been planned far before that. When I walked past the kitchen I heard Kagome humming as she cooked, that is when I knew I could leave, Kagome would take the best care of my sister.

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"Kira-chan?" I opened my eyes at the sound of a voice

I had fallen asleep with my brother with me, but now he was gone.

"Hai." I answered as I fought a bit to sit up

"Dinner is ready, and I was thinking that maybe if you feel up to it we could go to the Christmas party tonight." Kagome said from the door

I knew she had been wanting to go, I told her to go without me over ten times but she said no, that she did not want to go out and have fun while I was stuck at home all night.

"That would be nice." I said even surprising myself

"I'll go set the table while you get dressed." she said shutting the door

I have been a wreck lately, me and Sesshoumaru have been fighting a lot and that was unusual considering how close we are to one another. I have not been to work in weeks and I am feeling suffocated again. My brother is worrying so much about me and he has no need to, I know he worries because he loves me and he does not want to be alone, but I know that I am going to be just fine. I am getting married tomorrow and my whole family will be there, but the one person that I need will just be thinking about all of the bad things instead of being happy for me.

"Food. Good." I said as I stood up

My legs were sore along with every other part of my body. I wish men could feel this pain, that would be a trick. Men giving birth, an even bigger trick, but it would be worth the humility of becoming a magician.

"I need light-up slippers." I found myself saying when I tripped over a book on the floor

When I finally made it to my door, only falling on my butt once, I opened it and walked out automatically smelling the food coming from the kitchen. Actually it seemed to be coming from every part of the house, and it smelt so good. It was nice having someone in the house who could actually cook.

"Feeling better?" Kagome asked as I sat down at the already set table

"Well, my legs hurt, my feet are sore, I feel like a blimp, and I have the feeling that I will be getting sick very soon. So how are you?" I answered half bitterly, lately everything has been coming out sounding that way

"I burned my hand, that's about it." Kagome said as she set a pot of something down in the middle of the table

"What is it?" I asked as I looked down into the pot, whatever it was it smelt very good

"Chicken Alfrado. My mother use to make it, she had a lot of cook books lying around."

"My mother never really cooked. She never learned how to, she was raised wth servants and after she married my father she had no need to cook because he had his own chef." I said remembering the time that my mother tried to make me breakfast that resulted in a fire

"My mother learned to cook from her mother. She believed in being a housewife and nothing else, she thought working was just for men and my mother believed the same thing." Kagome said as she served up the food

"It's sad how our mothers never got the chance to be independent. If only they had what we have and knew what we now know then I think they would have been much happier and may have stayed around." I've always believed in women's rights and woman being whatever they wanted

"I know exactly what you mean. I always thought that if my mother knew what I did that she would have found a job she loved and she would have stayed with us and we could have been the family she deserved to be. She thought I was clueless with my dreams of becoming a singer, but she was really the clueless one." Kagome said raising her voice as she got angry with her mother for leaving

I felt the same why when my mother left, but by now I've learned to deal with it and hide those feelings somewhere where they would never be found unless I wanted them to be.

The rest of dinner was pretty quiet, we talked about my wedding tomorrow because though I resent her I wanted my wedding to be on her favorite day, just to spite her to tell her I grew up just fine without her. After dinner I told Kagome I would clean up, it's not like there was a very big mess anyway, Kagome was neat when she cooked.

"I'm done." I called when the last dish was washed

Kagome had gone to get ready for the party while I cleaned thing up and then it was my turn to get dressed. I didn't feel much like going out anymore but I did promise and I was not one to break my promises.

"I'll grab our coats while you get ready. Sesshouamru is probably already there." Kagome said as she walked out from the hallway

She wore the same dress she did at my fathers party all of those months ago. My father had no idea about my baby or me getting married and neither did Inuyasha. If Inuyasha knew then my father would know and I would be getting a little visit and a big talk from him that I did not want nor need.

"I'll be done in a few minutes." I said as I walked to my room to get dressed

As I looked through my closet I realized that I didn't have a dress that would even come close to fitting me. I did not bother buying fancy maternity dresses since I did not want to go out looking like this in case I ran into Inuyasha or anyone else that knew him I could not chance him finding out about my baby. I looked through my closet ten times before I remembered I went to my bed. I got on my needs with much work and reached under my bed, after a minute or two of searching I finally found what I was looking for. It was a kimono that my mother had made for me a long time ago. It was supposed to be the one I wore when I was presented to the court, but I never went so therefor it had never been worn.

It was made of fine silk and satin, my mother always loved soft fabrics and thought you should always be dressed in your best because you never knew when a man would come along to sweep you off your feet. I dressed as fast as I could and being as big as me made it that much harder. Three layers and two minutes later I was wearing a beautiful black and gold kimono made for a princess, and of course it was.

"I'm ready." I called as I stepped out of my room

Kagome was waiting by the front door with my coat in her hand. I could see her jaw drop even before it did.

"Wow, that kimono is amazing." she said as she looked it over

"I had nothing else that would fit so this had to do." I said casually though I knew it was amazing

"Well, everyone will love it." Kagome said as she grabbed the keys off of the table

"Now let's go." she said with a smile before bouncing out the door

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Everything was set up now. All I have to do is wait for them to arrive and it should play out perfectly. This was the hardest present to hide, it took a lot of work and money but in the end it would be worth it just to see the look on their faces. This holiday was never really my favorite even more so when my mother left, but this year I felt a need to get these presents. My sister has been through so much these past few months, and all I have done was make it worse for her. I made my little sister cry and that is something that I could never forgive myself for.

"Sesshoumaru-sama? When will Kagome-chan be here?" a small voice brought me out of my thoughts and back to reality

"Soon, very soon."

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That's it, sorry about the cliffy but I wanted one so there it is. I'm sorry about how long this is taking me to update but I have a new laptop so I should be updating faster, I just need to get use to writing again. The next chapter is planned out, everyone will love it I think. Chapter 21 will be Kira's wedding, I know people are going to wonder who she's marrying, Kouga, Hiten, or someone else, well I'm not telling.