InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Love Is... ❯ Pre-Wedding Jitters ( Chapter 21 )

e I cannot believe that my wedding is already here. I also cannot believe how big my dress has to be so that I can fit into it. This would have been so much easier if we had done this a few months ago, but he wanted to wait, and so did I. I feel like I am going to throw up, and I don't think it's from morning sickness. I never really thought about getting married, not after Nico died, even when he was alive I knew I would never really be able to marry him. This was all just so fast and so crazy.

"Kira-chan, are you okay?" Kagome asked me from the door

She had been helping me get ready, but she left to check on the children, they had been up most of the night, so they slept in. Children.

"I'm not ready for this!" I thought I said it to myself, but from the face Kagome gave me I knew I didn't

"Not ready for what?" she asked as she came closer to me

"I-I'm not ready to be a wife, and I am really not ready to be a mother." I said as I sat down on my bed

Kagome sat down next to me, putting her arm around my neck in a hug. She really was like a sister to me, comforting me like she was a part of my family, the family that cared.

"Shh, it's okay. Of course you're ready for this, it just may not seem like it right now," Kagome rocked me.

"Who am I kidding? I haven't even grown up yet, in five hundred years I have managed to maintain the mind of a six year old." I said, trying not to cry, but these damn hormones are killing me.

"Kira-chan, you may have the mind of a six-year-old, but you have the heart of someone who has seen her share of heart breaks, and managed to get through everyone of them, and become stronger. You will be the best mother anyone could ever ask for." Kagome said.

I could see the tears forming in her eyes. Neither one of us really had a mother, that is another reason I know that I will never be a good mother to my child. I did not know how to be one, I never had a chance to learn.

"I just don't want to disappoint her." I said while rubbing my buldging belly.

"That would and could never happen. You could not disappoint her even if you tried." Kagome said then reached over and grabbed some tissues off of my dresser.

She handed them to me and kept one for herself, and as soon as we dried our eyes we began to laugh.

"How silly are we being, crying like little girls. This is suppose to be a happy day, with happy crying, not blubbering like idiots." I said trying to cheer myself and Kagome up, but I still had my doubts.

"Hai, very silly. I should go and get Shippou and Rin ready, they are still in bed." Kagome said and stood up.

She bent down and gave me another hug before she left.

"Silly indeed."

* * * * * * * * * * * Kagome's POV * * * * * * * * * * *

As soon as I walked out of Kira's room and shut the door, a hand snaked around my waist.

"How are you fairing today?" a silky voice sounded in my ear.

"I am fairing very well, thank you." I said, still trying to keep the tears hidden from my crying session with Kira

"You have been crying, what happend?" Sesshoumaru asked as he turned me to face him.

"I'ts nothing, Kira and I just had a little talk." I tried to sound cheerful again and smile like I normally do, but it did not work like I had wanted.

"What did you two talk about?"

"Nothing that I am at liberty to tell you. It's just girl talk anyway, nothing you would be interested in." I said airily, waving my hand in the air to make my point.

He seemed to get that I did not want to talk about it because he gave a small nod and then kissed me.

"I have to wake the children up and get them ready." I said as soon as the kiss was over, to my own disappointment.

"I will make breakfast for everyone." he said then kissed my cheek.

He walked down the hall and into the kitchen, which I was glad because if he didn't he would have heard the giggle I couldn't help but let out. I loved having someone to pamper me, and shower me with kisses. Inuyasha did the same thing, for about a day. After he met Kikyou, she was all that mattered.

"No use in thinking about that, it's a happy day and you have three special people to spend it with." I thought to myself.

Now in a better mood, I walked to my room and opened the door as quietly as I could. I walked in and found Rin and Shippou still asleep, and they looked so cute wrapped up in my big blanket, heads burried under the pillows. I stood above the bed for a second and watched them before I shook Rin slightly.

"Rin, wake up sweety. It's time to get dressed for Kira-chan's wedding." I said as I shook her arm one more time.

She sat up and looked at me through very tired eyes.

"I'm sleepy." she said as she yawned.

"I'll tell you what. If you get up and wake Shippou up, after you eat and get dressed then you two can sleep until we get to where the wedding is." I said, hoping she would say yes instead of falling backwards and going back to sleep like I thought she would probably do.

"Okay." she said and then got up out of bed.

"Good. I'll go and get your clothes, you two go and eat, I'll leave the clothes on the bed while I get ready." I said, kissing the little girl on the forehead before I left the room to get the clothes that I had just bought.

I grabbed the clothes off of the couch in the living room and headed back to my room to get myself ready, when on the way, Rin and Shippou came running down the hall, more awake than I thought they would be.

"I can't believe Kira's getting married and moving out, I'll miss seeing her tease Sesshoumaru every morning." I sighed to myself.

Things were good as of late, my jobs were going good, I got over Inuyasha (well, as much as can be expected, but it's getting easier now ^.~), and now more so because I have my children with me. But now one of my best-friends is moving out and starting her own life, and I'm happy for her, but I will still miss her and our late night talks.

"It's not like I won't see her at work, no one can pry her away from her job."

I walked over to my closet and stepped inside and over to were I hung up my brides maid dress. It was a strapless crimson dress that went down to my ankles, but it had a slit on the left side that went up mid thigh. I carefully pulled it off of the hanger and walked out of the closet and into my room. I laid the dress on my bed next to the childrens clothes and went about putting my hair up. I put my hair into a bun, securing it with read and black chop sticks that my mother had given to me, leaving a few strands hanging around my face.

"Hm. Should I wear make-up?" I asked myself as I looked down at my make-up covered vanity.

"Nah." I decided that this would be a day to actually show my face.

I took off my jeans and tank-top as I walked back to the bed. I grabbed the dress and slipped it on, smoothing it out as I looked at myself in the mirror.

"Well, this is as good as it's going to get." I murmured.

"Kasaan looks so pretty." I heard Rin say.

"Hai!" Shippou joined in as they walked over to where I stood infront of my mirror.

"Are you two done with breakfast?" I asked as I turned around to see their smiling faces.

The both nodded, it seems that they were still tired and now that they ate they wanted to go back to bed.

"As soon as you get dressed you can go back to sleep." I said pointing at the bed where I had left their clothes.

They made their way to the bed and grabbed their clothes as I finished looking at myself to make sure I didn't forget anything. After I was done I looked at the bed to find two very asleep children.

"At least they're dressed."

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After about another hour or so we left for the casino. Kira was almost ready, she just needed to put her dress on, but we decided that she would put it on when we got there. The children were asleep in the back seat, along with Kira. She had falled asleep shortly after we left. Sesshoumaru was hard to figure out, he didn't seem happy, but he also didn't seem un-happy. He was just sort of....here.

"Well, his only sister IS getting married today." I reasoned with myself, but I still thought that he should look happier.

The whole car ride was silent, and a bit un-easy, so I was happy when we pulled into the casinos parking lot.

"We're here." I called to the sleepy people in the back

Shippou mumbled something, but got up anyway, as did Rin. Kira on the other hand did not get up, she just waved her hand and buried her head deeper into the seat.

"Kira, this is your wedding, get out of the car." Sesshoumaru said as he opened the back door.

With a glare and a kick (both directed at Sesshoumaru), Kira finally got out of the car.

"Okay, I'm awake." she said and then walked towards the door

"I'm going to help Kira-chan get dressed. Take the Rin and Shippou somewhere that they can sleep." I said, pointing to the very sleepy children that were about to fall down.

"That would be best." Sesshoumaru said, then lead the children towards the casino doors.

I couldn't help but smile at the site before me. Sesshoumaru holding Rin in his arms while Shippou held his free hand.

"He would make such a great father." the thought kind of snuck up on me, but I had to agree with it, he would make a great father.

I grabbed Kira's dress from the trunk as well as her make-up bag before I finally made my way into the casino. I walked to my dressing room, Kira was already there sitting infront of my mirror.

"Okay, time to get dressed." I said happily.

* * * * * * * * * * * Sesshoumaru's POV * * * * * * * * * * *

I had taken the children to my office and told them to sleep on my couch as I went to my desk and saw a pile of work that I had not gotten done the day before. It was unusal for me to leave a pile of un-finished work lying around to just grow bigger, but lately I did not care.

Since I met Kagome, and really gotten to know her, I have found myself (as most would say) removing the stick from my ass.

Take today as an example. Normally I would have tried to talk my sister out of getting married, because I did not want her to leave me to be alone. Kagome changed that. I still do not want Kira to leave, but with Kagome there, I can deal with it.

"I wonder how the groom is fairing." that was a lie.

I did not care how he was doing, I just wanted to make sure he would not leave my sister standing there looking like an idiot for agreeing to marry him in the first place. If he did, he would die a very, very painfully slow death. I walked towards the door, but stopped with some sort of need to see the children before I left. They slept so peacefully, like nothing could ever hurt them, and I envied that.

"Sleep well." I whispered, and without realizing it at the time, kissed them both on the foreheads.

I walked in the elevator and went down to the lobby. Everything for the reception was being set up already, and everyone was running around fussing over every little thing. As I looked around I saw him, the one that was to marry my only sister, and I wanted to rip his head off.

"Oi." I called out to him as I walked closer to where he was sitting, most of the way dressed for the wedding

"Hey Sesshoumaru, to what do I owe this pleasure?" he asked with an annoying smile on his face, I really want to kill him.

"We need to have a little talk."