InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Love ❯ Monster ( Chapter 4 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

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Love
Chapter Four: Monster
"I know..."
Kagome looked at her sister, she was confused. She knows what, if she was trying to tell her sister a revelation that she stumbled upon it would be very kind of her to elaborate.
"I'm sorry Kikyo...I'm confused. You know what, what do you know."
There was a pregnant pause. Kikyo looked down at her hands where she was twisting her napkin, for some reason she was actually having a hard time saying this. She just wanted to say it and get it over with. She wanted to tell her sister that she knew that while she was away for work that Inuyasha and her were having an affair behind her back.
"Oh I get it, you know that Kouga left me. Yea, it was quite dramatic. He yelled at me in front of Miroku, made me give back the ring, and he wants me to wait until he's at work to come and get my stuff. He has this crazy idea that I was sleeping with somebody else."
"Shut up...don't even try to play."
Kagome was quite taken aback by her sister's words. Kikyo looked at Kagome, and there were tears forming in her eyes.
"What I meant by me knowing, is that I know that you've been sleeping with Inuyasha...my husband. Kagome he married me...not you."
Instantly Kagome turned her head and looked down, she was embarrased.
"I'm the one who had those pictures taken, I'm the one who had them sent to Kouga's office. I wanted you to suffer, the way I am suffering now. Did you know Inuyasha left me, he's not at home he's staying at some stupid hotel. I'm afraid he's going to file for divorce."
There was silence between the two sisters. Kagome didn't know what to say except that she was sorry.
"Kikyo, I'm sorry. I never meant for all of this to happen. But there is no way Inuyasha would leave you for me, he loves you too much, you're all he talks about."
"He talks about me while you two sleep together? That's really what I want to hear..."
"KIKYO! We talk, we talk more than we have done...that."
"Whatever..."
"Believe me Kikyo, if he was going to leave you for me, he would have done that a long time ago."
Kikyo stopped and stare at her, how long have they been sleeping together.
"How long has this been going on?"
Kagome lowered her eyes again and swallowed a piece of sushi.
"For three years..."
Kikyo, looked at her sister, she just wanted to grab the butter knife and stab her to death right there, how could she. How could Inuyasha...her soul mate.
"You fucking whore!" With that Kikyo stood up throwing the napkin to the ground and stormed out of the restaurant. Kagome quickly layed some money out on the table and chased after her sister. She reached the parking lot when she heard and saw her sisters car speed by.
One Week Later
It had been a week since the confrontation between Kikyo and Kagome, she hadn't heard from Kikyo or Inuyasha since that day. And she hadn't the heart to tell Miroku about it either, for saying it out loud would be like admitting that she ruined her sisters marriage with the man that she loved, the one person that she was sure she would take a bullet for. She had been thinking ever since then, and she was still pondering about that night as she sat in the abortion clinic waiting for the doctor to call her name.
Ever since she had walked into the clinic she could feel the butterfly's rapidly move in her stomach. She was nervous, Miroku had gone down the street to get a cappacino while she waited.
To relax hopefully she had begun to listen more closely to the radio playing music.
She tried to ignore the feeling of butterfly's in her stomach, but they wouldn't go away. She was starting to wonder if maybe it could tell that she was choosing to end it's life before it began.
Tears were pricking at the back of her eye balls, she hated herself. But she had no other choice, she couldn't very well keep this mistake that was the result of the actions that destroyed her sister's marriage.
She thought back to the first time she and Inuyasha had lost themselves in each other. It was the first time Kikyo went over seas, and it was two or three days after she had turned eighteen. They were hanging out at his house, just relaxing and talking. When suddenly he started to lightly cry, he confided in her that he was lonely and that he didn't know if he could stand it everytime she went away. She had pulled him close to her and she promised that she would always be there for him whenever she went away, if he needed her all he had to do was call her. It was then that he has kissed her and pulled her to the floor where he would deflower her.
An hour after their first kiss, their first time together, he was on his hands and knees cleaning up the bloody mess that she had left on his kitchen floor. He cleaned it up while she sat in the corner watching him with tears prickling at her eyes...when he had heard her cry out in pain when he first submerged himself in her he had smirked a little. He told her that he had thought that she had at least once done it with Kouga.
Her hand flew to her stomach as she felt one butterfly fly across her stomach near the surface, and that's when her tears began to fall.
Her mind then quickly flashed back to that day, where she knew they had crossed the line, more so than just sleeping with each other. He had just reached his point that day, when he looked down at her and whispered into her ear. "I wish I would have married you." Later that night she had told him that he didn't know what he was talking about and that he loved Kikyo and that's just how it was.
I am a monster. She thought to herself, she was going to kill this baby, this living thing, before it even had a chance. She realized that she may have made a mistake by sleeping with this man, and that the conception may have been a mistake, but this baby. This baby did absolutley nothing wrong to deserve what was about to happen to it.
Miroku had just stepped into the door when she had made up her mind. Standing up with her hand on her stomach she went to the desk.
"I've changed my mind, but go ahead and keep the money." Kagome turned around and walked towards Miroku and told him.
"I'm keeping the baby, the thing didn't do anything wrong, it's my mistake not it's, so it should not be punished for my mistake."
Miroku smiled as he followed her out the door, he knew she would change her mind. Kagome was too kind hearted to do such a thing to an innocent.
"So are you going to tell Inuyasha?"
"That is a good question, but I don't know. I have already wrecked their marriage enough, with the information Kikyo has right now, they may be able to mend their relationship, but this. No. Inuyasha would for sure leave her to help me with the baby."
"You didn't tell me that she knew."
"Well she's the reason why Kouga knew..."
Miroku nodded his head in understanding, but before he could say anything Kagome's cell phone went off playing Hey There Dahlila.
"It's Inuyasha...Hello."
Miroku couldn't hear what he was saying but he knew that he was probably asking her to come run to his side because he needed her. Miroku climbed into the driver's seat of his car before Kagome was off of the phone. When she climbed into the passenger seat she was already off of the phone.
"Do you think we could stop by that hotel on Iron and see Inuyasha, he has something he needs to tell me."
Miroku nodded his head and drove into the direction of Iron street.
Ten Minutes Later
Miroku parked the car and Kagome climbed out of the car, and proceeded towards the room Inuyasha had told her he would be in. She stopped at door number six and knocked. Not even two seconds went by before Inuyasha opened the door. Before Kagome could step into the room, Inuyasha yanked her into the room.
Laughing Kagome smiled and opened her mouth to speak once Inuyasha had closed the door.
"So...why did you leave her?"
Inuyasha paused to sit down on the bed and looked up at Kagome, she was absolutley beautiful to him. Perfect. With her long curly black hair pulled up into a ponytail...wearing some slacks and a black blouse. Now that he and Kikyo were having a rough patch, that came after the small calm from their last rough patch, he was seriously thinking of leaving her, he had already contacted a lawyer. The last four years, since Kikyo had really started getting her feet off the ground with the modeling, they had been fighting more and more. Now he knows that she doesn't even want to have kids...he was confused. Right now he just wanted to get away, and he wanted to take Kagome with him to get his mind off of things. Which is exactly why he had asked Kagome to come and see him really quick, before she got busy, because he was sure she had some homework still from school that was assigned before they were let out for winter break.
"I haven't really left her...yet...I just..."
"So you are going to leave her?"
"I don't know Kagome, I'm just confused, we were fighting, we've been fighting for a while."
"What are you fighting about, the fact that she's gone a lot, that's not really that bad...because you know that if you were to just ask her she would stay in the states, and even turn some shoots down for you!"
"She doesn't want to fucking have kids!"
Kagome paused, so she had finally told him. She could see it now, she probably told him about how she didn't want to ruin her body, she winced because she remembered Kikyo's opinion on children.
"I'm sorry, Inuyasha." She again looked away, she felt bad for not telling him sooner herself, for she had always known Kikyo's opinion on having children.
"You knew didn't you?"
Shaking her head she said yes.
"It wasn't my place, she had always said that she didn't want children, and for a while I had thought that she had already told you but then you started bringing up the subject of children, and I thought that she needed to be a woman and tell you the truth herself."
Inuyasha shook his head, and he didn't want to get into this so much because he just wanted to ask her if she would go with him on this upcoming business trip, she was out of school for the rest of the month and a little into January, so he should be able to get her to stay with him for a month. The business was only a weekend but he needed more time away, even if it meant missing Christmas with Kikyo, nothing she could say, in a way they were separated for the moment and she had missed a Christmas before.
"I actually called you here to ask you a question and discuss some things with you."
"Oh hold on let me text Miroku and let him know that I will take a cab back to the house because he's outside waiting for me."
Inuyasha nodded his head and watched her as she did so, then slip her phone back into her purse.
"Okay, well I'm going away on a business trip this weekend, and I wanted to stay away longer than that for maybe a month or just a couple of weeks, and I was wondering if maybe you would come with me."
"Oh I don't know..."
"It's China, come on I need a getaway and I need you to help me keep my mind off of this, isn't eating me alive..."
Kagome stared at him, and remembered that she still hadn't told him why Kouga left her, hadn't told him that Kikyo confronted her about their affair. Now would probably be the time.
"Inuyasha, do you know why Kouga left me, did Kikyo tell you?"
"No, I figured maybe he was getting into his father's business too much, and he's got school on the side, and you're going to school. But if there is a real reason, then what is it?"
"Kikyo...she umm...well how do I say this. I can't believe that she didn't say anything to you. Well Kikyo, she knows that we've been sleeping together, and she sent pictures of you and I...together...on your couch, to Kouga. Kouga was furious, and he broke up with me, in front of Miroku. He demanded that he have his ring back, and then he told me that he never wanted to see my face again." Kagome almost wasn't able to finish what she was saying before she broke down, she fell to her knees crying. Inuyasha, instantly gathered her up into his arms and began whispering sweet nothings into her ear.
"So Kikyo, ruined your relationship with Kouga? But she didn't say anything to me, she was going to just stay with me and pretend that she didn't know?"
"I'm assuming that she expected me to tell you why Kouga left me, and break it off with you. I didn't know what to do, because by the time she told me that she was the one that gave the photo's to Kouga, you had already left her. But she made it sound like you were leaving her for me, but I told her that wasn't possible..."
"Shh...let's just forget about this, come with me, come to China. We can get away, spend sometime together, you need time away and I do to. By the time we come back you'll have school to go back to, and if me and Kikyo haven't worked anything out yet, then I want you to move in with me."
Kagome was speechless, she wasn't sure what to say.
"I don't know Inuyasha..."
"Just say yes...please, do it for me?"
Kagome looked Inuyasha in the eyes, she wanted to go with him, but her sister already knew about their affair, and she didn't want her sister to hate her even more if it looked like they got together officially as soon as he had left her, but before a divorce.
"I will think about it, okay?"