InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Love ❯ First Trimester ( Chapter 5 )

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Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha. Nor do I own Yellow Butterflies by Meg and Dia.

Authors Note: This chapter takes place a couple hours after Kagome and Inuyasha spoke at the hotel. And for those of you who may seem a little lost, hell this might be a little for myself too just for reminders, by now Kagome is four weeks pregnant, at the beginning it was late December which I am going to go with December 15, which makes it December 22. It's my story so what I say goes okay...hahaha. Oh and Kagome is going to school to become a doctor. And for those who are curious, and don't want to do the counting, if she is four weeks pregnant then the baby was conceived on November 24.


Love


Chapter 5: First Trimester!


Kagome was sitting on the couch with the t.v. switched off, her bare feet were propped up on Miroku's lap for he was being kind and giving her a foot massage. She was flipping through a book that she had stopped to pick up on her way home from Inuyasha's hotel. What to Expect When You're Expecting, that was the name of her new book. At the moment she was reading up on the first trimester, since that is what she was in considering she was only four weeks along.

"Oh, my breasts." She grabbed her breasts as she let out a weird hissing noise, and Miroku just gave her a look that said she was out of her mind.

"Please, explain to me why you are grabbing and holding your...breasts." Kagome looked at him, then she looked down and smiled noticing what she was doing.

"Well it says here, that my breasts are going to get larger, but I don't have a problem with that, but it also says that they are going to start hurting. And my nipples are going to..."

Right then Kagome remembered that she was speaking to a man, "Oh I'm sorry Miroku, I'm sure you don't want to hear about my breasts."

Miroku shook his head and just smiled. "It's alright, I don't really mind, I mean you need to be able to talk to somebody about this. When are you going to schedule a doctor's appointment?"

Kagome was about to respond when she suddenly began to feel quite nauseas, and she quickly dropped her book to the floor and ran to the bathroom. Though to her surprise, Miroku was right behind her, holding her hair back so that she was able to puke without getting it into her hair. Once she was finished and sure that she wasn't going to start again anytime soon, she leaned back and smiled at Miroku.

"Thank you."

Miroku helped Kagome up and walked with her back to the living room where she quickly swept her pregnancy book back up and quickly sunk back into the couch.

"I'm not sure, if I go with Inuyasha it will be after I get back from there."

"Are you going to tell him?"

Kagome pretended like she didn't hear him, and continued to read in her book then she thought of something new to say.

"August eighteenth."

"What about August eighteenth?"

"That's my due date, or at least that is what I calculated, since I know when the baby was conceived, it makes it a little easier."

Miroku nodded his head and decided not to discuss telling Inuyasha with her anymore, well for the time being.

"So, how is Kikyo dealing with the 'separation'?"

"I'm not sure, I haven't spoken to her since she confronted me. She won't answer any of my phone calls and she hasn't even tried to contact me."

Elsewhere

Kikyo stood out in the cold wearing a heavy white coat over a pair of jeans and a t-shirt, she was knocking on the hotel door that she knew Inuyasha was sitting behind, trying to pretend that he didn't know she was there. Again she banged on the door and this time she screamed something at him that she knew he would hear.

"Can't we at least talk, I don't want any rash decisions being made before we can talk about them, together...like a married couple does."

She was surprised when he cracked open the door and looked at her, there was something in his eyes that seemed to make her think that he was even more angrier at her than he was a week ago.

Inuyasha didn't say a word to her, but he opened the door wide enough for her to enter the hotel room. Once she was in, he shut the door and stood there in silence, he was speechless, for some reason even though she knew that he had been sleeping with her sister and she didn't say anything to him, it didn't lessen his anger towards her deciding that they just weren't going to have kids. In fact it almost made him feel angrier, it seemed like she thought that she was in charge of everything, when in reality she wasn't.

"You know, it's one thing to not want kids, but with the reasons that you have, it's just wrong. You're not having kids for all the wrong reasons, but still...No I'm not going to talk to you about this now. I let you in to tell you something, not for you to tell me something."

Kikyo looked at him, and she just wanted to scream out and ask him why he was being so foolish, and to tell him to get his ass into the car and come home...and she was about to say it when Inuyasha let something out.

"I'm going to China. This weekend, on a business trip. The business is only for the weekend, but I need some time to think, so I will be staying for a couple extra weeks..."

"Okay, that's fair..." When she was really thinking that it was a load of bullshit and he needed to be home with her, spending Christmas with her.

"That's not all though, I asked Kagome to come with me, and she said that she's not sure about it but I'm pretty sure she will probably be going."

Kikyo just about blew up, at that moment she would give anything to just strangle her little sister, she was ruining her life. Stealing her husband in all respects.

"No."

"Excuse me?"

"I said no, she's not going. You can't take my little sister! You'll go to China, with her, stuff will happen and before I know it you will be coming back and contacting a lawyer to file for divorce."

"Kikyo, stop that. Don't blame Kagome, none of this is her fault, I approached her for every situation, if you should be taking your anger out on anyone it should be me. And she has nothing to do with me leaving you right now."

"Oh that's right, because you like fucking her and me at the same time! She probably didn't even care that Kouga left her..."

"That's not true, she was over here crying her heart out over that, she really did care about him, just she was trying to comfort me, I was so lonely when you went away on your trips all I had was her and my work! Now I don't want to hear this anymore, you leave. I will contact you when I get back from China with my decision. So you will know at the beginning of January if I'm filing for divorce or not okay?"

Kikyo didn't say anything, she just opened the door and fled, she was furious and hurt all at the same time. She couldn't believe it, she was going to lose her husband...all because she didn't want to have kids. It was then that she realized her huge mistake. It was not just because of that, she had been ignoring her husband's needs and so he found comfort from the one person that everyone knows cares about everyone else, her little sister.

She got into her Mitsubishi Eclipse and drove home to her empty house that she once shared with Inuyasha, who was supposed to be the love of her life, the one bright light in her life. And now after eight years he was staying in a hotel and would be leaving in two days to go to China, and probably will have her little sister on his arm going with him.

The first thing she did when she got into the house was go upstairs into the bathroom that was connected to her bedroom that she shared with Inuyasha, and grabbed her birth control pills. She took one look at them and threw them into the trash can. She was going to let Inuyasha know when he got back from China that she quit taking her birth control pills and she was able to conceive. All he had to was make love to her and they could start a family. She was going to change, she had a college degree she could take time off from her modeling career and get a regular job, or even let Inuyasha do the working, he had a good job. Sacrifices, she would give these things up just to keep him in her life. Just hopefully it wouldn't be too late.

On the otherside of town

It was around midnight when Kagome was sitting up in her bed that Miroku let her sleep in, she was rubbing her tummy. Her tummy was still flat but she knew something was there, she knew something could hear her and she began to hum.

Kagome had begun to softly sing to her stomach, she was enjoying that she knew her baby would know exactly what she sounded like when he/she was born. Though unbeknowst to her, she and the baby weren't the only ones who could hear her singing. For Miroku had heard her humming when he walked by and he decided to listen for a moment.

As she rubbed her belly and continued to sing, she could feel the butterflys stir up, the fetus was moving. And she smiled. Miroku out in the hallway was still listening and he to was smiling, it was sweet, she was singing to her unborn child. It almost reminded him of Sango, when she was carrying their child.

Tears were rolling down Kagome's face, she was full of confusion but she knew she needed to be strong for herself and the baby now.

Miroku could see that she was beginning to cry and he could tell that she was sad and confused. He could only imagine what she was going through, but he almost felt like this was all happening for a reason. He didn't think too hard right then though, he wanted to continue to listen to her sing, she had a beautiful voice. Leaning his head back and closing his eyes, he lost himself in her voice.

He heard her finish and could tell that she was now sobbing into her pillow, he couldn't take it anymore, he had to go to her. So he did. He didn't say anything he just slipped into the bed with her and wrapped his arms around her, and she accepted it. She kept on crying and crying, sobbing into the pillow why. Why her, why now. Why with him. He was not hers and never would be, even if he did know about the child, she knew he could never love her the way he loves Kikyo, the way she needs him to love her. The way she wishes she could love him, because now that she thought about it, she didn't feel for him the way she thought she did.

She hated herself.

"I hate myself."

Miroku held her tighter and told her that she shouldn't.

"There is no reason you need to hate yourself, you are going to be fine."

She stopped shuttering from the tears and sat up to look Miroku in the eyes, she was quiet though. But he knew she had something on her mind.

"Are you sure? How do you know I'll be fine, I'm going to school to be a doctor, and I'm pregnant with my brother-in-law's baby with nobody to help me."

"That's not true, I'll help you. Anything you need I'll get it."

Kagome looked at him, she couldn't believe her ears. At that moment she realized, Miroku was always there and she didn't understand why she didn't ever see it, see him. She was just too distracted, but at that moment she had become even more confused.

"Thank you, Miroku." At that moment she couldn't resist it anymore, she leaned in to give him a kiss. It was like she had rubbed her sock covered feet against the floor and then kissed a door knob, a shock of static electricity hit her lips when hers touched his.

Miroku whispered into her mouth, "I love you."

Kagome's eyes shot wide open and she froze.

"What did you say?"

"I'm sorry..."

Kagome felt so guilty, she felt like she was betraying her best friend, even if she was dead. This was her husband, and she had just kissed him and if she heard correctly, he thinks that he loves her. As fast as she could she got out of the bed and put some slippers on and sprinted down the stairs, where she grabbed her car keys and was quickly out the door before Miroku had the chance to stop her.

"Come on, Come on....Inuyasha answer your damn cell phone."

A couple more rings and finally a groggy, sleepy Inuyasha answered the phone with a, "Hello?"

"Inuyasha, it is Kagome. I'm going to China with you, and I'm on my way over to your hotel room right now, I'm a little lonely."

She could hear a smile in his voice when he responded with an okay and that he would wait up until she got there. Kagome had decided that right now she was really confused, confused on how she felt for Miroku, how she felt for Inuyasha. She had decided that it would just be easier to get away and think, even if it was with Inuyasha.

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A/N: I want to apologize, in Chapter One the song Two Rivers, is really sang by Avril Lavigne.