InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Lust and Obsession ❯ Love or Lust ( Chapter 1 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

Do not complain for I am kind enough to warn you. There is a reason that my fic is rated NC-17, easily revieled here, in this chapter do not think to complain in any manner. You've no base for it.


Love the Hated, and Care for the Loved



* Chapter 1 *


* Love, or Lust? *


Kagome's mind was tired, exhausted and she couldn't remember why, it was bad she was sure of that much, and she didn't want to remember, but she knew as with all things of this nature memory would return to her once her mind woke fully. So she tried to keep her mind at bay and continue on in the blissful relm of sleep, however such was not meant to be as the dark and terrifying memory returned to her, the memory of running returned, running from him, afraid for her life, and unable to catch a break or a breath.


She started and her eyes shot open, but she could see absolutely nothing, or rather just a ceiling of sorts, a black ceiling.


This didn't seem to good, however there were factors that could have made this a good thing. So, keeping her mind set in optomistic mode she tried to asess her situation, she was lying on some sort of a bed... okay... why she couldn't comprehend, hopefully someone had saved her and taken her to their home, of course that was highly unlikely, two reasons; this was not a futon style bed, nor was it a mat on the ground, it was rather western fashioned, and no noble she knew of had such beds, and two because how in hells name could anyone ever hope to stop Sesshoumaru?


Experimentally Kagome tried to move in order to sit, only to find that she couldn't, she had been bound with rope! Her heart stilled a moment as realization dawned on her, she was bound hands and feet, to someone's bed! 'Uh oh, uh oh, uh ohuhohuhohuhoh!' Kagome's mind screamed.


Her situation was only made worse when she realized that not only was she bound, but she was completely nude! She tried desperately to pull her arms free, her legs, but to no avail, the only thing she succeeded in was rope burns. Then frightened she tried to scream for someone, anyone to help her but found that her throat was locked.


Sesshoumaru stood silent as death, only a few feet from her, she was struggling now good. Her nerves weren't shot, and she knew of the danger she could well be in, and she wasn't about to give in and admit her defeat. Of course he was well sure she would never give up struggling against him if he kept being harsh with her. However the need to be harsh with her would deminish greatly after he claimed her as his own, if she were to find some way of escaping him, there would be no need for him to snatch her up again, for any youkai with a nose would return her to him or fear for their lives should he discover they hadn't.


A growl of desire found itself a lodge in his throat and he found himself hard pressed to keep it down when his little miko began to arc off the bed, desperate to get free or scream. A foolish thing if he planned on killing or torturing her, and she probably knew that to scream would only have attracted his attention if he were not in the room next to her.


Again she arced off the bed and his fist clenched, knuckles turning white with surpression, if one were to simply look at her they would believe her to be in the throws of passion, ignited by the fires of lust. This was simply not true, for the girl, Sesshoumaru on the other hand felt his blood draining down into his lower body. So bad did he want her, it was murder to him, this need something he had never felt before. Before her, there were many women Sesshoumaru had indulged in, some willing, others not, however in the end he had one woman at least once every week, until he saw her.


From the moment he saw her he had desired her, and thought to take her with him. However his desire to allow Inuyasha to live, had clouded his movements, and he had lost an arm. Yes, he did hate his sibling more than anything alive, however his desire for the sword, and his desire for the woman did not out weigh the obvious truth, they were still brothers, and had Sesshoumaru wanted Inuyasha dead, the hanyou would be so.


He thought back to that battle, at first the plan was to retrieve Tetsusaiga, and defeat his brother, not kill him but make him believe his intentions were so. Then the woman, an unexpected complication had arisen, she was there, her scent floating on the wind to him in a the most tantilizing of ways. His plan had changed, something he knew not to do, he had though, and had decided then to take her with him and keep her as his pet, a toy or a concubine if you will. After that battle he had lost his arm, and his pride, as he hadn't thought anything through. He had then returned to the castle momentarilly, to relieve his stresses within the nearest wench, but he couldn't get the miko out of his mind. From that moment forth he had been celibate, no longer desiring any woman, that was aside from the miko. It hadn't taken all that long for him to change his plans for her, and this time he had thought through it thoroughly, and had come to one decision in the end. She would be his mate, forever and always his.


Gracefully Sesshoumaru walked over to his decidedly western fashioned bed, and sat down next to the woman, determined to trace every curve of her body with his hands ten million times over. His unsettled passions starting to take over his mind, never before had he waited so long, and never again, not with her so close to him.


Kagome snapped her head to the side when she felt the bed dip slightly her vision was partially cut off due to her arm, but she could still see Sesshoumaru leering down at her. Her struggles became insanely frantic as she tried to twist her wrist and ankles from their bonds, but they were just too tight. 'What is he going to do?' she wondered her mind barely functioning. Was he going to torture her now or was he just going to threaten of things yet to happen, and leave her to worry over the innevitable?


She felt him grab her nude hips, holding her down as he moved to stradle her midsection. 'Oh gods!' Kagome's mind screamed desperately, 'What is he going to do to me?'


She ended her physical struggle then, knowing that whatever his plans were he was going to execute them now, and she had no option left to her. Suddenly she felt the previous tightness in her throat loosened and she could tell that her voice had returned, "What are you going to do to me Sesshoumaru? Kill me?" she croaked out the first part, her voice smoothing out towards the end as her own voice remembered it was there.


Sesshoumaru smirked down at his mate-to-be, this game of his was turning quite thouroughly amusing, he didn't yet wish to have it end, so instead of answering her with words he chose action as his answer. He placed himself between her legs and began to touch her breast, enjoying the feeling of them in his hands, so perfect in shape, probably due to the garment she had worn under her kimono, that he could understand, the part covering her lower region he didn't though, and had destroyed the thing. He heard her gasp and found the oportunity too wonderful and so kissed her, putting as much of his hunger and desire into that kiss as he could manage.


She struggled then, probably out of instinct but only momentarilly, as she found herself stunned by the force and need behind the kiss, one lousy kiss and she couldn't feel her own body, her own brain. Then he resumed his kneeding of her breast, turning her nipples into hard pebbles, tricking her body into arousal.


To his undeniable pleasure he found that he had in fact been right about her breast, having thought they would fill his hands perfectly. She then began to try and wiggle away from him, trying to turn her mouth from his. However he removed one of his arms from her breast and held her chin in place.


Only when she began to whimper into his mouth did he finally decide that he could end it and released her. He found himself slightly taken aback when she began gasping for breath, there was no considereding by him that this may occur, for never before had he kissed a woman and she not known what to do, and to breathe, this was still pleasing to him though, as it meant no one had ever kissed her, and no other would, devoted to him she would be, and he alone. There was no attempt by him to hide his desires as he smirked down at her, her frightened eyes locking with his lust filled ones.


"T-that..." she hesitated, not knowing what to say, not even thinking he would care, she wasn't even sure if she cared any more, her mind was sighing and breathing out a 'just give in' signal, but her heart, the one thing she could always count on to appose her brain was screaming that she fight him. For now she knew of his intent, he would rape her, leave her somewhere for Inuyasha to find, broken as she was, so why would he care that he had just taken her first kiss, and was about to take her virginity?


"Was your first kiss." Sesshoumaru purred bringing his face down to nip at her chin and kiss her neck.


Kagome felt her eyes begin to fill with tears, he knew that, and he knew she was a virgin. "Why are you doing this to me?" she whimpered still trying to free her wrist, "It won't solve anything!"


Sesshoumaru released a deep throated chuckle against her neck, "Oh naive little one," he purred raising to look into her tear filled eyes, "this solves much." and in order to prove that he rubbed his still clothed and rock solid cock against her core.


She gasped and tried to get away from him forgetting for an instant that she was bound. She could do nothing, nothing at all against him! "Y-you know what I meant!" she tried desperatly, hoping against hope that he would lose his interest in her body and soften.


"Ah, so I do little one," he purred again kissing her lips chastly, "however there are more things to solve than simple lust." he stated his voice no longer so emotional. He had tried to speak softly to her, now that was over, she wasn' t responding well enough to it.


Kagome tried to twist away again but nothing would loosen the hold of her binds.


"Stop struggling, I do not wish for you to harm yourself." Sesshoumaru said his eyes seemingly cold. "If any blood is spilled it will be my doing." though it sounded harsh his reasoning was simple, he couldn't prevent a certain bit of blood from being spilled, something that most women had to experience, it was innevitable if she were to be his mate.


Sesshoumaru moved his hands down her body, tracing her curves, memorizing them intimately, her skin was so soft, and completely smooth. Gods how he had fantisiesed of this, of touching her, taking her, enjoying her body around him as he thrust deep within her.


She drew in breath sharply, "W-what things more would be solved?!" she cried desperate to try and delay him.


Not stopping Sesshoumaru moved his hands to cup her behind, "Many, many things pet." he answered as his hands came out from under her and he moved them up her stomach, her arousal started to sting his nose pleasantly as he brushed along the underside of her breast.


"W-what things?!" he could feel her fighting her own body, not wanting to know the feelings he was forcing her to have, and she was still attempting to delay him.


Now was the time to tell her of his desire for her, the game was ending but for something much more enjoyable "I must have my mate marked, so that no man will ever touch her." he said simply, nuzzling the place where his mark would soon be, the junction that connected her neck and shoulder.


Kagome felt the color drain from her face, what did he mean by "mate"? Her breathing stopped, almost without her knowing, was he serious? Did he really want to make her his mate? Or did he want her to be his mate for a time and then kill her? Could he even do that?


Sesshoumaru though, noticed that her breathing had stopped, "Kagome," he said gaining her attention again and startling her into breathing. "You are to be my mate, my life mate, do you understand what such things entail?"


When she moved her head side to side he growled at her. "I allow you to use your voice, so do so."


Kagome closed her eyes tightly, "No, I don't know what you mean! Why are you doing this?" she cried to him, tears escaping her and running down her face.


This was not pleasing to Sesshoumaru, however he had anticipated her crying before hand, "Kagome, look at me." he commanded her, his voice harsh to her ears. She almost tried to open her eyes though, but she was just to afraid of him, of his eyes, of his feirce strength, of what she had no chance against


However a growl from Sesshoumaru got her to listen, and she fluttered open her watery eyes, looking him dead strait.


"It means, you will not be allowed to leave my side, not without my direct permission. If I call for you, no matter the distance from you I am, you will be drawn to me, the further we are apart in fact, the stronger it will become." Sesshoumaru said his voice no more than a mere whisper, though he was sure Kagome caught ever word.


He watched her face as she went from shock, to sadness, then near depression, gods how he loved her emotions, she was an open book to him, and he loved it, even if the emotion that she had felt were the kind he'd prefer her not to have.


"Why?" her voice sounded weak, even to her, but she wasn't quite done fighting yet.


This he had been waiting for, now the opportunity for the truth was presented, and yet he hesitated. He knew her reaction wouldn't be the one he desired, but he had to tell her regardless, "Because, my innocent little Kagome, I love you." he felt his insides tighten uncomfortably a moment, before his entire body relaxed, he had told her, not even knowing for sure himself, lost and obsession weren't the same as love, even he knew this, however he was sure that this was what he was experiencing, as youkai didn't feel much of anything but anger and lust.


Kagome's breathe hitched in her throat, what had he said? What? Why? Huh? This wasn't true, it simply could not be! "No... you just, no you can't!" Kagome whimpered, "You don't know anything about me!"


Sesshoumaru growled low in his throat and grabbed her breast hard enough to cause her a bit of pain. She arced her back and tried to turn away, but Sesshoumaru pushed her down with his free hand. "I do, and if this is how I must prove myself, it is how I will." he lowered his hand tracing little designs in her stomache as he lowered his hands to her center. "And I do know much about you, pet, do you think I would simply grab you on a whim?"


Kagome gasped barely hearing him as he inserted two fingers within her. Never before had someone, anyone, touched her like that! Her heart sped up and her breathing became extremely irregular, as his fingers mimiced what he wanted with her. Oh god, that wasn't right! It wasn't supposed to feel this... Oh gods, so good!


"I've been watching you, my pet. I know everything about you, every emotion you've felt, I know of your family, of your time. I know everything of you." This was torturing him, he just wanted to have her, but he wouldn't allow her to ignore the lust all creatures feel. She would enjoy this, of that he would make sure.


"M-my family?" the last word came out as a moan, though she tried to surpress it she could not, "H-how?"


Sesshoumaru smirked and bent over her further, kissing and sucking on her neck before whispering into her ear, "Did you ever feel that you had taken part of our time home with you?" he heard her gasp and he moved his fingers faster within her, she wasn't listening any longer, but he had gotten his point across.


"Please, please n-no more Sesshoumaru!" she begged, "I-I swear, I'll do anything you like- if you just STOP!" she felt her body convulse almost painfully moments before unimaginable pleasure washed over her, leaving just as swift as it had come, she found that she wanted to melt away, to stop existing for just a moment.


"Anything?" he pried, stirring her back down from her climax. He hadn't anticipated this, he hadn't expected her orgasm, or her promise but it did stir an idea.


"I won't kill anyone, but yeah..." Kagome looked at him, her eyes half closed. She was hopefull but so very dreadfully drained.


Sesshoumaru smirked and began kissing Kagome's neck, heating her body again almost instantly as he played with her soft breast again.


How could he do that? She moaned unable to resist, that wasn't fair! She was just completely drained and almost three seconds later she was on fire!


"You will stay by me, for the remainder of the day and night, and I am warning you not to attempt escape." she nodded her head and he had to smirk against her throat, "I will not promise that after this day and night I will not attempt again," this was going to test his limits, having her so close and available to have, if unwilling. Perhaps though, there were things could be done to satisfy him? "And one more thing, my little Kagome." he purred as he pulled up, staring heatedly at her. "I am not yet satisfied, as you were."


She didn't understand, and he could see this, so in order to show her he cut her hands free with his claws. Quickly she moved to hold them over her breast but Sesshoumaru would allow no such thing. He grabbed her wrist and pinned them to her sides. She whimpered a bit as he guided them to his clothed chest, and pushed her hands down his shirt, feeling as an impossible amount of blood followed her fingers lower, following as he put her hands into his pants, making her fingers grasp his dick.


An audible gasp was heard from the woman as she finally understood what else he wanted.


"You will help me, or I will help myself to you." he warned, pulling her so that she was now sitting right in front of him. She didn't protest, or pull her hands away.


Sesshoumaru quickly disrobed, thowing his clothes off the bed as he sat back, cutting the ropes off of both her hands and ankles.


She sat there, right in front of him, not bothering to hide her shock, he was huge, beyond huge! There was no way he could have been japanese! How did he think to get that in her? She shivered with the thought, he would have hurt, the entire time within her, she was sure of this.


"Kagome..." he heard Sesshoumaru hiss, "Do not make me change my mind."


'I can't do this, but the other option is...' Kagome thought before moving to sit between Sesshoumaru's legs. She wouldn't be good at this, she knew but there was no other option left to her, or rather none that she was too keen on taking.


'Okay, how to do this?' She didn't look directly at his face, knowing full well that he was staring at her. He probably thought it was amusing that she didn't really know all that well what to do. God, she was fifteen living in a time where sex was almost always casual, and keeping your virginity in tact was only useful if you were religious, yet still she didn't even know how to give a hand job!


Sesshoumaru smirked at her blushed face and body, what a treasure he had found. She didn't honestly know what to do, but he would not be denied the pleasure he so greatly craved. Gently he took both of Kagome's hands and began to guide them over his shaft. She blushed a furious red and he smirked as his own breathing became relatively uneven.


When she began to move on her own he released her hands. Her hands were soft, and gentler than any woman's he had had before her. He grunted with pleasure at her shy momvement, encouraging her to move a bit faster, fortunately she did.


'I'm not here, oh gods please say I'm not here!' she moved her hands over him faster and faster paying more attention to his head than anything else. He was starting to cum already? Or maybe guys just released a little bit at a time, before they finally came all together? Not like she knew.


He grunted again and pulled her face forward, kissing her roughly, she stopped her minstartions temporarily but continued further, trying not to respond to him as he thrashed his tongue about in her mouth, almost like he was a starving animal.


He pulled away from her mouth momentarilly, "Respond to me, kiss me back." he ordered her kissing her again.


And she did, very tentively she began to brush her tongue against his, as her hands began to move at indeterminable speeds, sometimes she would move faster then slower when her mind melted slightly, but Sesshoumaru enjoyed himself regardless.


Sesshoumaru grabbed her breast pulling from her face, he needed more air, he felt so suffocated and totally pleasured. This wasn't what he had anticipated at all, women had done this to him, but never had he needed their hands, however Kagome was now with him, moving her hands over him, and he needed it.


A good twenty minutes later he finally came, all over Kagome's hands and her stomache. She screeched in surprise, and sat back away from him. Oh gods, had she really done that? She looked at her hands, they were covered, was this natural? Did guys usually cum this much? She didn't want to think about it, she hoped she could simply get away from him, she would never do anything like this, ever again!


Sesshoumaru moved forward pushing her back down on the bed. She looked up at him, frightened by the look in his eyes, who knew the Taiyoukai was even capable of emotion?


"Thank you." he startled her, as he pulled her hands up, licking them clean before moving to her stomach, cleaning her again. "My shy little Kagome." he smirked when he looked into her flushed face. "Our day has only begun."