InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Night Thoughts ❯ Second Thoughts ( Chapter 2 )

“Sesshomaru…” Togaromaru says softly. Sesshomaru looks towards his father and sighs.

“What is it?” Sesshomaru tries not to growl. Togaromaru does growl however and then catches himself. He clears his throat.

“You haven't come to the castle in three years...ever since Inuyasha was born.” Togaromaru says with a twang of annoyance in his voice. Sesshomaru turns away from his father's prying gaze and begins to walk away.

“Sesshomaru! Do not walk away from me!” Togaromaru growls. Sesshomaru pays his father no mind as he walks into a thicket of trees. He feels a rope around his waist suddenly and looks down. A bright yellow whip of light has surrounded his body and just as he grows angry he feels like he is flying. His flight is stopped by the powerful form of his father and Togaromaru holds his trapped son against his chest.
”Why are you trying to leave?” Togaromaru growls, his eyes glowing red. Sesshomaru swallows hard trying not to let the fear seep into his eyes.

“I…” he tries pitifully. Togaromaru closes his eyes and Sesshomaru can see that his father is slowly counting to ten. At six he takes a deep breath and opens his now amber and white eyes.

“Sesshomaru…why do you scorn your brother?” Togaromaru asks. Sesshomaru tries to move but his father's Whip of the Sun surrounds his entire being.

“I do not scorn him. I merely do not wish to meet him. He is a hanyou father, a scourge on your bloodline-`' Sesshomaru begins. Togaromaru interrupts him with a hard slap across his son's smooth and pale face. Sesshomaru's eyes widen with shock. His father had never deliberately struck him. Togaromaru looks surprised at his own actions as well and Sesshomaru can see the tears well up in his eyes. These crystal clear tears do not fall for Togaromaru blinks them away hastily. Sesshomaru can feel the fire on his left cheek and the back of his neck is throbbing from the whiplash. Togaromaru swallows hard and sighs.

“Father…” Sesshomaru tries. Togaromaru releases Sesshomaru so suddenly that he begins to fall…only to be caught up in the powerful arms of his father. Sesshomaru swallows hard and can feel the blush rise to his cheeks. He is mere millimeters from his father's face, their noses are touching. Sesshomaru looks deeply into Togaromaru's eyes and sees the undying love there. I wonder what he sees in my eyes? Sesshomaru thinks. Suddenly he feels the gentle pressure of Togaromaru's lips against his own and he watches Togaromaru's eyes slip shut. Sesshomaru follows suit and lets his father kiss him gently, exploring the soft lips that are upon his own. They deepen the kiss slowly and Sesshomaru opens his mouth. He feels Togaromaru's tongue run along his teeth, as if to test the sharpness of his fangs. Sesshomaru feels the heat rise in him it starts in his groin and works through his limbs slowly. Suddenly Togaromaru breaks the kiss and pulls Sesshomaru to his feet. They look deeply into each other's eyes and Togaromaru lets Sesshomaru go. They stare at each other in silence, both breathing slightly heavier.

“Father?” Sesshomaru questions. Togaromaru seems to join the conversation slowly.

“I…Sesshomaru. I'm sorry. You don't have to meet Inuyasha if you don't want to.” Togaromaru tells him and turns away, slowly walking off.

“Father, wait.” Sesshomaru utters softly. Togaromaru stops but does not face him.

“What is it?” Togaromaru asks softly. Sesshomaru sighs.

“I will meet him.”

A Few Days Later

“Inuyasha! Izayoi!” Togaromaru shouts. Sesshomaru follows his father about the castle. A squeal of happiness reaches his ear and a flash of red and white leaps into his father's arms.

“DADDY!” Shouts a small child. Sesshomaru looks at the joyful expression on his fathers face and then to the child in his arms. Inuyasha is dressed in red fire rat's fur and wears no shoes on his feet. His hair is waist length and free like his own and is just as silver. His eyes are wide open and amber but unlike Sesshomaru or Togaromaru he has white dog ears atop his head. Sesshomaru stares at his younger brother as Izayoi comes running down the hall.

“Inuyasha!” She shouts, worry in her voice. She brightens upon seeing Togaromaru holding his son. She stops a few feet before them and stares at Sesshomaru. Sesshomaru nods to her and she grins.

“It is good to see you again.” She says. Sesshomaru feels eyes upon him and he looks to his father. Inuyasha is staring at him.

“Daddy, who's he?” He asks, pointing a finger at Sesshomaru. Togaromaru taps the pointing finger lightly.

“How many times do I have to tell you Inuyasha? It is rude to point.” Togaromaru growls lightly. Inuyasha grabs onto the front of his father's kimono with both hands. Togaromaru sighs.

“This is your older brother, Sesshomaru.” Togaromaru tells him. Inuyasha grins blissfully at the introduction.

“Sessy!” Inuyasha shouts. Sesshomaru stares at him, blinking a few times and Togaromaru tries not to laugh. Izayoi hides a grin behind her hand and watches with contempt in her eyes. Inuyasha leaps down from his father's arms and runs into Sesshomaru's legs. Sesshomaru stares down at him, his new nickname still a shock.

“Sessy! UP!” Inuyasha shout. Sesshomaru bends and lifts up his younger brother and stares at him. Inuyasha grabs unto the front of his kimono and kisses his nose. Sesshomaru smiles slightly and kisses him back. Inuyasha laughs happily and Sesshomaru can not help but grin.

A Few Days Later

“Sessy can't catch me!” Shouts Inuyasha running through the gardens. Sesshomaru runs behind him slowly as to make his brother believe this to be true. Togaromaru is in the house with Izayoi and the last Sesshomaru heard they were quite comfortable in bed together. If they keep this up I could have more then Inuyasha to look after. Sesshomaru thinks. He watches his brother trip suddenly and begins to fall forward. Sesshomaru darts forward and catches Inuyasha before he hits the ground. Inuyasha gasps in shock at the sudden speed of Sesshomaru. Sesshomaru releases his little brother and watches as Inuyasha squats and begins to scratch his right ear with his right leg. Sesshomaru smirks at this. Inuyasha stops, staring up at him with his right leg still up. Sesshomaru begins to laugh lightly as Inuyasha begins to lose his footing. He falls on his left side and bursts out in frantic giggles. Sesshomaru joins in picks up his brother to hold him gently.

“SPIN! SPIN!” Inuyasha shout gleefully and Sesshomaru is happy to oblige. Inuyasha burst into screams of bliss as Sesshomaru spins him around. He spins on one foot while pretending Inuyasha is his Whip of Poison. He holds his brother at his arms lengths tightly and Inuyasha opens his arms wide, laughing with pleasure. Sesshomaru keeps his eyes open while spinning him so that he does not inertly initiate his whip. Inuyasha has squeezed his eyes shut in pleasure and keeps laughing. Sesshomaru can't help but laugh along but soon feels dizzy from the spinning. Suddenly his world tilts and he feels himself falling. He lands hard on his back with Inuyasha still in the air, except now it seems that there are two Inuyasha's. Sesshomaru pants heavily and watches his little brother look down at him, pouting.

“More?” He asks. Sesshomaru brings him to his chest and cuddles him gently. Inuyasha squirms a bit to get comfortable and relaxes on his brother chest.

“In a moment…I feel dizzy.” Sesshomaru tells him. Inuyasha laughs.

“I feel good!” Inuyasha shouts. Sesshomaru looks down at him and Inuyasha looks up.

“That's because you had your eyes closed.” Sesshomaru tells him. Inuyasha smiles. Sesshomaru smiles back and tries to remember when he had smiled and laughed so much. It was when I was ten…before mother was killed…Sesshomaru thinks. His smile fades slowly and Inuyasha cuddles deeper into his chest. Sesshomaru looks up at the sky remembering his mother. He hears a noise from the door and listens intently. Suddenly Togaromaru's face appears above him.

“Having fun?” Togaromaru asks. Sesshomaru opens his mouth to respond but Inuyasha cuts him off.

“Sessy spinned me!” Inuyasha shouts. Sesshomaru smiles at his father's unbound and ruffled mane of knee-length silver hair.

“Spun Inuyasha not spinned. Did he now?” Togaromaru asks. Inuyasha nods. Sesshomaru moves to get up and Togaromaru steps back. Sesshomaru notices that Togaromaru is wearing nothing but a white robe tied loosely about his waist. Sesshomaru smiles and lets the squirming Inuyasha go. Inuyasha runs off, chasing a butterfly and the two men watch him intently.
”So…do you love him?” Sesshomaru asks. Togaromaru stares at his elder son in shock, then smiles.

“He may be a hanyou but I still love him. He is my son…he is flesh of my flesh, blood of my blood…just like you.” Togaromaru stares staring as Inuyasha leaps over the butterfly and lands perfectly on his hunches looking up at the fluttering creature. Sesshomaru sighs.

“But…he is a hanyou…not everyone will say the same. He will not fit in anywhere.” Sesshomaru states.

“He will fit in here and that's all that matters. Besides, he does not even smell that much like a human.” Togaromaru says proudly. Sesshomaru nods.

“You can not protect him forever.” Sesshomaru utters lightly. Togaromaru nods.

“Then will you protect him when I die?” Togaromaru asks, just loud enough so that Sesshomaru can hear him. Sesshomaru watches his little brother chase the butterfly, laughing blissfully. Sesshomaru can't help but feel love for the hanyou…he is his brother after all.

“Yes. I promise.”

End Flashback

Sesshomaru wakes from his memories in pleasure…a pleasure he does not want. He stares at the full moon again and sighs trying not to aggravate himself any farther. He stands up without much pain or pleasure for that matter and begins to walk slowly to the hot springs. If he can get into the soothing water maybe, just maybe it will relax his tense muscles and dull his poison. Sesshomaru steps carefully into the wooden area about the hot spring without any of his usual grace and can't help but hate himself. If anyone were to attack him now he would more then likely try to make love to them rather then fight them.

After a few minutes he reaches the bubbling water of the hot springs. He sighs gently and begins the painful task of removing his clothing. With one arm the task of his armor and his belt become tedious and he growls in frustration. Finally his kimono and his armor drop to the ground leaving his naked form revealed in all its glory. He breathes heavily and tries to think clearly. He picks up his swords and places them at the edge of the hot spring. He steps into the bubbling water and sighs gently. The heat relaxes his tense muscles and does in fact dull the poison in his veins. He pants for awhile, beginning to sweat from the heat of the spring but decides to ignore this and sinks deeper into the bubbling waters. Unfortunately the hot water does nothing for his erection and Sesshomaru refuses to take matter into his own hands…well hand. He continues to pant and tries to think of something else. His mind wanders to Naraku, the demon who used him for his own means of trying to destroy Inuyasha. Unfortunately that does not help because all Sesshomaru can think about is what Naraku's body would look like without that annoying baboon pelt.

“DAMN IT!” Sesshomaru shouts slamming his fist into the waters. Not even his enemies can make him sane. His mind wanders once again and he can not help but think of Inuyasha. He stares straight ahead into the forest that now surrounds him and sighs. Why am I thinking of my hanyou brother at a time like this? He questions himself. He sighs gently and closes his eyes trying to think of something else. The thought of Rin in danger crosses his mind and that calms him somewhat. He looks around himself and sniffs the air. A familiar scent reaches his nostrils, one that he does not want to smell.