InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Not my Fiancé ❯ Not my Memory ( Chapter 5 )

Chapter 5 Revision Completed

`On my 18th birthday, he gave me the greatest gift and curse at once, immortality.'

 

“I love the way your body feels when we dance.” He whispered huskily into her ear as his fingers slid up her curves with the rhythm of the music. They stood in the middle of her basement/room/self made dance studio, practicing a routine that she had to get down before the end of the week.

Her nipples hardened in response to his touches as he dipped her backwards and she allowed her stomach to ripple very quickly and he walked his fingers playfully across it. The Latin beat pounded in the background as he twirled her back into his arms.

“I can't practice for the dance competition if you keep doing this…” She muttered as his hand came up to cup her breast. He smirked deviously at her as he began to kiss her behind the ear. “How am I supposed to get my own dance studio if I never practice?” She asked as trailed his claws up her fire red dress and to her slender thighs.

 

It was raining outside. Not the cool summer rain, but frozen hard ice pelting everything in its wake. Rin ran quickly into the apartment complex silently cursing the gods for making it so difficult to get to her destination. And she silently wished that `she' wasn't there.

Her small hand reached up to knock seeing as since after this whole thing had started; Kagura had found it inappropriate for Rin to have a key to Sesshoumaru's apartment too. She shivered slightly as the cold water seeped through her clothes. She was going to be so sick. Maybe she would get out of going to work…

 

`I really did try to die once, but he wouldn't allow it… Maybe he is scared of being alone too…'

 

“Sesshoumaru… Kagome's gonna hear…”She moaned out as he sucked impatiently on her neck while moving toward the stereo. He pumped it all the way up to the point that his ears burned and then he turned his attention back to her.

“Now she won't…” He replied simply as he pushed her against the basement wall only to capture her lips. How many times had he done this? He couldn't remember anymore but being only 18 and a half summers old he was pretty sure he didn't care and the same went for her.

 

“Rin, what are you doing here?” Sesshoumaru asked, with a raised eyebrow.

“Umm… I was at Kagome's and then I was in the neighborhood and…” Rin started out really not knowing how to start out the conversation.

“Rin, Kagome's house is 25 minutes from here and your house is the other way…”

“Listen Sessy, I really need to talk to you. Can I come in?” He nodded and moved away from the door. When she walked in he was no where to be found, “Sesshoumaru?”

“Here, you're soaked; a smarter person would have gone home to get out of the rain.” He handed her a fluffy towel as she took off her coat.

 

`Or he could be selfish, bringing me back to this wicked world. Who says I didn't want to go?'

 

He pressed his bare chest against hers and ravished her lips. His fingers slid between her folds and she moaned his name so loud that they would have sworn the house shook. He rubbed intently across a nub hidden within her and she shook violently as his movements slowed. He repositioned his fingers and pumped them in and out until her muscles contracted around them and they became enveloped in a creamy white liquid. He licked it off before pulling his pants off and positioning his manhood at her entrance.

“You're so sick…” She muttered as he slid slowly into her.

“But that makes it all the more fun doesn't it?” He whispered into her ear before starting to move at a slowly quickening pace.

 

“Sorry but I wanted to talk to you about your wedding.” Rin said sitting on the couch next to him as she attempted to dry herself.

“…” He raised his eyebrow at her.

“Well, I don't think that Kagura is right for you… I mean she is nice and all but… I think you're rushing it I mean what do you to really know about each other?”

“You smell like the rain…”

“What?”

“The scent has soaked into your skin.”

“Is that a good thing or a bad thing?”

“Depends on if you like the rain.”

“Do you like the rain?”

“Depends on who it's on…”

“What?”

“Some people smell like wet dog when they're wet, like Inu Yasha…”

“Isn't that a little cliché?”

“No not really, then sometimes the rain makes people smell refreshing…”

“Really?”

“Yes…”

“Why did you change the subject?”

“Who do you think would be better for me?”

“W-What? Why are you asking me that?”

“Tell me, or you had no real reason to come here. What is wrong with Kagura?”

“I know she's smart, pretty and graceful but everyone knows she doesn't truly love you.”

 

`I hate him for being so selfish about my soul. He hogged it all to himself and now a single thread of life connects us.'

 

It was all over but her body still ached for him. She silently wondered when they would be able to do it again. He was leaving for a graduate school in the United States. She wouldn't see him for a while. She smiled half heartedly against his chest.

“If you want me to, I'll stay here. I can always go to the University of Tokyo.” Sesshoumaru said softly as he ran his fingers through her hair.

“Don't give up your dreams for me Sesshoumaru… Besides I'll be waiting here when you get back…”She said as she traced circles on his stomach.

 

Sesshoumaru blinked and then closed his eyes slowly as if reflecting on her words. He then walked to his kitchen took a bottle of vodka chugged the whole thing down and sat down in front of Rin again. After a few minutes of allowing the alcohol to work through his system he opened his mouth and let the words spill from them.

“Oh really, what would you know about true love? Have you ever truly loved someone? Can you just look at that person and believe you will make up happy? Tell me, who this person that you truly love is. This person that makes you believe you can tell me not to marry whom I love!” He said momentarily losing his cool.

He hated lying but it was the only way, and he was getting a little too much into it. It was most likely the alcohol content that was in his blood, he had been drinking lightly before Rin had appeared and he had a feeling that when she left no alcohol in his house would be safe from his wrath.

“Sesshoumaru she is just using you for the money!” Rin yelled at him tears coming out of her eyes.

“Proof, do you have proof?” He asked her silently wishing he was even more drunk.

“No but…”

“I was right, all ningens do is talk. You have no problem telling me she's a gold digger. You have no experience with love, yet you'll tell me to break off my wedding…” Sesshoumaru growled as a picture of himself strangling Kagura popped into his mind. It was the only way he could have ever yelled at Rin. But had he gone too far?

“…” Yes, he had done it, snapped at her when she was only trying to help him. He had pushed her across the line and hopped that she wouldn't cross back over for her own sake. Rin let the tears fall freely from her eyes. “I'm sorry; I knew I should have never come…” She said in an airy whisper. She began to get up and made her way to the door.

 

`If Sesshoumaru is sad, I feel it. If he's happy, I feel it. If he's dying, I'll feel it, but then and only then will I die too.'

 

He walked toward the terminal as all of his friends and family came to see him off. As he turned the corner to go to the gate he spotted Rin standing right before the check point. “You'll call?”

“Everyday… You'll write?”

“As soon as my phone bill sky rockets because I'm talking to you so much…” She said with a small giggle but the tears were still threatening to fall from her eyes.

“I'll miss you.” He said as he placed his bags on the ground and wrapped his arms around her. He wiped her tears away with his thumb.

“I know…”

“I can still stay…” He started before she pressed her lips against his in a painfully passionate kiss.

“No, I want you to go… That way when you come back I'll want you even more. Now wouldn't you like that?”

He smirked while looking up toward the check point as his plane number flashed across the screen. He kissed her softly and then playfully nipped at her bottom lip. “I love you.”

“I…” Rin started before he placed a finger over her lips to stop her words.

“Don't say it now… This way I'll have something to look forward to when I return.” He whispered as she wiped the tears that had once again begun to fall from her eyes.

“I'll be seeing you later right?”

“Um hum, see you later…” Rin said as he made his way to the checkpoint. `This way we wouldn't have to say goodbye…'

 

“Rin…” He said grabbing her arm losing control over his emotions once again. And he slowly slipped back into his emotionless mask. This only happened with her. He only lost control when I came to her. His Rin was hurting. The things he wouldn't do just to hold her until her pain went away but, he couldn't. So he scowled at her and pretended he had been screaming at Kagura.

“No, your right, I'm an idiot human. I can never amount to you except that my life span now matches yours. And that wasn't even from my own power. And I could never understand your true love, right? After all I did fall for you.” Rin ran to the door and grabbed her coat.

“Rin I'm…”

“It would have been better if you had left me dead after the accident, because now I'm the one left alone.” And with that she ran back outside into the frozen rain.

“Damn it, Rin…” Sesshoumaru sighed out and figured that it wasn't the best idea to follow her this time, because this time he was engaged and it wasn't to her.

 

`But he doesn't feel my emotions because he's not human. But I still wonder if he can really feel what I have always felt. I wonder if he knows that right now I wish it was easy for me to die.'

 

“Rin this is Kagura, my girlfriend…” He said as the ice between Rin and Kagura began to immediately form.

Two years she had waited for him to return and this is what was thrown in her face. But the sad thing about it was she loved him so much that if he was happy it made her happy. She met Kagura's eyes and received the other girl's silent glare.

“It's nice to meet you Kagura-san. You're gonna love it here. I'm sure Sesshoumaru will show you a good time…” Rin said with an over enthusiastic smile as she made her way to the luggage racks. And there she let the tears fall. “But I love you too…” She whispered to no one in particular.

She replaced the tears with a fake smile that scared the couple that was waiting for her. “Rin are you okay?” Sesshoumaru asked.

“Of course I am! You're home aren't you? Now who's ready to find Izayoi so she can smother them with love?!” Rin asked with slightly puffy eyes as she dragged the couple all the way to Sesshoumaru's house.

 

“Dance with me…”

“I'm sorry, I just can't. I have to go now…”

 

If I found a kiss

Frozen in the depths of time

Would I take it and make it mine

Or would you steal it

Like a gentle breeze

As we whisper sweet nothings

Through the next freeze

Or would you give it

To someone new

And then I would know

I can never really have you

 

Yeah for me! Another brilliant success! Enough with the modesty, there will be cookies and tea for all of my reviewers. Oh yeah now for more cliffy's! What accident killed Rin? What brought her back to life? (That is not a very hard question.) Why does everyone (But Sesshoumaru) believe Kagura is a gold digger (or does he)?

 

Newer Comments: Okay before everyone gets confused the bold is Rin's thoughts about her death that happens a little while after Sesshoumaru gets home from grad school.

The words in italics are a situation that happened mostly before he left for school in the states and a little after he returned with Kagura.

The regular typing with the exception of the last, what, 2 sentences is a situation that happened two weeks before the wedding. That situation is what led up to the make out session in chapter 2, I think. Yeah I just checked it was chapter 2.

And if you're still confused don't worry so am I. If you go over it again it will actually make sense. I find it easier to read if you read like the bold first, then the italics and then the regular stuff, but that could just be me.

Oh yeah, it's a bird, it's a plane, no it's a lemon that is so small Star can't possibly get kicked off of fanfiction (dot) net. I mean that isn't even like my normal lemons it's like really small and not in depth. But don't worry, when I finally stop being lazy and get an account on adultfanfiction (dot) net I'll make it better. Until then you guys are stuck with this. Okay it is 1 am and all of us (Me and the people in my head) are sleepy so we're going to bed and we'll post this, this afternoon, PEACE!