InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Pleasantries ❯ Foolish (Sesshomaru) ( Chapter 2 )

Foolish

 

 

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I am utterly at peace in this warmth

 

Cool fingers brushing through my hair and over my overheated

 

skin

Unintelligible words being murmured in my ear soothe me and help to bring me back to earth

I am more than happy to lie here for the rest of the night…for the rest of my existence

Soft downy hair the color of moonlight brushes against my cheek

And I allow a small smile to kick up the edges of my thin lips

For once allowing the serenity of being in your comforting embrace woo me into slumber

No doubt the steady beating heart underneath my ear helping me to fall asleep

In my dreams I see father wielding the malevolent So'unga

Holding it high above his head once ocher eyes stained red with fury and murderous intent

And I awake with a start just before he swings it down in a mighty ark to severe my head

I look up and am met with the same golden eyes as mine

Filled with an emotion I have no intent of recognizing

I pull myself out of you and backhand you across the face

How dare you?

Haven't we discussed this before?

You are the hanyo to only be used for my pleasure and never to touch me

Have you forgotten so quickly?

Must I remind you?

I backhand you again and the look you give me is so full of pain

Never even when I have taken you none to gently have your eyes filled with pain of any kind

Only pleasure

And that has always puzzled me

I basically rape you but every time you welcome me with open arms

And equally willing body

Something inside me cracks and I have the sudden urge to comfort you

I ignore it and turn away hoping beyond hope that the dream of father almost killing me will drive away this need to come back to you

But I have a sneaking suspicion that it won't

These unwanted feelings you rouse up in me only get stronger and stronger

No matter how hard I try to rebuild the frigid wall of hate and loathing around my heart where you are concerned

It seems the harder I try the more it melts and crumbles and the feelings that I am loath to admit are there

are nowhere near as hateful as they once were

I try to rip you from my thoughts by taking others

But they are highly unsatisfying after being sheathed in your wanton body

Who can compare to my virginal hanyo who writhes and dances upon my cock and damn near takes me to paradise?

Why would I settle for less after experiencing that?

The only one who has forced me to feel again?

Why would I give that up for only second best?

I am the Lord of the West second best is beneath me

Creeping back into the clearing where I have left my companions

I sit next to Rin and watch her sleep for a little while

While watching her chest rise and fall I am struck with the question as to why have I allowed her to fallow me around?

Her and the annoying toad

Maybe I will know this answer when I figure out why I keep coming to you

…Inuyasha

What makes you so different from all the others?

The ones who are actually worthy of my attentions

Is it the fact that I have hated you for so long and it boiled over into something more passionate?

Ah…father always told me there was a fine line between love and hate

But I don't love you

What is it that makes you so irresistible?

Perhaps I will find out when I visit you for another one of our nightly trysts

I hope you'll be prepared

I do not like being confused

And this feeling of anticipation confuses and irks me