InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Resurgence ❯ Chapter 9

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Chapter 9

 

 

 

 

 

The stroll through the forest was no longer as mind easing as it used to be. Instead, it reminded me of everything that I wished to ignore. How my life used to be.

 

The long walks with my father, the carefree chatter with Sango, the love nights with InuYasha. All of it was something I wanted to disregard.

 

But I also wanted to hold onto with every fiber in my being.

 

The path was just as I remember it being, the worn dirt that led the way to the pond, the honeysuckle that jumbled in the bushes, and the tall magnolias and birch trees. The colors were magnificent. The early summer weather allowed for the cool air and rain to continue to nurture the plants before the heat came in and overpowered any life-force that did not prepare itself for the warm months.

 

I came into view of the little pond. The birds were splashing and playing in their little bath. Same petals from lilacs and snap dragons were floating on the surface, lending the small pond true beauty.

 

I would have never known he was there. Who would have guessed the person you were trying the most to overlook was the one person you ran into every way you turned.

 

I saw him turn cautiously toward me, as if he did not know who was coming behind him, but once his gaze turned to me - I saw the hard look enter his eyes.

 

“Ironic that we would meet here,” I stated as I made to sit down on the white marble bench.

 

He just rolled his eyes at me, “I do not have time for your mindless chatter, wench.”

 

His nickname brought a smile to my face, “Do you not agree, InuYasha?”

 

He placed his arms over his midsection, his trademark move for when he felt nervous or uncomfortable, “I don't care nothing about irony.”

 

And he was using improper speech. He was really upset with me.

 

I hung my head, “I am sorry for how things turned out,” I replied quietly.

 

He scoffed at that, “If you are so sorry then why are you doing it?” He shot back at me. I heard the pain in his voice.

 

I flinched as if I had been struck, my eyes tightly closed, “it is too much for me to discuss with you.”

 

“You know what Kagome?”

 

I looked up. The abrupt change in his voice caught me off guard. He sounded so exhausted, so lifeless.

 

I locked eyes with him. We sat there staring at each other for what felt like an eternity and I felt so at home - so at ease with him.

 

The fierceness returned to his gaze. I could see the hurt and agony that he had been hiding. I wanted to go comfort him - tell him that everything would be fine, but his fierce expression came back with a vengeance that I faltered.

 

“I wish I had never met you,” he screamed at me so loud that I wanted to burst into tears right at that moment.

 

I screamed as I was knocked out of my dream. My eyes widened as I brought my hand to my chest. My heartbeat was erratic. Sobs broke through my body.

 

I heard the door to my room open and Sango rushed in, “My lady…is everything all right?” She asked me cautiously.

 

She was still feeling awkward with how I treated her the other day. She no longer knew if I would treat her as a friend or just as an ordinary servant.

 

I looked over at her, my tears streaming down my face, “he hates me,” I cried out brokenly.

 

Sango rushed to my side, “Who?”

 

“InuYasha,” I whispered.

 

She did not reply. The silence spoke all the truth I needed.

 

“Oh, what have I done?” I asked her as I began to pull my knees to my chest.

 

Sango hugged me as tightly as she could, “I do not think he hates you,” I heard her reply honestly.

 

I turned my tear stained face at her, “Truly?”

 

I saw her lip tremble slightly, “Yes. I think he is just…confused by your choices as of late,” she replied as best as she could, trying to search for the right word to describe to me how he was feeling.

 

I took in a deep breath and began shaking my head, “If he does hate me…it is not more then what I deserve.”

 

“Do no speak like that,” Sango admonished me, her grip on me tightened slightly. “He loves you…you need to remember that. He would never deliberately hurt you.”

 

“And that is what makes this worse of all,” I replied heartbroken. “I am supposed to love him, yet I am putting him through this,” I gestured around me to all the wedding items adorning my quarters.

 

“If you love him,” Sango began hesitantly, “why are you marrying Kouga?”

 

I tightly closed my eyes, “For reasons greater then my own.”

 

Sango said nothing for a moment, then her reply reached my ears, “Is this what is really the best?”

 

I looked over at her, not really understanding what she was talking about.

 

She saw my confusion, “With you not telling anyone…is it really going to make the situation better?” she asked me honestly.

 

I turned away from her. I saw the light from the half moon enter my room. It danced on my surfaces…just as it had danced over my skin all those nights ago, “it will have to.”

 

Her grip on me tightened a minuscule. “I see,” she replied quietly.

 

“Please do not judge me,” I urged her.

 

She began shaking her head, “I have no place to judge you…whether I think it is right or wrong is a different matter entirely,” she lightly kidded to me, trying to lighten the mood.

 

A small smile tried to make its way across my features, but it came much closer to resemble a grimace then a smile.

 

I decided to change the subject, “So how is your admirer carrying out? Any luck?”

 

She let a small smile cross her features before a scowl replaced her visage, “He is such a pervert. Did I tell you how he asks me to bare his child at every chance he gets? Not to mention, that he is in no way capable of keeping his hands to himself,” she replied as she turned her gaze to me.

 

I let out a small chuckle, “Well it seems you have had your hands full.”

 

“You do not need to remind me,” she replied seriously. “Between him and InuYasha-”

 

My head shot up when she mentioned his name, “What is happened with InuYasha?” I could hear the urgency in my voice.

 

“Nothing is terribly wrong with him,” she assured me quickly. “It is just… he has not been himself lately,” she replied as she looked down at her hands.

 

“What are you saying?” I asked carefully, but I still had this pressing need to know how he was surviving.

 

She was silent for a moment, her gaze never leaving her interlocked fingers. Slowly she turned to face me, her eyes filled with unshed tears, “It is something that I cannot tell you.”

 

Her behavior took me off guard, this need to know what was going on was building in my chest, “Sango…please,” I begged her.

 

She started to shake her head slightly, “It's as I have said. He has not been himself. He has shut himself out from everyone…I think he is talking about leaving the country,” her voice was really quiet by the time she reached the end of her statement.

 

“Leaving the country? But why?” I urged her.

 

She only looked up at me.

 

That was all the answer I needed, “Oh.”

 

`Because of me and my wedding another man,' I thought shamefully.

 

“Well I suppose it is all for the best,” I replied uneasily.

 

“How could you say that?”

 

I looked down at my hands, “What could I say…at least this way…I will not have to hurt him anymore.”

 

Sango shook her head and made to stand up.

 

“Wait,” I called out to her as I rapped my fingers around her wrist.

 

She abruptly stopped and looked cautiously at me, “what is it, my lady?”

 

“Do you,” I hesitantly began, “do you know when?”

 

Her eyes widened giving away her shock, “I would assume after the nuptials.”

 

My brow furrowed at this, “So he has not stated an exact time?” I asked incredulously.

 

She let out a long sigh, “My lady, if the places were switched…what would you do?”

 

And with that she got up off my bed and made her way to my door, leaving me pondering my answer alone…for the rest of the night.

 

 

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