InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Say Goodbye ❯ Chapter 1 Tearless Pain ( Chapter 1 )

Hey, you guys. Trying to resist the urge to go back and read more of Sueric's Chronicles. Currently at chapter 60 and I'm lovin' it to the max. I'm probably obsessed with her fanfics because for the past three nights, I've been dreaming about it, and my best friend thinks that I'm crazy seeing as whenever I'm on the phone with her, I'm either reading some fanfic in which I tell her to read or playing Spider Solitaire.

Anyway, two more chapters for ya, and while you're reading, I'll be trying to research a little on Ayame for her powers and her personality so as to not have her OOC too much. Well, small intro but here's the first real chapter of SG. Ikuyo!

Chapter 1: Tearless Pain

This ache in my heart

This pain that I feel

Why do I feel like this?

All I ever wanted

Was to be with you

Without these troubles of life

But that seems impossible now

Since this has happened

If only I hadn't stayed

Then none of this

Would have happened

But how can I say that?

It just won't let me forget

No, I won't cry

Not for him

But I still do

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"Kagome told me why she was upset last night, though not at first. She said that before Kikyou was resurrected, Inuyasha would always look through her to Kikyou whenever he was thinking about her. It hadn't really bothered her then because she pitied him since he loved Kikyou but thought he was betrayed by her. But when he kept seeing her and afterwards couldn't look her straight in the eye, it made her upset. She thinks that you, Inuyasha, will start looking through to Kikyou again now that she's been killed by Naraku once more."

Everyone except Kagome were still sitting outside the hut that they were camped at for the moment as Sango explained.

"Poor Kagome. She must feel terrible," Shippou sympathized.

"She does. She feels terrible about what happened to Kikyou, but she's more upset about what Inuyasha might do."

Miroku looked over at Inuyasha, who was in deep thought about what Sango said. "Inuyasha," He said snapping Inuyasha from his thoughts. "You should go talk to Kagome seeing as you're the one who she is upset over."

Inuyasha scoffed at him. "Tell me something I don't know."

"Alright then." Miroku stood up and walked over to the hanyou sitting upon a boulder. "You're a self-arrogant, ignorant, emotionless jerk who's too stubborn to do anything about the problems of the girl that he denies he loves."

"Shut up! I do not act like that. Nobody asked for your opinion!"

Shippou jumped on the boulder in front of Inuyasha. "Of course on do! That's how you always act, especially around Kagome. Why do you think she believes that you will look past her to Kikyou? Are you really that dumb?"

Inuyasha whacked Shippou on the head. "Shut up! I'll act the way I fucking please. Just because she's upset over what happened to Kikyou doesn't mean I won't do anything."

Sango stood up abruptly. "Then what will you do? Why do you think she wants to go back home all of a sudden?! She's having more of a hard time than you are, so do something about it!"

Inuyasha jumped off the boulder and started to walk towards the forest. "I just wish you would all get off my back!" He disappeared into the forest.

"The guy's too stubborn to even admit he's worried about Kagome," Miroku said.

Sango agreed. "Kagome must have the patience of a hundred saints to even love a guy like him."

"Nevertheless, we should leave the two alone for awhile."

"Do you think Kagome will be okay?" Shippou asked about his worried friend.

"Hopefully, yes, as long as Inuyasha knows what he's doing and doesn't say anything wrong."

"You might as well say Inuyasha is gonna mess up, houshi-sama. With any luck, Kagome will be back to her normal self again."

"Sango, my dear, you wound me so. Do you not believe in my words?"

"No, I don't believe in you and your wandering hands. Speaking of which…" Miroku met with dirt less than a second after due to Hiraikotsu. "I'll say this again, you lecherous houshi, keep your hands to yourself."

Shippou sighed. `Looks like nothin's wrong with those two. Oh, I hope Kagome will accept Inuyasha's apology, though it's his own fault."

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Meanwhile, as Inuyasha slowly made his way to Kagome trying to think of what he might say to her, Kagome sat near a tree close to the middle of the forest. She tried not to cry as she was threatened within her mind of the same image over and over again; of Inuyasha staring in her eyes at Kikyou.

`Stop! Why won't it leave me alone?!' She screamed in her head. Her tears were at the brink of falling over onto her already tearstained cheeks.

Kagome had left the hut that morning after breakfast. She hadn't said anything and barely looked at Inuyasha since the other night. That morning, she altogether avoided him, not wanting to confront him. She left no word of where she was going knowing that she would be gone long enough to clear her mind.

`Why did this have to happen? I wish this had never happened, that I didn't even meet Inuyasha; then, none of this would have ever come to be. Not if I had to feel this pain. I won't cry for him, not like this. I can't cry.' Kagome tried to not let the tears fall, to keep them at bay, but she couldn't.

"What am I saying?" She asked out loud. "Does it really hurt that that much? So much so as for me to say something like that? No…it doesn't. I'm just overreacting. Inuyasha would never mean to hurt me if he could help it. I already know this."

Kagome stood up, wiping away her tears. "But still, it'll hurt, nonetheless. I should just avoid him for now…at least until I can think things through. I better head back before the others worry."

Kagome walked back to camp, but before she was close to the hut, she saw Inuyasha walking towards her slowly. He stopped when he saw her too. Kagome wasn't ready to talk to him yet, so she tried to walk past him.

Inuyasha grabbed her wrist. "Kagome, wait."

Kagome pulled her hand from his grasp and said, "Not now, Inuyasha. I don't feel like talking with you just yet."

She tried to walk away again, but this time he grabbed her arm firmly. "Listen, we need to talk."

"Can we do this some other time? And could you please let go of me?"

"Kagome, please, listen to me." Kagome was trying to get out of his grip, but he held her firmly enough. Inuyasha pulled her back some. "Will you cut it out?!"

"I said let go! What's with you?!"

"I just wanna talk, but you're being too much of a bitch to even listen!"

Kagome suddenly slapped him, and Inuyasha immediately released her. "You're a baka, you know! You're a dumb baka who doesn't know how to take a hint because he's too stubborn!"

Inuyasha growled at her and slapped her back. He had caught Kagome off guard, and she fell back on her side.

"You truly are a bitch! You're not even letting me say what I want to say, and, yet, you slap me for no reason!"

He watched as Kagome sat up on her left hand while her other covered her cheek. He couldn't see her face but noticed the small bit of blood on her fingertips as the scent reached his nose. He realized too late what he had just done and tried to apologize. "Kagome, I'm - I mean, I didn't mean to -"

"Stay away from me! Just stay away!" Inuyasha immediately froze, his ears flattening against his head not liking the yelling or the words she yelled.

"Kagome, I didn't…"

"JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!" Kagome got up and ran from him to deeper into the forest.

Inuyasha lifted up his hand, wanting to run to her, to hold her, to tell her that he didn't mean to hurt her in anyway. He thought better of his actions as he watched her disappear into the darkness of the many trees.

This was shorter than I thought it would be but it couldn't be helped. Okay, we know that Inuyasha would never hit Kagome but I couldn't think of anything else. So that's the way things'll be. Next chapter will be a little longer.

I've had Four Seasons, the ending song for Inuyasha 3: Sword of World Conquest, for months and I know all of the words except for the very beginning when they say a line in English four times. I cannot figure out what they're saying, 'cause I'm stuck between three different things:

Four scenes of love and laughter, I'll be alright being alone

Four scenes after her lover had left her, I'll…

Four seasons forever and after, I'll…

I am so confused-ed. What does the lady say? I found some lyrics for the song and it said it was the first one, but for some reason it doesn't seem like that. The second one was what I thought it was before I got the lyrics and the third just kinda popped into my head the other day when I thought one of my best friends said …forever and after… while singing the song. Could someone help a girl out? My head doesn't know what to say!!

Well, on to chapter 2!

Final Words

Inuyasha: (thinking)

Miroku: Whatcha doin', Inuyasha? Have you finally seen through your devious ways and are trying to reach enlightenment? I'm so proud! I've finally rubbed off on you.

Inuyasha: Fuck off, houshi! I'm thinking. And if anything, you've rubbed on Sango enough for her to start trying to off you.

Miroku: I know not of what you speak, Inuyasha. Sango has not been trying to `off' me. You are sadly mistaken, my dear frien-

Sango: (in her taijiya outfit with Hiraikotsu in hand) Houshi-sama! Prepare to DIE!!!

Shippou: Where'd Miroku go?

Inuyasha: Who cares. He's gonna be mince meat in the next few seconds if Sango ever catches up to him.

Shippou: (shrugs) Oh, well, it nice knowing him. By the way, Inuyasha, try to not make you brain explode with too much thinking. Kagome would be even unhappier if you just happened to detonate.

Inuyasha: (thumps Shippou) I didn't ask for your opinion!

Shippou: KAGOME!!! Inuyasha's being mean to me!!!

Unknown: (in the distance) OSUWARI!

Inuyasha: What the - Damn that bitch!