InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Say Goodbye ❯ Chapter 2 Guilt ( Chapter 2 )

`Kay, here's chapter 2. Ikuyo!

Chapter 2: Guilt

I didn't mean to

I didn't want to

I didn't have to

But I still did

Why? Why did I do it?

Her expression - terrified

My heart clenched

As I heard those words

Saddened, I recoiled

To shudder to think

That she truly hated me

I want to say it

But…how can I say something

That I've never meant to her?

If only…

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"YOU DID WHAT?!!!" Sango yelled after she heard what Inuyasha said.

"You go off hoping to help Kagome and end up hurting her even more. I mean, you slapped her, for Buddha's sake!" Miroku joined Sango in her rage, though he was calmer about the situation.

"And all because she slapped you and called you a baka! She's right, you know. You area baka!" Shippou kept jumping up and down in front of Inuyasha's face, but he smacked the kitsune away.

Sango caught him and said, "Shippou's right too. Kagome was hurting enough as it was, but this is ridiculous."

Miroku reflected for a moment before saying, "From what you have told us, Kagome didn't want to talk, yet you were persistent to get her to listen, correct?"

"Well, I…Damn it! Why is it any of your business, anyway?"

"Because you're the one that cam to us, remember?"

"Look, I didn't mean to hurt her. She slapped me first, and I was already pissed."

"But you slapped her still. You should have let her go `cause you only worsened the situation. We all know that you wanted to help Kagome, but maybe you should have left her alone when she asked. She might have talked to you later of you had."

"Cut the crap, Miroku! You're the one who told me that I should talk to her."

"Since when did you listen to what Miroku says? You know from his ways that it'll never work the way he tells you," Shippou said, finally getting off Sango's lap.

Miroku gave Shippou a glare that was meant for him to not speak, but Shippou didn't quite catch it. "True, as I did say that you should talk to her, but I never said for you to get aggressive and strike her. As you can see, there's no reason to argue over something that cannot be undone. Inuyasha, you should go find Kagome and apologize."

"Like I'm gonna listen to you; that's what you said last time and now look what happened. I'll do this my way and wait till she comes to me. She can't stay mad at me forever, and, besides, she'll figure out when she's ready to talk to me about it."

"I'm not so sure about that, Inuyasha." Everyone looked at Sango as she began petting Kirara in her lap.

"Why not?"

"Because, Kagome didn't look all too well this morning. In fact, worse than before. She hadn't said a word yesterday or today. She didn't even tell me what was wrong when I asked about the cut on her face. She had a blank stare. Her expression really scared me."

"That bad?" Inuyasha asked worriedly.

Sango nodded once. "Unfortunately, it gets worse. There something I didn't tell you before because I thought it was too personal. Ever since Kikyou's remaining souls merged with hers, Kagome said that she was feeling the hatred Kikyou felt, the anger Kikyou carried as she was dying the first time and walked among the living the second time. But the most she feels from her is to you, Inuyasha. The hatred towards Naraku doesn't bother her because she already hates him. But she can't stand the hatred that she feels towards Inuyasha. It's almost unbearable for her at times. That's why she always wanders off into the forest. She tries to clear her mind of the feeling." Sango turned to Inuyasha, who was already staring back with a very concerned and sad look on his face. "But what you did, Inuyasha, may have made it worse when you hurt her. That blank look that was on her face scared me because it reminded me of Kikyou's expression. It resembled the look Kikyou gave you whenever she was thinking about you and her going to hell together.

"Inuyasha, you should apologize to Kagome but first let her calm down. Leaving her alone for a while might be a good idea so that she can clear her mind. If she doesn't come back by this evening, then go look and apologize."

Inuyasha looked doubtful at what Sango said. "But what if she's still mad and hates me? She might not wanna talk or might not even want to listen to me."

Shippou went over to Inuyasha. "What do you expect? I wouldn't be too surprised if she wouldn't want to talk to you for a long time. I mean, you can't blame her for being mad at you, not after what you did."

Miroku let the head of his staff fall lightly on Shippou's head to calm him down. "I think that's enough, Shippou. Sango's right, Inuyasha, and, in a way, so is Shippou. Go and apologize to her tonight."

"But what if she's…?"

Sango placed a hand on Inuyasha's shoulder. "Don't worry. Just give her some time and space, and she'll eventually talk to you. Kagome's not exactly the type to hold a grudge," Sango reassured her friend.

"Okay," he said doubtfully.

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Inuyasha walked out into the forest that night, half-heartedly searching for Kagome. He wasn't so sure of he should, considering the facts that Kagome was angrier than he had ever made her, the conflict with Kikyou's feelings clashing with Kagome's own, and everytime he tried to apologize to her he couldn't bring himself to say it. Sure, there was the time he apologized for her alarm clock, but that wasn't what he was supposed to be sorry for.

Inuyasha sighed. It seemed hopeless. There was also the part that she had done everything in her power to avoid him, and there was no way that she would just forgive and forget something like this, not after what he did.

`Feh, not the type to hold a grudge, eh? She doesn't know Kagome like I do,' Inuyasha thought to himself. Inuyasha walked on in his thoughts.

He was so deep in his thoughts that h failed to notice the presence of a demon nearby or someone coming close fast.

He was crossing through the place where he met Kagome the day before when he heard rustling in some bushes. He placed his hand on Tetsusaiga's hilt, ready to attack. That's when Kagome emerged from the shrubbery holding her right arm. He saw that it was limp and dripping with blood profusely.

"Kagome!" Inuyasha yelled, but she didn't hear or see him. At the exact moment he yelled her name, a small demon appeared behind Kagome and slashed at her with his claws, tearing the back of her shirt into shreds.

Inuyasha saw blood trailing from her back as she fell down, her eyes wide. "KAGOME!!!" He ran to her motionless body as more of her blood spilled from her wounds. He didn't know what to do since he didn't want to harm her more but wanted to stop the bleeding. Then he heard snickering. He stood up growling as he searched for the demon. "Show yourself, bastard!"

Suddenly, the small demon appeared in midair licking the blood from his claws. He licked his lips and grinned. "A young woman's blood, the best there is. What do half-breed want?" The small demon looked like Kageroumaru, only uglier and with limbs.

Inuyasha bared his teeth. "Kagome…Why did you attack Kagome?"

"Kagome? That dead girl? Heh, Kazi saw fresh meat and took Kazi's chance to get a good meal. Pesky little thing could run, but no one faster than Kazi."

Inuyasha clenched his fists, almost drawing blood. "Why you disgusting, little…"

"Only disgusting thing Kazi see is half-breed care about Kazi's next meal. How else half-breed expect Kazi eat human girl? Leave now or Kazi kill too."

"I'm getting sick of your voice. You won't lay another finger on Kagome and damn well won't get near to killing me!" He charged and leapt up to attack. "Iron Reaver!" He yelled trying to kill Kazi.

Kazi disappeared a fraction of a second before the attack could slice through him. Inuyasha heard chuckling from behind and turned. "Heh heh, Kazi too fast for half-breed. Half-breed can't keep up with Kazi. Kazi kill now!"

He dashed towards Inuyasha, and Inuyasha dodged him. But he didn't move quick enough. Kazi managed to slash at his right arm, ripping through the sleeve of his fire rat haori and under kimono. Kazi appeared licking his claws again. "Almost good as human's. Kazi gonna eat half-breed with human!" He smiled wickedly.

Inuyasha quickly pulled out Tetsusaiga transformed. "Try and eat my Wind Scar!" The Wind Scar danced off and on Tetsusaiga like lightning as the wind swirled around it. Just as Kazi charged in for another attack, Inuyasha swung Tetsusaiga up towards him, releasing the Wind Scar. Kazi couldn't dodge the huge attack and was torn into pieces by the wind.

Inuyasha quickly sheathed Tetsusaiga and ran to Kagome's bloody form. Her breathing was very shallow, and blood still seeped out her wounds.

"Hold on, Kagome. You're gonna be okay. You have to!" Inuyasha gently picked up Kagome and rushed off to the others careful not to make the bleeding worse.

Meant to do this earlier last week but I would like to do a poll for who would you like to have as president, Miroku, Inuyasha, Sesshoumaru, or Kouga? Here're their descriptions.

Miroku: A monk that will make sure that all females will be treated like royalty and that a village of pretty women in the Musashi domain will be protected. He will destroy any demon that threatens the life of an individual and still keep his charm towards the ladies.

Inuyasha: A half-demon of a rough exterior from a harsh childhood. He hates those who scorn him for being half-human or half-demon. He'll protect anyone that remains kind toward him and loves a good fight. Hurt his friends and/or mate, the enemy will get a taste of his strongest physical weapon, Tetsusaiga. Seems harsh and rough on the outside, but at the right time, you can find his soft side. He even has cute doggy ears!

Sesshoumaru: Strong taiyoukai of little words. Despises humans, despite the fact he keeps a human girl around. Will protect his lands and his possessions with a swift attack. Anything that threatens either him or his property dies an unmerciful death.

Kouga: A very possessive wolf-demon that doesn't take too much of liking to humans but will protect his `woman', even if she's human. His territory is kept under close watch by him and his underlings. A born leader, he will ensure that all of his people and territory is safe, even if he has to kill.

Now that you've read about the candidates, choose. To submit a vote, send blueangel326 an email at prplangel326@yahoo.com. Please send through e-mail. Not through review. All votes must be in by November 14, 2004. Vote while you still can. Results will be posted up on that Monday. Good luck to my candidates!

Final Words

Kagome's dying?! Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo… (gasps for air) Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!

Inuyasha: Cut it out, wench! You're hurting my ears.

Awww, let me rub them for you.

IY: Fuck no! Only Kagome rubs my ears.

But she's dying!

IY: Do YOU wanna die? No? Okay then.

Shippou: Inuyasha, how could you be so stupid?!!! Why didn't you make sure there were no youkai around?!!! Now Kagome's hurt thanks to you. You're such a BAKA!!!

IY: Don't remind me.

Kazi: Kazi take care of girl for you. Kazi eat human girl. She dead anyway.

IY: What the fuck are you doing alive? I killed you with my Wind Scar!

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Kill it, kill it, kill it before it eats me.

IY: Pathetic human. Wind Scar!!

Kazi: Noooo! Not again. Kazi already die once!

IY: And stay down you dumb piece of shit.

Yay! You killed it. Can I rub your ears now?

IY: Fuck off, wench.

Osuwari!

IY: Haven't we already gone over this?

Inuyasha no baka.

IY: Heard that!

Dammit!

IY: Heard that too.

Grumble, grumble, grumble.