InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Seeing Through My Eyes ❯ Sickening Death ( Chapter 3 )

Chapter Three:

 

 

I am now standing before Kikyo, a smug look on my face. She looks at me, still as beautiful as she ever was. But even her beauty can't hide that fact that she reeks of the scent of death.

 

 

“Hello Inuyasha,” she says in that cold voice of hers.

 

 

I simply look at her, into her eyes. I see nothing in them, nothing at all. It's funny how a person can change so much, yet your feelings for them remain the same.

 

 

I raise my hand to her hair and touch it lightly. It's soft but it feels dead...like her. I sigh softly. I want her to be alive, like Kagome. But then, I realize, I would be forced to choose. I wouldn't be able to have them both, no matter how much i wanted it.

 

 

I'm very surprised right now to see that Kikyo is leaning into me. Her lips land on mine softly. Right now it's just like every time she visits. I have no control or resistance. So I let her kiss me, but I don't return it. I can't even focus on her kiss right now because that stench of death is practically suffocating me.

 

 

Suddenly, I can smell Kagome. I feel dirty right now, and so ashamed, knowing that she's close by and that she can probably see what Kikyo is doing. Suddenly, this all feels wrong. Only a few moments ago, I'd wanted to hurt her. But, something inside me snapped at the thought of her crying again. I just know she's gonna cry. She always cries when I had gone to see her.

I push Kikyo away suddenly. “No.”

 

 

She just stares at me with a look of confusion, disgust, and worst of all: pity.

 

 

“Get away from me,” I say to her and turn my back.

 

 

“You're the one who came to me,” she says, and I break off into a run, following Kagome's scent.

 

 

I can't find her, her scent's disappearing, I realize. I frown as I hear Kikyo's words replaying in my head again. You're the one who came to me. I had gone to her. I just wanted Kagome to feel what I felt when Koga came around. Of course, I realize now, I never really wanted to hurt her. But I did, I remind myself. There I go again, being a screw up, a screw up in love.

I growl in frustration as I realize that I led myself back to Sango and the others, only to see that Kagome is not there and that her scent has disappeared.

 

 

"Where is she?" I ask Sango.

 

 

"I believe she went back to her time," she tells me and I groan, as I suddenly feel like I'm going to throw up.

 

 

"Was she mad?" I ask, trying to ignore the wave of nausea that's washing over me.

 

 

No, of course she wasn't mad, I think to myself.

 

 

"I actually think she was crying," she says and I only feel worse because I know Sango won't hesitate in making sure that I know this is my fault.

 

 

I turn my back on her. I can't look at her, I need to get away. So I start running again, only this time, in the direction of the well. Her scent is slowly getting stronger and I know she has gone through to her time. I realize I am not watching where I am going and soon pay for it by landing face down in wet grass. I hurriedly pick myself up and jump into the well without hesitation.

In seconds I am jumping out of the well, in Kagome's era. I run out of the well house and my nose is greeted with her scent. I'm running so fast and then, I collide with something, someone, to be exact. I hear her groan as I land on top of her.

 

 

"Kagome," I say, pushing myself up on my arms.

she looks up at me with the saddest expression, her brown orbs filled with such pain. I can see that her eyes are red, more than likely from crying.

 

 

"Get away from me!" she yells and pushes me off of her.

 

 

"Kagome," i whisper, making an attempt to grab her wrist as she scampers towards the door of her home.

 

 

"No!" she shouts and runs inside, slamming the door.

 

 

I look down at my hands and suddenly feel like I want to cry myself. My stomach is still churning. I can still taste her on my lips, in my mouth. I feel rotten and worthless sitting there.

 

 

What did I do to deserve this?

 

 

I cannot prevent it any longer. I double over on her lawn and clutch my stomach as I begin emptying the small contents of my stomach. I can't help but welcome the sickening taste of bile, anything that will get rid of the taste of Kikyo.

 

 

I need to get away from her house, away from my thoughts. I get up painfully and stagger to the well house. I'm dry heaving as I stumble into the well. back in my time, I climb out shakily and collapse onto the dew-covered grass.

 

 

I raise my head after a familiar scent has filled my nostrils. For once in my life, I'm actually scared to see my older brother standing before me. He's looking at me with such an expression of pity and disgust. I want to hurt him, so badly, but I'm having difficulty focusing. I try to get up but my body feels like it's being weighed down. I can only think of Kagome before my world turns to darkness...