InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Shadows ❯ Hard To Move On ( Chapter 2 )

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CHAPTER TWO: HARD TO MOVE ON

 

It was mid day when Kagome returned to the Feudal Era. She picked Kirara up from Kaede's hut and they flew off in the direction they had left their friends, knowing they wouldn't have journeyed too far.

After a few stops they found the village they're companions had stopped in and quickly met up with Miroku and Shipp.

Kagome frowned slightly when she saw the two, “Where are InuYasha and Sango?”

Miroku shrugged while Shippo leaped into Kagome's arms, “I'm so glad your back!” he exclaimed. Kagome smiled and handed him a lollipop then turned to Miroku, “When did they leave?”

“I'm not sure. We haven't seen them all morning.”

“Did they go off last night?”

Miroku chuckled and starched the back of his head nervously, “Uhh…I uh…I'm not sure. During supper I left with-”

Kagome rolled her eyes and held up a hand, “I don't want to hear about it.”

She looked down at the fox kit in her arms, “What about you Shippo, did you see them leave last night?”

Shippo licked his candy greedily then shook his head, “No. I left during supper with some of the village children. They wanted to see some of my magic tricks. I fell asleep in the grass.”

Kagome bit her lip and looked around, “Then I guess we should ask about it. That worries me that they would just take off like that.”

Miroku smiled and placed a hand on Kagome's shoulder, “I'm sure they are fine. If they did leave they must have had a good reason. Don't worry.”

Kagome nodded with a slight smile then picked up the tiny form of Kirara, “Let's go ask around.”

Miroku fell into step behind Kagome, a slightly frown on his face. His thoughts were also troubled.

 

Sango sat at the entrance to the cave, her knees pulled to her chest and her arms wrapped around them. InuYasha had left about an hour before without saying a word. Sango knew he would come back; he just needed time to get over the shock. Tears sprang into Sango's eyes. It was shocking. Even though she had been aware of everything that happened last night, part of her was still trying to understand it all. She didn't blame InuYasha, nor did she hate him. He wasn't himself, he didn't know what happened. Besides, InuYasha seemed to be putting enough hate and blame onto himself as it was. Soon after he had left, Sango could hear the cracking of trees as they would slashed down; she had no doubt InuYasha was taking his feelings out on the forest. But all that had ended a few minutes ago and Sango was sure he was on his way back.

Sango slowly got to her feet, wincing at her sore body and went back into the cave. After InuYasha had left and she finished crying, she found what she could of her clothes and put them on. Surprisingly her suit wasn't sliced to pieces and covered her well. Picking up InuYasha's top she held it to her chest with shaking hands, flashes of the night before flying through her mind. Sango shook her head violently and took a deep breath, “I can do this” she whispered. “I'm strong enough to handle this.”

“Sango?”

Sango slowly turned around and met InuYasha's eyes. He was standing at the entrance to the cave, looking like he wanted to come closer but didn't dare. Sango walked towards him and held out his top, “This is yours.”

InuYasha stared at her then at the cloth, “I-”

Sango pressed it into his hands, “Listen to me InuYasha. I don't blame you.”

InuYasha scoffed.

“I don't. And I don't hate you either.”

“Why not?” InuYasha whispered.

“Because it wasn't your fault. You didn't mean for this to happen.”

InuYasha carefully reached for his top and Sango struggled to not step back. She didn't blame him, but it was still hard being to close to him after what happened.

As soon as InuYasha had the cloth Sango gently took a step back, “I don't hate you, but I do need some time. This is-” her voice caught and she started blinking rapidly to keep her tears from falling, “This is hard for me. Just give me some time, and some space. And I will be okay.”

InuYasha slowly shook his head and he put his top on, “Don't worry about it Sango. I'm not going to be around here much longer.

“What? Why?”

InuYasha finally looked up again, “I hurt you Sango. I raped you. How can you just stand there and not loath me with ever fiber of your being.”

Sango's heart broke when she saw InuYasha's eyes. They were full of pain, and regret and sadness.

“I can't stay here. The farther away I go the better.”

“And what about the others?”

InuYasha snorted, “You really think they're going to want me around after they find out what happened? Even Kagome wouldn't want me near here. And I'd be lucky if the monk didn't trying to suck me up in his wind tunnel.”

“Who said they had to know?”

InuYasha stared at Sango in shock, “What?”

“I'm not telling them InuYasha. There's no reason for them to know. What's done its done, there's no need to dwell on it.”

“I don't understand” InuYasha said hoarsely.

Sango smiled softly, “I already told you. I don't blame you, nor do I hate you. Just give me my space for a while, and give me time. Soon these bruises will heal, there's no point in making new ones by telling everyone. It'll be our secret.”

InuYasha closed his eyes; fell to his knees and for the second time that day, he cried.

 

Miroku, Shippo and Kagome flew away from the village on Kirara. A farmer had told them he saw the half-demon and a slayer leave during the night; they looked ready for battle. Now the group was soaring over the fields looking for any indication their friends had been there.

“Look over there!” Shippo exclaimed from Kagome's shoulder. Below them in a wide clearing lay a large demon.

Kirara quickly landed and they all ran over to the half decade corpse.

“I don't think this was our friends” Miroku said quickly after looking over the demon, “This creature was killed rather brutally. The markings are nothing like Sango's Hiraikotsu, or InuYasha's Tetsusaiga.”

Kagome bit her lip, “So what should we do?”

Miroku step away from the demon, “I think the best choice would be to return to that village and wait for our companions there.”

He smiled at Kagome's face, “Don't worry Kagome. I'm sure they're just-”

“Hey over here!” Shippo's voice but in. Kagome and Miroku turned to see Kirara and Shippo running towards them, a sword's sheath in the fox kit's hands.

“That's Tetsusaiga's sheath!” Kagome gasped.

Miroku took it from Shippo, “So they were here” he murmured.

“But where's the sword?”

Miroku looked back and forth between the demon and the sheath, before he caught sight of the last thing he wanted to see.

“Oh no” he breathed.

Kagome patted Shippo's head, completely unaware of Miroku's distress, “I'm sure it's with InuYasha.”

“Kagome” Miroku said quietly.

“Maybe one of them got hurt and they didn't have time to grab it. Oh I hope not!”

“Kagome”

Someone couldn't stolen the sheath and-”

Kagome!”

Kagome frowned at Miroku, “What's wrong?”

He just pointed to the side of the demon, the side they hadn't walked to. Kagome's eyes widened. Sticking out of the grass; was InuYasha's Tetsusaiga.

Kagome looked from the demon's body to the sheath in her hands to the sword. Everything all came together.

“INUYASHA !”

 

Sango and InuYasha slowly made their way through the forest, with about 20 feet between them. It was starting to get frustrating because neither of them knew which way to go. Suddenly InuYasha stopped; his twitching and he sniffed the air.

“What's wrong?” Sango came along side of him, her desired distance forgotten for the moment.

“I heard my name.”

His ears moved again and he turned to their left, “It's Kagome.”

Sango sighed deeply, “Good. Now we can get out of this damn forest.”

The sides of InuYasha's mouth twitched, the closet thing to a smile Sango had seen all morning. She smiled back at him, “Let's go” she said softly.

InuYasha nodded and bounded off in the direction of Kagome's voice. Sango followed swiftly behind, though her body still ached.

“We can do this. We can put this behind us and move on.”

Sango took a deep breath and nodded to herself, “It'll be okay.”

 

Kagome lifted her hands to her mouth again and took a deep breath, “INUYA-”

“I'm right here wench, you don't have to scream.”

Kagome gasped and spun around. InuYasha leaned against a tree truck; his face in a slight frown.

“Oh InuYasha!” Kagome threw herself into his arms, “I was so worried!”

InuYasha stiffened when Kagome's body touched his, but not wanting questions he gently hug her back.

“Keh. What for? I was fine.”

Kagome pulled back, “But we found your Tetsusaiga. And a dead demon. It looked like you had turned into your full-demon self and we were so worried.

“InuYasha!” Shippo and Miroku came into the clearing.

“You're alright!” Shippo yelled.

“Oh course I am runt! You'd think I was a weak little pup the way you-”

“Where's Sango?” Miroku cut in.

InuYasha froze for a split second then jerked his head behind him, “She's coming.”

“Is she alright? Was she hurt?”

“Yeah. By me.”

Kagome thought she saw a bit of pain flash through InuYasha's eyes. But just as quickly it was gone.

“Must have imagined it.”

“Feh” InuYasha grumbled, “Nothing she can't handle.”

“Where's Kirara?” Kagome asked turning to look at Shippo and Miroku.

Shippo shrugged, “I don't know. She disappeared a few minutes ago.”

“She probably found Sango's sent and went straight to her.” Miroku said calmly.

“Let's wait here.”

InuYasha immediately leaped up to a tree and leaned against the truck. Miroku and Kagome exchanged glances. No argument?

Kagome just shrugged and sat at the base of the tree. Miroku soon joined her and Shippo snuggled into Kagome's lap.

InuYasha glanced down at his companions out of the corner of his eyes.

“This is going to be harder then I thought.”

 

Sango waiting back in the trees and watched Kagome greet InuYasha. She saw him stiffen, then almost reluctantly hug the girl back

“Oh InuYasha” she whispered.

“Meow”

Sango looked down to see Kirara sitting at her feet, her eyes studying her mistress. Sango crouched down and picked up her pet.

“I'm sorry if I worried you Kirara.”

Kirara purred as Sango rubbed her face in the kitten fur. Then she starting sniffing Sango and looked up in what seemed confusion.

“What's wron...oh.” Sango sighed, “You can smell InuYasha on me, can't you?”

Kirara tilted her head and meowed.

“Don't worry about it my friend. I will tell you, but not right now. Okay?”

Kirara meowed again and snuggled in closer. Sango winced as they kitten pushed against a scratch but said nothing. She looked into the clearing again and saw that Miroku and Shippo had joined them

“Miroku” tears filled Sango's eyes.

They were to be married when this was all over. But how could she do that now? She swore to InuYasha, and to herself she would never tell what happened. But how could she keep a secret from the man she was married to?

No. That was over. Before it really even begun.

Sango heard Miroku ask about her, and saw InuYasha hesitated slightly. It was slight, but she saw it. She was expecting it. And that's how it would be for a while, he would pause and she would flinch. There would be questions, but no answers. It would be hard and it would hurt like hell. But no one would know, no one would understand.

Sango closed her eyes and sank to her knees, holding Kirara closer as hot tears fell down her cheeks.

“This is going to be harder then I thought.”