InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Shadows ❯ I Forgive You ( Chapter 3 )

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A/N:

Speaking

Thinking

Flashbacks

 

CHAPTER THREE: I FORGIVE YOU

 

Sango closed her eyes and settled into the hot water. She breathed deeply and let the water wash everything away.

As soon as Sango had rejoined her friends and assured them she was fine, the group set off on their journey once again. By the time night fell, every part of Sango's body screamed in pain, and the soreness between her legs seemed worse. Everyone set up camp and Kagome suggested the girls take a bath. Sango froze and she resisted the urge to look at InuYasha. If Kagome bathed with her, she would see the cuts and bruises. Then she would know something happened. It was a miracle in itself Shippo hadn't smelled InuYasha on her as they traveled. But then again InuYasha had kept the kit up with him at the head of the group while Sango brought up the back.

Sango reached over and grabbed a bottle of Kagome's “Con-dish-oner” and poured some of the liquid into her hand.

After Kagome's suggestion Sango pulled the girl aside and asked if she minded they take turns for baths that night. At Kagome's confused look Sango confided in her she was more tired then usual and did not feel up to dealing with Miroku's antics of trying to spy. And even InuYasha seemed to have a hard time keeping tabs on the monk when it came to the girls bathing. Kagome immediately agreed to watch Miroku first so Sango could wash off from her battle the day before.

Sango lathered up her hair, a small frown on her face. She didn't like misleading Kagome; the girl was as close to a sister as Sango could ever hope for. Closing her eyes Sango ducked under the water and rinsed her hair out.

But she knew if Kagome ever found out what happened; she would be crushed.

Breaking to the surface again Sango leaned against a large rock and closely inspected her body. She hadn't really had a chance to look at all the marks InuYasha had left; she hadn't wanted to see them. But she knew if she was ever going to get past it all, she had to face it. She started with her arms.

There were small cuts at her wrists and all the way up to her shoulders; she remembered there were from the small, sharp rocks on the cave floor. She was sure her back looked similar. Nail indents on her upper arms showed where InuYasha had grabbed her after he removed her clothes.

Sango shivered and ducked deeper into the hot water. Maybe she should wait; give it a few more days before she looked any farther.

“No” she told herself harshly, “In a few more days, everything will start to heal. I have to see them, and then forget about them.”

Taking a deep breath she slowly sat higher in the water, just the top of her breast showing. With shaking fingers she slid her hands down from her shoulders, to the sides of her breasts. Wincing as she brushed across a bruise.

InuYasha's fangs flashed in the light before he nipped at her skin. Sango gasped as she felt her skin rip and a bruise beginning to form.

Sango shuttered and her hands balled into fists. “Keep it together Sango” she whispered. But she could feel her courage failing. Closing her eyes she continued down her body; fang marks on her chest, claw marks across her stomach. Sango struggled to keep her tears from falling.

Finally her hands came to her hips.

Sango gave up struggling against InuYasha's strong hold. His body was pressing on hers, his hot breath brushing across her neck.

He put his knee between her legs, forcing them apart.

“InuYasha…please” Sango whispered. She was so tired. Even though she was no longer bleeding, she had lost enough blood to make her exhausted. And InuYasha's rough treatment of her body made it next to impossible to keep awake. But still she fought against the darkness, hoping against hope InuYasha would somehow come to his sensesand stop.

Sango's breath hitched as she felt InuYasha lean into her body, he was so close to crashing her world. Taking the one thing she had left to lose. Her innocence.

“InuYasha” Sango whispered.

“Ple-”

Her words were cut off as InuYasha grabbed her hips and suddenly slammed into her body.

Sango screamed in pain and her tears fell faster.

Sango cried out and covered her face with her hands. She rocked back and forth in the water and sobbed.

 

InuYasha silently leaped through the forest. Sango had been gone so long he began to worry and had gone to find her. He wasn't sure what surprised him more; the fact he worried or that he went after her.

Kagome had her hands full with trying to keep Miroku busy and not go wondering after Sango; and Shippo had long since fallen asleep.

InuYasha stopped and sniffed the air; soon he found Sango's scent and ran in that direction.

He stopped in the shelter of the trees and looked over at the hot spring. He saw her relaxing in the water, only her head was visible. Suddenly Sango sat up, the water just covering her breast. A light blush filled InuYasha face and he turned to go; realizing he was being just as bad as Miroku and that she was just fine. But he stopped when her hands stared moving across her body; he looked closer and saw the cuts and bruises that stood out in contrast to her white skin.

“I did that.” Guilt filled InuYasha's heart.

He continued to watch her; he wasn't looking at her body, just what he had done to it. He cursed himself as he watched pain flash across her face. Finally he turned away and leaned against the trunk of the tree. It was when she cried out and started to sob, he couldn't take it anymore. Leaping into the trees he ran as far as he could; not looking to where he was going and not looking back.

 

Kagome slowly walked through the trees. After threatening Miroku with the pain of a thousands death, she left him to find Sango. She was surprised by Sango's suggestion to bath separately, but after the slayer explained why she understood. Sometimes Miroku just didn't know when to quit. But now she was getting a little worried, Sango had been gone for quite a while. She noticed InuYasha had disappeared too and she was a little disappointed he didn't say anything to her about leaving. But she knew he wouldn't go far; he didn't like Kagome out of his sight for too long.

“Unless Kikyo's around” Kagome thought sadly.

She shook her head, “This is not the time to be thinking of that!” she scolded herself loudly.

“I need to find Sango.”

 

Sango carefully pulled herself out of the water. She hadn't realized how long she had been in until she saw her wrinkled fingers.

“Kagome must be going crazy with Miroku by now.”

She pulled her kimono over her still damp body. “Too bad he doesn't have a necklace like InuYasha.”

Sango laughed softly to herself as she pictured Kagome screaming sit and both boys slamming into the ground.

“Sango?”

Sango jumped then hissed as pain shot through her body; it wasn't as bad as before her bath. But everything still hurt.

“Sango are you alright?”

Sango turned to see Kagome coming out of the forest, concern on her face.

“Oh Kagome. I'm sorry I took so long; I lost track of the time.”

Kagome smiled slightly, “Oh it's okay. I'm glad you're not hurt. You were gone for so long.”

“I am hurt.”

Sango wrapped her arms around her body, “I was just so tired. I'm sorry you had to wait so long.”

Kagome waved as hand as she began to undress herself, “It's no problem. I'm not the one that had to battle a demon.”

“Two. I battled against two demons.”

Sango forced a smile, “Yeah.”

“But I lost the second time.”

“I'm going to head back” Sango hesitated and looked back over at Kagome who was already in the water, “Unless you want me to stay?”

Kagome shook her head and smiled, “You look tired. Go on back. I won't be long.”

Sango nodded and headed back in the direction of their camp.

“Hey Sango!”

Sango turned and looked back, “Yes?”

“Do you know where InuYasha ran off to?”

Sango flinched then shook her head, “No.”

“Oh…okay.”

Sango waved slightly before she disappeared into the darkness.

Kagome pulled her knees up and rested her chin on them, “Where are you InuYasha?”

 

Morning came and InuYasha had yet to return. Kagome and Miroku spend most the morning debating about what to do and where to go. Sango was silent through the whole discussion, her eyes unfocused as she stroked Kirara's fur.

“InuYasha. Where did you go? Please don't run off. You can't just hide from this.”

“Sango!”

Sango's head snapped up, “Yes?”

Kagome smiled, “You okay? You were spacing out.”

“Oh. Yes I'm fine.”

“Well we're going to head out. And just let InuYasha catch up to us. Ok?”

“If he comes back.”

Sango nodded and stood up, “Sounds good to me.”

The group took to the road once again, all thinking about InuYasha's sudden disappearance. But only one of them knew the truth.

 

Four weeks past and InuYasha had yet to make an appearance; Kagome was beside herself with worry.

Sango could move freely now without any pain. The only reminder of that night was a small scar of her hip, and her memories. Memories which she was slowly coming to terms with; she would still wake up in the middle of the night, sweat dripping from her body. But even that was starting to get better; with each passing night the images became less clear.

She was even back to her normal self; talking with Kagome and knocking Miroku upside the head. Shippo even commented on her strange behavior before and said he was glad she was like she used to be.

Everything was alright; everything was the way it was supposed to be. Except for InuYasha. Not even Myoga had an idea where the hanyou had run off to.

Sango sighed softly to herself and looked at her reflection in the river. The group had stopped for lunch and Kagome was busy fixing some of her instant ramen.

“I hope he didn't go off and do something stupid.”

Suddenly Kagome screamed and Sango jumped to her feet, reaching for her Hiraikotsu. But she froze half way down; her breath caught and her heart jumped.

InuYasha was back.

Kagome had her arms wrapped tightly around his neck and Shippo was jumping on his shoulder.

Sango saw InuYasha speak to Miroku, but she could see his eyes were on her. Sango grabbed her weapon, but made sure to hold it in a none threatening way and walked over to her companions.

“So where did you go InuYasha?” Shippo asked, “Everyone was worried about you.”

InuYasha huffed, “None of your business.”

Kagome stepped back, “None of our business?! InuYasha you suddenly disappeared and were gone for a month!”

InuYasha winced at the tone of her voice, “Keh whatever. Fine if it's so important to you. I went to see Totosai.”

Sango saw one of his ears flicker when he gave his answer.

“He lied.”

Kagome sighed but accepted his answer, “Fine. I'm glad you're back.”

InuYasha reached up to throw Shippo from his shoulder but the monk saved the small kit before any damage could be done.

“Come on InuYasha!” Shippo yelled, “We have ramen!”

Sango laughed softly when she saw InuYasha's eyes light up but he stayed where he was.

“Keh. I'll be there in a minute runt.”

He turned his attention to Sango, “I-”

“Not now InuYasha” Sango said softly.

InuYasha shut his mouth then gave a slight nod.

 

Later that night after Kagome, Shippo and Miroku had gone to bed; Sango rose from Kirara's side and walked towards the lake. Minutes later InuYasha appeared, his golden eyes glowing in the night. Sango shivered slightly as she remembered those same eyes with a red tint. But she instantly crushed that thought. InuYasha needed to know that she wasn't afraid of him, that she still trusted him.

InuYasha stopped a few feet away from the slayer, his body facing the lake.

They stood in silence, reflecting on their thoughts like the moonlight on the water.

Finally Sango broke the spell, “Where did you really go?”

InuYasha's ears twitched, indicated he heard her; but he made no other movement.

“I already told you” he grunted.

“No. You lied.”

InuYasha looked at her, “What makes you say that?”

“I saw your ear flicker. You lied.”

InuYasha laughed humorlessly, “Yeah…I did.”

They stood in silence again.

“So where were you?”

“I was following you.”

“We could never sense you, and Shippo couldn't smell y-”

“Shippo's a pup” InuYasha snarled, “He can't smell that much. If he could he would have been able to-”

InuYasha stopped and looked out to the water again.

Sango took a step closer, “He would have been able to do what?”

InuYasha sighed and his shoulders drooped, “He would have been able to smell me. On you.”

Memories flashed through Sango's mind but she forced them down.

“I thought-”

“Just because you washed it off your skin doesn't take it away from you” InuYasha continued to whisper; as if saying it softly didn't make it real.

“It's inside your body. Any grown demon will be able to smell it.”

“I see.”
Sango took a seat on the sandy shore, her knees pulled up to her chest, “And you can smell it?”

“Yes.”

“Is that why you left?”

InuYasha looked sharply at her, “Why would that make me leave?”

“I don't know. Maybe smelling you on me was too much for you.”

InuYasha scoffed, “As if.”

As few more minutes passed before he leaned against a large rock, “No. I didn't leave because of the smell. I left…”

He paused and looked into Sango's dark eyes, “Don't be angry.”

Sango raised an eyebrow, “Angry?”

“I saw you in the hot springs, that night after we rejoined our group.”

A blush appeared on both their faces but InuYasha continued, “I saw the markings and the bruises I left on your body. I saw you crying as you remembered what I did to you.”

InuYasha's voice became harsh, “I hurt you. I attacked you and forced you…..I left those cuts and….” His voice trailed off.

“I just had to leave. I needed to think.”

“It gave me time to think too” Sango whispered.

InuYasha looked back out to the lake, “I almost didn't come back” he said softly.

“I'm glad you did.”

InuYasha looked down at her, “Why?”

Sango got to her feet and stood right in front of him, “Because this is where you belong.”

InuYasha looked into her eyes; his searching hers. And Sango knew what he was searching for.

“I forgive you.”

InuYasha started to shake his head but Sango put a hand on his shoulder, “I don't blame you. I've told you that. It wasn't your fault. But I don't think you're going to be able to move on unless I say that.”

InuYasha moved away from her and from the rock, “I don't deserve to have your forgiveness!”

“You don't deserve not to have it!” Sango snapped.

“I'm moving on from this InuYasha” Sango's voice suddenly softened, “Can you?”

InuYasha stared into her eyes a long time before finally nodding his head, “Yes.”

 

Miroku stirred and opened his eyes. He immediately half-way closed them again as InuYasha and Sango came back into the camp.

“Where did they go?”

The monk frowned slightly when he saw InuYasha talk to Sango before leaping up into a tree. He had suspected something happened the night InuYasha and Sango disappeared; both of them had been acting strangely. But they said nothing was wrong, and now they seemed to be themselves. But why had they left the camp together?

Miroku laughed silently to himself; he was being paranoid. They must have heard something and went to investigate. It was just InuYasha; there was no need to be jealous.

He glanced at Sango out of the corner of his eye.

Right?

 

A/N:…..I still haven't decided if I like this chapter or not….lol….oh well.

Next chapter: Sango's receives some unsettling news

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