InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Sin's of the Father ❯ chapter 4 ( Chapter 5 )
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By: rAiNwAtEr 
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Romance / Angst | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 03.21.2005 | Pages: 3 | Words: 5.2K | Visits: 195 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Romance / Angst | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 03.21.2005 | Pages: 3 | Words: 5.2K | Visits: 195 | Status: Completed
Wow I can't believe how many reviews I got for the last chapter. I know I said I was only going to update once a week but I had to get this out! I also would like to thank every one who reviewed and stayed with me through the long brake I had due to my old computer breaking down ~rAiNwAtEr~ sorry for the delay.
IMPORTANT INFORMATION.
1) First every one should be aware that the first part of this chapter is done in neither charactors P.O.V. But when you see ~~~~~~ that means I'll get into whats happening now. You'll understand once you read.
2) Second I answered all reviews from chapter 3 and made comments to others who just dropped in to say hi, I also gave my thanks to each and every person who wrote a review for chapter 3. If you sent a review please look at the bottom of the page when you finished this chapter.
3) Third I need a beta reader. Some have offered to be my beta reader. If you send a review asking, then I will send you information through e-mail asking you some questions, so we can set up some kind of way to get the chapters back and forth and posted.
4) When the story picks up with P.O.V Sesshomaru is 16 and Inuyasha is 10. and yes I changed the age gap between them.
Thank you for reading.......Hey you there!!!!!!!!!!!!........Yeah you!!!!!!!.............(points to the person skipping the important info)........ Get your ass back up there and read this you little cheat!!!!!!!!
ok onto the next chapter
Sin's of the Father
Chapter 4
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The years passed by like the sand in an hour glass. Time seemed to drift by with horrible secrets and memorible moments, moments filled with heart ache and others with some small light of happiness. I wish I could say that all was well through the passing years at Inutaishou's castle but it would only be a lie. I wish I could say Sesshomaru didn't expearence any more abuse, however that also would be a lie. Most of all I wish I could say Sesshomaru and Inuyasha lived happily ever after, away from their father and that all their troubles were far behind them.....but if truth be told......they were just beginning.
Through the years one thing did happen and that was Sesshomaru and Inuyasha developed a silent, unspoken bond. Sesshomaru never talked and Inuyasha always pushed him to do so. After their fist training that took place a few years ago, they found them selves into a every day patteren. I guess you could say life settled into a shrewed time table. Just when Sesshomaru found him self opening up to his little brother his father would sweep into his room in the middle of the night, dragging him kicking and scream to the black oak doors. But that's a part of history I'll save towards the end.
Every morning over the years, Sesshomaru and Inuyasha woke before the rest of the castle to start their vigorous training. Both brothers became strong and fought with speed and agility. Their hair alway seemed to play with the wind as they sailed through the air attacking and moving with flawless attacks. Sesshomaru was nothing but a white blur to the human eye on the battle field. Over time Sesshomaru developed a sence of style which consisted of nothing but white and MAYBE a touch of red on the cloth. Sesshomaru would never admit that he only tainted his white clothing with the color red because it was his little brothers favorite color. But then again he never spoke.
Once Inuyasha asked Sesshomaru, 'Why do you like the color white so much?'
Of course Sesshomaru didn't answer his brother and in a way Inuyasha wasn't really expecting an answer. However, the simple question got Sesshomaru thinking, well he always thought, what else was a person to do when they commited themself to silence? Later in years Sesshomaru realized he loved the color white so much because it was the color of purity, a color that represented everything he felt he could never be. He felt dirty and unclean even used. He felt like the worlds whore, it chewed him up and spat him out, leaving a taste of humility.
Sesshomaru's soul continued to brake down and desolve over the years at the hands of his so called 'father'. A mental break down usually happens to those who can't find an outlet, someone to ease the pain and share the burden. When the world feels like it's on your shoulders, you and the world are bound to come crashing down. With Sesshomaru it was only a matter of time. But as fate would have it, time was running out for the son's of Inutaishou.
After training in the morning the brothers split up and went their own way. Inuyasha usually found himself in the kitchen, the way to his heart was always through his belly. The cheif's always had to hide the deserts from the white haired boy. Quite a few times over the years Inuyasha had managed to eat all the deserts, that were preparied in the morning for dinner, but ended up his breakfast. So needless to say they were always ready for the youth to try out another master plan to get his hand on cakes and other desirable dishes. Some times Inuyasha got his way and other times things didn't work out as planned.
Sesshomaru always sat out in the flowered covered garden, doing what he always did.....think. His thoughts always seem to relapse back to the same thing. Self loathing which lead to hatrid of his father.
Then his thoughts went to Sakura the step mother that didn't give a damn, this always led to him hateing the whole castle because no one would dare stand up to the master of the castle even though every one knew about Sesshomaru's horrible secret. The feeling of hate soon melted to regrate at the memory of his late dead mother. She died at war in battle, like the true worrior she was. He knew he should have been proud that his mother died a worriors death, however he didn't feel that way. He resented her for not thinking of him and putting her pride to the side to stay with him when the great battle of the West and South broke out.
Around this time Sesshomaru's thoughts were alway interupted with the face of Inuyasha. His little white haired angel, his anchor to sanity. He had mixed feelings about his little half brother. On one hand he wanted to let his brother into his little self protected barrior and allow him to ease the pain around his heart. To allow the little hanyou to draw his soul out of the gutter so he himself could hear his own voice again. Oh, how Sesshomaru wished he could let down his barrior to speak to his little white haired angel. To answer his questions and tell him he was happy to have him near.
On the other hand Sesshomaru, in some small way, hated Inuyasha. He hated that the little hanyou wasn't strong enough to help him. He hated the fact that Inuyasha wasn't even aware of what was going on. But most of all he hated how he couldn't really hate his brother or blame him. He was like an innocent butterfly just released from it's cocoon, to look upon the world in a new light. He ran in the fields without fear. He had a mother who cuddled him when he needed to be cuddled, and he never really seen his father, he was always given an excuse, like his father was away on buiness or was to busy to see him. Oddly this never bothered Inuyasha, he never felt a conection with the man called Inutaishou.
In the late evening Sesshomaru always visted the library to read. He lost himself in books trying not to pay attention to the fact that the sun was setting and he might find a monster standing at the foot of his bed waiting to take him behind the black oak doors. As Sesshomaru's training increased, he was able to fight his father away and save him self for at least another night. His father didn't come every night, thankfully. He came at least once every two weeks. Sometimes Sesshomaru was able to fight him off but other times he was dragged kicking and screaming behind those ominous black oak doors that had a white Inu dog carved onto in with red eyes that seem to melt Sesshomaru's skin off.
Inuyasha always headed to the library around late evening. He knew the library was like a sanctuary to his brother, from what he couldn't say. Inuyasha alway thought Sesshomaru closed himself off from the world because he lost his mother in a war. Inuyasha never met the Inu women personally but he seen portraits of her in the gallery room off the west wing of the castle. She was a beautiful youkai but looked with-drawn from the world due to all the battles she fought in. Though Inuyasha was considered a baka, he did have some intelligence hidden away and only used when he was serious.
Most of the time Inuyasha was a carefree boy whos only problem was the snikering and the glaring from youkai and human a like. Yes, he had to deal with world and peopls' obtuse ideals of hanyou's and how they didn't belong. He felt singeled out by youkai and humans', not belonging fully to either race. His only comfort was his mother and secretly his brother too. Inuyasha hid his feelings behind a mask of child ignorance. Inuyasha felt that if he acted like he didn't notice the world around him he couldn't be hurt and people wouldn't bother to point out something he wouldn't understand. However, Inuyasha knew. He knew all to well what people thought of him. So he ran around in the fields and stole pastries from the cheifs and tried to put all serious matters out of his mind.
Inuyasha was content to just stay in this game of hide and seak with reality, with just his mother and Sesshomaru as his barrior. However it would seem fate had other plans....
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(Sesshomaru's p.o.v)
I could hear Inuyasha sneaking down the hall way towards the library. Every day he tries to catch me off guard while I'm surrounded by my books and reading intently. I must say he has improved, maybe it's due to our day-to-day training, what ever the case maybe he was getting closer to being able to pin me down. I listend to him glid up to the door and slid it open slowly. I could hear him lower him self to the ground behind me untill he was lieing on his stomach and slithering like a snake through the books I left on the floor after reading them.
Like a cat, Inuyasha pounced however I was ready for him. I caught him in mid air and slamed him on the floor, pining him down by stradling his hips.
I grinded down at the struggling hanyou. It was so cute to see him angry. He was the only one that could at least break my stone like mask I was trying to prefect.
"Get off my onii-san!" Inuyasha yelled at me in fustration.
I shook my head, I was not going to budge one ounce.
Suddenly Inuyasha stopped stuggling and smiled up at me. I was confused, 'what is he thinking?'
My mentally asked question was answered when Inuyasha shot up and kissed me on the cheek. It happened so fast I didn't even have time to react. Suddenly I found my self pinned to the floor by my little yasha. My face was tinted pink and my eyes wide as I looked up at Inuyasha. 'How could this have happen? I didn't see this coming.'
"Now whos pinned Sesshy?" Inuyasha said to me with a huge smile on his face.
I quickly recovered and flipped the little arugent hanyou off, once again finding my self on top. I glared down at my younger brother to show that I was clearly the strounger. After years of so called 'hanging out' with my yasha he learned to read my moves as if I was talking out loud.
Inuyasha gave out a sigh, "Ok you win Sesshy but tomorrow I'll win for sure."
That was all I needed to hear and got off Inuyasha to sit back down on my feathered pillow. I picked up my book and started to read where I left off. However it's impossible to read when a pair of golden eyes staring at you. I look up and sure enough Inuyasha was sitting on a fluffy seating pillow looking at me expectenly. I sighed, I know what he wants but sadly even though I want to give it to him I can't. I don't even know if I can still.
"Please onii-chan, say my name?" Inuyasha asked with brights eyes, hopeing that today was the day he could hear my voice. I longed to say his name but truth be told I was.....afriad. If I felt like my soul would brake if I tried to speak. It felt like I would lose my self in eternal darkness. To talk would be my breaking point and my down fall, so as always I shake my head 'No'
Inuyasha's smile fades away when I give him the answer he dreads. Like always his eyes water up his bottom lip queivers and he brakes my heart when he says, "Why?"
The tears start to flow down Inuyasha's face, his face turned up in anguish and then he continues to say, "Why won't you talk to me? Don't you like me Onii-chan? It's not normal not to know what your brothers voice sounds like, so......Please?"
I turn my head away. I am no longer able to shead tears on the out side but I do on the inside. If I was to be cut open I could swear an ocean of tears would come rushing out. I can't afford to cry on the out side because I know it would break down my strong hold.
"P-p-please Onii-san?" Inuyasha continues.
....... I couldn't answer him. I hated my self for the weakness and fear that forms a block in my throat, preventing me from speaking.
"P-p-please Onii-chan, I n-n-need to hear it!" Inuyasha pleads.
I felt a hand on my cheek as Inuyasha guides my face to look at him. Our eyes meet and lock, my lungs constrict at seeing the emotion that played on Inuyasha's face. I knew I had to try, even though it would be a failing attempt.
"Please" Inuyasha whispered, his warm inviting breath felt like a feather upon my lips. For him I would try, even if it killed me.
I opened my mouth parting my lips. I start to breath in and out of my mouth and wetting my lips. Inuyasha nods his head as if to say,' continue, I'm here for you.'
I try to force out Inuyasha's name, god how I tried but the sound wouldn't pass my lips. The time seem to click to slowly, my nerves were on end. The hair on the back of my neck started to rise in fear. But still I pressed on trying to do as Inuyasha asked.
"Sesshy maybe you should try something easier like Inu" Inuyasha said coaxing my on, helping any way he could. His face dance with excitment at what was to come.
Sadly I couldn't give him what he wanted. I tried one more time to steady my racing heart and sound out Inuyasha's name but nothing left pass my lips except a gush of wind. I shouck my head trying to tell Inuyasha I couldn't do it. The younger boy paled at my answer.
"Your not even trying hard enough!" Inuyasha accused me with tears in his eyes.
once again I failed him...
"D-d-don't you...onii-chan look at me" Inuyasha demanded. Not being able to deny him anything I look into his eyes.
"Sesshy....d-d-don't you......love me anymore?" Inuyasha asked while a stray tear slid down his cheek.
My heat constricted, how wish I could have shouted that I loved him. He was every thing a boy could want in a brother, and some where in the back of my mind I loved Inuyasha more than that. How couldn't I? He was the only one who ever loved me back for who I am and what I was......blamished.... but Inuyasha never saw me as such. And for that.....he would alway have my heart.
To answer his question I nodded my head.
"Than say it.....say you love me and your happy I'm your brother....please....I need to hear it" Inuyasha said while rubbing the tears out of his eyes and looking back at me with red rimed eyes.
I had to look away. I couldn't say what he wanted to hear even though my heart ached to do so.
"Fine!" Inuyasha shouted then bolted out of the room.
I wanted to scream for him to stay. I wanted to scream that I need him and I was afraid. I wanted to scream to him that I was afriad to be alone in the dark.....
But most of all I wanted to scream to him that I love him.
( End Sesshomaru's p.o.v )
And so time passed by much the same. In the mornings Inuyasha and Sesshomaru trained togather and spent time togather and at night Sesshomaru was left alone to deal with his father. Some times during Inuyasha and Sesshomaru's training, Inuyasha would notice cuts and bruises on Sesshomaru's creamy skin and question him. Sesshomaru would just shake the question off and continue the trianing. All stayed the same untill the night of Sesshomaru's 18th birthday. The night he pledged to get revenge for the 18 years of abuse and pain. Tonight was the night fate would strip the two brothers apart with the death of the monster and.........of someone else....
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Sesshomaru laid awake in his bed untill the sun dipped behind the mountians to shine upon the other half of the Earth. Tonight Sesshomaru would have his revenge and slaughter the evil that treatened to comsume him. Tonight Inutaishou would die.
Gripping the knife that was hidden under his pillow, Sesshomaru slid out of bed with the elegance of a cat. He concealed the knife in the front of his hori so the guards wouldn't see it. He opened his bedroom door and to his surprise Inuyasha was standing there with an out stretch hand as if he was about to open the door to his brothers room.
Sesshomaru blinked down at the twelve year old hanyou with surprise. As of late Inuyasha has been sneaking into Sesshomaru's room to sleep. Often Sesshomaru would wake to find his younger brother sleeping on the floor beside his bed.
Sesshomaru gave Inuyasha a questioning look.
"I-i-i wanted to sleep in your room onii-chan" Inuyasha said with a light blush on his cheeks. Sesshomaru noticed the hopeful note in his brothers voice but tonight wasn't the night to give into his little yasha.
For the first time ever, Sesshomaru shock his head no, with a sorry look in his eyes.
Inuyasha face fell, "Hai, sesshy" Inuyasha replied as he walked back to his room dejectedly.
Sesshomaru watched as Inuaysha disappeared around the end corner of the hallway before taking his own leave. Like the night wind and the ever silent moon Sesshomaru weaved him self in and out of the hallways of the castle. He avoided the guards like a masterful nijia. At last Sesshomaru arrived to his destination. In front of him was a red oak door that had the master Inu-youkai crest on it....he had arrived at the doors of his 'father's' bedroom.
Sesshomaru's breath hitched in his throat as he slowly slid the door ajar. His eyes paired into the darkened room, looking for the cause of his hatrid. Then he heard it, the voice sent chills down his spine. It was a voice he heard in all of his nightmares.....it was 'his voice'.
"Enter Sesshomaru, I've been waiting for you" Inutaishou said in a blank voice.
(End chapter)
(HAHAHAHA wouldn't you kill me if I was telling the truth!!! Read on there is more I was just playing )
Not wanting to show fear Sesshomaru found his resolve and walked into Inutaishou's darkened bedroom. As soon as Sesshomaru past the threshold the fire place lit to life, the flames licked at the fire wood, crackling with vengeneance. The light casted a forbidding shadow over Inutaishou. His chest was bare showing his rippling abs. He was clad only in baggy black silk pants tied with a shash. His golden eyes were tinged with a misty blue, his silver blue tinted hair fanded his face and chest, trialing down to his knees. His face was a creamy white with five red jagged marks on his cheeks. His chest was covered in red swiled like markings, and his elf pointed ears tiped with red. His appeareance might have been that of an angel but Inutaishou was far from it. His eyes were glazed with sinister intent that would make the bravest of youkai and man a like trumble.
Sesshomaru study Inutaishou. He stood proud in front of his bed with his arms crossed infront of him. His gaze seemed to melt Sesshomaru's skin. Then in a blink of an eye, Inutaishou was in front of Sesshomaru with his hands fisted in his hair.
Sesshomaru looked up at the man who he came to kill, he stood at a good 6'5 towering over Sesshomaru's 5'11 frame.
(A/N What can I say Sesshomaru is still growing)
"Ah, my beautiful Sesshomaru, have you finally come to me with out force. Do you crave my touch that much" Inutaishou proclaimed.
Sesshomaru took a deep breath, this was what he was waiting for. He need an excuse to catch his father off guard, Sesshomaru knew he had to play a long for a while. Sesshomaru slowly nodded his head the best he could while his father's hands were fisted in his hair. At his responce Inutaishou purred with delight.
"Then prove it with a kiss" Inutaishou said while looking at Sesshaomru's lips lustfully.
Inutaishou's eye-lids fluttered closed waiting for what he asked for.
In one fluent motion Sesshomaru pulled the concealed knife from the front of his hori and pluged it into the chest of his father. Inutaishou's eyes snapped open and a scream left his lips as he hit Sesshomaru in the chest knocking him to the other side of the room. Inutaishou howled in pain as he ripped the knife out. Blood freely from the open wound, seeping into the pelt like rung. His hands clutched at his chest in bewilderment and anger. He vowed then and there to kill Sesshomaru, after all his older son was all used up and he grew board with him. Why stick with old trash when he had sired another son?
Sesshomaru staggered to his feet as blood dripped from the left corner of his mouth. Atleast five ribs were broken from his father's one punch. From all the noise in the room Sakura came running in through the joining door that connected her room to her mate's room. Her eyes widened at what she saw. Inutaishou was making his way to Sesshomaru while clutching his bleeding chest , with his claws extended, ready to deal the final blow to her step son.
"You will pay for that boy, and after your dead I'll have some fun with Inuyasha" Inutaishou slured from the blood loss.
With out thinking about her actions Sakura ran like the wind was lifting her up and intercepted the blow ment for Sesshomaru. Inutaishou's claws ripped through Sakura's back causing her to cry out in pain. She fell to the floor in slow motion, her life force leaking from her. Her skin burning from the poison. Sesshomaru's eyes widened in horror.
'NO' Sesshomaru screamed in his head.
That was all he needed. Sesshomaru moved like the whispering wind and before his father could blink he was behind him with claws out. He plunged his clawed fist into Inutaishou's back ripping out his still beating heart. Inutaishou's let out his last breath as his body fell to the ground with a 'thud'.
Seshomaru didn't feel anything at seeing Inutaishou lay dead on the floor. He didn't feel joy or satisfaction, he felt nothing.
A small gasp of pain drew his attention to Sakura's form on the floor. He raced over to her kneeling down. For the first time Sakura could see worry and a little bit of something else in the eyes of the boy kneeling before her.
"I-i-i-i'm sorry Sesshomaru, I was to weak all this time to help you, I allowed you to suffer and for that I am deeply sorry." Sakura bit out as pain shot through her little body.
Sesshomaru shock his head no, as if saying to be still so he could help her.
"No, Sesshomaru I'm dieing and I want to say what I need to before it's to late. Please take care of Inuyasha. He thinks the world of you and I know deep down you both love each other. He's fragile Sesshomaru, even though he goes around with a child like innocence, I know his lonely inside.....she paused then continued.......P-p-please believe me when I say I truely love both of you........your my son too Sesshomaru....always, you are in my heart......I love you my son...so...so....please end my suffering and send me on to the next world" Sakura rasped out
A lone tear slid down Sesshomaru's face. Sakura lifted her hand to brush it away then nodded her head an smiled fro him to continue. Sesshomaru stood up from his kneeling place to look down at his step-mother, the women that he now viewed as more then just a women but as a mother. He extended his claws and drew back his hand the least he could do was give sakura her last wish.......
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After Sesshomaru turned Inuyasha away Inuyasha walked back to his room dejectedly. However in his bed, in the pitch black room, he felt so alone. He couldn't seem to sleep as an uneasy feeling swept into his stomach. Not beeing able to take it Inuyasha slipt out of bed and walked out of his room.
"Sesshomaru should be a sleep by now" Inuyasha said with hope as he walked through the castle hallways with a pillow under one arm and a blanket fisted in his other hand.
Once he got to Sesshomaru's room he slid the door open with out a sound. Pairing in he was shocked to see Sesshomaru wasn't there. With a puzzled look on his face Inuaysha smelt the air to see which was his brother went. Following his nose it led him to a pair of red oak doors that were ajar. The smell of death and blood asulted the hanyous nose. Fear raced through his mind with worry for Sesshomaru. He dashed into the room however once again 'fate' decided to turn with events that would tear the two brothers a part.
Inuyasha froze as the sight played out in front of him. It was like every thing was in slow motion. Inutaishou laid dead on the floor with his heart ripped out and lieying next to him. Sesshomaru was standing over his bleeding mother with his claws raised and in one single motion, Sesshomaru's deadly claws went through his mothers chest piercing her heart and in an instant she died.
"No" Inuyasha screamed "What have you done, you monster" Inuyasha bellowed.
Sesshomaru's head snaped to where he heared Inuyasha's voice. But before he could stop Inuyasha, Inuyasha was running away.
Inuyasha ran out of the castle and into the woods. He ran from the sight he just witnessed. He ran from the pain that started to consume him. But most of all he ran from his brother.....the monster......Sesshomaru.
(End Chapter)
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IMPORTANT INFORMATION.
1) First every one should be aware that the first part of this chapter is done in neither charactors P.O.V. But when you see ~~~~~~ that means I'll get into whats happening now. You'll understand once you read.
2) Second I answered all reviews from chapter 3 and made comments to others who just dropped in to say hi, I also gave my thanks to each and every person who wrote a review for chapter 3. If you sent a review please look at the bottom of the page when you finished this chapter.
3) Third I need a beta reader. Some have offered to be my beta reader. If you send a review asking, then I will send you information through e-mail asking you some questions, so we can set up some kind of way to get the chapters back and forth and posted.
4) When the story picks up with P.O.V Sesshomaru is 16 and Inuyasha is 10. and yes I changed the age gap between them.
Thank you for reading.......Hey you there!!!!!!!!!!!!........Yeah you!!!!!!!.............(points to the person skipping the important info)........ Get your ass back up there and read this you little cheat!!!!!!!!
ok onto the next chapter
Sin's of the Father
Chapter 4
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The years passed by like the sand in an hour glass. Time seemed to drift by with horrible secrets and memorible moments, moments filled with heart ache and others with some small light of happiness. I wish I could say that all was well through the passing years at Inutaishou's castle but it would only be a lie. I wish I could say Sesshomaru didn't expearence any more abuse, however that also would be a lie. Most of all I wish I could say Sesshomaru and Inuyasha lived happily ever after, away from their father and that all their troubles were far behind them.....but if truth be told......they were just beginning.
Through the years one thing did happen and that was Sesshomaru and Inuyasha developed a silent, unspoken bond. Sesshomaru never talked and Inuyasha always pushed him to do so. After their fist training that took place a few years ago, they found them selves into a every day patteren. I guess you could say life settled into a shrewed time table. Just when Sesshomaru found him self opening up to his little brother his father would sweep into his room in the middle of the night, dragging him kicking and scream to the black oak doors. But that's a part of history I'll save towards the end.
Every morning over the years, Sesshomaru and Inuyasha woke before the rest of the castle to start their vigorous training. Both brothers became strong and fought with speed and agility. Their hair alway seemed to play with the wind as they sailed through the air attacking and moving with flawless attacks. Sesshomaru was nothing but a white blur to the human eye on the battle field. Over time Sesshomaru developed a sence of style which consisted of nothing but white and MAYBE a touch of red on the cloth. Sesshomaru would never admit that he only tainted his white clothing with the color red because it was his little brothers favorite color. But then again he never spoke.
Once Inuyasha asked Sesshomaru, 'Why do you like the color white so much?'
Of course Sesshomaru didn't answer his brother and in a way Inuyasha wasn't really expecting an answer. However, the simple question got Sesshomaru thinking, well he always thought, what else was a person to do when they commited themself to silence? Later in years Sesshomaru realized he loved the color white so much because it was the color of purity, a color that represented everything he felt he could never be. He felt dirty and unclean even used. He felt like the worlds whore, it chewed him up and spat him out, leaving a taste of humility.
Sesshomaru's soul continued to brake down and desolve over the years at the hands of his so called 'father'. A mental break down usually happens to those who can't find an outlet, someone to ease the pain and share the burden. When the world feels like it's on your shoulders, you and the world are bound to come crashing down. With Sesshomaru it was only a matter of time. But as fate would have it, time was running out for the son's of Inutaishou.
After training in the morning the brothers split up and went their own way. Inuyasha usually found himself in the kitchen, the way to his heart was always through his belly. The cheif's always had to hide the deserts from the white haired boy. Quite a few times over the years Inuyasha had managed to eat all the deserts, that were preparied in the morning for dinner, but ended up his breakfast. So needless to say they were always ready for the youth to try out another master plan to get his hand on cakes and other desirable dishes. Some times Inuyasha got his way and other times things didn't work out as planned.
Sesshomaru always sat out in the flowered covered garden, doing what he always did.....think. His thoughts always seem to relapse back to the same thing. Self loathing which lead to hatrid of his father.
Then his thoughts went to Sakura the step mother that didn't give a damn, this always led to him hateing the whole castle because no one would dare stand up to the master of the castle even though every one knew about Sesshomaru's horrible secret. The feeling of hate soon melted to regrate at the memory of his late dead mother. She died at war in battle, like the true worrior she was. He knew he should have been proud that his mother died a worriors death, however he didn't feel that way. He resented her for not thinking of him and putting her pride to the side to stay with him when the great battle of the West and South broke out.
Around this time Sesshomaru's thoughts were alway interupted with the face of Inuyasha. His little white haired angel, his anchor to sanity. He had mixed feelings about his little half brother. On one hand he wanted to let his brother into his little self protected barrior and allow him to ease the pain around his heart. To allow the little hanyou to draw his soul out of the gutter so he himself could hear his own voice again. Oh, how Sesshomaru wished he could let down his barrior to speak to his little white haired angel. To answer his questions and tell him he was happy to have him near.
On the other hand Sesshomaru, in some small way, hated Inuyasha. He hated that the little hanyou wasn't strong enough to help him. He hated the fact that Inuyasha wasn't even aware of what was going on. But most of all he hated how he couldn't really hate his brother or blame him. He was like an innocent butterfly just released from it's cocoon, to look upon the world in a new light. He ran in the fields without fear. He had a mother who cuddled him when he needed to be cuddled, and he never really seen his father, he was always given an excuse, like his father was away on buiness or was to busy to see him. Oddly this never bothered Inuyasha, he never felt a conection with the man called Inutaishou.
In the late evening Sesshomaru always visted the library to read. He lost himself in books trying not to pay attention to the fact that the sun was setting and he might find a monster standing at the foot of his bed waiting to take him behind the black oak doors. As Sesshomaru's training increased, he was able to fight his father away and save him self for at least another night. His father didn't come every night, thankfully. He came at least once every two weeks. Sometimes Sesshomaru was able to fight him off but other times he was dragged kicking and screaming behind those ominous black oak doors that had a white Inu dog carved onto in with red eyes that seem to melt Sesshomaru's skin off.
Inuyasha always headed to the library around late evening. He knew the library was like a sanctuary to his brother, from what he couldn't say. Inuyasha alway thought Sesshomaru closed himself off from the world because he lost his mother in a war. Inuyasha never met the Inu women personally but he seen portraits of her in the gallery room off the west wing of the castle. She was a beautiful youkai but looked with-drawn from the world due to all the battles she fought in. Though Inuyasha was considered a baka, he did have some intelligence hidden away and only used when he was serious.
Most of the time Inuyasha was a carefree boy whos only problem was the snikering and the glaring from youkai and human a like. Yes, he had to deal with world and peopls' obtuse ideals of hanyou's and how they didn't belong. He felt singeled out by youkai and humans', not belonging fully to either race. His only comfort was his mother and secretly his brother too. Inuyasha hid his feelings behind a mask of child ignorance. Inuyasha felt that if he acted like he didn't notice the world around him he couldn't be hurt and people wouldn't bother to point out something he wouldn't understand. However, Inuyasha knew. He knew all to well what people thought of him. So he ran around in the fields and stole pastries from the cheifs and tried to put all serious matters out of his mind.
Inuyasha was content to just stay in this game of hide and seak with reality, with just his mother and Sesshomaru as his barrior. However it would seem fate had other plans....
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(Sesshomaru's p.o.v)
I could hear Inuyasha sneaking down the hall way towards the library. Every day he tries to catch me off guard while I'm surrounded by my books and reading intently. I must say he has improved, maybe it's due to our day-to-day training, what ever the case maybe he was getting closer to being able to pin me down. I listend to him glid up to the door and slid it open slowly. I could hear him lower him self to the ground behind me untill he was lieing on his stomach and slithering like a snake through the books I left on the floor after reading them.
Like a cat, Inuyasha pounced however I was ready for him. I caught him in mid air and slamed him on the floor, pining him down by stradling his hips.
I grinded down at the struggling hanyou. It was so cute to see him angry. He was the only one that could at least break my stone like mask I was trying to prefect.
"Get off my onii-san!" Inuyasha yelled at me in fustration.
I shook my head, I was not going to budge one ounce.
Suddenly Inuyasha stopped stuggling and smiled up at me. I was confused, 'what is he thinking?'
My mentally asked question was answered when Inuyasha shot up and kissed me on the cheek. It happened so fast I didn't even have time to react. Suddenly I found my self pinned to the floor by my little yasha. My face was tinted pink and my eyes wide as I looked up at Inuyasha. 'How could this have happen? I didn't see this coming.'
"Now whos pinned Sesshy?" Inuyasha said to me with a huge smile on his face.
I quickly recovered and flipped the little arugent hanyou off, once again finding my self on top. I glared down at my younger brother to show that I was clearly the strounger. After years of so called 'hanging out' with my yasha he learned to read my moves as if I was talking out loud.
Inuyasha gave out a sigh, "Ok you win Sesshy but tomorrow I'll win for sure."
That was all I needed to hear and got off Inuyasha to sit back down on my feathered pillow. I picked up my book and started to read where I left off. However it's impossible to read when a pair of golden eyes staring at you. I look up and sure enough Inuyasha was sitting on a fluffy seating pillow looking at me expectenly. I sighed, I know what he wants but sadly even though I want to give it to him I can't. I don't even know if I can still.
"Please onii-chan, say my name?" Inuyasha asked with brights eyes, hopeing that today was the day he could hear my voice. I longed to say his name but truth be told I was.....afriad. If I felt like my soul would brake if I tried to speak. It felt like I would lose my self in eternal darkness. To talk would be my breaking point and my down fall, so as always I shake my head 'No'
Inuyasha's smile fades away when I give him the answer he dreads. Like always his eyes water up his bottom lip queivers and he brakes my heart when he says, "Why?"
The tears start to flow down Inuyasha's face, his face turned up in anguish and then he continues to say, "Why won't you talk to me? Don't you like me Onii-chan? It's not normal not to know what your brothers voice sounds like, so......Please?"
I turn my head away. I am no longer able to shead tears on the out side but I do on the inside. If I was to be cut open I could swear an ocean of tears would come rushing out. I can't afford to cry on the out side because I know it would break down my strong hold.
"P-p-please Onii-san?" Inuyasha continues.
....... I couldn't answer him. I hated my self for the weakness and fear that forms a block in my throat, preventing me from speaking.
"P-p-please Onii-chan, I n-n-need to hear it!" Inuyasha pleads.
I felt a hand on my cheek as Inuyasha guides my face to look at him. Our eyes meet and lock, my lungs constrict at seeing the emotion that played on Inuyasha's face. I knew I had to try, even though it would be a failing attempt.
"Please" Inuyasha whispered, his warm inviting breath felt like a feather upon my lips. For him I would try, even if it killed me.
I opened my mouth parting my lips. I start to breath in and out of my mouth and wetting my lips. Inuyasha nods his head as if to say,' continue, I'm here for you.'
I try to force out Inuyasha's name, god how I tried but the sound wouldn't pass my lips. The time seem to click to slowly, my nerves were on end. The hair on the back of my neck started to rise in fear. But still I pressed on trying to do as Inuyasha asked.
"Sesshy maybe you should try something easier like Inu" Inuyasha said coaxing my on, helping any way he could. His face dance with excitment at what was to come.
Sadly I couldn't give him what he wanted. I tried one more time to steady my racing heart and sound out Inuyasha's name but nothing left pass my lips except a gush of wind. I shouck my head trying to tell Inuyasha I couldn't do it. The younger boy paled at my answer.
"Your not even trying hard enough!" Inuyasha accused me with tears in his eyes.
once again I failed him...
"D-d-don't you...onii-chan look at me" Inuyasha demanded. Not being able to deny him anything I look into his eyes.
"Sesshy....d-d-don't you......love me anymore?" Inuyasha asked while a stray tear slid down his cheek.
My heat constricted, how wish I could have shouted that I loved him. He was every thing a boy could want in a brother, and some where in the back of my mind I loved Inuyasha more than that. How couldn't I? He was the only one who ever loved me back for who I am and what I was......blamished.... but Inuyasha never saw me as such. And for that.....he would alway have my heart.
To answer his question I nodded my head.
"Than say it.....say you love me and your happy I'm your brother....please....I need to hear it" Inuyasha said while rubbing the tears out of his eyes and looking back at me with red rimed eyes.
I had to look away. I couldn't say what he wanted to hear even though my heart ached to do so.
"Fine!" Inuyasha shouted then bolted out of the room.
I wanted to scream for him to stay. I wanted to scream that I need him and I was afraid. I wanted to scream to him that I was afriad to be alone in the dark.....
But most of all I wanted to scream to him that I love him.
( End Sesshomaru's p.o.v )
And so time passed by much the same. In the mornings Inuyasha and Sesshomaru trained togather and spent time togather and at night Sesshomaru was left alone to deal with his father. Some times during Inuyasha and Sesshomaru's training, Inuyasha would notice cuts and bruises on Sesshomaru's creamy skin and question him. Sesshomaru would just shake the question off and continue the trianing. All stayed the same untill the night of Sesshomaru's 18th birthday. The night he pledged to get revenge for the 18 years of abuse and pain. Tonight was the night fate would strip the two brothers apart with the death of the monster and.........of someone else....
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Sesshomaru laid awake in his bed untill the sun dipped behind the mountians to shine upon the other half of the Earth. Tonight Sesshomaru would have his revenge and slaughter the evil that treatened to comsume him. Tonight Inutaishou would die.
Gripping the knife that was hidden under his pillow, Sesshomaru slid out of bed with the elegance of a cat. He concealed the knife in the front of his hori so the guards wouldn't see it. He opened his bedroom door and to his surprise Inuyasha was standing there with an out stretch hand as if he was about to open the door to his brothers room.
Sesshomaru blinked down at the twelve year old hanyou with surprise. As of late Inuyasha has been sneaking into Sesshomaru's room to sleep. Often Sesshomaru would wake to find his younger brother sleeping on the floor beside his bed.
Sesshomaru gave Inuyasha a questioning look.
"I-i-i wanted to sleep in your room onii-chan" Inuyasha said with a light blush on his cheeks. Sesshomaru noticed the hopeful note in his brothers voice but tonight wasn't the night to give into his little yasha.
For the first time ever, Sesshomaru shock his head no, with a sorry look in his eyes.
Inuyasha face fell, "Hai, sesshy" Inuyasha replied as he walked back to his room dejectedly.
Sesshomaru watched as Inuaysha disappeared around the end corner of the hallway before taking his own leave. Like the night wind and the ever silent moon Sesshomaru weaved him self in and out of the hallways of the castle. He avoided the guards like a masterful nijia. At last Sesshomaru arrived to his destination. In front of him was a red oak door that had the master Inu-youkai crest on it....he had arrived at the doors of his 'father's' bedroom.
Sesshomaru's breath hitched in his throat as he slowly slid the door ajar. His eyes paired into the darkened room, looking for the cause of his hatrid. Then he heard it, the voice sent chills down his spine. It was a voice he heard in all of his nightmares.....it was 'his voice'.
"Enter Sesshomaru, I've been waiting for you" Inutaishou said in a blank voice.
(End chapter)
(HAHAHAHA wouldn't you kill me if I was telling the truth!!! Read on there is more I was just playing )
Not wanting to show fear Sesshomaru found his resolve and walked into Inutaishou's darkened bedroom. As soon as Sesshomaru past the threshold the fire place lit to life, the flames licked at the fire wood, crackling with vengeneance. The light casted a forbidding shadow over Inutaishou. His chest was bare showing his rippling abs. He was clad only in baggy black silk pants tied with a shash. His golden eyes were tinged with a misty blue, his silver blue tinted hair fanded his face and chest, trialing down to his knees. His face was a creamy white with five red jagged marks on his cheeks. His chest was covered in red swiled like markings, and his elf pointed ears tiped with red. His appeareance might have been that of an angel but Inutaishou was far from it. His eyes were glazed with sinister intent that would make the bravest of youkai and man a like trumble.
Sesshomaru study Inutaishou. He stood proud in front of his bed with his arms crossed infront of him. His gaze seemed to melt Sesshomaru's skin. Then in a blink of an eye, Inutaishou was in front of Sesshomaru with his hands fisted in his hair.
Sesshomaru looked up at the man who he came to kill, he stood at a good 6'5 towering over Sesshomaru's 5'11 frame.
(A/N What can I say Sesshomaru is still growing)
"Ah, my beautiful Sesshomaru, have you finally come to me with out force. Do you crave my touch that much" Inutaishou proclaimed.
Sesshomaru took a deep breath, this was what he was waiting for. He need an excuse to catch his father off guard, Sesshomaru knew he had to play a long for a while. Sesshomaru slowly nodded his head the best he could while his father's hands were fisted in his hair. At his responce Inutaishou purred with delight.
"Then prove it with a kiss" Inutaishou said while looking at Sesshaomru's lips lustfully.
Inutaishou's eye-lids fluttered closed waiting for what he asked for.
In one fluent motion Sesshomaru pulled the concealed knife from the front of his hori and pluged it into the chest of his father. Inutaishou's eyes snapped open and a scream left his lips as he hit Sesshomaru in the chest knocking him to the other side of the room. Inutaishou howled in pain as he ripped the knife out. Blood freely from the open wound, seeping into the pelt like rung. His hands clutched at his chest in bewilderment and anger. He vowed then and there to kill Sesshomaru, after all his older son was all used up and he grew board with him. Why stick with old trash when he had sired another son?
Sesshomaru staggered to his feet as blood dripped from the left corner of his mouth. Atleast five ribs were broken from his father's one punch. From all the noise in the room Sakura came running in through the joining door that connected her room to her mate's room. Her eyes widened at what she saw. Inutaishou was making his way to Sesshomaru while clutching his bleeding chest , with his claws extended, ready to deal the final blow to her step son.
"You will pay for that boy, and after your dead I'll have some fun with Inuyasha" Inutaishou slured from the blood loss.
With out thinking about her actions Sakura ran like the wind was lifting her up and intercepted the blow ment for Sesshomaru. Inutaishou's claws ripped through Sakura's back causing her to cry out in pain. She fell to the floor in slow motion, her life force leaking from her. Her skin burning from the poison. Sesshomaru's eyes widened in horror.
'NO' Sesshomaru screamed in his head.
That was all he needed. Sesshomaru moved like the whispering wind and before his father could blink he was behind him with claws out. He plunged his clawed fist into Inutaishou's back ripping out his still beating heart. Inutaishou's let out his last breath as his body fell to the ground with a 'thud'.
Seshomaru didn't feel anything at seeing Inutaishou lay dead on the floor. He didn't feel joy or satisfaction, he felt nothing.
A small gasp of pain drew his attention to Sakura's form on the floor. He raced over to her kneeling down. For the first time Sakura could see worry and a little bit of something else in the eyes of the boy kneeling before her.
"I-i-i-i'm sorry Sesshomaru, I was to weak all this time to help you, I allowed you to suffer and for that I am deeply sorry." Sakura bit out as pain shot through her little body.
Sesshomaru shock his head no, as if saying to be still so he could help her.
"No, Sesshomaru I'm dieing and I want to say what I need to before it's to late. Please take care of Inuyasha. He thinks the world of you and I know deep down you both love each other. He's fragile Sesshomaru, even though he goes around with a child like innocence, I know his lonely inside.....she paused then continued.......P-p-please believe me when I say I truely love both of you........your my son too Sesshomaru....always, you are in my heart......I love you my son...so...so....please end my suffering and send me on to the next world" Sakura rasped out
A lone tear slid down Sesshomaru's face. Sakura lifted her hand to brush it away then nodded her head an smiled fro him to continue. Sesshomaru stood up from his kneeling place to look down at his step-mother, the women that he now viewed as more then just a women but as a mother. He extended his claws and drew back his hand the least he could do was give sakura her last wish.......
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After Sesshomaru turned Inuyasha away Inuyasha walked back to his room dejectedly. However in his bed, in the pitch black room, he felt so alone. He couldn't seem to sleep as an uneasy feeling swept into his stomach. Not beeing able to take it Inuyasha slipt out of bed and walked out of his room.
"Sesshomaru should be a sleep by now" Inuyasha said with hope as he walked through the castle hallways with a pillow under one arm and a blanket fisted in his other hand.
Once he got to Sesshomaru's room he slid the door open with out a sound. Pairing in he was shocked to see Sesshomaru wasn't there. With a puzzled look on his face Inuaysha smelt the air to see which was his brother went. Following his nose it led him to a pair of red oak doors that were ajar. The smell of death and blood asulted the hanyous nose. Fear raced through his mind with worry for Sesshomaru. He dashed into the room however once again 'fate' decided to turn with events that would tear the two brothers a part.
Inuyasha froze as the sight played out in front of him. It was like every thing was in slow motion. Inutaishou laid dead on the floor with his heart ripped out and lieying next to him. Sesshomaru was standing over his bleeding mother with his claws raised and in one single motion, Sesshomaru's deadly claws went through his mothers chest piercing her heart and in an instant she died.
"No" Inuyasha screamed "What have you done, you monster" Inuyasha bellowed.
Sesshomaru's head snaped to where he heared Inuyasha's voice. But before he could stop Inuyasha, Inuyasha was running away.
Inuyasha ran out of the castle and into the woods. He ran from the sight he just witnessed. He ran from the pain that started to consume him. But most of all he ran from his brother.....the monster......Sesshomaru.
(End Chapter)
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