InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ sister ❯ so appropriate ( Chapter 10 )

Sister 9

 

 

 

Sorry. I was just able to write again. I've been feeling so inadequate this year I just couldn't do this story justice. I hate being halfassed so I didn't write a thing until now.

 

I closed the door softly behind. For once Kikyou is absent. I breathe a sigh of relief. I recalled hearing my mother say `only a guilty conscience has cause to fear'. How appropriate. For at this minute I fear for my soul. I walked down the steps tripping over my feet on the last step. The sky seemed dark and ominous. It wraps its velvet cloak of despair around my body. I stepped over a drunk sleeping in the street. There were very few people on the street tonight. Walking through the darkness got me thinking about a book I once read. It is said that a man is darkness and his woman is his light. Together balance is maintained, but neither is complete without the other. The light would blind without the darkness to temper it. The darkness would overwhelm without the light and balance would be non existent. Living everyday fighting the urge to bask in my light is something I have to live with. It has become more than I can handle.

 

But I'm already suffering because I won't be near her. I began shivering. I headed down the steps of the train station. I used a token to get on the last train to the Narita airport. At this rate I might stifle her growth. It is best for both of us if I leave. I look out the window at the flashing lights of the city. I picked my duffle bag off the floor and walked the short distance to the airport. I looked around the airport; I pull my hood over my head and slumped into a chair. My heart is distressed. I heard the intercom call my flight number. I joined the line, got my ticket and checked in my luggage. I followed the other passengers to the plane gate. Walking through the plane terminal I saw Mirouku and Sango waving wildly to get my attention. How did they know I was leaving today? I told no-one bout it. I walked over to see Mirouku nod his head, `You were really going to leave without telling us?' he asked. I nodded. My words got stuck in my throat. I couldn't look him in the eye. `I didn't want to upset you guys, plus I needed a clean break.' I could see Sango's confused stare but I knew Mirouku understood.

 

`Really man you are one selfish bastard,' said Mirouku with an exasperated sigh. `I needed to leave,' I said patiently. `I understand,' he said quietly. It's so irritating to hear people say they understand when you both know it's not true. A simple ok would have been fine because no one understands the pains I'm going through unless they were in the same situation. Even though I know he was just trying to help it didn't change the facts that he really didn't understand what I was going through. I was too on edge to curb my words. `Mirouku how could you understand, you don't know what I go through everyday. Do you know what it feels like to want something so bad but you can't have it? Or better yet to have it close by and not touch. It is like bringing a starving man food then telling him not to eat. Mirouku I'm in pain sometimes I can't even breathe I have to go.' I could see the stricken look on his face. It hurt me to have to see the look of pity on his face. `Don't you dare Mirouku, don't you dare pity me. I have made it this far with only one mistake I think I have done well don't you.' I can see comprehension dawn in his eyes at the mention of my singular mistake. `What's wrong Inu?' Sango asked worriedly. I kept my gaze focused on Mirouku. I watched the various emotions skitter across its surface. WORRY…DISGUST…SADNESS. I wondered if he knew what I had done as yet. I wonder if he could imagine how sweetly my sister shivered in my arms. How arousing her muffled scream of pleasure was. Or how desperately she gripped my dick in her tight little pussy. I bet he wouldn't know. But I won't tell him. As messed up as it is this is my most cherished memory.

 

Stealing my sister's innocence will always be my most precious memory. It was something to keep for those long lonely nights ahead. I turned away to join the line for boarding. I waved weakly over my shoulder as dived into the darkness of the tunnel leading me away from my light and thought once again `how appropriate.' I gained my seat and stuff my duffle in the overhead compartment. There was a lady sitting in the aisle I needed to cross her to sit. `Mam,' I said she didn't answer just kept staring at me. `Mam,' I called again still no answer. `Mam, Mam, Mam alright then Sir,' she looked around shocked.

 

`You weren't answering when I address you as a female then it stands to reason that you must be a male so you have no right to be outraged at this point in time.' I told her seeing that startled look on her face. `Mam I need to pass you to get to my seat.' I stood there patiently and waited for her to comply. She moved out of my way. Normally I wouldn't get angry in such a situation but let's face it this is hardly a normal situation. I sighed. I seem to be sighing a lot lately. That is not a good sign. Right at this moment I can't find one thing in my life to look forward to. There is nothing to make me happy. My future is looking dim. A matter of fact it is looking dark. And yet again think `How Appropriate.'